Shampoo (18 page)

I walked in to Nat and Dan ringing
too, and everyone (the cool crowd) was over at Josie's for the
game, and I was invited!!

(goddamn my restless spirit. If
I'd just been home...)

Dan was all, "We've been trying to
get you ALL DAY," and threw in things like, "Oh, yeah? And how was
he?" and "You are such a social butterfly, Pinkalicious," to me
responding, "What guy?? Are you drunk? I went by
myself!!"

But I assume he was trying to stir
up Evvy

(God bless him)

and not having some kind of
aneurysm.

Thank God, with Dan's help, I
looked like

(LOOKED)

I have a life.

I so need sex. Why can't Evvy and
I just get our shit together?! I want his kisses!! I want him on
top of me!! I want his love!!

I was watching all the couples
Friday night, and they got me so sad. I want a guy who wraps his
arms around me in front of everyone, and kisses me! I want it so
bad it hurts my heart.

Monday 21 August
2000

6.33pm

Not going to the gym tonight.
There was a big storm blowing in when I drove home from work at
5pm, plus I knew Dan and Josh weren't going tonight. So I'm home in
bed already.

Work was good again. Less busy, I
had time to sort out all my work that needs to get done. And I got
lunch. Woo hoo!

Matt kept coming upstairs and
giving me those looks (that give me goosebumps!), and Benny and I
kept teasing each other and joking about the bet all
day.

He was all, "Pinky,
it
SO wasn't Aaron. You owe
me fifty dollars!!"

"It WAS him, Benny!!"

He strode over to my phone, picked
it up, dialled. "I am calling him." He was laughing.

I was too, especially when he
handed me the phone, and Aaron said it wasn't him.

Benny sat perched on the edge of
my desk

(where he always sits, right on my
invoices I’m trying to type)

as Aaron and I laughed, and Benny
shook his head, grinning at me.

Aaron sounded so happy to hear
from me

(happier then Evvy sounds when I
call him!),

he asked me if I'd left Rick yet
(yeah! Last year…yet still the fucker managed to ruin my 21st), and
I told him about my baby (Commodore) since he is a revhead, and he
told me to call him the next time I'm going clubbing.

(!!!)

Alright!!!! A friend!!!

So, laughingly, I hung up, and
Benny stands up, and starts yelling, "You owe me fifty bucks!! I
told you!!" and I'm in hysterics, going, "Yeah, yeah, WHATEVER."
Pause.

"Then who the hell was I waving
at?"

This only made Benny laugh
harder.

"And why was he waving
back!!"

Benny limped off, in
stitches.

Was so funny.

Ahhhh... I think I am going to
give up on Evvy. At the moment, there's nothing to give up ON. I
never bloody see him. We have no relationship. Time to move
on.

(crickets chirping)

Oh God, but I love him so much!!!
I crave him! I melt at the sound of his voice! His voice really
does it for me. More than anything else.

I'm in love with a
voice.

Nat said it was so funny, on
Sunday, when they were all at Josie's, because in the middle of the
game, Josie yells out, really excited, "Is Karina coming?" and the
whole room fell silent. Nat apparently replied, "She's out, can't
get a hold of her, and she never takes her mobile anywhere," and
the room remained silent for ages. Ever sat there,
stewing.

Ha ha!! Totally worth missing it
for causing a stir. And appearing to have a life.

Tuesday 22 August
2000

8.01am

Dancing around to Bryan Adams this
morning. We got the house!! I'm happy! I truly am! I'm going to
have a house again! And Cleo! And my sister!

(totally an accident, and not
meaningful, that I put my sister's dog before my actual
sister)

And lots of parties!

Hurt over Evvy though. Yeah, he
called, but whoop de doo (Mr Smithers). We didn't talk. I just star
10 hashed and he’d called.

I swore I would get over him. And
I will!

(but I love him)

6.22pm

VERY exhausting day at work. I am
hurting from head to toe again. I'm not going to the gym tonight,
because I've got to get up at four-thirty tomorrow to start the
early shift, cause Julia is away on holiday. I am so
sore.

Apart from an absolute frenzied
day, Nat and I signed the lease for our house! I can't wait to move
in!

Benny was still mucking around
with me today, and Matt kept teasing me, too, and giving me those
intense looks he gives me.

I can feel his presence with just
the slamming of the office door leading to the small upstairs
kitchen then down to the warehouse. I sit with my back to that
door, yet he can be silent, I have no clue who has just entered and
slammed that door, and I'll feel the hairs on the back of my neck
tingle, and I'll know it's him. He’ll stride straight past me, and
to the back of the office for the photocopier, photocopy something,
and then he'll keep his eyes on me all the way from the photocopier
till he’s past me and out the door again.

Gives me the tingles. And he does
a lot of photocopying.

Maybe I should go for Matt? Forget
Evvy.

(ugh. So didn't wanna mention
him)

Matt looked so adorable today.
Hot. He has the nicest, most intense blue eyes. He's cute, in a
goofy way. It's only his eyes, and the way he looks at me, that is
intense or manly. The rest is adorable goofiness.

7.08pm

Okay, depressed. I think because
I'm so tired and achy. I just want love and romance! Doesn't happen
for me. Why?? Why isn't Evvy ringing me back?

I want love.

I need sleep.

Thursday 24 August
2000

7.01pm

Very tiring day. I worked from
6am

(really 5.45am, as I got to work
super early, forgetting there is no peak hour traffic when you hoon
to work at 5am)

till 5pm. Exhausting! I've walked
in my door, dumped my bag, somehow crawled down the stairs and out
the back, had a shower, then practically ran from my shower, past
Sharon's door and up the internal stairs, fast like Speedy Woman,
cause I was too tired to deal with being trapped by her tonight,
then crashed into bed, barely with enough energy to pick up the
remote.

Then, the miracle happened: Evvy
rang!! And we talked!!

And when I told him the hours I
worked today

(WITH NO LUNCH
BREAK!!!),

he put on that adorable boyfriend
tone of voice that melts me more than his normal voice
does!

He asked me to the drive-in
tomorrow!!

Can you believe it?!! I'm so
happy!! Stoked!!

So why am I about to write about
Matt? Cause I am. I can feel it.

So today was so busy - end of
month, which is the most awful work day of the month. All the reps
pull their fingers out (of their asses) on this last day, and try
to make their budgets, or beat their budgets, or beat last month's
top sales rep's budget (Jessica, normally), and seriously every
rep, all fucking 60 of them

(I don't know how many, really… I
should count them tomorrow),

ring through a million, last ditch
effort orders. With Julia away, I was chained to my desk, typing
all these orders in frantically. And, if by RARE chance, I had one
second to pause and take a sip of water, Gerry would poke his head
out his doorway and yell, "Pinky!! I need one hundred more thousand
to make budget!! Ring (insert name), he/she hasn't put in an order
today," and off I'd go, dialling random reps for any
orders.

I literally finish the day,
swaying, my hair standing on end.

Like I've been
electrocuted.

But Matt and I managed to have a
few moments in all that madness.

That is all I will say.

Saturday 26 August
2000

8.11am

OMG, I had the best night EVER
with (ha ha) Ever!!!! I had so much fun.

God, I'm in love. He makes me feel
things I’ve never felt before.

I finally had his kisses, and they
were HEAVENLY.

I have to go!! We are moving Nat
and Dan today.

Sunday 27 August
2000

12.20pm

I'm on the beach at Kirra,
sunbaking and listening to my headphones.

It's heaven. I love the
beach.

Anyway, yesterday was a full on
day moving Nat and Dan. We didn't stop till about 7pm, then we just
drank all night, played PlayStation and watched ‘Lethal Weapon
3.’

(René Russo!! My girl
obsession!!)

Anyway, back to Friday.

Work was amazingly busy. First of
the month is just as brutal, if not more so, than end of the month.
This makes no sense to me. I would think, as a sales rep, you would
want to finish the month on an awesome note, and get all your
orders in and your figures huge. Not so. Most hang onto their
orders, and then give you 20 giant motherfucking orders on the
first of the month, so they're already way ahead of budget on the
very first day of the month. Then they can go drink margaritas
somewhere for the rest of the month.

It was crazy. I worked six till
four and went hard ALL DAY invoicing, never left my desk, except
for the ONE TIME I went to the loo. Was brutal.

It was horrible actually! I
started aching so bad again.

But Evvy DEFINITELY relaxed me
Friday night.

I got to his house about 6pm, and
he was all, "Come here," and pulled me to him in his bed, where we
just laid there, cuddling, watching Foxtel.

I could've laid there all
night.

But, he insisted we go, we'd made
plans, and judging by his "Can't do anything on Sunday cause I've
got work tomorrow" rule, he's not big on change or altering
plans.

We saw ‘Scary Movie’ at Richlands
Drive-in. That was so funny. It was weird during the movie. We were
in such close quarters, in his car, yet he didn't try a single
thing, didn't touch me at all. But on the way to the drive-in, and
after, he kept lecturing me on driving so much, and driving to the
coast every weekend, and fuel costs in a V6 Commodore.

Was so hot!!!

He was acting like a real
boyfriend… NAGGING like a real boyfriend. I love that so much. Been
forever since I've had a real boyfriend nag at me.

(and I always seem to find myself
with boyfriends that nag me, not me nagging them. Because I’m the
one that acts bad in a relationship, not the guy – except for the
domestic violence!!!!)

I just kept laughing at him,
watching how hot he looked and sounded, as he drove and nagged. But
my laughing only made him nag more, and OH GOD IT TURNED ME ON SO
MUCH!! So it was only 8.30pm once the movie finished, and Evvy
didn’t want to stay for the second movie, so we went back to his
place, swapped cars, and I drove us to Mt Cootha.

THAT came about because we were
umming and ahhing about what to do, I suggested a drive, he said
no, he's watching his fuel costs

(UGH! Freak),

I said I'll drive, he launched
into another nag, but then when we arrived at his place, I unlocked
my car, and said, "Get in!" He was all, "Oh DEAR GOD, am I gonna
die if I get in the car with you??!"

But he hopped in the passenger
seat.

(he even looks sexy in the
passenger seat)

I drove us to Mount Cootha
Lookout, stereo cranking, us both singing away, dancing, teasing
each other. Me hooning around and making him scream and pray to
God.

“
God’s not gonna help
you, Everard,” I laughed, screeching around another
bend.

“
Oh FUCK I KNEW THIS
WAS A BAD IDEA!! WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE I’M ABOUT TO DIE WHEN
I’M WITH YOU!!!!”

It was SO MUCH FUN. Those are the
moments with Evvy I treasure