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I
stopped by their house one afternoon on my way home from school. I didn’t
knock. I never knocked on their door. Their parents would have thought I’d lost
my mind had I knocked on their door. We had always had an open door policy
between our houses. I didn’t know Julia or their mother wasn’t home, I avoided
being alone with Olivia, it was easier that way.

I tapped
on Julia’s door first, and then peeked my head into the empty room. I turned,
debating on whether or not to see if Olivia was in her room.

I
knocked on her door and waited for her to tell me to enter. I was extremely
nervous, I couldn’t leave without saying hello to her.

“Come
in.” She called.

I walked
in to her coming out of her bathroom in nothing, but a towel.

“Whoa.”
I said, and immediately turned around. “Sorry, I didn’t know you were getting
out of the shower. “Where are Julia and your mom?” I asked.

She
giggled, which surprised me. I hadn’t heard her laugh in a long time.

“It’s
okay, Sebastian, you’ve seen me in a towel before. Julia had a dentist
appointment after school.”

Oh yeah,
she did tell me that, I remembered. “Yes…but, you had a bathing suit on under
it.”

“I’m
sure you’ve seen a naked girl before, Sebastian.” I could hear the attitude in
her voice, and THAT made me turn around.

“What’s
your problem?”

She
moved to her closet.

“Nothing.”

Of
course, good ole nothing which always meant something.

“Come on
Oli…talk to me. You never want to talk or hang out anymore. Anytime we all do
something, you always just stay in your room. Are you okay?”

She
grabbed a dress and started to put it on over her towel.
How do girls do
that?
  “Sebastian, it’s nothing. Most of my classes are advanced. I don’t
want to fall behind, that’s all.” Once her dress was fully on, she grabbed the
bottom of the towel and threw it on her bed.

“Don’t
give me that. This started way before school even began. You’ve been like this
for months.”

I could
feel that she was ignoring me. I grabbed her hand and made her look at me.

“Please,
stop ignoring me. I know the last time we were alone we left on bad terms, damn,
Oli these last few months have been awful. I miss seeing you, being with you, and
having you apart of my life. You’re my best friend and I can’t believe our
relationship has evolved to what it’s become. Please, let me back in. I can’t
live without you.” I said squeezing her hand, she turned and looked down at the
floor.

“Things
will never be the way they used to be, Sebastian.” She whispered, her voice
sounded like she was giving up and that made me pull her into a hug.

“Why don’t
you call me Sebby, anymore, Oli?” 

“Because,
you aren’t ‘mine’ anymore. You haven’t been mine in a long time.”

“What
are you talking about? I’m right here, aren’t I?”

“It’s
not the same, Sebastian. Everything has changed, you’ve changed, Julia’s even
changed…I want to go back to the way things used to be, when we used to play at
the waterhole. Before everything got so, complicated and confusing.”

She
moved away from me and sat on her bed. I moved to sit right beside her.

“I’m
sorry Oli, what can I do to make it better?” She looked at me and I knew that
look. I couldn’t help myself, I knew I had a girlfriend and I knew Julia could
walk in on us. Oli also meant everything to me.

 I
grabbed both sides of her face and closed the space between us.

I leaned
in and kissed her. At first it started innocently enough, after a couple
seconds she parted her mouth and started to move her lips. Her mouth became
more demanding wanting me to respond and I gently started to, which earned me a
moan from her lips. She tasted like peppermint toothpaste and I couldn’t get
enough. Her tongue was smooth and felt like silk.

I
started to lean forward. I wanted to feel her body beneath mine. The second I
was above her my hand started roaming. It started at her hair, and then
traveled down to her face. She was writhing and moaning beneath me, enticing me
to go further. My hand moved to the top of her breast and I could feel her
nipple hardening. She pushed her breast further into my hand. I immediately
stopped and pushed myself off her.

“What’s
wrong?” She said out of breath.

“Oli…this
is wrong. I have a girlfriend, and if that’s not bad enough Julia could walk in
at any second.” I responded.

She put
her hand on my chest and shook her head. “I don’t care, I want you, and I won’t
say a word to anyone. I promise. We could go somewhere, anywhere.” She tried to
lean in to kiss me. I pushed her away and got off the bed.

“What?...No…Oli
I would never use you like that. Why would you think I would be okay with
throwing you away like you were nothing?”

“I...I…would
never think that…I wasn’t suggesting that you would. I just…don’t care how I
have you…I just want you. I’ve wanted you since the first day I met you.” She
stated getting off the bed to stand in front of me.

“I can’t
do this anymore. I can’t pretend that seeing you with that girl doesn’t kill
me. I can’t pretend that being around you doesn’t affect me, and I most
certainty can’t pretend that I don’t want to be with you. I don’t fucking care
Sebastian, just be with me. I know you want to. I can see it in the way you
look at me, it’s exactly how you are looking at me right now.”

“Of
course…I do. You know I love you Oli, I just never imagined that you would want
more. I mean…that’s what you’re saying right? That you want to be with me? That
you want us to be together?” I asked. She sighed and moved back over to the
bed.

“Yes,
Sebastian. Julia would be upset at first, she would get over it. I know she
would.”

“She
wouldn’t Oli, she would hate us.”

“Sebby,
please. I know you love her too…I don’t know in what way you do, I know it’s
there.” She hesitated. “I just want to be with you in whatever way that is,
you’re the only guy I’ve ever kissed, and I want you to be my first. Can you at
least do that for me, Sebby?”

“I don’t
think I can, Oli. I can’t be with you, and not really be with you. Do you
understand?” Again the quiet, minutes went by with no talking. I willed myself
to look at her and saw tears streaming down her face. It took everything I had
not to comfort her.

“I’m
sorry.” I said, and turned and walked out of the room.

That
afternoon haunts me to this day. I can still see the hurt in her eyes. I
rejected her. I let her feel that. I caused that pain. I’m not sure I will ever
forgive myself for that.

I
sat with Julia and her parents during a very long, four hours to be precise
swim meet. Olivia was good. She was fast. I couldn’t believe how fast she
skimmed across the water like a fish. I loved to watch Olivia’s swim meets, but
they were they long. I was never so happy to see her win the last event.

“Olivia
Matthews, takes first with a 7 second lead coming in at 3 minutes 37 seconds.”
Announced the broadcaster. Oli and I still hadn’t fixed things, in reality
things became worse. We still tried to put on a normal front for Julia. It
didn’t stop Olivia from trying to get what she wanted. Oli was a vixen in her
own right.

After
the meet, Julia ran off to talk to her friends.

I
wanted to go, because I was starving. I had forgotten how long these damn meets
ran. I would have brought a snack if I had remembered. I wanted them to hurry and
I had already volunteered to drive them home, so that our parents could go out
for an adult dinner.

We
were stopping off at Pizza Hut for dinner. I was meeting Allie after and she
was going to be calling soon. What the hell, was taking Olivia so long? I had
watched her teammates leave the locker room ten minutes ago.

“Where
are you going, Sebastian?” Julia called, from her group of friends.

“To
find Oli. I’m hungry,” I called back.

I
sprinted down the hall toward the girls’ locker room to drag Olivia’s ass out
of there. I was going to starve to death soon.

“Olivia!”
I called, banging on the door. “Olivia! What are you doing?”

Olivia
opened the door wearing a towel.

“Geesh,
Sebby. I had to take a shower and wash the chlorine out of my hair.”

“Oh,
well. Okay, you about done?” I replied, tongue-tied all of a sudden. Her towel
was small it barely covered her ass. My eyes wouldn’t stop wandering down her
body. I knew what was under the towel and I wanted to see.

“Your
girlfriend probably wouldn’t approve of the way you’re staring at me,” she
accused.

“What
do you mean?” I asked. When did she step towards me? Or did I step towards her?
We were close. We were very close.

“How
many more years do you think we’re going to live in denial, Sebby?” she asked.
I could feel her words now.

“Denial?”
I asked, just above a whisper, just before my lips met hers. God I loved
kissing her, there was nothing even close to kissing Oli. I literally felt weak
in the knees. It was intense. When I kissed Allie is was nothing comparable to
when I kiss Oli. I knew why it didn’t feel like that, it was because my tongue
belonged in Oli’s mouth.

Her
tongue belonged entwined with mine. I felt the twinge in my jeans when she
moaned in my mouth. Allie never had that effect on me either.

I
nonchalantly moved away from Oli and to the side of the door, I leaned against
the wall and crossed my arms when we heard the giddy girls approaching.

“What
are you doing, Sebby. I thought we were all meeting for pizza. You’re starving,
remember?” Julia reminded me.

“Yeah,
we are. As soon as your slowpoke sister hurries up.” I said, teasingly looking
at Oli who looked flushed.

“You
leave my slowpoke sister alone. I’ll get her. You both look flushed. You guys
feeling okay?” she asked, opening the door to the locker room.

“Yeah, just
hungry,” I lied, walking away.

Fuck
that was a close one.

We went
to dinner and Julia left to go to the movies with Robert. Oli and I drove in
silence until I parked outside her driveway. I know that she heard my cell
phone getting texts the whole way home, I didn’t want to answer them in front
of her. It felt wrong.

We sat
there, neither of us saying anything, until the beep on my phone brought us out
of our thoughts.

“Damn it
Sebastian, just answer her already!” Oli yelled.

“I don’t
want to.”

“Does
she know you’re with me?”

“Why
does it matter?” I said, looking at her and cocking my head to the side.

“Ugh.
I’m sick of this shit! One minute you’re staring at me like you want to do
something, the next minute your tongue is in my mouth and your hands all over
me, and then were back to fucking ignoring each other and not talking. I can’t
do this anymore.”

“What
more do you fucking want from me Oli, I want to be with you alright! There you
fucking have it. You know I fucking want to. Goddamn it, you know it’s not easy
for me. I have Julia I have to think about, you know Julia, your sister!” I
shouted back.

“Yes,
I’m fully aware of the repercussions, Sebastian. She’s with Robert and I
deserve to be happy too. We both do. You’re just too big of a pussy to do anything
about it. You’re stringing me along and keeping me on the back burner, how
would you feel if I did that to you, huh?”

“Oli
don’t talk to me like that. Don’t talk to me like I’m a piece of shit. I’m
trying to do the right fucking thing, okay. I know Julia has Robert, and I also
know that it would severely hurt her if we got together. You know it as much as
I do.”

We went
back to not saying anything until we heard my phone texting again.

“Go
answer your girlfriend, Sebastian.” She taunted, getting out of the car and
slamming the door.

I
slammed my fists into my steering wheel before putting my car in reverse and
driving over to Allies.

Allie
and I were lying in the bed of my truck looking up at the sky. We weren’t
talking, just gazing up at the sky. I was thinking about my altercation with
Oli, I couldn’t stop thinking about her body in that towel and fuck if it
didn’t make me hard. The situation we had found ourselves in, was beyond fucked
up.

I hated
that she was upset with me. I knew I was losing her a little more after every
fight. She was right; Julia was with Robert, it didn’t matter. Julia would feel
like I betrayed her, if I were to be with Oli. I knew it in my heart she would
feel like that. As much as Julia loved Oli, she felt as though I belonged to
her or something. It was like we had some sort of silent pact or some shit, we
didn’t need to talk about it; it was just there. After the conversation with
her that afternoon, I knew it was a warning for what would happen if Oli and I
would ever get together.

“Sebastian.”
Allie said, taking me away from my thoughts.

“Mmm
hmm.”

“Are you
alright?”

“Yeah,
I’m just preoccupied with something.”

“Can I
help?”

“No you
can’t, thanks for offering. How was practice?”

“Oh it
went amazing! I’m in the lead for captain next year.”  

“That’s
great, babe.”

“So…I
was thinking…maybe we could celebrate.” She taunted, as she climbed over to
straddle me.

“Oh
yeah, what did you have in mind?”

“Well
you know…I heard some of the girls talking the other day. They were talking
about their boyfriends trying something on them and I thought maybe we could
try.”

“What
exactly did you have in mind?”

“Well
it’s not really something I would do to you, I still think that you would enjoy
it though.”

“What
are you inkling for babe?” I questioned, as I grabbed onto her hips while she
circled her hips on my dick.

“I’ve
done it to you before, now maybe it could be my turn.”

Was she
thinking what I think she was thinking? I had heard the guys talk about it
after practice.
Could I do that?
I thought I wanted to try, just to see.

I
quickly turned her around so that I was on top of her and she was beneath me. I
knew Allie loved it when I took charge.

“Are you
asking me, if I want to lick your pussy?”

“Yes.”
She moaned in response. Allie was never a shy girl, I had learned a lot, about
what girls wanted in bed from her. I also learned a lot about my own sexuality
with her, I loved talking dirty and being in control.

“Yeah…babe.
I would love to try that, spread your legs for me.” She did as I asked, and I
pulled down her skirt and panties. I was grateful I had chosen to park my car
in an empty field where we couldn’t be seen.

            I
had seen Allie naked lots of times, although, having a naked girl in front of
you never got old. I pulled her shirt off and she quickly removed her bra. She
laid back down and seductively looked at me.

            “Your
turn, take off your clothes.”

            “Later.”
I stated.

            Her
hand grabbed the back of my neck and her lips found mine. I instantly thought
of Oli, fuck I couldn’t think of Oli. I needed to stop thinking of Oli.

            I
kissed her back with as much passion as I could muster. I knew it was fucked up,
I thought of Olivia when my hand found her pussy. She was already wet for me.

            My
mouth went to her left nipple and I sucked on it until it was a hard pebble. I
did the same to the right one, and then licked my way to her belly button.

            Having
no clue what I was doing, I was nervous. Her sounds and movements dictated what
move I would make next. You can always tell the difference in a girls moans if
she likes what you’re doing or not.

As I
moved my way to her pussy, I could feel her trembling. I moved my fingers and
brought them to my mouth. Her eyes went wide when she saw what I was doing. She
tasted like something that I can't explain. I'm not sure there is a word to
describe the true taste of a female. I liked it though. I fucking loved the
taste of her pussy. It was addicting and I wanted more.

I moved
my tongue to lick from her slit to her clit and she breathlessly moaned.

“Tell me
what feels good, babe. I want this to be good for you.” I urged.

“Keep
doing that, it feels the best when you’re at the top.”

“You
mean right there.” I said, as I licked her clit.

“Yes…yes…right
there. Lick me right there.”

            “Just
lick? How about this?” I teased, as I took her clit into my mouth and nipped on
it with my teeth at first and then brought my lips around the sensitive bud and
sucked.

She weakened,
and whimpered underneath me.

“Put
your hands in my hair, babe. Move my head in the direction that feels best for
you.” I felt her hands go into my hair and fuck if it didn’t turn me on even more.

I buried
my mouth on her clit once more, and she pulled my hair to move left, then right,
and then up and down.

I licked
her opening and then moved to her clit again.

“Put
your finger inside me, Sebastian.” She breathed out desperately. I took my
middle finger and eased it inside. I pumped in and out of her gentle at first,
and then more demanding.

“Keep
sucking on me. Do what you were doing before.”

I
continued my assault on her clit, while I finger fucked her g-spot.

“Harder.”
She insisted.

I
groaned and moved my mouth harder and faster, while I pushed into her. Her legs
started shaking and her back arched.

“Oh fuck,
Sebastian…don’t stop…don’t stop.”

I felt
her walls tightening on my finger and clit becoming more swollen. Stimulating her
with light licks until the hood of her clit was drawn back and all I felt was a
nub, I sucked on it until I heard her carelessly scream my name.

I
quickly undressed myself, barely giving her time to recover. I grabbed the
condom from my wallet and shielded myself.

“Get on
your knees, babe.” She did as she was told, and I urgently and forcefully grabbed
on to her hips. I don’t remember ever being so hard, I subconsciously knew it
was because I was thinking of Olivia.

I thrusted
into her so fast that she almost fell forward.

“I’m
going to fuck you so hard.” She moaned in response. I pushed and pulled on her
hips, gliding her on my cock until I felt her so deep. She tightened around me,
I never thought I would be that turned on by going down on a girl.

“Are you
close? I don’t know if I can hold on any longer. Touch yourself, make yourself
come on my cock.” I felt her fingers below, and it only took moments until she
was trembling from her orgasm. I plunged in one more time and found my own
release.

            We
both fell over exhausted and looking at the sky. I couldn’t help, but wonder if
that would have felt different with Olivia.

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Not
knowing, what I was about to get myself into, what I was expected to look like,
or even wear I was a nervous wreck. For the first time in my life, I was like
one of those high school girls I never understood; who cared about what other
people thought and always wanted to make an impression. I did the only thing I
knew how to do. I pretended to have my shit together.
Fake it until you make
it…right?