Beware of Virtuous Women (6 page)

It was only when he reached for the latch that he realized that there was a strip of soft light at the bottom of the door. Transferring his candle to his left hand, he eased his back against the door even as he held the latch, slowly depressed it, and pushed it open, turning with it so he was ready to confront whoever was in the room.

"Miss Becket," he said a moment later, battle-ready alertness replaced by anger. "What do you think you're doing down here?"

Eleanor looked at him levelly, even as her heart pounded so furiously inside her that the beat was actually painful. She held out the book in her hand. "I couldn't sleep, and decided there must be at least one sufficiently boring book in here that would help me."

He took the marble-backed volume from her hand and read,
"A Complete History So Far As It Is Known of That Celebrated English Thoroughbred
—you're interested in horses?"

Goodness, had she really picked that book? She lifted her chin slightly as she answered him. "No, not at all, which is the point of the exercise, is it not, when one is attempting to find something that is so stultify-ingly boring it is virtually guaranteed to put one to sleep? Now, if you'll excuse me?"

Or was the man unaware that she was clothed only in her night rail and dressing gown? And couldn't he do something about that expanse of bare chest visible beneath his dressing gown? All that golden hair. Was it soft to the touch? It had to be, just as his chest was undoubtedly quite hard. Thank the good Lord he still wore his pantaloons, because it would be only the good Lord himself who could know what she'd do if the man had been naked beneath that dressing gown. Fainting seemed probable.

As if he was able to hear her silent conversation with herself—hopefully not all of it—Jack tied his banyan more tightly over himself. "I would certainly excuse you, unless you'd wish to talk for a moment? I think we've settled in fairly well, don't you? You're happy with the servant staff?"

Perhaps she should stay, if just for a few minutes. Not act too eager to be out of his company, as if she'd been caught out at something, being somewhere she should not be, doing something she should not do. She'd simply ignore his chest. After all, she'd seen male chests before. Her brothers' chests, that is. Although Jack's chest seemed.. .different. Definitely more interesting.

Eleanor walked over to seat herself on a brown leather couch that was placed against one wall—she would have preferred it against the other wall, but this wasn't her house, was it? "Mrs. Hendersen seems a competent enough housekeeper, yes. Although I'd rather she didn't address me
as you poor dearie.
I'm not sure if that is a comment on my physical state or my choice of husband. Which do you suppose it is?"

Jack leaned against the front of the desk and smiled at her. "I'll speak to her about that."

"No. Don't be silly, Jack. We'll rub along well enough. And Treacle would appear to understand his part in the running of the household."

"Who?"

Eleanor could see that Jack wasn't exactly an attentive employer. Otherwise, the dust on the tables in her bedchamber would not have been so deep she could draw her finger through it. "Your butler, Jack. Treacle is your butler."

"I'm sorry. Cluny takes care of these things. I really don't pay attention."

"Cluny?" Eleanor frowned, unable to recall the name. "I don't believe I remember a Cluny when the servants were presented upon our arrival."

And she thought:
Cluny. An Irish name. There had been a Cluny Sullivan in Becket Village. Dead now, just an old man worn out.

Jack hadn't wanted to touch on Cluny's existence until the two of them had got their story straight as to who he was, who he would pretend he was as long as Eleanor was in residence. "He's my.. .my personal secretary. Good man, completely trustworthy." Jack stood up again. "Yes, a good man. Was there anything else you needed?"

Eleanor got to her feet and retrieved her book from the desktop. "Thank you, no. I hadn't needed anything when you came in here, and that hasn't changed."
Stick,
she told herself, trying not to wince.
Can't you say something
—
anything
—
that doesn't make you sound like a bloodless old maid?

"Um..." she said, holding the book close to her chest, "Cluny is an Irish name, is it not?"

"If it wasn't before, it is now that Cluny's got it," Jack told her, walking her toward the doorway. "We served together in the Peninsula."

"In the Peninsula," Eleanor repeated, longing to kick herself. He'd probably held more scintillating conversations with doorstops. "How...interesting. I hadn't realized you'd served."

"I doubt we know very much at all about each other, Miss Becket."

"Eleanor."

Jack nodded. "Elly. Right. I'll have to practice. You don't seem to have any trouble remembering to call me Jack, do you? Perhaps you're better at subterfuge than I am."

"I'm sure I wouldn't know," Eleanor said, holding herself so rigid that she was certain that, were she to bend over, she'd snap like a dry twig.

She most certainly wasn't going to tell him that when she dreamed of him, she dreamed of Jack. Never Mr. Eastwood. She might be a dull stick of an old maid, but her dreams at least had some merit.

And now she was standing here in her dressing gown, her hair hanging down her back in a long, thick braid. And the man hadn't so much as blinked. Didn't he care? Was she so unprepossessing a figure that this obvious breach of convention hadn't even occurred to him?

Jack, acting without thought (or else he'd have to think he was insane), reached out his hand and ran a finger down the side of Eleanor's cheek. "You're frightened, aren't you, little one? You put on a fine face of confidence, but you're frightened. You'd be skittish, even trembling, if that wouldn't make you angry with yourself. And, right now, you're caught between wanting to run from me, and longing to slap my face for my impertinence."

Eleanor backed up a single step, holding the book so tightly now that her knuckles showed white against her skin. "I'm certain I don't know what you mean, Mr. Eastwood."

"Jack." He smiled, beginning to feel more comfortable with the woman. Seeing her as more human. He should have realized that Eleanor, living with the Beckets, couldn't possibly be entirely the paragon of virtue she appeared.

"Yes. Jack. But I'm still sure I don't know what you mean. We know why we're here and what we're doing and..."

"Do we? I thought we did," Jack said, placing his hands on her shoulders. "But we're damn unconvincing at the moment if we're supposed to be newly married. Having my bride trying not to flinch, run from me, doesn't seem the way to convince anyone, does it? Unless we want to convince everyone that I'm some sort of brute, and I have to tell you, Elly, I'm vain enough not to wish that."

Enough was enough! "Has it occurred to you,
Jack,
that I am not dressed?"

He looked down at her, from the throat-high neckline of her modest white muslin dressing gown to the tips of her bare toes as they protruded from the hem. Bare toes? The woman was walking about barefoot? "Well, now that you mention it..."

"Oh, you're the most
annoying
man," Eleanor said, stooping down so that she could bow out from beneath his hands. "Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to bed."

Jack watched her leave the room, her limp noticeable, as if her left ankle simply didn't bend, yet a graceful woman for all of that. Perhaps she was more comfortable barefoot, without the constriction of hose and shoes.

Elly.
He'd have to remember to call her Elly, at least in public. And she would have to become used to being in his company. He'd work on that. Find a way to make her relax some of that reserve that was so at odds with the behavior of the rest of the Beckets.

Odd little thing. Pretty little thing.

Jack stepped behind his desk and sat down, opened the center drawer to take out the journal that among other information included a list of French names, the list of those he had used in the past and would not be able to use again—most definitely the two that had been murdered—and noticed that the wafer-thin silver marker he kept on the most recent page was no longer there.

It wasn't anywhere in the drawer. He pushed back his chair and looked down at the floor, then reached down, picked up the thin, hammered-silver piece and stared at it for long moments.

Had he dropped it over a week ago, before traveling to France? No. His mother had given him the marker, had even had it engraved with his initials, then told him he could use it to "mark the pages of your life, my darling." He was always very careful with the thing.

Cluny? Could Cluny have been snooping about in the desk drawers? There would be no reason for him to do so. Besides, if Cluny had been at the drawers they'd be a bloody mess, not perfect except for the misplaced marker.

"More comfortable barefoot, Miss Becket?" he then asked quietly as he looked up at the ceiling, to the bedchamber he knew to be directly above this room. "Or able to move about more stealthily barefoot?"

In that bedchamber, Eleanor now stood with her back against the closed door, trying to regulate her breathing and heart rate.

He'd nearly caught her. God, he'd nearly caught her.

And for what? She hadn't found much of anything, hadn't even known what to look for, when she came right down to it.

"I wasn't simply snooping," she told herself as she sat down at her dressing table, to see that her face was very pale and her eyes were very wide. "I was being careful."

But now she realized that the lilt she'd heard in Jack's voice for that one moment had probably come to him courtesy of association with his Irish friend. Nothing nefarious at all. What was the man's name again? Oh yes. Cluny.

Jack was allowed to have friends, of course. Gentlemen have friends. There was nothing strange in that.

But so many lives depended on secrecy, on being careful.

"I will
not
allow my heart to rule my head," Eleanor told her reflection.

That resolution made, Eleanor padded over to one of the windows and pushed back the heavy draperies to look out over the mews, as she believed the area was called, and at the few flambeaux and gas streetlamps she could see in the darkness.

At Becket Hall, there was only night beyond the windows once the sun had gone. Darkness, emptiness. The Marsh on three sides, the shingle beach and Channel on the last. Becket Hall was its own world.

Here, she was a very small part of very large city. One of untold thousands of people, thousands of buildings.

How did people live here? How did they exist? For what purpose had they all felt it necessary to jam themselves together cheek by jowl?

She let the drapery drop back into place and surveyed her chamber. It was a lovely thing, but so was her bedchamber at home. She hadn't traveled to anywhere better; she'd merely come to a different place.

Would she be accepted?

Her sister Morgan had seemed to believe that an introduction to Lady Beresford would open many doors, at least enough doors to help Jack insinuate himself further with Phelps and Eccles...and the Earl of Chelf-ham.

The earl and his young bride. Would the woman know anything, or was she a silly creature whose main concerns were balls and gowns and petty gossip? Would Eleanor like her? If she did, would it pain her conscience to then use the young woman for her own ends? And could she do it in such a way that Jack never suspected what she was doing, then asked why?

And she might not even get out into society at all, or so Jack had hinted. Because he hoped they would be quickly successful, so that he could have her back at Becket Hall as soon as possible? Was he that anxious to get her gone? Did he think her limp would be a detriment if he took her into society? Had he even noticed the limp? Lord knew he'd never noticed anything else about her in two long years....

Eleanor pressed a hand to her forehead, feeling the beginnings of the headache.

Everything had happened so quickly, perhaps too quickly.

And she was alone here. Very much alone here.

She came out of her reverie at the sound of a knock on the door. She looked at that door for a few moments, reminding herself that she couldn't see through the thing, so either she had to open the door or pretend she was already in bed and fast asleep.

Which was ridiculous, for the chamber was lit by at least a half-dozen candles. Unless she wanted the household to believe she'd be reckless enough as to go to sleep with them ablaze, and possibly burn down the house around their ears, she'd have to at least go to the door and ask who was there.

The knock came again, along with Jack's voice calling out her name. Well, now at least she knew who stood on the other side of the thick wood, didn't she?

What on earth did he want? Had he discovered that she'd been snooping in his desk? No. She'd been very careful. She'd looked in all the drawers, then through the papers in the wide center drawer. Then the personal accounts book he'd marked at the page that listed several French names...

He'd marked the book.
There'd been a thin silver marker. A pretty thing, with his initials pressed into it. She'd lifted it, held it, looked at it—his personal possession. What had she
done
with it?

Eleanor squeezed her eyes shut, trying to remember.

She'd opened the book. Taken out the marker. Looked at it. Laid it in her lap. Looked through the pages.

Heard footsteps.

Replaced the book.

Stood.

She hadn't replaced the marker.

She'd stood, and the small marker must have slipped to the carpet, unnoticed.

Had he noticed?

"Just a moment, please," she called out, bending to the dressing table mirror to assure herself she no longer looked so pale which, unfortunately, she still did. She pinched her cheeks hard enough to bring tears to her eyes, then pulled a face at herself before opening the door.

Just a crack.

"Yes? I was just about to retire."

Jack tipped his head to one side, looking down at the sliver of face that was all Eleanor seemed willing to show him. With any luck, she wasn't holding a pistol behind her back, cocked and ready to blow his head off if she was so inclined and who could know what all the Beckets were inclined to do?