Captured Love (5 page)

After a long time, I pulled back and took them in. Sophie was still my height, but thinner than she was four years ago. Her huge green eyes contrasted with the black eyeliner and mascara, and her straight blond hair hung to her shoulders. Rachel was still taller than I was, with fuller boobs and rounder hips. A real Spanish guitar. Her round brown eyes shone with curiosity, and a big mouth and full lips pulled into a big smile. Her long curly brown hair fell down her back.

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I blinked back happy tears. “Wow, I can’t believe you guys are here!”

“We can’t believe you are here!” Sophie said.

“And you didn’t tell us!” Rachel added.

“I’m sorry.” I held their hands. “I’m not sure what I was thinking. Maybe I thought you guys would have moved. I don’t know really. I’m sorry.”

Sophie winked. “You’re forgiven.”

“But just because you’ll be here for three months!” Rachel squealed.

“Where’s Faith?” I asked about our other friend.

“She moved to California before our senior year,” Sophie said. “We still talk to her online or through emails, but it’s not the same.”

I nodded, knowing all too well what distance could do to a friendship.

“Girls.” Mama, who had entered the house and we hadn’t even seen it, appeared 78/504

at the front door. “Come inside. I have tea and some other things.”

“Hmm, how I missed your mom’s ‘other things.’” Rachel did air quotes with her fingers, then hooked her arm through mine.

We walked into the house together, went into the kitchen together, took the cups and saucers and all we would need to the back porch table together, and sat down together.

Luna sprawled under the table at our feet.

It was so great being around them. It felt right, familiar. I had known them both, and Faith, since kindergarten, and we had been best friends since. Until I suddenly left town and stopped speaking to them.

I served the tea into their cups. “How did you guys find out I was back?” I asked.

Sophie fidgeted with her spoon. “We’re still friends with the guys. Jason and Luke told us.”

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Rachel gave me a wary look. “So, you’re over Ryan?”

I cringed at his name. I hadn’t said that name out loud in so long. “There was nothing to be over.” I picked up my spoon and stirred my tea, my movements brusque. “Can we not talk about the guys?” They exchanged another look. “What?”

“Nothing.”

Rachel

shrugged.

“You

asked not to talk about the guys, so then we won’t talk about them.”

I nodded. “Good. Now tell me what you two have been up to.”

Sophie told me she was studying economics at USC and working at her father’s insurance company, which was odd since I remembered her hating math and anything to do with it. And Rachel told me she studied jewelry at SCAD Savannah, whatever that meant. She came home almost every weekend though. At the end of each semester, she brought home the jewelry she designed in 80/504

class and sold the pieces to our friends and their mothers and whoever showed up.

“These are mine.” She gestured toward her necklace and her earrings. Small black stones accented by bronze details.

“This one too,” Sophie said, raising her hand and showing me her ring. A large flower made of pink stones.

Wow, she was talented. “They are gorgeous. Do you have more? I would like to see them.”

“Didn’t bring them over.” She pouted.

“But I’ll bring some another time. We have three months to catch up now.” I smiled, equally glad. “I know.” Perhaps this summer wouldn’t be a complete disaster after all.

After putting her cup down, Rachel rummaged through her purse.

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Rachel pulled something silver from insider her purse. “Ta-da! We have to take a picture of this moment.”

I grimaced at the camera she was holding. The teacup fell from my hand onto the table, spilling tea on the cookies.

“Rachel,” Sophie said, waving at the camera.

Rachel stared from me to the camera and back at me. Realization shone in her eyes. “Oh, gosh, sorry.” She put it away quickly. “So, so sorry.”

“You’ll have to have patience with us.” Sophie grabbed a few napkins and started working at the mess, while I just stared, completely out of it. “We didn’t think pictures would upset you.”

So much fuss because of a camera.
Get
a grip, damn it!
I couldn’t hide from pictures and cameras forever. Although, I wanted to.

“I don’t want to let pictures and cameras upset me, but I can’t help it. Not after …” I 82/504

swallowed hard through a big lump in my throat. There was no way I could finish that sentence. Taking a deep breath, I picked up a napkin and helped Sophie dry the tabletop.

At least my teacup had been almost empty.

“It’s okay.” I pursed my lips then forced the next words out. “I need to get past those details.”

“I thought you said you didn’t have anything to get over,” Rachel commented, her tone matter-of-fact.

“Rachel!” Sophie chided her.

“What?” Rachel shrugged. “It’s not like we don’t know what happened. If you want to get over it, then talk about it. I’m sure it’ll help.”

I leaned back in my chair. She was right. Talking would probably help. But I hadn’t talked about it for four years, not even to Kristin. “I’m not ready.”

Sophie rested her hand on mine. “It’s okay. We understand.”

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“We’re here when you’re ready,” Rachel added. Always so direct and fierce. She hadn’t changed one bit.

“Thanks,” I whispered.

We fell into a comfortable silence. It was good to be with them again. They had been my best friends, my pillars, my wake up call, my confidants, my everything for so many years. I could easily see the three of us hanging out together all the time during the summer.

“Your parents still have it,” Sophie said.

I turned to her and followed her gaze to the largest tree on the right side of the yard.

My tree house. “It looks like it.”

“We spent some great times there,” Rachel said.

“We did.” I sighed, remembering the slumber parties we had almost every weekend in that tree house. I reached for my fallen teacup.

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Sophie gestured toward it. “Do you think it could still hold us?” I served myself more tea. “What do you mean?”

A wicked smile took over Sophie’s face.

“If we could still go up there and stay up there.”

Rachel gasped. “You mean have a slumber party? Up there?”

“Yes,” Sophie answered.

Rachel clapped her hands. “That would be awesome!”

I almost spitted the tea I was drinking.

“You two are nuts. We haven’t done that since we were what, thirteen, fourteen?”

“We’re twenty now,” Sophie said, “but who cares? I think we would have so much fun. We could pretend everything was back to normal, like it was before. We could do each other’s nails while talking trash about the guys and planning our pranks on the bitches at our schools.”

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Curious, I turned to her. “What happened to the bitches anyway?” Rachel cocked her eyebrows at me. “Are you asking about a specific bitch?”

“Hell no.” I pressed my hands together.

“Tell me about all the others, but Caryn, please.”

Sophie wiggled her eyebrows at me. “All right, I’ll tell you about them during our slumber party.”

Rachel giggled, and I realized the decision was made for me.

Like three teenagers, we were going to have a slumber party in my tree house.

Chapter Five

Ryan

“How did you do this?” I asked, leaning over Jason’s street bike.

A little odd for a Saturday morning, he had brought his messed up bike over to my garage a few minutes after I emerged from my apartment to work on my cruiser bike.

Jason crouched beside me. “Racing last night. The guy closed up on me, and my bike skidded off. I was able to jump from under it before the weight really settled in, but my favorite leather jacket is currently in the trash.”

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and had a good time. Although, they tried to take me.

Once, they told me we were going to a pub in Columbia, so we all filed into Ethan’s Camaro. Instead of going to Columbia, they took me to one of the secret racing places around Lexington. I lost it. The car hadn’t even come to a full stop when I stepped out and marched away. The guys came after me, but I was out of it.

“You have to face it, Ryan,” Luke said, pulling my arm.

Now I know he meant well, but at the time, red was all I saw. Because of that, I buried my fist in his nose.

Luke fell back, totally surprised.

Jason faced me next, and shit, I almost hit him too. Ethan, who was larger than I was, finally held my arms behind my back.

That was when the red started fading. The anger gave way to sadness. Regret.

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I jerked Ethan off. “Let me go,” I warned, my voice rough, dark. “If you guys don’t want any more broken noses, don’t bring me here again.” I whirled on the heels of my boot and marched home. It took me forty minutes, but it was good. I needed to clear my mind.

“Ethan also lost, though he didn’t fall off his bike,” Jason said, pulling me back from my memories. “Luke won, as usual.”

“Of course he did.” My tone was tighter than I wanted it to.

Luke

was

a

semi-professional

racer—who also raced illegally for fun every now and then. He trained with Ethan’s uncle, John, who had been a great racer when he was younger. As expected, Luke was doing great. I could have been great too, and even though it wasn’t Luke’s fault I couldn’t race anymore, jealousy over his success always hit me like a bitch.

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Jason pointed to his bike. “So, what’s the verdict?”

The body was smashed, the left mirror was hanging loose, and the front headlight was broken. “If I can get the parts in by next Wednesday, I would need maybe one more week to fix it.”

“Dude, I came to you because I thought you would be faster.” Jason stood up and straightened his not-so-favorite leather jacket. “I can fix it on my own if it’s going to take that long.”

I stood beside him and readjusted my leather gloves. “Sorry, J-man, but I have work five or six days per week, and then curfew on weekdays. I can’t spend a lot of time on it.”

“My summer classes start next week, so I won’t have a lot of time either.” He tsked.

“That’s okay. I wanted to race next weekend, make some money, but that’s okay. There will be other races.”

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I nodded. There would be. For him, Luke, Ethan, and the entire town. Not for me though.

I reached over to the small fridge under the counter, grabbed two cans of Coke, and tossed one to Jason. It would have looked better if two big guys standing around bikes in a garage were drinking beer, but I tried to avoid alcohol as much as I could.

“Thanks,” he said, opening his can.

I took a good look at him. Ruffled blond hair, dark circles under his eyes, and crumpled clothes. “Did you just get into town from the bike event?”

“Yup. If I go home with that messed up bike, my mother might have a heart attack.”

“But there’s nothing I can do for it now, other than start taking it apart.”

“I know. I’ll drive home though, and then I’ll bring it back later. I’ll have Luke come with me to give me a ride.”

“Sounds good.”

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He took a sip of his Coke. “So. How are you?”

I took a big swallow of my drink. The cold liquid ran down my throat, giving me energy and time to think of a good answer. I knew where Jason was going with this. “The same as always.”

He raised an eyebrow. “Really?” I shrugged. “I’m okay.”

“Even with my sister back?”

I gritted my teeth. “So what, she’s back.”

“Have you already seen her?”

I nodded. “Yup. I was driving and she was running. The first time, I almost drove on the sidewalk.”

He lifted both eyebrows. “And that is being okay?”

“What? I was shocked. It was the first time I saw her in four years.” And she was even more beautiful than I remembered.

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How wouldn’t that mess with a guy’s head?

“I don’t think she saw me though.”

“So you’re okay with her being here?”

“Why wouldn’t I be?” I drank the rest of my Coke and threw the can in the trash. If only I could do that with my feelings. “She’s free to do whatever she wants. Hopefully, we won’t run into each other too much.”

“This town isn’t that big,” Jason said, his voice low.

Didn’t I know that? She had been here for five days, and I had already run into her.

How many more times would I suffer until the summer was over?

I opened one of my toolboxes, eager to find something else to busy my mind.

“Catch.” I threw a wrench at Jason. He closed his free hand around it before it hit him in the chest. “We can’t work on your bike yet, but we can work on mine.”

***

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Jessica

I punched the dough. It could have my frustration; it wouldn’t complain.

But Mama would. “The poor dough isn’t guilty, whatever the crime.”

I stepped away from the table before I got mad, and after destroying the bread’s dough instead of softening it, started breaking the plates and cups.

This morning, I had gone running with Luna again. It was good for my body and my mind. It was great to clear my thoughts.

However, this time, the technique didn’t work. Even while running, my mind turned to him.

Despite my will, I wondered where he was, what he was doing. On a Saturday morning? He was probably crawling out of some girl’s bed, racing to his car and driving away as fast as he could.

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I wondered if he still had the Mustang.

If that car could talk.