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Waiting for Sarah
Waiting for Sarah

B
RUCE
M
C
B
AY
 & J
AMES
H
ENEGHAN

Copyright © 2003 Bruce McBay & James Heneghan

All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording or by any information storage and retrieval system now known or to be invented, without permission in writing from the publisher.

National Library of Canada Cataloguing in Publication Data
McBay, Bruce, 1946-

Waiting for Sarah / Bruce McBay, James Heneghan.

ISBN 1-55143-270-6

I. Heneghan, James, 1930- II. Title.

PS8575.B39W34 2003   jC813'.54   C2003-910089-8

PZ7.M1217Wa 2001

First published in the United States, 2003

Library of Congress Control Number:
2002117768

Summary:
After Mike loses his family and is severely injured in a car accident, he withdraws until he meets the mysterious Sarah, a girl who is not who she seems.

Orca Book Publishers gratefully acknowledges the support for its publishing programs provided by the following agencies: the Government of Canada through the Book Publishing Industry Development Program (BPIDP), the Canada Council for the Arts, and the British Columbia Arts Council.

Cover design by Christine Toller
Cover photo: jellybeanimages & Robert Youds (top)
Printed and bound in Canada

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To my mother Christina with love.
BM

For Rebecca.
JH

Our thanks to Tim Sader for his valuable input.

1 ... last word she ever spoke

In the minute before the crash, the father was squinting into the harsh yellow glare of the late afternoon sun.

The mother, seated beside him, was listening to opera music on the car radio.

In the back seat, behind the mother, the little girl was singing in a high squeal, poking fun at the music.

“Cut it out, Becky,” said the mother irritably. “I'm trying to listen. It's the last time I'll tell you.”

“Take no notice, Joanne,” the driver said. “She's over-excited.” He turned his head towards the boy seated behind him, “Calm your sister down, Mike, before she drives us all crazy.” But Mike, absorbed in his own thoughts, said nothing.

Becky continued to sing, mimicking the soprano.

Joanne's patience ran out. “Becky!” she yelled.

Her daughter's name was the last word she ever spoke. A truck came at them from the opposite side of the freeway, charging over the grass median and ramming their Chevy head-on with the force of a bomb. In the explosion of metal, plastic and glass,
the four occupants were crushed like flies, three of them fatally.

Their deaths were quick.

The lone driver of the runaway truck had been drinking all afternoon. His skull shattered the wind­shield. His death was also quick.

2 ... confused and scared

He was confused and scared.

And there was pain. No amount of drugs could take away the pain.

The nurses talked to him, but he understood nothing except he was in a hospital. He tried to ask about his parents and sister, but couldn't understand their replies. He tried to hide in sleep, but always the pain held him, teetering on the edge of consciousness.

After many days, when the pain was almost bearable, the doctor came and explained to him that he was in the Vancouver General Hospital and that they had done their best but had failed to save his legs. Which made no sense because Mike could feel his legs and feet under the covers. They were confusing him with someone else. He asked about his mom and dad and Becky, but their replies made no sense to him. It took another week for him to realize that indeed he had no legs, only bandaged stumps that ended at his knees. Again he asked about his family, and they smiled and nodded.

Later, much later, when he was off the painkillers, when they thought he was strong enough, a doctor
and a nurse and a minister gathered about his bed and gently told him that his parents and his little sister had died in the accident.

He was angry.

They tried to console him, but he swore at them and they went away.

After that he was rude to the doctors and nurses and refused to eat and after a while wouldn't speak to anyone, including his two constant visitors, his Aunt Norma and a sixteen-year-old classmate named Robbie. His aunt sat quietly and held his hand whenever she could — when he didn't push her away. Norma and Robbie came every day and talked together in whispers.

He was thin and weak and, because he would not eat, grew even weaker. He was sedated and fed intravenously.

After some weeks, having done all they could for him, the hospital sent him to the rehabilitation center. This would be his home for the next three months, or for as long as it took for him to recover his strength and learn how to walk again with the aid of prosthetics. In the meantime, he would be expected to move about as much as possible in a wheelchair.

But he didn't want to learn how to walk on artificial legs, didn't want a wheelchair, didn't want anything. He threw plates of food at the wall and sometimes at the nurses. In wild tantrums, he yelled and swore at the doctor and nurses and refused to speak with other patients, snarling and snapping at them if they came too close. They soon learned to avoid him. He refused to use a wheelchair or move
from his bed. He soiled his bed and clothing rather than ask for bathroom help. His record was marked:
Extrem. Diffic.

He didn't care. He was alone in his grief. He thought of his parents and Becky and couldn't believe they were gone away from him, disappeared, dead. He could not understand why he had survived; to be alive without them was an agony, a cancer, a fury. He lay on his bed, staring at the ceiling, refusing to speak or eat, ordering his heart to stop beating so his departed family would come to claim him and bear him away.

Aunt Norma and Robbie continued to visit him every day. There were other visitors too — from his school — but he refused to see them.

“You've got to eat, Mike,” said Aunt Norma. “I've brought you some bananas and ice-cream; I know you like that.”

“And I brought your favorite, Mike,” said Robbie, “a Triple-O White Spot burger. You're gonna love it, man.”

But he wouldn't eat. His aunt and his friend took the food away.

The Rehab Center staff were patient. They wore him down. Eventually, after two months, he started to speak and eat. He became less difficult, more accepting: He stopped throwing food at the walls and swearing at the nurses; he learned how to move from his bed to a wheelchair and from his wheelchair to his bed, how to wheel himself about, how to take care of himself. But he still kept the world at a distance, growling at everyone, patients, staff and visitors alike,
and only occasionally reverting to episodes of anger and self-pity whenever frustrated by his own weakness and physical limitations.

He felt pain in his shins and ankles. “How could that be?” he complained. Dr. Ryan told him that the feeling of pain in his legs was a normal phenomenon.

“But I don't have any damn legs!”

“You know it, Mike, and I know it, but your brain is not yet convinced.”

He stared. “But what the ...”

“Relax, it's normal. The common name for it is ‘phantom limbs.' As far as your brain is concerned, Mike, your legs are still there. But they're only phantom legs. Sensory ghosts, if you like. It's because of the nerve endings in your thighs. Those nerves supplied your legs. They're not forgotten by your brain. Your brain is sometimes fooled into thinking your legs are still there. You understand?”

“No, I don't understand,” he said angrily. “How come I can wiggle my toes?”

“The nerve endings are frayed, like when you cut an electric cable, and they've formed scar tissue, called neuromas. They can be painful. They send impulses — messages — back to the area in your brain that controls toe movements. The same with feelings in other parts of your legs.”

“When will the feelings go away?”

“Impossible to say. Some amputees feel nothing. Others experience painful episodes for months, sometimes years. Each case is different.”

“Phantom limbs! Hah!” He spat out a swear word, and turned away.

“Wait, Mike!” said Dr. Ryan.

He stopped and swiveled round to face the doctor, a scowl on his face.

“I want to get you fitted for prosthetics. The sooner you start ...”

“Wooden legs? Are you kidding? I'm not interested!”

“Mike. Wait!”

This time he didn't wait, but swore and spun rudely away and wheeled furiously out of the examination room.

He sometimes wheeled himself outside the gates of Rehab to an adjacent park, where he sat out of sight in the greenery and watched the children playing basketball while he shrank into himself like a garden snail.

3 ... a pointless waste of time

Leaving the Rehab Center was not hard: he hated the place. From now on he would live with his Aunt Norma.

Norma McCleod lived alone at the Leinster Housing Co-operative at False Creek. Because of Mike, and co-op by-laws, she had recently exchanged her one-bedroom unit for one with two bedrooms, on the third, and top, floor. The rooms were small and, like many other new buildings in Vancouver, the Leinster Co-op was having problems with leaks. As well, third-floor residents complained of constant and unpleasant curry odors. On the positive side, the building was close to shopping and the city center. Norma worried that Mike might not like the place and, never having had the responsibility of looking after another person, also worried whether she would be able to cope with her nephew's black moods and physical limitations. She knew she was taking on a lot. Would she be up to the job? That was her greatest fear. A physiotherapist and a counselor and other experts from the Rehab Center, and
people from the Ministry of Human Resources, had visited the co-op, asking Norma the same kinds of questions, bringing her books and pamphlets and suggesting changes to the apartment. They advised her to join a support group at the center. Carpenters and builders came and widened doorways for the wheelchair — the entrance to the apartment, the bathroom and Mike's room. They also installed two automatic pocket doors, lowered a section of kitchen counter, lowered kitchen cupboards and installed other special equipment such as handrails in the bathroom. Carpeting was removed to make way for wood floors.

Her misgivings were confirmed almost right away. Though Mike seemed not to mind his small room, once installed, he refused to leave the building.

“But you've got to go out, Mike. The fresh air and exercise will do you good.”

“No, it won't.”

“And you must start thinking of going back to school.”

“I don't want to go back to school.”

Norma was dismayed. “But you've got to go back.”

“No, I don't.”

“But Mike, what about graduation?” his aunt pleaded.

“I don't care about graduation.”

That was all he would say.

Early one morning there was a knock on the door. Norma had just left for work.

“Who is it?” he asked through the closed door.

“District Services for Mike Scott. My name's Taylor.”

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