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Table Of Contents

 

Part One: Regeneration

 

Chapter One

 

Chapter Two

 

Chapter Three

 

Chapter Four

 

Chapter Five

 

Chapter Six

 

Chapter Seven

 

Part Two: Infinity

 

Chapter Eight

 

Chapter Nine

 

Chapter Ten

 

Chapter Eleven

 

Chapter Twelve

 

Chapter Thirteen

 

Chapter Fourteen

 

Part Three: Evolution

 

Chapter Fifteen

 

Chapter Sixteen

 

Chapter Seventeen

 

Chapter Eighteen

 

Chapter Nineteen

 

Chapter Twenty

 

Chapter Twenty-One

 

Epilogue

 

 

Praise for Jack Skillingstead and for
Harbinger

 

 

“Jack Skillingstead takes the reader on an acid-induced trip through a place where the many-worlds theory and quantum entanglement collide with new age mysticism at the far edge of the world.”

—Brenda Cooper, author of
Reading the Wind

 

“Jack Skillingstead is fearless. No one in SF writes about death, sex, loneliness, and love with such searing honesty. In
Harbinger
he does something astonishing: In a story that spans hundreds of years, multiple planets, and shifting realities, he somehow renders an intensely personal portrait of one man struggling to understand himself. The effect is like reading classic Vonnegut or Dick, but with an emotional punch that is uniquely Skillingstead.”

—Daryl Gregory, author of
Pandemonium

 

“Jack Skillingstead’s fiction always delights and surprises.”

—Kristine Kathryn Rusch, author of
The Disappeared

 

“Jack Skillingstead plays with big ideas, Olaf Stapledon big, but he plays with them on a personal scale.
Harbinger
is like reading the life of a huge oak by taking one, thin slice out of the middle, but the whole tree is there. This is a book that blew me away.”

—James Van Pelt, author of
Summer of the Apocalypse

 

“Jack Skillingstead shines a floodlight into the writhing hollows of the human condition.”

—Ted Kosmatka

 

“What Hemingway did for bull-fighting, Skillingstead is doing for SF tropes. He makes them truer than they have been by showing that they were false.
Harbinger
makes SF “conceits” like immortality and the search for self authentic and painful — tools of trauma and rarefied beauty. Skillingstead’s protagonists, Ellis Herrick perhaps more than any other, seem to spend most of their lives in the tercio de muerte of a corrida, entering the ring of their experiences alone save for a muleta of disarming, almost lunatic charm and a sword of honesty that cuts inwards as often as it swings out. Skillingstead is the matador of our field.”


New York Review of Science Fiction

 

“When Jack Skillingstead turns to the novel in
Harbinger
, he mingles elements of the genres we tend to call SF and mainstream so fluently it’s clear they’re all parts of a single language: one that subverts cliche and probes under the surface to find both humanity and “singularity” in everything from family traumas to a far future of artificial reality and long-distance space travel. . . .In
Harbinger
, Skillingsstead takes his reluctantly remarkable protagonist from Earth to space, from awkward youth in the past to survival in a post-human yet unidealized future, until the entire concept of time becomes meaningless. Could everything
be
simultaneous? Once we have lived long enough with Ellis Herrick, even that freaky concept starts to make sense.”


Locus

 

 

 

 

Also by Jack Skillingstead

 

 

Are You There and Other Stories

 

 

harbinger

A Fairwood Press Book

September 2009

Copyright © 2009 by Jack Skillingstead

 

 

All Rights Reserved

 

 

No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the publisher.

 

 

Fairwood Press

21528 104th Street Court East

Bonney Lake, WA 98391

www.fairwoodpress.com

 

Cover and book design by Patrick Swenson

 

 

ISBN: 0-9820730-3-8

ISBN13: 978-0-9820730-3-2

First Fairwood Press Edition: September 2009

Second Edition: April 2010

Printed in the United States of America

 

 

For Nancy

Everything is Simultaneous

 

part one:

regeneration

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“The process of evolution can only be described as

the gradual insertion of more and more freedom into matter . . . ”

 

—T.E. Hulme

chapter one

 

 

A soap bubble the size of a Volkswagen Beetle drifted over my bedroom
. I opened my eyes in the dark. Strange how I knew it was there. But I was a strange boy back in 1974, the year I graduated from high school.

Jeepers, my Border Collie, was standing erect at the foot of my bed. And he wasn’t the only erect thing. My body tingled, my skin was coated with sweat. An intense, longing arousal possessed me. I stripped off my pajama top (canary yellow with red piping; don’t ask). My heart thudded alarmingly.

I was scared. It was as though I would die if I didn’t somehow complete the suddenly urgent equation of my biology. The room tilted when I stood. I fell against the cheap bookcase packed with science fiction paperbacks. The
Sirens of Titan
hit the floor face up. I closed my eyes and tried to calm down. Dad was snoring in the next room. My mom used to nudge him awake and make him stop. But Mom had been gone for years. Just like my big brother Jeremy. At the time of the accident he had been seven years older than me and on leave from the Army. I missed him badly, because sometimes I needed a nudge, too.

There was a scrabbling sound, and I opened my eyes. Jeepers was chasing his tail in a tight circle, reminding me of the Tasmanian Devil cartoon character.

“Jeepers, sit!”

Jeepers didn’t sit. He kept running around in that circle, like something wound up and let go. The moon streamed through the cherry tree outside my window and cast a bony shadow over him. It was kind of horrible. In the winter, without its blossoms—all gnarled and black in the night—that tree used to scare me. I mean when I was a little kid.

But it wasn’t winter; it was June.

Staggering from leg to leg, I yanked on a pair of jeans. My brother’s US Army duffel coat hung from a hook on the door, and I grabbed it and shrugged it on over my bare shoulders. As I said: I was a weird kid, and constantly wearing my dead brother’s army coat was just one of the weird things I did to prove it.

I felt better outside in the fresh air. The dizziness retreated and my heart settled down to a lugging rhythm. Some power had changed me that night, made me unlike any human being in history. But all I knew at the moment was that I felt different in an indefinable way. Also, for the first time in my life I had a destination, though I didn’t know what it was.

The cherry tree was in full leaf. I stared at it as if it were an optical illusion, then I started walking the night streets. At first I looked frequently into the sky, which was a pale wash of moonlight over a dim star field. The day would arrive, some hundred and eighty years hence, when I would find myself sailing outbound toward one of those stars, in the belly of a vehicle so incomprehensibly immense that it would have boggled my easily boggled seventeen-year-old mind. But I had no inkling of any such journey on that June night in 1974.

Clouds blotted the stars in the near distance, but the sky was devoid of giant soap bubbles. After a while I ceased looking for them. My feet stopped walking at about the same time, and I found myself standing in front of a green frame house with a big madrona tree in the yard.

Blue television light pulsed behind one curtained window on the first floor. Big white moths fluttered around the porch light, making shadows ten sizes too big. I knew whose house it was because I walked by it practically every day. I even knew which of the dormer windows belonged to Nichole Roberts. Passing by, I’d once caught an unforgettable glimpse of white bra and creamy breasts. Now some kind of groaning urgency compelled me toward her, but what the hell? We knew each other, had lived within a couple of blocks of each other most our lives, but she wasn’t my girlfriend. Far from it. She was dating a guy named Roy Hathaway, who was on the wrestling team. I’d never even
kissed
a girl. So I was a late bloomer, which turned out not to matter in the extremely long run of things.

I’d seen a guy on TV throw pebbles at a girl’s bedroom window to get her attention. So I looked around on the shoulder of the road for some pebbles of my own (our neighborhood had no sidewalks; Nichole’s two story house was almost grand by local standards, even if it did need a paint job). I hunkered and came up with a handful. The window opened before I could pitch even one.

“Ellis?”

I crossed the lawn and stood under her window, face upturned.

“How’d you know it was me?”

“I recognized the coat. What are you
doing
out there? And where’s your shirt?”

“I don’t know.”

“To both questions?” She chuckled.

“Just the first one,” I said and dropped the pebbles, slipped my hands in the pockets of my brother’s duffel coat, and pulled it closed in front.

“Hey, it’s like that play,” Nichole said.


Death of a Salesman
?”

We had an English Lit class together, and Mrs. Forslof was hell on plays. We read them out loud in class, and most of the kids thought they were idiotic. But not Nichole. She had real intelligence and sensitivity, and she wasn’t afraid to acknowledge those qualities in herself.


Romeo And Juliet
, silly,” she said.

I nearly made the egregious error of trying to quote Shakespeare, but stifled myself.

“Oh,” I said.

“Ellis?”

“Yes?”

“I feel strange. I mean I woke up feeling strange.”

“Me, too.”

“Why don’t you come in?”

“Up there?”

She nodded.

“Okay.” It was like some kind of dream. Or waking up, finally, from another kind of dream. Nichole wasn’t my girlfriend but I was in love with her in that way of virginal teenage boys who know they don’t have a chance. “Is the door locked?”

“Climb up.”

“What?”

“Come on, climb up, Romeo.”

I looked at the madrona tree. A limb bent like a flexing arm within hopping distance of the roof, if I stood in the elbow crux. Or so it appeared. Probably I wasn’t such a great judge of distance at the moment, though. Or of anything else, for that matter.

I monkeyed up into the tree, a feat that required my full attention for a minute or two. When I was on a level with the roof I noticed the gap was greater than I’d estimated from the ground.

“Come on,” Nichole said.

She had lighted a candle. Her face was lovely, almost angelic in the glow. Auburn highlights gleamed in her long hair. Her mouth was broad, full-lipped, inviting. I jumped—borne up by some kind of ethereal vision—and missed the roof by a foot.

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