Broken (6 page)

I'd stop you this time

all on my own

if I was certain of what you truly felt

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Misery

I don't want to disown

those who've always been there

so I shall remain loyal

and allow my heart

to spoil

misery I shall feel

for as long as I am on this earth

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Why did you have to talk to me?

Couldn't you just stay away?

Do you have to speak to all my friends?

What about those who hate me?

Why so close with them?

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The 'Tease'

My pupils grow

I giggle

I'm in Love

I'll go wherever you decide

take a seat

by your side

I'm interested

You look my way

You're coming closer

Smile

I frown

turn up my nose

But I'm still in love

You tell me I have beautiful eyes

I fold my arms

accuse you of lies

I won't accept false charms

But I’m still interested

You'll catch me looking

but I’ll just ignore your smile

The tease

I want to be yours

But won't

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Do I drive you insane?

Is that why you avoid my eyes?

Are you playing with me?

I know I am a pain

But don't you hear my cries?

I’m a stain

etched permanently on your heart

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You were so kind

I worshiped the very ground

of each step you took

Let’s rewind to the past

before the very sound of my voice

made you look down

in annoyance

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I want the past

how did things get this way?

You used to defend me

but that faded fast

and today

our friendship is empty

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I still remember being in love with you

Your eyes

Those lips

My body fit so perfectly nestled with yours

Like two puzzle pieces

Connected at last

We finished the picture and made it beautiful

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Now you're The One

I ran through the tall itchy grass
Heart racing, out of breath
Watched it part like the red sea
No people came through
Just you
I ran
tripped over a rock and fell to my knees
You hissing
“No, please!”
I just begged
Your evil laugh echoed in my head
You a black Cobra hovering above
Mouth full of venom and acid in your blood
“I hate you!” I screamed as your poisoned dripped
eyes closed at your lunge
but no bite did I feel
I look up
see you in the trapper’s grip
I look through the museum glass
Now you’re the one trapped

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I Made Him Mad

I made him mad
I wasn't thinking
I'm hiding in the woods-I hear the dogs-now guns-being shot-birds flying in the sky-I look up-my stomach-it's-been-hit
I made him mad
I wasn't thinking

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Told Me

you sat down and told me you loved me then took out your leather cowboy belt-told me you loved me-my legs are bleeding-told me to sit down but it hurts too much-to lean-lean against this chair-told me to grow up so I covered the scars with my cloths-

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no longer accepted

On some days it hurts
My heart is like a hollow cavity
Waiting to be filled
But after each examination
I’m turned away
The cavity is just too much work
That’s what I am
Each time I try
To open up my heart
I find everyone has run
I’m only fun
To tease-To hunt
But once they see that I want to stay
Suddenly
my insurance is no longer accepted

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Used To

I used to be able to write
Ideas flowed
Feelings poured onto paper like water
But now,
like us,
it’s a fight

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And There You Were

And there you were, like a disease
Growing rapidly
In my heart
Choking and squeezing
Every beat
I loved you so much
You liked me
I know you did
But I guess like the moon
You changed
Again and again
Always a different shape
You heart-is the moon
Mine the tide
Going along with what you decide

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You Say

you say you never raised me this way
never taught me to be so selfish
you say
but I don’t recall you raising me
and I don’t remember you ever teaching anything

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You Won't

my eyes burn
legs so weak
my stomach-it hurts
I can’t sleep
I can’t feel
I need to cry
But I can’t
I can’t
Throat is numb
Ankles shake
My heart it’s-
It’s bleeding
I need you
But you won’t save me
You won’t

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I can't play this part

you've given me

Sometimes I miss

you with all my heart

then remember it's the way it must be

all other roles

I can do

but like highway tolls

this one is due

it's real

so I cannot pretend

to not feel

cause in the end

my heart is what you'll steal

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so afraid of rejection

yet the only dream i truly have is you

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