Judged By You (Judge Me Series) (8 page)

“Hey
.” I said trying not to sound too shocked. I half pinched myself, to make sure it was real.

“Hey yourself
.” He said with a smile.

“What are you doing here
?” I hoped that didn’t come out wrong.

“I had to see you; I’ve been busy and thinking about you a lot…..
And that kiss”. Oh my, he just had to say it.

“Let me explain that” I said, not sure what I was actually going to say.

“I don’t want you to explain Savannah. It’s OK, really.” 

“I just….. I just didn’t, you know. I was a little worried about what might have come of it you
know.” Gees I sounded like a freaking virgin. Well, I might as well of been one, it’s been long enough!

“It could have been a lot more on my part, but I have self-control and I would not have let that happen. Not on a first dat
e, gee what do you take me for?” He was laughing at me, and at that point I wanted the earth to swallow me whole. Did I just inherently say I wanted to fuck him?

“Umm…… I didn’t mean it like that, I just….
I just…. I need to shut up now.” I think I made it worse, note for next time, “SHUT THE FUCK UP” I yelled in my head.

“I like to
hear your voice, it's soothing.” Damon said as he grabbed both my hands and pulled me a little closer to him.  He opened the width of his legs, and I was standing between them but not flush to his body.

“Thank you for the be
autiful flowers Damon.” I said, but it was more like a squeak.

“You’re welcome Savannah
.” He said.

I could feel myself leaning a little closer to him. I felt his hands move up from mine, and he held my elbows. In that moment
, I don’t know what came over me, but I kissed him. I actually made the first move, and it felt so right. My tongue starting moving with his has he opened to take the kiss deeper. He tasted every bit like I remember from last night, maybe even better. I moved, so I was flush up against him, my hands found his neck. I felt his hands around my lower back, and he pulled me closer. Fuck it felt good. A moan escaped me. I was shivering once again. We both had to come up for air. I put my head between his neck and shoulder.

“Are you cold?” He whispered into my ear.

I shook my head. I wondered if I should invite him in. Was he serious about self-control? “Do you want to come inside?” I just had to ask.

“I actually should
go, I just wanted to kiss you goodnight.” He was sweet.

“Well I’m glad you did
.” I said moving, so I was able to look him in the eyes.

“Are we stil
l going out tomorrow for dinner.” I hoped we still were.

“I will call you, I have had a few things come up
, and it might be a unusually busy week.” When he said those words my heart sunk. I wish now he would have agreed to come up. I could feel the wetness between my legs just from that kiss. I wondered what a bit of friction would do.

“Oh, ok. I better go then. Bye
.” I thought at that moment I might cry.

“Hey, don’t run away,”
He said grabbing me as I was turning away. I couldn’t look at him just in case I did. Emotional much? “Why are you running away? I haven’t finished talking. I was going to suggest coming by my apartment for a late dinner one night when you’re free.” He said with a soft voice.

“I work every night this week
, but Tuesday and I have an assignment due Friday.” God I wish I could chuck a sick day without feeling guilty and that I was smart enough to not have to study and research everything.

“Well, I have time on the weekend at this stage; we could go to dinner or a movie if you want too?” He said searching my face.

“I work Saturday and Sunday afternoon. But I’m sure I could change a shift or something.” Mentally I thought about who could replace my shift at work. Most of them were also at college and worked their shifts around their classes and busy lives like I did.

“How about a rain check and we will see how it goes? I don’t want you to miss work or study time, it’s important that you keep up with your study
.” I could sense the disappointment in his face, but I was disappointed more I think.

I
wanted to see him again “Okay.” 

“I will call you
.” He said. I sensed this was to reassure me that he meant what he said.

“And I will answer. Thank you for stopping b
y Damon,” I leaned in to kiss him on the cheek, but he moved so his lips connected with mine. I didn’t want this to end, but if I didn’t step away I would not respect myself in the morning. I pulled away and kissed his cheek. “Good night Damon.” I smiled and walked back up the path.

I needed to get inside
before I changed my mind. I opened the door and turned to see him smiling at me, his beautiful teeth showing. There was something about him that made me smile, I liked that. I closed the door and went back upstairs. My phone buzzed shortly after;

Sweet dreams. D

I quickly tapped out my reply.

Sweet dreams to you to. Sav.

Two minutes later,

They will be filled with thoughts of you. D

My heart fluttered,
I had a stupid school girl smile, but I replied,

Me too Sav.

I put my phone down and snuggled under the covers. I closed my eyes with visions of him.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

I woke to my alarm at eight
, I wanted to press snooze but resisted and got up. Nicole was just about to leave for work.

“Enjoy your date tonight
Sav, I’m staying at Stan’s tonight so I won’t be home until tomorrow after work.” My heart sunk  with disappointment that I wouldn’t get to see Damon tonight.

“I’m not going out tonight, things have come up
, and he’s busy. I need to study anyway. That assignment is kicking my ass when I should be kicking it's ass.” The thought of it made me rethink my chosen career path.

“That sucks about your date
. But I’m running late, see you.” And just Like that Nicole was gone. She usually ran late, it wouldn’t be Nicole unless she was.

I decided to clean up before I went to the library. I vacuumed and mopped and even washed my sheets. I found some books under the coffee table that were Stephen’s. I
genuinely wanted to know what was up his ass on Sunday. He had his moments few and far between. I needed to contact the attorney and find out if he was up for parole soon. He was given eight years, but he could serve four and get parole for good behaviour. Which meant he was able to get out soon? I needed him to come home and for me to look after him and set him straight again. He had a job to go to, and I just needed to keep him away from the bad company that got him there in the first place.

I rang Rob Thomas, Stephens’s lawyer
, and also our family lawyer straight away to find out when he would be getting out. As long as nothing had changed, and Stephen has behaved, than he would be out within four months. My brother had regretted what he did; well I hoped he did anyway. I would tell him when I spoke to him again as I’m sure they wouldn’t give him that information. I looked at the clock, and it was time to go, “time to kick this assignments arse” I said to myself as I walked out.

Sarah was too smart for her own good. She was a
pleasant distraction and helped me power through the assignment. Bouncing ideas off each other was marvellous; it gave me an idea on what she was thinking compared to my thoughts. In between writing and research she would talk about her family. She had a rich family, who expected mighty things from her, and I got the impression she wanted to be something else, but her parents had forced her to take on something more “respectable” was the word she used. Once we had finished for the afternoon, Sarah suggested we grab a bite to eat since we hadn’t eaten all day. It was 5:30pm by the time we left, and it had been a long day. We decided on Chinese and went to a restaurant a few blocks away from the library. We got a table and ordered, we thought after our efforts we deserved a beer. Conversations flowed and so did our drinks. It was good to see her so relaxed and me the same. I had never thought about her like this before, she was always so quiet and uptight.

“So are you in a relationship?” I asked her.

“I have an interest yes. He is a doctor.” She said with a huge smile.

“Wow,
that’s great. How long have you been… you know together?”

“We have been seeing each other for a few months now, nothing to seri
ous but beyond playful you know.” I was slightly shocked at the words.

“Playful
.” I repeated.

She laughed, “Yeah you know, more than sex, but
we haven’t said the L word yet.”

I was still laughing at her comment when the waiter b
rought us another round.

“We di
dn’t order anymore drinks, sorry.” I said to him as he put them in front of us.

“They are courtesy of that gentleman
.” He said pointing to a table in the corner of the room.

When I looked I saw it was Damon. He smiled and gave a wave. I smiled and returned his wave wondering if I should go over and thank him.

“Who is that hottie?” Sarah said with a grin. She clearly had already had little too much to drink.

“That’s my fr
iend Damon.” Huh? Was he my friend or my interest I instantly thought?

“The way you’re looking right now Savannah, something tells me you
want more.” She said nudging my arm with her elbow.

I started to get out of my cha
ir when I saw the busty blonde return to his table. She was gorgeous. Tall, thin and wearing a little black dress that barely covered the parts that needed to be. When she sat next to him, she sat too close. Her hand was on his arm and she was leaning into him whispering into his ear. He had a smile on his face, the same smile he gave me. I couldn’t look anymore, and I could feel my breathing quicken. I was hurt. The feeling was all too familiar.

“Are you okay savannah?” Sarah asked with concern in her voice.

“I have to go, I’m sorry. Thank you for today. I will see you later.” I was too quick to get the hell out of there. I couldn’t even look his way.

“You’re not
going to drive, are you?” Sarah followed me out the door.

“No
, I will ring Nicole. She will come and get me. Oh I’m sorry, I didn’t even think of you. Would you like a lift home?” I felt like a bitch, I had brought her here in my car, and now I had been irresponsible and forgotten that I was driving.

“Oh I don’t want to be too much trouble I can walk
; I only live a few blocks away.” She said with a smile. Sarah hugged me and said good bye. She was actually good company. I rang Nicole and asked her to pick me up, she was more than happy to but she had a concern in her voice.

I paced up and down the footpath waiting. Hoping she would hurry up because I wanted to turn around and look inside to see what was happening. I stopped myself each time I wanted to. Damon has said a few things had come up
, and he might be busy this week.

“I know what’s come up
.” I said harshly out loud.

He had blown off our date to go out with her.
I don’t know why but I was angry, and I was hurt, I needed to get out of there. I continued to pace the path, Nicole was at Stan’s so it would take her about thirty minutes to get to me, and twenty had passed already. “Come on Nic,” I said and started to pace. As I turned, I walked straight into his arms.

“What are you doing out here in the cold?” He asked, looking concerned.

“I’m waiting.” I couldn’t look at him.

“Wh
at’s the matter Savannah?” He grabbed my arm.

I just stood and stared at him. I didn’t know what to say. I mean we hadn’t a title, like in a relationship, and we weren’t sleepi
ng together. But less than twenty four hours ago he was kissing me. I shook my head and pushed his hands away.

“Savannah, what’s wrong
?” He said it more sternly this time, but I continued to stare the other way.

“Are you ready Damon
?” I heard a soft voice and turned. The busty brunette had linked her arm through his. Damon turned to look at her then back at me. I shook my head and turned again. I couldn’t believe it.

“Yes I’m ready
.” He replied, but I couldn’t bear to look at him. At that point, Nicole pulled up, and I got straight in.

“What’s the matter honey
?” Nicole said, holding my hand.

“No
thing…I… I just want to go home.” I could feel the tears.

“You can talk to me Sav
.” She gave me a reassuring squeeze with her hand.

“I know thank you, I’m just tired. And I have had too much to drink. What was supposed to be a study session turned into drinks and dinner
afterwards.” I said wiping the tears off my cheeks.