All Things Lost (11 page)

     
“Why are you telling me all this?”

     “I thought maybe…you work for that detective now, right?”

     “You thought what?”

     “I thought maybe you could…investigate this, find the real killer.”

     
“You what?”

     “I thought maybe…”

     “The last time I wanted to help someone look into a murder you almost broke up with me. And that was your cousin! Now you're asking me to help Caleb? You who said it
was
too dangerous? You who said it
was
stupid to go after a killer? And now you want me to help get your new boyfriend off?”

     “He's not my boyfriend. Look, maybe this was a mistake, but he is my friend and he needs help. Please, Killian.”

     “What do you want me to do? I'm a secretary for this guy. I'm not a real detective.”

     “Then ask him to help. I have to do something. If you won't help then I'll have to do this by myself.”

     I sighed. “No, don't do that. I'll help. But don't expect Novak to help. He gets paid for this. He's not going to just do this on his spare time.”

     “Thanks, Killian. I mean it.”

     
“Yeah, whatever.
It's not a big deal, I'm not promising anything. What do you want to do?”

     “It is a big deal, especially to Caleb. I don't know what to do first. You're better at this than I am.”

     “Well, I guess I need to know as much about what happened as possible. And I'll need to meet Caleb. And probably I'll need to see where it happened too. Not that I know what I'm looking for, but they always do that on TV. This is stupid. Like I'm going to find something the police missed.”

     “Ask your boss; maybe he'll be able to give you some pointers.”

     
“Yeah, pointers, sure.”

     “Killian, thanks. I mean it.”

     “You've already said that.”

     “You're mad aren't you?”

     “Asher, I have to get back to work,” I said looking at my empty desk and the paperback book I'd been reading before Judy came in.

     He sighed, “Ok, I'll talk to you later, right?”

     
“Yeah.
Bye.” I hung up and slumped forward onto my desk. What was I getting myself into? How was I going to catch a killer? I hadn't been so successful at that particular endeavor the other times I'd tried. I'd almost ended up dead the first time and the second time someone I cared about did die. And then there was Novak. How was I going to bring this up to him without looking like a total dork? And most importantly, why had I been such a jerk to Asher?

     
“Why me?”
I moaned softly.

     “It's your destiny, love,” Judy murmured sympathetically into my ear. I jumped, sitting up with a jolt and just narrowly missing giving Judy a crack in the nose with the back of my skull.

“You scared me,” I said accusingly.

“Sorry, dear,” she said.

“What do you mean it's my destiny?”

     “Surely you've noticed by now.”

     “Noticed what?”

     “That you are a seeker.”

     
“A what?”

     
“A seeker.
You seek the truth. You weren't satisfied with a lie when your friend Seth died and you sought the truth despite the very real dangers that waited on your chosen path.”

     “Why do you always talk in riddles,” I said testily.

     She smiled. “I'll be seeing you.” She waggled her fingers at me and breezed out the door.

“Your friend is a very unique lady,” Novak said from behind me.

“No kidding,” I said sourly.

“I couldn't help but overhear part of your conversation on the phone there. Someone you know died?”

“Not exactly.”

“They didn't exactly die?”

“I didn't exactly know them. Did you hear about the guy who got chopped up and then burned?”

“Yeah, his kid did it, right?”

“So the police are saying. He's saying he didn't do it.”

“Wow, now there's a first. What's your involvement?”

“My friend knows the kid. He doesn't think he did it either.”

“And?”

“He wants me to find who really killed him.”

“Don't you think that's what the police are for?”

     “That's what I told Asher.”

     “Good.”

     “But he didn't listen. So I kind of agreed to help him.”

     “Not good. Look kid, I would have thought you would have learned your lesson when it comes to messing with psycho killers. The lesson, in case you missed it, is you don't mess with psycho killers. They're psycho, that's why they call them psycho killers. And this kid is a bona fide psycho. Anyone who can chop up their own father and then set him on fire is certifiably
nutso
. Besides you don't have any real experience.”

     “But you do.”

     
“Uh-uh, no way José.
You want advice? I'll give it to you for free. Stay out of this.”

     “It's not that simple,” I said miserably.

     “Sure it is. Just say no.”

     “Thank you, Nancy Reagan. If I don't do this Asher will do it himself. I can't let him do that.”

     “Why is this so important to Ashley?”

     “Asher,” I corrected, “and it's complicated.”

     “Try me. I'm a detective, remember? I bet I can follow.”

     I shifted uncomfortably. I wasn't sure how he would take the news that I was gay. From my observations of him during the brief time I'd worked there he seemed to be a pretty open minded, fair guy. But he was of a different generation too, a generation that wasn't as comfortable with homosexuality. I decided to be as vague as possible.

     “Asher and I have a long history. We've been friends since we were little kids.”

     “That still doesn't explain why he's so keen on getting this kid off.”

     I sighed and fumbled around in my mind, looking for the right words.

     “Let me guess, you and this Asher were romantically involved?”

     I felt my eyes widen in surprise and my heart began to hammer in my chest.

     “Did you think I wouldn't approve? Hey, it's none of my business; it's your private life. But for the record, my grandson is gay and I've done my research. I can't say I totally understand it, but then I don't have to. I do know I love my grandson and it doesn't make a bit of difference who he loves.”

“I didn't know you had grandkids,” I said weakly.

“Just two.
My wife and I had one daughter and she has two children. Shane, named after me,” he said with a proud grin, “is the one I was talking about. He's about your age I'd guess. And then there's Paige, she's 15. The live in
Alexandria
, that's in
Virginia
, near DC.”

“Oh.”

“Was I right?”

“About Asher and I?
Yeah. We dated for over a year and half.”

“Dated?
As in past tense?”

“Yeah, past tense.
We broke up a few weeks ago.”

“None of my business but did it have anything to do with this other kid?
The psycho?”

“No, at least I don't think so. It was just…stuff.”

“Ok, butt out Shane.”

“I didn't mean…”

“Sure you did, and you're right. It's none of my business. I didn't mean to be a
buttinsky
. I don't get to see my grandkids very often and you remind me a bit of Little Shane. I guess I'm just being overly paternal”

“It's ok.”

“Tell you what; if you're hell-bent on looking into this mess, against my advice I might add, I'm not
gonna
send you to the lions without some training. I don't have a lot of spare time, as you know my caseload is a little heavy right now, but when I do get a few minutes I'll help you out. Start teaching you some tricks of the trade and all that. What do you say?”

 “What do you get out of it?” I asked cautiously.

He grinned, “As soon as you get some experience under your belt I'll dump some of this shit work on you.”

“You mean I'd actually handle cases?” I said in amazement.

“Don't get too excited. For the most part, as I'm sure you couldn't help but notice, detective work is one big yawn. Lots of research, lots of grunt work, lots of sitting around doing nothing. It's not what you see on TV. But if you work hard and show an aptitude for it, I'd be more than happy to take you on as an apprentice. In Maryland, you have to have three years of experience as an investigator before you can be licensed, so you won't be out on your own right off the bat; if that's even what you want.”

“But I'd be a detective?”

Novak laughed, “Yes, you'd be a real live detective. What courses are you taking at college this fall?”

“Well, I hadn't decided
on a major yet, just general studies
.”

“Think about taking some criminal justice or journalism courses. A photography course would be very helpful. Our business is collecting data and it's important to be able to document that information.
If they have any courses on electronic equipment that might be good too.”

“I don't know if they offer all those where I'm going. I'll look into it.”

“Good, we'll make a PI out of you before it's all over.”

I'm sure I was grinning like an idiot but I didn't care. I knew then that this was what I wanted more than anything. I wanted to be a detective.

“So, tell me more about this murder case?” Novak continued, “What do you know about it?”

“Next to nothing.”

“Good, there's no time like the present to begin learning research techniques. You can start by going to the newspaper and seeing what they have on file. I'll make a couple calls to my PD connections and see what the ground level buzz is on the case.”

“You have police connections?”

“I'd better. I was a cop for longer than you've been alive. And no good investigator worthy of the name would be caught dead without a couple good contacts at the station. I'll take you there one day and introduce you around.”

“I may know some of them,” I said dryly.

“I keep forgetting you're not exactly green when it comes to the whole investigation scene.”

“I'm far from experienced though.”

“Well, the first step is getting background. We need to know as many facts as we can about what happened. And I mean evidence, not just suspicions and theories, although they have their place too.”

     “What do I do?”

     “Go to the newsroom at the Chesapeake Times and tell them you want to look at the issues starting when the story first broke. Tell them you're working for me; they know me there.”

     “What am I looking for?”

     
“Anything and everything to do with the case; names, dates, location, the officer in charge of the investigation, what they think happened, whatever you can get.”

     He gave me directions and sent me off after telling me to keep record of my mileage on the car. I was driving Adam's, as mine was still incapacitated. I didn't have any trouble getting the newspapers, but as the story began to unfold bit by tortured bit I found myself more and more horrified and less and less sure I wanted to be involved.

     The first story, reported several days earlier, was just a brief account of a house fire in which the firemen said there was at least one victim. No cause of the fire was reported. By the very next day the deceased had moved from the status of an accidental victim of a tragic fire to murder victim. Details were still sketchy at this point. It seemed investigators were staying pretty tight lipped.

     The full story broke on day three. The police released full details of the man, Ira Cohen, a night deskman at a run-down hotel on the edge of town. His earthly remains had been found at the heart of the fire, but he hadn't died in the fire. It seemed that before the fire had been started old Ira had been hacked apart. My stomach
lurched
just thinking about it. It was also reported that an accelerant had been used to set the blaze.

     A clearer picture of Mr. Cohen began to appear in yesterday's paper. He had a record of minor infractions;
DUI's
, disorderly conduct and barroom brawls, but it seemed he didn't limit his brawling to the barroom. There were records of several investigations into allegations of child abuse, but nothing ever came of any of them.

     The article ended with the mention that Mr. Cohen's son, Caleb, had been picked up for questioning regarding the murder and fire.

     With a sigh, I closed the tablet I'd been using to take notes, now with several pages full of my sprawling handwriting. I thanked the staff that had helped me and drove back to the office.