Authors: Mj Fields
Love You Anyways (27 page)
Two weeks ago I walked into the house and saw Lucas staring at a letter. He didn’t even look up at me. He hadn’t noticed I walked in. I saw a single tear falling down his cheek.
“Lucas?”
He jumped when I said his name and quickly wiped away the tear.
“Hey Baby.” He turned his chair and pulled me down on his lap and nuzzled into my neck.
“Talk to me.”
“Do you have any idea how much I love you. D
o you have any idea how much you mean to me Tessa?” He didn’t let me respond. “You and my kids are everything to me. I have no one else that matters…”
“Lucas …”
“No hear me out. I don’t give a fuck about any of it. You, my kids, your kids, Piper, the whole Ross clan. It’s all I need. You are all I ever needed. Not any of the other shit. Not football. Not dozens of women. Not drugs. I know this, hell I have known it but. Fuck, Baby you have no idea how much I love you. It’s never gonna change just get stronger.” He kissed me hard on the mouth and then pulled back. “Check this out.”
He handed me the necklace he gave me in high school. Two field hockey sticks crossing and it was engraved. LYA.
“I know our past sucked a lot of the time but it got us here.” He clipped it around my neck.
“Then the earrings. You were so afraid it was gonna be another ring, will you wear them?”
“Of course.” He helped me put them on.
“The bracelet to
o Baby. Remember this? A birthday gift?”
I held my wrist out and he clasped it on. “It’s beautiful.”
I leaned forward and kissed his lips.
“Then there’s this.” He held up the ring and I held out my hand. “I wanna get you a new one.”
“I don’t need a new one.”
“You sure?”
“We’ve talked about this. Regretting any of it takes away the things we love. I will never stop loving Collin. I hope that doesn’t upset you.”
“Not at all. It’s who you are Tessa. You love forever.”
“I do.”
“Not yet.” He pushed me up and knelt in front of me. ”Tess Ross Abraham will you please do me the honor of becoming my wife
?”
“Yes.”
He laughed as he took my hand. Collin’s ring was still on my finger. I looked at it and felt sadness creeping in.
He took my hand and kissed
my ring. “Give me the other.”
“Lucas…”
“No. I don’t want you to take it off. Give me the other hand.”
He pushed the ring on my finger and stood up and spun me around. I kissed him and he set me on my feet. I started to pull his shirt off and he stopped me.
“Not until it’s official.”
I laughed thinking he was joking.
“Not chancing it Baby.”
“Oh so you’re going all traditional on me?”
“Sure am. I asked your father, your kids, God.” He laughed.
“You did?”
“I did.”
I bit my lip and looked down at his pants.
“Not fair. Sit down and look at this.”
I sat on his lap and looked at the computer screen. “BlueBay Villas Dorados in Puerto Rico.”
“Bluebay. I like it.”
“Perfect because that’s where you’ll become Mrs. Lucas Links and where you’ll get off again.”
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I looked in the mirror at myself. I was wearing a plan white slip dress that hit above my knees and silver sandals. I was ready to do this but there was one small part of me that still felt it was too soon. Dad had told me I needed to be less hard on myself and accept that God gave me a heart big enough to truly love twice.
I walked out towards the archway that was wrapped in white linens. As I got closer I saw my sons standing at the edge of the wooden slate walkway waiting to give me away. I took their arms and walked onto the sand and looked up at everyone standing in front of the chairs draped in white cloth and tied in light blue ribbons. I immediately thought of Collin. I felt the heat build in my chest and slowed down.
The sky darkened or I thought it did and I looked up as a light drizzle of rain began to fall. My heart hurt and I immediately thought of Collin crying. I looked at the boys and then at the ground.
“Mom.” CJ whispered.
“Mom, he want’s this for you. We want this for you.” Matthew whispered.
“I…it’s raining we should wait.”
“Mom. Look at Lucas standing there waiting, do you want the guy to have another heart attack?” CJ laughed.
“Mom look at Lucas.” Matthew laughed out loud. “You really need to look at him, or above him.”
“No shit,” CJ gasped.
I looked up at Lucas. He had on a white linen shirt and khaki pants. He gave me a concerned smile and then winked and held out his hand. God he was perfect now. He didn’t deserve this.
“Mom look up.” Matthew laughed.
I looked up and saw a rainbow and couldn’t help but laugh. Lucas smile broadened and I pointed to the sky. He looked up and smiled.
“Baby I’ll wait forever.” He yelled to me. “But I can’t promise I can make that happen again. I mean I’m good but not that good.”
I walked to him. Hell I think I may have ran. I didn’t look at anyone but I heard them all laughing and whistling. When I got to Lucas I hugged him tight and he hugged me back.
“We got this Baby.”
“Of course.” I smiled. Okay, I beamed. “I do.”
“I do too.” He took my face in his hands and kissed me.
We both looked at the officiate, who looked confused.
“We done here?” Lucas asked. “We legal?”
“Yes of course but you paid for more.” He whispered.
“We’ve paid enough don’t you think Baby?”
“Yeah.”
“All rainbows from here?” He kissed me again.
“Yes.” I looked at the officiate.
“Alright. Ladies and Gentleman may I present to you Mr. and Mrs. Lucas Links. You may kiss your Bride.”
~THE END~
~Play List for LYA~
Eye of the Tigar Survivor
Down with the Sickness by Disturbed
My Own Worst Enemy by Lit
Do Me by Bell Biv Devoe
Crazy Bitch by Buckcherry
Just Like a Pill Alanis Morissette
Heaven by Warrant
Beautiful things by Gungor
Seventeen by Warant
One headlight by the Wallflowers
It’s Been Awhile by Staind
What’s My Age Again by Blink 182
Whatever by Godsmack
Eternal Flame by The Bangels
Look After You by
The Fray
Closer to the Edge by 30 Seconds to Mars
Fall for You by Secondhand Serenade
Come To Me by the Goo Goo Dolls
All of Me by John Legend
Other Titles by MJ Fields
Men of Steel Series
Jase
Jase and Carly Summer Lovin’
Cyrus
Zandor
Xavier (April 2014)
The Love Series
Blue Love
New Love
Sad Love
True Love
The Wrapped Series
Wrapped in Silk
Wrapped in Armor
Wrapped Always and Forever
Burning Souls
Stained
Forged
Merged
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