For Their Happiness (15 page)

“What if they do that to you?”  Someone asked.

“As you all know, my gift is more focused that that of even my dad’s.  Being a born Omega has given me some advantages and they know this.”

We all talked over anything anyone
could think of that might come up or go wrong and cam
e up with solutions as best as we
could for it.  I made my way over to Billy who was extremely distracted.

“How are they?”  I asked softly.

“I don’t know what to do.”  He said.  “Becca has not put Jasmine down
at all.  She won’t sleep, she barely eats…Nothing I have done has helped.”

I hated that my best friend was suffering.  I looked over to where Trent was standing, talking to Bolton and Zeke, and saw him watching me.

‘Go see her. Help her as much as you can.  Just make sure Billy stays with you.’
I heard Trent whisper in my head.

‘Thank you.  I love you and will meet you back in our room.’
  I told him and led Billy out of the meeting.

‘Sounds wonderful, baby,’
Trent said to me, making me shiver with the pictures going through his head. 
‘And I love you too.’

I looked behind us when I heard someone’s footsteps following ours, and saw Ryan a few yards behind us.  I stopped to let him catch up.

“I knew you wouldn’t be able to help yourself.”  I said to Ryan. 

“It’s not fair; what you’re doing.”  He said back to me, not sounding too happy.
  “Everyone who has sworn to protect you now has to watch you do this.  I told you that I would not leave you like that again, and now you are making me.”

“Ryan, I appreciate your sentiment, but you have to understand where I am coming from.”  I stopped and turned to him.  “It’s you and Billy and ones like you two; the reason I am doing this.  Imagine if we wait for the rogues to come here and y’all fight with battle ready ferals and rogues.  Jazzy and Eddie would stand a big chance of losing their parents.”  He was about to say something, but I cut in again.  “Imagine them coming and taki
ng Jazzy and Eddie, but not stop
ping with just covering them in blood
this time
, but doing something worse.  Could you live with that when there had been another, better option available?  Doing it this way, they will not see
us
coming.  They will be complacent and
think that there is no way the Moon
Beams can find me.  It
is
the best option, and if I get hurt in the process, I can deal with that.”  I heard Trent growl in my head when I said that.  I should have known he was still keeping tabs on me.  “They won’t kill me; as I said they want to use me.  I
can’t
and
won’t
be able to live with it if something happens to a child or any other member of this pack because of me.”

I turned and headed down the hall again, letting him process all of that.  I had to help my best friend and my angel before I left.

I knocked on the door even though Billy was beside me, just to see if Becca would answer, but of course she didn’t.  Billy opened up to let me go in before he entered, and the sight before me had tears welling in my eyes.

‘Are you okay?’
I heard Trent in my head.  He must have felt the anguish I felt at the fact that my best friend was going through all of this.

‘
I’m fine.  I’ll meet you in the room in a bit.’

I walked over to her as I would have any other day, trying to act if all was as it should be.  She was lying on her
side in
bed with Jazzy asleep in front of her, cradled in her arms.  Tears were silently streaming down her face as she just stroked her daughter’s hair.

“Alright angel,” I said
crooned to Jazzy
as I picked her up from her mother’s arms
, even though she was asleep
.
  I was saying it more for Becca.
  “Daddy’s gonna watch you for a while.”

Jazzy never woke as I passed her to Billy with a look telling him to take her somewhere
else for a while
.  Becca jumped up from the bed and was about to take her from Billy’s arms, but I grabbed her and hugged her around her middle and just whispered calmly in her ear.

“Come on Becca, you know Billy will never allow anyone to hurt her.  He’s just spending some time with her while me and you have some girl time together.  We haven’t had that in a while and I know you need it as much as I do.”

She turned in my arms and sobbed into my shoulder.  She was saying something but I couldn’t understand what.  I looked up and Billy’s eyes were glistening.  He wanted to comfort his mate, but nothing he had
said or
done so far had worked.

I just motioned with my eyes for him to go and he left, shutting the door softly behind him, Ryan peeking in from the hallway before he did to make sure I was alright.  I led Becca to the en suit so I could run her a bath.  Sitting her down on the closed toilet seat, I turned and ran the water very warm, bordering on hot to be able to relax her a little, and added some bath oils.

“Jazzy is alright, Becca.  Nothing happened to her, she didn’t get hurt.”  I reminded her softly, and then started helping her out of her clothes.  She had dark circles under her eyes and I could tell she was about to fall out as soon as I got her to let go of whatever baggage she was carrying around with her.

She just stared into space, in her own world as I helped her into the tub.  I gave her the sponge with her favorite Sweet Pea scented shower gel on it.
  She washed herself as if on autopilot.  Every movement was robotic.  I just changed the subject and spoke of random things, trying to get her to open up.  Through-out the bath, Becca slowly relaxed and actually began to respond to some of the things I was saying.

“Don’t you dare say I told you so…but you were right.”  I said to her as she was getting dressed and I was perched on the end of her bed, already having
the stuff to do her hair and nails ready for her
.

“I usually am, but what about this time?”  She answered, sounding more like her old self.

I looked down at my hands, not really knowing how to express everything I was feeling.  “About me telling Trent.”  I looked back at her with a smile on my face.  “I don’t know why I thought I was doing the right thing, but it was a big mistake.  We lost so much time, but he sure is making up for it now.”

She laughed and sat down at the vanity mirror so I could brush and style her hair.  “What about Nikki?”  She asked.  No one knew any of the details except for Me, Trent, and Nikki, who of course I spoke with.

“It’s not really my story to tell, but I can say they were never really together like that.”  I kept brushing her hair in long soothing strokes, but was spacing into my own Trent filled world.  “He waited for me, Becca.”

“What do you mean?  How could he wait for you?”

“Not me specifically, but he waited for his mate.  He was a virgin just like me, so
the last two days have been
so special
;
in a million more ways than
just
one.”

Becca turned to me and looked at my neck.  She shot out of her chair, grabbing me in a bear hug, and squealing.  “I’m so sorry I didn’t notice that you mated!!!  I’m so happy for you, Crystie.  Of anyone in this world, you deserve more happiness than you can get in one lifetime.”

“I have all of the happiness I’ll ever need right now, Becs.”  I told her, hugging her back.  “I have a mate that truly lov
es me for me and not just what
I am.  I have a best friend and other friends that love me too; I even have an angel here on earth to be able to spoil for life.  To me, life could get no better.”  I sat her back down in the chair and started with the flat iron to straighten her hair out.

“I know how it can get better for you.”  She said in a sing-song voice.

“How?”

“Having
babies with that mate that loves you so much.”
  She had a knowing grin on her face.

A huge grin spread across my face.  She saw it in the mirror and nodded at my realization.  I had lost all hope of ever having children, resigning myself to not being with my mate or anyone else.  I had faded so far from myself that it didn’t seem like a possibility, so I never allowed myself to think of it, but now…

“It’s my fault.”  I barely heard Becca’s confession; she had said it so softly.  I looked in the mirror to see her near tears again, so I put the flat iron down and went to squat in front of her, looking up into her face.  I knew what she was referring to.

“It is not your fault, Becca.  Nobody blames you.”

“I gave my baby to that woman.  I gave her to someone who had been killing off Omegas and running with both ferals and rogues.”  She hiccupped on a sob
.  “I almost lost my baby to a
monster
I
willingly
handed her over to.”

“Becs, look at me.”  I said calmly, but tears were welling in my eyes.  “If anyone besides Bethany is to be blamed then let it be me.  I am the one who never caught on that she was anything but normal.  Shoot Becca, I thought she was the best of that lot, and told
all of you
as much.  You trusted her because I had.  It’s my fault.”  Tears were streaming down my face by that point.  “I will make it up to you.  I can never take this experience away from your memory, but I can make damn sure it never happens again.”

Becca gasped when I cursed.  I never used curse words, but I was feeling…I was angry.  I didn’t think I had ever gotten angry before, but I was so angry at Bethany.  She had duped me, which was very hard to do to someone who can feel your emotions, and she had betrayed a trust I had put in her
for myself and my pack.

Harry at least showed his true colors, well his true colors slipped through sometimes, and it was enough to make me wary of him; but I had not picked up that feeling with Bethany once in all that time.

“I would never blame you Crys.  You, whether you know it or not, hold this pack together and help us be the family we are; that has made us the most powerful pack in the country.  Your heart and mind are so pure
.”

“Well if you’re not going to blame me, then there is no one to blame except the rogues.”  I told her in all seriousness.  “We will get them, and they will never do anything to anyone else again.”

We talked for a while and I told her of our plans of ambushing the rogues.  She didn’t like my part in it, but knew there was no changing my mind once it was
set on something
. 

I could tell she felt a lot better, and when Billy came back
in
with Jazzy a little while later, Becca grabbed Jazzy,
kissed her,
handed her to me, and jumped in Billy’s arms kissing him like there was no tomorrow for them.

“I’ll just take Jazzy with me.”  I said rather loudly and laughed when they didn’t even acknowledge me.

When I stepped out into the hallway, Ryan had Eddie up in his arms and was listening to all o
f his rambling about his day
so far.  The smile on his face, listening to his son, was so sweet and special.  Not many got to see that side of Ryan.

“Hey, Eddie!”  I said as I brushed his bushy locks from his forehead.

“Hi Miss Crystie!  I was just telling Dad how I found a moth in Lissa’s room and caught it to let it go.  It was sleeping, so it was easy.”  He said all excited.

“That’s wonderful, Eddie.  I bet Lissa was real thankful you did that for her.”

“Yep.  She shared her brownies with me and everything.”

I laughed at his enthusiasm and remembered back to when I was that small.  It was so nice not to have the weight of worry on your shoulders at that age that
you
would
get as you get closer to adulthood.

“How would you like for Daddy to spend
the rest of
the day with you today?  Just you and him?”

Eddie looked up at his dad with a hopeful expression on his face.  “Can we Dad?”

Ryan looked at me with concern on his face, not sure he should leave me.

“Go, Ryan, spend the day with him.  You know what’s about to happen, so today needs to be spent with loved ones, and you’ve just gotten home to him.  I know he has missed you.”

Ryan smiled and nodded, heading off in the direction of their suite rooms
to play with his son
.

I was on my way down to eat some lunch and spend some time with both my mate and Jazzy when Nikki stopped me in the second floor hallway.

“Can I speak with you for a minute?”  She asked.  I could feel her nervousness in something.  That wasn’t like her; she was always so confident.

“Sure, let’s go to your room.”