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Authors: Catherine Dunne
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Mary carried the tea things back into the bright kitchen at Abbotsford. Hannah had told her to take some time, have her tea in peace. She sat gratefully, suddenly tired by the
heat, the quarrelling of the children, the strangeness of the atmosphere in this new place. She sighed. She wanted to be gone, well away from here; something was making her uncomfortable and she
couldn’t quite put her finger on it. The divil ye know, she thought, is better than the divil ye don’t. And she was getting along quite happily in Holywood. She couldn’t ask for
more, really. She had kindness, food, shelter, something approaching love from the four children. It was what she’d chosen, after all, what she’d hoped for some ten years back. It
didn’t make up for the loss of Cecilia; but then, nothing could do that.
As she waited for the water to boil, Mary heard a strange ticking sound behind her. She turned, and saw the orange and brown-streaked wings of a butterfly flapping wildly against the dusty
windowpane. Time and again, it dashed its frail, shell-like body against the glass, searching for air and freedom.
She stood up.
‘C’mere,’ she said softly, scooping its papery lightness into her cupped hands. ‘Ye’ll knock yerself senseless doin’ that.’
She walked to the back door and opened her hands. The butterfly seemed to stagger in flight for a moment, unsure of itself and the sudden sunlight. Then it disappeared into the dense foliage of
the laurel trees. Mary watched it go. Her eyes were drawn back downwards again, to the picnic scene on the lawn. Hannah was watching the children, minding them in her absence, as she had promised.
Miss May was still unmoving, her body looking even more tense and delicate from this distance. She looked as though she was carved out of something brittle. Poor woman, Mary thought; her fragility
had reminded her more than once of Cecilia during her last days. And there was Miss Eleanor, scribbling away as usual. A kind woman, Mary thought, but almost too efficient, too
virtuous
in
her caring. One with a secret, though. Of that she was sure.
The kettle suddenly whistled in the background and Mary turned to go back inside. Two more days of this, and then back to Holywood.
She’d be glad to be home.
Richard had had enough of everyone. He knew he’d been unwise to bow to May’s insistence that her sisters come and visit, but she had given him no peace. Her
normally gentle nature had changed recently: she seemed to become pettish, almost childlike, if she thought he was about to deny her anything. He knew she was conscious of him watching her. He
couldn’t help it. Her absences from him, from their life together, were becoming more and more frequent. Every time it happened, she seemed to move further away from him: it was as though
something was drawing her away from all that was solid and earthy, and both of them were powerless to stop it.
He had thought she would come back to him, after the day he’d found her standing in her nightgown, among the laurel trees. He had been joyful then, filled with hope that he could give her
another child, that he could put back together the pieces of her life which had shattered that afternoon beside the lake-boat. It had not happened. He felt suddenly old, too old.
He counted the minutes until everyone would be gone. He wanted his wife and his home back to himself, so that he could watch her, cherish her, protect her.
I must finish for now. I shall be home to you soon. I have had much time for reflection here, despite the activities of my nieces and nephews, and my growing concern for
May.
My thoughts keep going back to the first day we met, almost five years ago now. I can still see the hard, narrow beds in the nurses’ home right next to each other. I remember that I
recognized your accent at once, caught the fleeting shadow of something familiar.
‘Are you from Belfast?’
I spoke very softly, already intimidated by the authoritarian frostiness of our recent welcome. Sister had just left us in no doubt as to the standards of cleanliness, neatness and
godliness that were expected from all of us as a matter of course. We were surrounded by rows and rows of grey-blanketed beds, the white walls bare and cheerless. Some forty girls were already
unpacking bags and trunks in a silence which had quickly become uneasy. Do you remember, Stella? Do you remember how you looked across at me and smiled broadly?
‘Bangor,’ you said. ‘And you?’
‘Dublin, and Belfast too.’
We quickly shared all we had in common, words tumbling over each other in their eagerness to get said, to establish a connection, to claim each as the other’s friend at once before
anyone else could take either of us away. I felt that I had discovered a small piece of home; your presence was like having a smooth stone or shell in my pocket as a talisman – something
which I could touch and hold whenever comfort was needed.
And I remember how much I needed comfort. Each night, before we slept, your warm hand would seek out mine across the divide between our beds. Saying nothing, you would hold my hand in
yours until you judged that my nightly storm of silent weeping was abating.
I do not think that I would have survived that first year without you. And I should never wish to have survived the subsequent years without you.
I feel fortunate; more fortunate than either of my sisters. Your heart is mine, mine yours.
Keep it safe, and know that I could never bear to see you suffer.
T
HE
AUTHOR
GRATEFULLY
acknowledges the patience and professionalism of the staff of the Linenhall
Library, Belfast, who responded to all requests for information – no matter how complex – with good humour, courtesy and perseverance.
The description of Cecilia McCurry’s attack in the chapter entitled ‘Mary and Cecilia: Spring 1893’ is taken from ‘
Belfast Riots 1893: The Catholic
Reply
’, Linenhall Library, Belfast.
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A
NOTHER
K
IND
OF
L
IFE
Catherine Dunne was born in Dublin. Her first novel,
In the Beginning
, was published in 1997. It became an international bestseller and was shortlisted for the
Bancarella, the Italian Booksellers’ Prize.
A Name for Himself
, which followed in 1998, was shortlisted for the Kerry Ingredients Book of the Year Award.
The Walled Garden
was
published in 2000, to critical and popular acclaim. It was translated into several languages and broadcast on RTE Radio.
She lives in Dublin with her husband and son.
By the same author
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IMSELF
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ALLED
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ARDEN
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