Judged By You (Judge Me Series) (2 page)

“You smell lovely, what are you wearing?” He asked.

“Umm I think it's Dolce and Gabanna and thank you.”

What do you say to some hot guy telling you, you smell lovely? He bent forward and smelt my neck, I could feel his breath on my neck, and my breath
ing quickened. He smelt sexy as sin, I wanted to do the same thing to him, but that could be embarrassing. I cleared my throat to get out of this now awkward position.

“I’m sorry,
I am running late for a meeting, I have to go.” I reached into my bag and pulled out money for the cashier. I couldn’t look at him any longer or have him so close to me, the sexual tension I was feeling was obvious. I could feel it, and I swear he did to. The clerk passed me my change, and I headed for the car. I didn’t bother looking back to see if he was staring. Because I didn’t know if I had just imagined the whole thing.

Once I got into familiar territory, I let out a loud groan of frustration. Truth be told, I tend to make things complicated for myself in this day and age. I might actually meet someone charming
if I stop with the wallowing and go out with Nicole. I shake my thoughts and head to the cemetery.

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When I arrive Nicole is not here yet. So I sit in the car patiently waiting for her arrival. I reached into my purse and pulled out my phone. I texted Derek;

Going out tonight for a few drinks, would lo
ve for you to join us. Will let you know more when details have been sorted. Would love to see you ; -).

Within 2, minutes he replied;

Sounds great Sav await your details.

I sat grinning at the thought of Mr mysterious I had just encountered. I could still smell him, and hear his breathing. He was probably married or had a girlfriend, why else would the worlds sexiest man be buying flowers? It may have made my day seeing him. I would never see him again, but I would
see him in my thoughts when I went to bed that night. Just then Nicole tapped on the window taking me out of my perfect moment.

“You look beautiful
Sav, my shirt certainly does suit you.” She said with a giggle.

“Oh
, I know it suits me, that’s why I’m keeping it remember,” I threw at her with a grin. “Alright let’s get this over with for another year, and then have a few drinks at the bar.”

Nicole shot me a look, and I could feel her eyes searching my face,
I turned and responded “That’s if you still want to go, I’m happy to stay in if you have changed your mind.”

Nicole bounced aroun
d on the spot than hugged me, “It’s going to be a fabulous night, you will see.” She said, before taking my hand and walking down the stone path.

We
stood and stared at the stone that highlighted my parents’ names. Tears began to well in my eyes, and I was flooded with memories of them. Nicole held my hand and whispered “It's ok, I am here for you,” into my ear as I put my head on her shoulder. I gathered myself after what seemed like an eternity and laid the bouquet of roses in front of their final resting place. I said the Lord’s Prayer and told them how much I missed them, and how I was doing in life. It was the same thing I said every year, along with how many times I have been to see Stephen, and I told them that he was coming out soon. I finished my speech to the stone and stood. Nicole handed me a handkerchief. Wiping my face, I tried not smudging my once perfect makeup. We walked in silence back to the parking lot. I still felt numb, even after six years the pain never seemed to ease.

“You want to have some lunch before we go home?” Nicole asked.

“I’m not actually hungry, lost my appetite sorry Nic, but I would love a coffee.”

“Okay we can meet at that
cafe, near the market place down the road from home?"

“Yeah
sure,” I said “I’m in need of caffeine to keep me going.”

We met up a short time later at the small cafe. It was charming and extremely busy as always. We waited
in line for almost twenty minutes before we were served. The cafe was decorated in modern furniture, in pastel greens, pinks and white. There was a table next to us where a young woman sat with children. Each of them eating muffins and drinking juice. I smiled at the thought of having children one day. But for now I just wanted to finish law school, and go from there. Sorting out my brother was also one of my main goals.

Our coffees arrived in half the time as it took to order them.

“So what’s the plan for tonight?” Nicole asked

“
I was thinking a few drinks down the bar, and maybe some dancing. I told myself today was going to be different Nic, and I want it to be.” I stated, nervous about the words I had just spoken.

“
And different it will be Savannah, trust me. Let your hair down and have some fun. It’s time we celebrate life.” Nicole looked at me waiting for me to burst into tears. But the tears had stopped. I felt at ease at this moment.

“
Well I am going to text Derek, and let him know what we are up to, he wants to come to and why not make it a group gathering right?”

“
Good idea, I will call Stan and tell him to come to ours on the way home and we can get him to take us.” Nicole said with a smile. Stan was like me, not much of a drinker and would rather make sure we all got there and home safely.

“I think I want to go and get a new dress, would you be
so kind as to come spend some money with me?” I knew she wouldn’t turn down the opportunity to spend some money. Nicole was the queen of shopping; she always knew latest trends and fashion. I swear she had shares in the fashion industry.

“Do you even have to ask me that Savannah? You should know me well enough to inform and not ask when it comes to shopping
.” Nicole said, with such attitude and a hint of sarcasm.

We drank our coffees and headed to the fashion shops to get me a dress. I didn’t own m
any dresses as I was a skirt or shorts kind of girl with a blouse or singlet. I only wore dresses on momentous occasions, and still I would take the first opportunity to be rid of it.

I quickly texted Derek
to inform him of our plans;

Heading to Fire and Ice Bar tonight, should be there about 6pm. Hope you can make it still. Sav

It took no time at all before Derek text back;

I am very much looking forward to it. See you there.

The first shop we went to was highly formal. Nicole had told me that a cocktail dress was the best way to go. I couldn’t help think she was hoping I would be put out of my misery and get laid. “You wouldn’t happen to be trying to get me laid now would you?” I said with a grin.

“You did say today was going to be different, and it’s been ages. Do
you even know what sex is Sav?” Nicole couldn’t help but laugh.

Truthfully, I
sometimes I couldn’t remember what sex was, or what it felt like……okay  I lied, I remembered what sex felt like with him, always hot and heavy. I hoped that one day soon I would find out again. Sex was never the first thing on my mind but was never the last. I guess when you go without it for so long you get accustomed to forgetting what it feels like to be intimate with someone, to be whole and not just two different people. I had never in fact been in that situation where I felt like one person during sex. Maybe one day I would find out. Cameron never made me feel like we were one person, he was too demanding for that. The thought of sex somehow brought me back to the gentleman that I had seen at the florist stall. When I thought about him, I could still feel his brawny hands and burning muscles as I touched him. I shook that thought and picked up a pale yellow dress made of silk.

“You scare me with yo
ur thoughts sometimes Savannah.”

“What do you mean
? I didn’t say anything.” I said confused.

“Exactly, you never said anything
. You just had this day dream look on your face like you always do.”

“I was just thinking about this guy I ran into today, literally. He was smokin
g hot, and I kind of stumbled, he grabbed me and told me I smelt lovely, and that’s all.” I explained putting the dress back and reaching for the same dress but in black.

“That’s all?”
Nicole yelled, with the look of shock on her face. I think everyone in the shop turned to look at us in shock as well.

“Keep your voice down, and yes that is all. He was
enjoyable to look at but buying flowers for a woman obviously. No one is that good looking and gets away with it.” I explained looking around to make sure no one was within ear shot.

“Oh my god, you never thought to mention this earl
ier. Why didn’t you stalk him?”

“Nicole,
What kind of person do you take me for?” I asked, ashamed that I was actually having this conversation with her in a busy shop.

“Obviously
one who doesn’t make the first move. Well tonight is going to be great. I want you to throw yourself at some random and make a night of it Savannah. You have to let your hair down and have some fun while you still can. And if you’re lucky take him home and think of that hot guy you saw today, and if you ever see him again get his bloody number for god’s sake.” She exclaimed.

I tried on five dresses before
I went with a black and red corset style dress that was to the knee. I hated having to get someone to do it up for me though. It was laced at the back and held everything in place perfectly. I thought it was a bit stripper looking at first but learned that it looked super cute on. The skirt part of the dress started just below the navel, and just flowed. In was layered and the whole dress was light and fitting. I remembered I had a pair of black boots that came to just below the knee which Nicole thought would go perfectly with the dress.

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By the time, we got home it was three thirty. I thought I could get a hours sleep before I had to start getting ready for the immense night out. Every time I closed my eyes I thought of Mr mysterious at the flower stand. I could still smell him, and feel him. Maybe it was time to have some fun, and see where the night took me. Time passed, and before I knew it, it was time to get ready. I showered and went in search of Nicole. I entered the living room Stan was waiting at the table. I was only dressed in a towel and could feel my cheeks heating when he saw me.

“I’m s
o sorry, I was looking for Nic.” I explained before anything else got weird.

“I’m here.”
Nicole came from down the hall dressed in her silver floor length dress.

“Could you help me do my dress up when you have
the chance, please?”

“Of course, I will be a few minutes. I hope you have some sexy lingerie to g
o with that sexy as hell dress?” Nicole said with a wolfish grin.

“I
’m sure I could find something.” Was my immediate response. Stan was in ear shot. Talk about embarrassing moments.

Stan was the perfect guy. He loved Nicole, spoilt he
r with flowers and chocolates, Treated her like a princess. They had been together for 4 years, but Nicole refused to move into his apartment as she always told me “It becomes way too real when you move in with them,” I never quite understood what she meant by that as she was in love with him too. I think Stan and Nicole will end up married in the future.  

I searched through my draws for the newest sexiest lingerie set I could find.
I found a black lace strapless bra and lace boy legs to go with it. I remember buying this set when I went for my interview to get into a college program. If there was one thing I liked about my body, it was my breasts. I had the kind of breasts that people always thought are fake. They sat perfectly in a bra and were not too large and not too small. Nicole knocked on the door and saw me eying my body in the mirror.

“You have a beautiful body Savannah. I wish you would show it off more instead of always covering it
up and hiding it from everyone.” Nicole stated with all seriousness.

“This is not the conversation I wish to be having when I’m pra
ctically naked in front of you.” I feel my cheeks heating.

“There are some things you need to learn Savannah Marie
James. One is you do not wear a bra with a corset, and since your dress is essentially that you need to take it off.” Nicole said, I could tell she was laughing at my stupidity.

“And before you say anything else, you do have a beautiful body, and I think a lot of people would agree. So stop being all innocent and t
ry and have a good time tonight, If you know what I mean.”  Nicole said, as she tightened the laces too tight on the corset and I could feel the wind being sucked from my lungs.

“Thanks for the compliment Nicole, and thanks for the fashion advice. If we may, let’s stop talking before you give me advice on sexual
positions or safe sex shall we.” I tried to hide the bitterness in my voice.

Nicole was such a good friend to me, but I wasn’t as open and upfront with everything as she was. I knew her well enough to know that she had no boundaries in her personal life. I have heard everything from sex stories to annoying points in her relationsh
ip. I was all too happy to hear them as everyone needs someone to vent to.