Allie's War Season Four (14 page)

Revik didn’t answer.

The four seers behind him fought to grab hold of his shoulders and arms. Jorag even grabbed him around the waist. Jon glimpsed Garensche fighting to get an arm around Revik’s throat, too, even as Garend joined Illeg in trying to capture his arms. He saw Jorag’s muscular arm slide around Revik’s neck a second later, succeeding where Garensche had failed. Jorag didn’t manage to get a lock on him before Revik moved, fast as a cat, and nearly as graceful, even now.

He lunged out of the chair, directly at Jon.

Jon saw two of the seers holding him let go of Revik’s arms. He heard Jorag curse. Balidor shouted something from the other room, where he’d likely been watching the proceedings through another pane of that one-way glass.

More seers shouted, and Wreg yelled louder.

“Stop! Illustrious Sword... stop!”

He saw Loki and Garend fight to get between them.

Revik looked only at Jon.

He regained his feet in a fighter’s crouch, moving so fast Jon couldn’t make sense of how he managed to get ahead of the others. Jon felt a rush of electrical current, something that pained his ears and head, that throbbed there, inside his skull, that felt like it would knock him out cold. A ringing sound filled his ears. He watched Wreg try to wrestle Revik back, to shove at his chest. Wreg’s muscular palms slammed into Revik’s sternum, hard, even as other hands grabbed Jon’s own arms, yanking him backwards, towards the other door leading out of the room.

Confused, Jon jerked his eyes briefly back, over his own shoulder. He glimpsed Yumi’s face, saw Loki with her now, along with Tenzi, a Tibetan-looking member of the Seven’s guard. Jon fought them, mindless, without being able to articulate to himself why.

He deserved this. He deserved this... nothing more.

He’d fucked up... again. He’d taken Allie from Revik. Again.

Tears came to his eyes at the thought. They stung his eyes, running down his cheeks, but he didn’t look away from Revik’s face.

The whole thing happened around him in a kind of disjointed slow motion, but he knew, only now, that bare seconds had passed. In those seconds, everything grew almost silent, almost outside of Jon’s body altogether. He struggled to care what they did to him... what Revik wanted to do. He felt the fury on Revik, a kind of insanity broken by grief and pain, woven into that electrical current...

And then, Jon felt nothing.

Revik’s eyes rolled up.

Jon watched Revik fall.

He stared, uncomprehending, as Revik’s legs stopped working, as he struggled to move past whatever slowed him down. His entire six-and-a-half foot frame tensed, straining in every way imaginable... and then it simply and abruptly crumpled. He dropped to the carpeted floor only a few yards from where Yumi and Loki had managed to drag Jon.

Jon winced, seeing Revik hit his head on the arm of the red leather recliner. He saw Revik’s body jerk as the blow knocked his head and neck. The pain Jon felt as he watched it happen sucked the air from his lungs.

He cried out, hearing the anguish in his voice.

“No!” he screamed. “No! No! Gods... don’t...” He fought against Yumi and the others, even as he saw the two red-ended darts sticking out of Revik’s back. “Gods! Don’t hurt him, please! Hurt me! Hurt
me!”

Wreg looked back at Jon’s words, his eyes turning abruptly bright.

Jon barely noticed. It was too late. It was too late for anything.

Behind where Revik lay, Balidor was already lowering the rifle.

“No!” Jon yelled, screaming it at Balidor that time, wanting to hurt the other seer, to hurt all of them for blaming Revik for this. He had done this. Jon. Him. This was
his
fault.

The whole fucking thing was his fault.

“No!” Jon yelled the word again, not even sure why that time, even as he burst into a sob.

It was the only word that made sense to him.

He crumpled there, on the floor, feeling broken. Wanting to die. Wanting it so badly. Wreg held him in his arms, shoving the others off him, rocking him there, caressing his hair. Jon didn’t have the energy to push him away. He lay there, sobbing, curled up on the other seer’s lap.

He fought to breathe, gasping, feeling more pain than he could process.

He remembered the anger in Allie’s eyes, the way she’d stared at him, as if he’d hurt her by his mere presence there, in her perfect, sunlit world.

As if Jon had hurt her simply by reminding her that he still existed.

It only hit him then, as Wreg continued to cradle him, murmuring to him in a language Jon didn’t know...that Allie was still alive. She hadn’t left them, not entirely.

Allie was still here.

5

A HAUNTED HOUSE

July 18, 2007

San Francisco, California

“JESUS, ALLIE...” HE opens the door wide, wearing a white T-shirt and faded jeans. His blond hair is back in a ponytail, and his feet are bare, oddly white in the dim light of his foyer. When I see him standing there, I find myself fighting tears, the instant I stare up at his face.

He doesn’t speak, doesn’t waste time at all, but walks directly to me, reaching me in two steps, wrapping his strong, kung fu-toned arms around me. Those arms still surprise me, even when I just see them under his T-shirts and sleeveless gees.

I know this is because I still primarily see him in my mind the way I remember him when we were kids. Maybe some part of me will never let go of those early images I carry of my brother, back when we spent every day together, back when I and my parents and most of our neighborhood friends still called him ‘Bug.’ Back when Jon wore those thick, coke-bottle glasses and ripped up converse sneakers that he obsessively drew on with magic markers.

Back then, Jon had arms that Dad affectionately dubbed ‘spider legs,’ and his hands and feet always looked too big for the rest of him.

Jon had been one of those kids who spent most of his time with his nose in a book, at least when he wasn’t obsessing on his microscope. He used to drag me along with him for hours on those weekends, and I’d help him collect specimens to peer at through the magnifier. Most of those specimens came from Golden Gate Park, but some came from the sidewalk planters, too, as well as the UC campus and even Alamo Square.

We looked at bugs, grass, snails, bird wings, feathers, flowers...

But Jon is different now.

He changed somewhere, somehow, while I wasn’t looking.

“Are you alone?” I stammer, still clutching my ribs with my arms.

“Allie...what happened? Jesus, you look like you’re freezing to death.”

“The bike,” I say, shivering. “Are you alone?” I repeat stubbornly, knowing how terrible I must look, what the rain and wind and mud have done to my crappy, Mission District, fake antique dress, not to mention the make-up that Mom spent all that time applying to my eyes and cheeks, and that still lives in tatters on my face and hair.

Thinking about Mom, I squeeze my ribs tighter, feeling like I want to die.

No wonder Jaden didn’t want our families and friends along for this. No wonder he wanted to go up there just the two of us, on his motorcycle in the middle of the night.

How fitting that it rained most of the way back to California.

All I can think about is how there’s no way I can face my mom now, not after all of her well-wishing and words of caution, her attempts to get me to think over what I was doing. How can I explain any of it, in a way that won’t bring that look of grief and pity to her eyes, and likely anger at Jaden, maybe a hatred of Jaden, a prejudice against him that she might not ever be able to get over? Of course, Jon would never forgive Jaden, either.

“He didn’t show,” Jon says. He pulls me firmly inside his flat, shutting the door behind me. I am shivering uncontrollably now, and he must see it, because he calls back over his shoulder. “Trey! Can you bring me a blanket? Or wait...one of the big towels. The blue one.”

I feel my heart crumple. “Shit. You have company.”

“I won’t in a minute,” Jon says firmly.

He continues to rub my arms and shoulders with his bare hands, his hazel eyes following the other man as he walks down the hall from the other room, carrying a large, ridiculously fluffy, sky-blue towel.

“What’s going on?” Trey says, glancing nervously at me. He gives me a tentative smile. “What’s up, gorgeous? You look so...Elvira right now.”

Jon’s voice hardens. “You said you had to go...right Trey?”

The other man blinks, his eyes roughly blank. After a pause, he nods though, seeming to understand the expression on Jon’s face. “Yes. Yes, of course.” Recovering, he smiles at me, but it’s strained that time. “Of course. It’s really good to see you, Allie dear...”

Leaning over me, he kisses my cheek.

I let out a humorless snort. “Yeah. Right.”

Winking, Trey gives me another devilish grin. He’s a hot guy, different from Jon in that he knows it, with his dark blue eyes, wheat-blond hair and chiseled face and body. He’s one of the pretty people of the Castro, the type who now follow Jon around like puppies, although Jon still doesn’t seem to know quite what to do with that crowd still, much less how to deal with all the attention he receives. I haven’t had the nerve to ask him if he’s enjoying all the sex he seems to get handed to him these days; I know he’s not exactly insecure about being gay, but he’s also not used to being quite so sexually successful, either.

In high school, things had been pretty different for Jon.

Right now, Trey hovers over Jon like Jon is his new favorite toy, one he’s afraid the other children will notice, and try to steal from him when he’s not paying attention.

He doesn’t even seem that thrilled to have competition from me.

I look up at Jon as he takes the towel from his boyfriend’s hands without seeming to notice the attention there, unfolding it with a jerk and a snap before wrapping the thick material around me. Without looking away from my face, Jon begins rubbing my shoulders and arms again through the cloth.

“Not very ninja-like, bro,” I murmur to him, as Trey retreats into the other room to gather his things, including his designer jacket. “...You don’t have to kick him out, you know. It’s fine. I can just take a shower or something, wait for you.”

Ignoring my words, Jon steers me into his living room, which has to be three times the size of my crappy apartment in the Fillmore. Bringing me over to the couch, Jon sits me down, plunking down next to me and only sparing a glance for Trey, who is already heading for the front door and the street outside.

I see the other man frown slightly as he gives Jon a once-over, looking at the two of us where we sit close together on Jon’s suede sectional couch.

Truthfully, I can’t make myself care about that right then, either, despite what I voiced to Jon only a few seconds earlier. It isn’t the first time me or Jon has chosen the needs of one another over the wants of a lover. It tends to be a bit of a standing gripe, actually, with me and Jon’s boyfriends, that Jon and I will put one another first, over any of them.

It’s a gripe of Jaden’s, too.

Maybe it’s even especially a gripe for Jaden.

“He didn’t show,” Jon repeats, his voice harder after the door clicks shut behind Trey.

I shake my head, feeling my chest clench. “He showed.”