Romancing the Countess (4 page)
“Regardless of exactly what transpired between them, or that you should have informed me of the affair when you discovered the truth, I’ve come to request a favor from you.”
“Yes?”
He turned aside to pick up his hat. “Everyone believes Angela and Ian were traveling to Hampshire because she was ill.”
“I’ve heard the story. Very well done, my lord. To have him, your dear and trusted friend, accompany her when you could not. And how convenient, isn’t it, for Ian to have planned to visit our own house in Wiltshire after seeing the countess safely home?” Leah paused, attempted to swallow the bitterness from her tongue. She added softly, “You must have loved Lady Wriothesly very much, to care about her reputation even now.”
Wriothesly drew the black ribbon of his hat between his thumb and forefinger. “I would appreciate if you could concur with your part of the story. The reason why you couldn’t accompany her instead of Ian—”
“A headache, yes. Don’t worry, my lord. I’ve carried their secret for this long now. I have no need of divulging yours.”
He met her gaze steadily. “Still, I would ask your word.”
Leah gave a small laugh. “You don’t believe me?”
“Please.”
“Very well. I promise. If someone asks me the details of that day, I won’t contradict you. And I will ensure my servants believe the same.”
“Thank you, Mrs. George.”
“You’re welcome.”
And as when she had first entered the drawing room, Lord Wriothesly bowed and Leah returned the gesture with a curtsy. He placed his hat on his head, gave a short nod, and walked toward the doorway—only to stop and turn around a moment later.
“By the way, Mrs. George, I would advise you to wear a widow’s cap while indoors. Remove the veil. It doesn’t hide anything.”
Then, with another nod, he pivoted and left the drawing room.
Chapter 3
I must confess, I will never think of Lady Waddington’s music room in the same way ever again.
Two months later, Leah cursed the Earl of Wriothesly for his advice. And herself as well, for taking it. Hiding the truth from her mother would have been far easier behind the refuge of a veil, no matter how unusual it might have seemed to wear one indoors.
Trying to appear both wan and welcoming while the ribbons of the widow’s cap swayed against her cheeks, Leah poured two cups of tea—one for her mother and one for her sister, Beatrice. She’d dreaded their visit even before returning to London three days ago. Her mother doubtlessly expected to find her heartbroken and miserable, and while Leah had always tried her best to please her, her time away from society had made it increasingly difficult to continue the dutiful role of mourning widow.
The teapot rattled against the other china as she lowered it to the tray, the discordant sound impossibly loud in the silence which had descended once they’d taken their seats. Leah’s heart sped, every nerve contracting. As she’d done all her life, she waited for her mother to speak.
Adelaide Hartwell sighed, her gaze returning from its examination of the sitting room to settle on Leah’s face. “I admit it is very generous of the viscount to allow you to continue using the town house and Linley Park, but you must know we would prefer to have you home with us. I worry for you, my dear, all alone with nothing but your memories of him. At least if you returned to us, I would be able to make certain you ate properly. I know mourning takes a toll on one’s appetite, but—” She waved helplessly toward the platter of crumpets and biscuits, which Leah had yet to touch.
Ah, there it was. The first cut, so cleverly disguised as maternal concern. And an old one, too. Whereas Adelaide and Beatrice Hartwell were the perfect portraits of English beauty—rounded breasts and hips, pleasantly full oval faces—Leah was the odd one. Too skinny. Too few curves, too many angles. Too . . . lacking.
Leah lowered her lashes as she stirred sugar into each of the teacups. “I’ve gained half a stone since the funeral, Mother.”
Adelaide accepted her cup and saucer with a tiny pleat between her brows. “As you should, of course. You’ve always been too frail. But I fear it isn’t enough, darling. You look like a starved crow in all that black crepe. Have a biscuit. Just one, for my sake if nothing else.”
Leah glanced at Beatrice, seeking their usual exchange of sympathy. At seventeen, she was three years younger than Leah, and except for her larger curves and blue eyes, they’d always shared similar features and a wary regard for their parents’ instruction. But Beatrice refused to meet her gaze, instead sipping at her tea. In fact, from the moment they’d entered the sitting room, she hadn’t spoken one word. Leah looked at her mother, then again at Beatrice. Of course. Beatrice had spent two months in London alone with Adelaide while Leah had sought an escape from society. She must be glad for Leah to be the target of their mother’s criticism, if only for an hour.
“Leah.”
It was Adelaide’s warning voice, a demand, and Leah didn’t need to look to know her mother’s gaze would be narrowed, the fine lines at the corners of her mouth carved with censure.
Like a whip to her back, the voice bent Leah’s spine toward the platter of biscuits, her arm automatically outstretched. It was an obedient gesture from a dutiful daughter, and while she might now be jaded and skeptical as a result of her marriage, she’d always been dutiful, hadn’t she?
Yet the moment before her elbow crooked and her fingers began their descent, she hesitated.
At Linley Park in Wiltshire, the George estate where she’d withdrawn after attending to Ian’s parents, she’d become accustomed to obeying no one’s wishes but her own. Maintaining a pretense of mourning was unnecessary with a small retinue of servants who made themselves invisible.
By day she did as she liked, following each and every whim as it occurred. She ate according to her own pleasure, dictating both the time and the substance; there was no need to plan menus to suit Ian’s palate, or to guess whether he would actually appear for meals. She could curl up in a window seat all afternoon with a book or go for long, aimless walks over the chalk hills. Gone were the social calls which required her to chatter and smile on cue and agree indeed, she
was
the most fortunate woman to be married to Ian George. If she smiled while at Linley Park, it was only because she desired to do so. She could laugh or frown, grow angry or sulk, and there was no one about to whose expectations she must bow. For a while, she was able to distance herself from the loneliness that had begun after the discovery of Ian’s affair.
was
the most fortunate woman to be married to Ian George. If she smiled while at Linley Park, it was only because she desired to do so. She could laugh or frown, grow angry or sulk, and there was no one about to whose expectations she must bow. For a while, she was able to distance herself from the loneliness that had begun after the discovery of Ian’s affair.
And the evenings—the unmitigated
joy
of each night. To be free of that accursed canopy in the London town house and the rich, cloying smell of
her
perfume on Ian’s skin. The stars were Leah’s canopy instead, the innocent fragrance of daisies sweet upon the night air. Many nights she spent simply sitting in the garden, sometimes with a shawl wrapped around her shoulders to ward off the breeze, sometimes letting the soft spring rain cascade down her face. For the first time in her life, she finally discovered the art of indulging her own happiness.
joy
of each night. To be free of that accursed canopy in the London town house and the rich, cloying smell of
her
perfume on Ian’s skin. The stars were Leah’s canopy instead, the innocent fragrance of daisies sweet upon the night air. Many nights she spent simply sitting in the garden, sometimes with a shawl wrapped around her shoulders to ward off the breeze, sometimes letting the soft spring rain cascade down her face. For the first time in her life, she finally discovered the art of indulging her own happiness.
Unfortunately, now that she was back in London and again the subject of her mother’s frivolous demands, Leah realized that once developed, such a habit of selfishness became nearly impossible to break.
With a very small smile—she was still in mourning, after all—Leah withdrew her arm and straightened. “No, thank you. I’m not in the least hungry.”
Across the tea service, Beatrice widened her eyes and mouthed a warning. Something about eating the bloody biscuit, Leah thought.
Ever poised, Adelaide merely raised a brow and reached for another spoonful of sugar. “Is there a reason you decided to wear crepe for your mourning clothes? When your grandfather died, I preferred to wear bombazine the entire time.”
“I’ve had gowns made of both.”
Adelaide placed the spoon aside and lifted her teacup and saucer. “I see.” She took a sip. “I must say, though, the wrinkles in that crepe are dreadful.”
Leah breathed deeply, desperately wishing again for her canopy of stars. “Is there a reason you asked for me to return to London, Mother?”
“Why, I told you in my letters, dearest. I’ve missed you, and worried for you. Now that you’re a widow, you have no one to guide you or provide for you—”
“As you know, Viscount Rennell offered an annual allowance and the use of both this town house and Linley Park as long as I like. He’s always had a great fondness for me.”
“Yes, but I’m sure he won’t abide by that decision indefinitely. He must expect you to marry again, or to see if . . .” Adelaide’s gaze slid to Leah’s stomach.
Leah swallowed, her hand involuntarily moving to cover the flat expanse above her waist. She glanced at Beatrice, then cleared her throat. “There’s a possibility, but nothing’s certain.” Although her monthly courses had come precisely on time, their duration had been remarkably shortened. And then there was the fact that she’d gained half a stone in two months. She’d come to London at her mother’s request, yes, but also because Lord Rennell had arranged for her to meet with his physician and be examined.
Tomorrow. She would know tomorrow if she was with child. If all those nights of waiting for Ian to come to her bed, of enduring his patient, thorough lovemaking, had been enough.
“An heir,” Adelaide breathed.
A baby
, Leah silently corrected.
Her
child, to love and adore.
, Leah silently corrected.
Her
child, to love and adore.
“But this is an even greater reason why you must return home with us,” her mother continued. “You cannot think to live alone. You are far too young, and vulnerable. Ian protected and took care of you when he was alive. And of course you loved him, darling, but he’s gone now. You must come with us. Without a husband, you—”
“Stop.” Leah’s shoulders trembled, her hand curling at her waist. Her fingertips dug deep, crushing the gown and marking her palm with little indents of pain.
Adelaide paused, her lips still parted. Then her features drew taut, pinching until every wrinkle she worked so hard to erase ruched like lines of enemy soldiers at the corners of her eyes and mouth. “Leah, dearest—”
“No.” The syllable came out shaken, quiet, and Leah hated that she was still trying to please her mother, to be the demure and dignified little mouse. “I don’t
need
a husband,” she continued, stronger now. “In fact, I think I will do quite well without one. And I’m sorry, but I also don’t need my mother to tell me each step to make, to tell me if I should eat, or sleep, or what clothes I should wear!” The last word hovered in the air with a shrill defiance, the echo of her anger loud and insolent.
need
a husband,” she continued, stronger now. “In fact, I think I will do quite well without one. And I’m sorry, but I also don’t need my mother to tell me each step to make, to tell me if I should eat, or sleep, or what clothes I should wear!” The last word hovered in the air with a shrill defiance, the echo of her anger loud and insolent.
Adelaide glared at her; Beatrice’s eyes had gone impossibly wide. Leah felt a thrill of satisfaction even as her head throbbed, the pins from the widow’s cap stabbing into her scalp. She met Adelaide’s gaze. Her voice was calm and steady when she spoke again, her conviction replacing any need to raise her voice. “I may have only twenty years, but I am not a child. I’m not an innocent. I’m a widow, Mother, and if being married has taught me nothing else, I’ve learned that I’m fully capable of managing my own life.”
Leah waited, the quiet into which her breath rushed nearly tomblike. Adelaide’s face resumed its expression of serenity. Slowly, she placed her cup and saucer down and rose to her feet. “Come along, Beatrice. Your father will be wondering why we’ve been absent for so long.”
She turned toward the door, her spine the same rigid perfection Leah had achieved years ago. Beatrice obeyed at once.
Leah firmed her jaw and stared across the room. Minutes elapsed as she listened to their footsteps receding to the front hall below, more as she waited for the sound of movement from the coach outside.
She was fairly certain her mother expected her to run after them, to make an apology and beg for forgiveness.
The horses began their steady clop along the cobblestoned street. Heedless of the pins secured in her hair, Leah wrenched the widow’s cap from her head.
She’d spent nearly two years as the dutiful, obedient wife, even after learning of Ian’s unfaithfulness. It was time to cease playing the dutiful, obedient daughter as well.
The next day, Viscount Rennell’s physician gave her the news: There was no baby. She wasn’t with child.
For more than a week afterward, Leah had no difficulty acting the grieving widow.
Sebastian knocked and took a step back. It felt strange to visit the George residence, knowing that he would no longer find Ian inside. He also found it odd for Leah George to send a note requesting to see him, but still he’d come, desperate to leave his own house.
Three months had passed since Angela’s death, and yet Henry continued to ask after her. Sebastian had left it to his son’s nurse to deal with the news of Angela’s death as she saw fit, but Henry didn’t seem to understand. He had hoped a boy of eighteen months would have forgotten by now, but on the occasions when Sebastian entered the nursery, Henry always straightened from his toys and smiled, then looked behind him in search of his mother.
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