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VIKING
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First published in 2009 by Viking, a member of Penguin Group (USA) Inc.
Copyright © Amy Efaw, 2009
All rights reserved
“Waves” copyright © Connie K. Walle, quoted by permission of Connie K. Walle.
“Treasure This Moment” copyright © W.J. “Bill” Richstein, quoted by permission of Connie K. Walle.
“Happiness Waits” copyright © Ree Ivan, quoted by permission of Connie K. Walle.
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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.

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To “Baby Nick” and “Baby Vaughn,” and to the countless babies who were never found and have no names
AND
To the girls at Remann Hall
“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne?”
Isaiah 49:15 (NIV translation)
chapter one
The TV’s on, some lame morning show. The reception’s lousy, and the sound’s off. But Devon isn’t really watching, anyway. More like staring blankly at the screen, the figures passing before her eyes in pantomime, signifying nothing.
She is lying there on the couch, a blanket tightly wrapped around her. Her body drained, her mind empty. She hears drizzle brush the windows, a steady, soothing sound. The gray morning has seeped through the miniblinds into the room. But she doesn’t mind. Somehow, to her, the gloominess feels right. Perfect.
Her eyelids droop slowly. Then close.
Keys rattle outside.
Her eyes snap open. She blinks, confused. Her arms, legs, stomach jitter from the sudden sound. She feels shaky and cold and sick. She just might puke.
“Damn it!”
A voice. Somebody’s there! Devon jerks her head to look behind her, toward the door. Her body tenses. One heartbeat. Two.
“Oh, that’s it! I have . . .
had
it!”
But then . . . Devon breathes again, collapses back into the couch. It’s only her mom’s voice, talking to herself. And accompanying the voice is the familiar sound of struggle, that fighting against the dead bolt because her mom’s last boyfriend kicked the door in. Their landlord did the repair—a shoddy job—and the door’s never been right since.
“I’m . . . not paying . . . that shyster . . . another buck . . . till he gets his worthless . . .
butt
. . . up here . . . and fixes this door. I mean it! Not . . . one . . . more . . . miserable . . . buck!”
The thought that she should help her mom with the door vaguely drifts through Devon’s mind. It’s easier to work from the inside. Then another thought—that she should get off the couch, escape to her room—comes, too. But she just can’t seem to make her body move.
“Yeah, I’ll tell him where he can put his—”
The door bursts open, slams shut.
“Devon?”
Devon pulls her blanket tighter around herself.
“You’re not at school?”
Devon doesn’t answer. She’s turned her eyes back to the TV. Back on the grinning faces.
“Devon? Hey . . .” Her mom yanks the cord on the miniblind nearest the door. Gray light eclipses the dimness and stretches for the darker corners of the room. “You okay?”
Clunk-plunk
—Devon’s mom has kicked off her shoes. Devon hears her mom heading her way, hears the muted footfalls across the stained carpet. It’s not far to go, only about five steps from the door to the couch. In seconds, Devon senses her mom bending over her, feels that blonde hair pricking her face. Breathes in that mixture of dampness and cheap perfume, cigarettes and spearmint gum that makes up her mom’s smell. Her mom had promised Devon that she had quit smoking “weeks and weeks ago.” But here’s the proof—she’d lied. Again.
“Come on, Dev—I slave away all night long and see my daughter for the first time in days, and there’s not even one little ‘hello’? Or something?” She waits a moment. “Not feeling good, hon?” She slaps an icy hand across Devon’s forehead and holds it there briefly, considering. Then she shrugs. “Well, staying home’s just not like you, Dev. But it’s really nice you’re here.”
Devon turns her dark eyes upward to look at her mom, still leaning over her. Devon manages a smile, a faint one. Then shrinks away, deeper into the couch.
Satisfied somehow, her mom stands. “Sheeze. What a miserable night.” She sighs loudly, slumping into the ratty recliner—the sole contribution that last boyfriend had made to the place and left behind when he’d split. “I’m telling you, one of these days? I’m quitting graveyard. You’ll see. . . .”
Her mom blabs away about work, rehashing all the mundane drama from her night job at Safeway, but Devon isn’t comprehending much. Can’t hold on to the words. She keeps her eyes fixed on the TV, on the soundless Regis and Kelly miming a coffee taste-test—Starbucks, Peet’s, Millstone, Seattle’s Best—with open-mouth laughter, lips moving, eyes flirty, teasing each other.
Devon’s mom gets up abruptly, startling Devon. Devon’s eyes follow as her mom heads for the kitchen, still talking. “Oh, so get this—this morning. I step off the bus, right? And this place is like absolutely crazy. Ambulances, red lights flashing, everything. All these people just standing around . . . ”
Devon’s mind struggles to keep pace with her mom’s mouth. She can feel herself slipping away again, but she makes the effort to stick with her. She forces her eyes open, focusing them back on the TV—needing something to anchor her to the conscious world. A commercial flickers across the screen. Four women are playing tennis; the sun is bright in some warm place.
“So, of course I’ve got to know what the big deal is, right?”
Devon can hear the faucet running in the kitchen now, the banging open of a cabinet.
Making Ovaltine
, Devon thinks. Half water, half milk—like always. Her mom’s “sleepy time” snack.
“So I see one of them. You know, in plainclothes? You can tell what he is by the haircut. So obvious. Do they even think they’re fooling anyone? But not bad-looking by the way—”
The TV is pushing some health club now, a ponytailed woman with a huge smile and great abs kickboxes—kick, punch, jab.
“—putting up that yellow tape stuff around that garbage can out back. Not the one where we dump our trash, but the other one. The big one. You know, farther down the alley . . .”
Her mom’s voice cuts in and out. From far away, then very, very close. Dead air in between. Like a cell phone conversation with a bad signal.
“ . . . I go up to him . . . ask what’s going on . . .”
The microwave beeps. Devon flinches. She hears the door to the microwave open then, hears it shut. Hears her mom stir in the Ovaltine, a spoon clinking against the sides of a mug.
“You won’t believe this, Devon.”
Devon thinks of the swirling brown milk. Swirling . . . swirling . . . a vortex of brown, swirling milk. She fights the dizziness . . . closes her eyes.
“You just won’t believe what they found in the trash.”
Trash.
Devon feels a vague anxiety slice through her mind. Trash . . . something about that word . . . And the thought seeps away.
“Poor helpless thing. Thrown out like last night’s pizza crusts . . .”
Pizza?
How has the conversation turned to “pizza”? Devon’s mind is still way back somewhere with some not-so-bad-looking guy and Ovaltine. And trash. Her body feels so heavy. So cold . . .
“But I didn’t get to see it because—check this out—it was still alive! They’d already rushed it to the hospital.”
Pizza at the hospital? Devon’s eyes are mere slits now, and they watch vacantly as her mom approaches from the kitchen. She’s being careful with her mug, stepping delicately all the way back to the recliner. She stops at the couch, peers at Devon again. Brings her mug to her lips and slurps.
Please, Mom. Just go away. Leave me here alone. So tired . . .
“The weird thing is, we probably know the person that did it. We’ve probably passed that person a million times on the way to the laundry or something. Or on the bus. That person probably looks one hundred percent normal, too. Creepy. There are so many freaking weirdos around. You just have no idea. They come through the checkout at the Safeway all night long. . . . ”
Silence is what finally jars Devon alert, a complete void of noise. Devon shifts under her blanket, turning to look over at her mom. She’s kicked back in the recliner now, her empty mug on the floor, carelessly dropped and rolled over on its side. Devon can see the ring of chocolate on the inside.
Her mom catches her eye and says, “Oh, this is just great, Dev. Don’t you think? We can have some quality family time today. You should get sick more often.” She laughs, then waits for Devon to say something.
Devon turns back to the TV
“Well, I’m not all that tired yet. I’ve got a couple of hours of unwinding to do before I can even
think
about crawling into bed.” She pauses. “So, what do you want to do?” She pauses again. “We could get a movie. I could make popcorn. We haven’t done that in a long time. That would be fun, huh? A movie and popcorn?”
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