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Authors: Marie Bostwick

Apart at the Seams

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(Cobbled Court Quilts #5)


Threading the Needle
(Cobbled Court Quilts #4)


A Thread So Thin
(Cobbled Court Quilts #3)


A Thread of Truth
(Cobbled Court Quilts #2)


A Single Thread
(Cobbled Court Quilts #1)


On Wings of the Morning


River's Edge


Fields of Gold


“The Yellow Rose of Christmas” in
Secret Santa


“The Presents of Angels” in
Snow Angels


“A High-Kicking Christmas” in
Comfort and Joy



Published by Kensington Publishing Corporation

Apart at the Seams







All copyrighted material within is Attributor Protected.

With thanks . . .

To Anne Dranginis for her expert and insightful advice on legal matters, and for her friendship, which I value so very much.

To Betty and John Walsh, Lisa Sundell Olsen, and Jamie Van Kirk, my first-round readers, for helping search out all those missing words and misplaced commas. Without you, I'd be lost and my poor readers would be confused.

To Audrey LaFehr, my editor, and Liza Dawson, my agent, for being so generous with their advice, encouragement, and patience during a project that turned out to be a lot more challenging than any of us realized. Thank you for hanging in there with me, ladies.

To Brad, who makes me happy.

Gayla Oliver

ave you ever thrown a pity party?

It's easy and requires no advance planning whatsoever. For pity parties, spur of the moment is the norm. Start with a life crisis, a betrayal, a major disappointment, or a smattering of all three, add a carton of cigarettes, two boxes of Kleenex, and a bottle of whatever alcohol you have on hand (scotch works well and, as an added benefit, will clear your sinuses), and you're good to go. No need to call a caterer or send out invitations; pity parties generally have a guest list of one. And if conditions are right, they can last for days. Or even weeks.

Mine did.

Because the thing is, even though Brian wrote that . . . What was it he wrote? I'll have to go back and look at the exact wording. Ah, yes. Here it is.


Gayla, I'm sure it will come as no surprise when I tell you I am unhappy in our marriage. It's obvious that you are as well and have been for some time.


But I
surprised. Shocked! Gobsmacked! As Brian would say. And no matter what he said, I
happy with our marriage, or happy enough. But not
happy—definitely not.

I am forty-five years old. Brian is forty-seven. We have been married for twenty-six years. In that time, I've seen a lot of my friends get married and divorced, sometimes more than once. Lanie is on her third husband. These things happen.

When they do, and word gets out, and the gossip mill starts churning, somebody always says, “Well, she
have known. Down deep, she had to have at least
. I mean, really. They've been growing apart. Anyone with eyes in their head could see what was going on.”

Sometimes the person who says it has been me.

Maybe it's true, at least some of the time. But now I think this is one of those statements we toss out, not because we necessarily believe it but because we
to believe it. Why? Because if those women, those
women, knew deep down what was happening and chose to look the other way, then it means that the fault was at least partially their own. And that means that the rest of us are safe.

Maybe some women do know. I wasn't one of them. Until I stumbled across that memo, the possibility that Brian and I would not stay married for the rest of our lives never crossed my mind.

Brian wrote the memo last July. And as of May, when I found it, he hadn't sent it. Obviously, I wasn't supposed to know about it. But I did know. And now that I did, what was I supposed to do? I couldn't quite wrap my head around it. How could this be happening?

Brian and I are the solid couple, the ones who've made it. The people who other people point to when looking for proof that marriages really
last if you stick with it.

Okay. Sure. Things aren't as exciting as they were early on, but what did he expect? We couldn't spend the rest of our lives just floating around Italy on a barge. Yes, in the early days we had been content living on love and ramen noodles, but that was before we had kids and jobs and a mortgage. Two mortgages, thanks to him! And now, out of the blue, after all we've been through together, after the years and the work and the beating of the odds, he says he's unhappy and wants to divorce?

And the thing that really shocks me is that he assumes his announcement will come as no surprise. But I never saw it coming. Until two weeks ago, on a Friday in May that was as cold as February, I thought he was happy. I thought we both were.


cold , sleety rain was falling that day. Everyone in Manhattan, including me, was trying to flag down a cab. I stepped off the curb and into the street as far as was possible without getting run over. After five minutes of frantic waving, a black SUV sped past, spattering me with muddy water. Not an auspicious beginning to the day.

I decided to walk, which made me late for the dentist and every other appointment I'd scheduled that morning. Skipping lunch helped make up some of the lost time but did nothing to improve my spirits. As I was heading back to the apartment for my two o'clock phone conference, I decided to take a detour down West Twenty-fifth Street so I could walk past The City Quilter, thinking that might cheer me up.

If you want to buy silk, organza, or charmeuse, you can find yards upon yards of it in shops that cater to the wholesale design and garment trade. But plain old fabric, the kind people use to make quilts, is hard to find in Manhattan. I don't know of another shop in the city that sells only cotton fabric, let alone caters exclusively to quilters.

Now, let me say this up front: I don't sew. I can barely even thread a needle. But if I'm anywhere near West Twenty-fifth, I always find an excuse to walk past this shop. I just love looking through the window at all that gorgeous fabric—florals, checks, plaids, polka dots, abstracts, geometrics, and pastoral prints with landscapes, animals, and birds, as well as edgy urban designs of cityscapes, taxicabs, even maps of the subway. It always makes me wish that I'd spent a little more of my youth bolstering my creative side. Assuming I have one, which seems doubtful.

I've never ventured through the door of The City Quilter. What would be the point? But that day I spotted this fabulous red paisley in the back left corner of the display. It was the exact color of the sweater Brian bought in Italy right after we were married. He wore it until it was threadbare. I was thinking about going inside to get a closer look when my phone rang.

Lanie was calling. She didn't wait for me to say hello or offer a greeting herself, just started talking, assuming I'd be interested in whatever she had to say, which is usually true.

“You will not
this, Gayla. I'm at the consignment shop, and I've found the most
vintage mink coat. Stunning! Princess cut,
collar, perfect condition, with stripes of—wait for it—lunaraine and platinum—”

“Lunaraine and platinum?”

“Lunaraine and platinum,” she said again, as if repeating the words were the same as defining them. “Brown and white. The coat has a vertical pattern of brown and white mink pelts. Exquisite! And they're
asking seventeen hundred—a bargain. It's too small for me, but you must have it! You

Lanie has adopted a pattern of speech, not entirely uncommon among New Yorkers, that places emphasis on certain words, transforming them into selling points. It's the vocabulary and cadence of a woman who knows how to close the deal, which is exactly what Lanie is and why she's made such a success in real estate. But today, I wasn't buying.

“Lanie, where would I ever wear a mink coat?”

“To the opera, the ballet. The A&P. Anywhere you want. It's New York!”

“I don't think so. I couldn't stand the idea of animals dying just so I can go to the A&P looking stunning.”

“They died back in the seventies, so what do you care? It's
Oh, never mind,” she said after a moment, realizing she was getting nowhere.

That's another reason Lanie is so successful: When her arguments fail to convince, she lets go and moves on. Sometimes.

“Where are you?”

“Standing outside a fabric store. What if I made Brian a quilt for his birthday?”

“Oh, please,” she groaned. I could almost hear her eyes rolling.

“What? Brian's birthday is just a couple of months off. Don't you think he might like something I made myself?”

Lanie groaned again.

“No. I do not think your husband would like a quilt for his birthday. No man wants a
for his birthday.”

“How do you know?”

“Because I've been married three times. I am an expert on men. And I'm telling you, no middle-aged man wants a
for his birthday. What a man in his late forties wants is a sports car, or tickets to a playoff game, or lingerie—basically the same things he wanted in his late twenties or his late teens—the three ‘Ss': speed, sports, and sex. Emphasis on the third ‘S.' Men aren't complicated, Gayla. They don't change that much.”

“No?” I said with a smile, still holding the phone to my ear as I gazed at a blue, white, and gray quilt that hung on a wall near the checkout counter, wondering how long it took to make something like that. “Then why have you been married three times?”

“Because women
change. At least I did. And because of that third ‘S.' And because men are all the same.”

“Not all men,” I said.

“Not all,” she conceded. “You got the last good one. Brian is too sweet to cheat. Or maybe he's just too British. Adultery is so impolite, don't you think?”

“Uh-huh,” I agreed absently. “Utterly déclassé.”

“And beneath the dignity of a viscount.”

“Except Brian's not a viscount,” I corrected. “Second sons don't count, remember? Especially second sons who run off and marry Americans.”

“He's still an aristocrat,” Lanie replied. “I think my fourth husband should be an earl.”

I frowned. “Fourth husband? Is there trouble in paradise?”

Lanie has always had a thick skin, and as the years have passed it's only gotten thicker. Sometimes I can't tell if she's teasing or if she's serious. Sometimes I'm not sure she can either.

“No, Roger's a doll. But it pays to be prepared. And anyway, I think I'd make a terrific Countess of Something or Other. Or even better,
Countess—like Maggie Smith in
Downton Abbey
. So old and opinionated and rich that nobody can dare tell me off.”

“But aren't you all that now?”

“You are hilarious,” Lanie replied flatly. “Anyway, tell Brian to keep an eye out for an old earl with a bad cough. After all, he owes me. If I hadn't convinced you to take that semester abroad, the two of you might never have met.”

“And we'd probably still be living in a teeny-weeny one-bedroom walk-up. And Maggie would have had to elope. Who besides you could have gotten us into the Central Park Boathouse for the reception? And with only three months' notice?”

“What can I say?” Lanie said with a sigh, as if honesty would not allow her to deny it. “When you're in the fairy godmother business . . . So how is our little princess? Still in love with her prince?”


“Well, she'd have to be to follow him to North Carolina. I still can't understand why they didn't move to New York.”

“Because Jason's dad offered him a good job and because Manhattan is too expensive for a young couple starting out.”

“Expensive,” Lanie countered, “but not
expensive. You and Brian managed. Nate managed when he lived here.”

“Yes, but my darling son doesn't care where he lives, as long as it has Wi-Fi. He's too busy studying to care. You should see the picture he sent of his apartment in Edinburgh; it's one step up from a garret. Reminds me of our first apartment. Brian and I were even younger and more starry-eyed than Maggie and Jason when we got married. We thought we could live on love and ramen noodles.”

“I remember,” Lanie said. “You were nauseatingly precious as newlyweds. Thank heaven you got over

I glanced at my watch. “Listen, my lovely, aside from trying to get me to buy dead animal skins—”

dead animal skins.”

“Vintage dead animal skins . . . was there any reason you called?”

“Just to tell you about the coat and to make sure we're still on for tonight.”

“Of course we are. Have I ever missed our Friday night drink?”

“Just checking. I'll see you later, then. Kiss-kiss. And Gayla?
me you will
make Brian a quilt for his birthday.”

I sighed. Lanie could be such a nag sometimes.

“It was just a whim. I wasn't serious.”


She rang off as abruptly as she'd rung up, but that was just Lanie's way; I was used to it.

I stuffed the phone into my bag and started walking east, but after about ten steps, I turned around, pressed the buzzer on the door to The City Quilter, waited for the answering buzz that signaled the release of the lock, and went inside. The girl at the counter was a lot younger and hipper than I figured somebody working in a quilt shop would be.

“This is a beautiful red,” she said as she plunked the bolt onto the counter. “Just came in. How many yards do you want?”

“Umm . . . two?”

She unrolled the fabric from the bolt and sliced through it with something that looked like a huge pizza cutter. “What are you planning to make with it?”

“No idea,” I admitted as I handed over my credit card. “I just . . . I just wanted it.”

She nodded as she folded the fabric and slipped it into a white plastic bag. “We get a lot of that,” she said.


Feeling inexplicably pleased after purchasing two yards of red fabric I had no use for, I continued on my way, jogging the last five blocks and getting home just in time for my phone appointment with Sandy Tolland. Things were looking up.

Sandy hadn't set an agenda when she texted that morning, asking if we could talk, but she didn't have to. I already knew what we'd be discussing.

I am an educational consultant, a kind of college admissions counselor for hire. I went into private practice almost six years ago, after years working as a guidance counselor in public schools.

Every kid I work with is an individual, but the parents are pretty similar. Maybe one in twenty approaches the process with an open mind, but most arrive with a very set agenda. Some have their hearts set on the Ivy League. Others have decided up front that their child should pursue one particular program of study in one particular field and that one particular college is the only place to do it. Still others are focused on the school that they and the members of their clan have attended since the founding of the republic.

Families come to me because they want their child to get into the “best” school. My job is to help them find and gain entrance to the
school, the one that lines up with the student's interests, personality, learning style, abilities, and goals. Kids latch on to the idea pretty quickly, but some of the parents, like Sandy, can take longer. You have to let them talk it out. But that's all right; I'm a good listener. I'm also good at stealth typing, another useful skill to have in my line of work.

In case you're not aware, stealth typing is the ability to hold a telephone conversation while simultaneously shopping online, answering e-mail, or editing a personal essay so quietly that the speaker on the other end of the line has no idea what the listener is doing or that they don't have her complete attention.

I am a virtuoso stealth typist. And I should be; I get a lot of practice.

I shifted the phone to a more comfortable spot on my shoulder and opened the browser on my computer.

“Sandy, I told you from day one that Yale wasn't a realistic option for Emily, not with her SAT scores and a B-plus average. St. Michael's is a good match for her. She'll do well there, and she'll be happy.”

“Karen Wittenauer's daughter got accepted to Smith.” She sniffed. “Why couldn't Emily do well and be happy

Keeping my fingers flat to prevent my nails from clicking against the keys, I typed the name of my favorite travel site into the address bar of my laptop and hit enter.

“No gymnastics,” I said. “And no boys.”

Sandy didn't argue. She knew that a school with no boys was a no-go for Emily.

“What about Brown? I heard it's an easier admission than some of the Ivies. Ray and Camilla Rossman's son, Chas, got in, and he's not nearly as . . .”

While Sandy listed all the august institutions of higher learning that the children of her friends had been accepted to, I closed a pop-up ad for time-shares in Florida and fought back the urge to sigh. Oh, the weight of parental expectations. Sandy would have gotten on great with my mother.

While Sandy talked through a list of second-tier but decidedly name-brand colleges on the Eastern Seaboard, I delivered short, to-the-point responses as to why each of these places was wrong for Emily, pinned new pictures to my Pinterest boards, and tidied my workspace. I'm a big believer in the value of multitasking.

I reached up to the wall over my desk and straightened a photo of Brian and me on our honeymoon in Italy, standing in the bow of the barge with his arm over my shoulders and my head resting against his chest. We're holding glasses of Barolo and peering at the camera with satisfied, slightly sleepy smiles. We'd just come up from below, where, about an hour before, assuming I'm doing the math right, we had conceived Maggie and Nate.

We were so young. And good-looking. Brian especially. I still miss his long hair. And Italy. We should go back there someday.

Scanning through a couple of my favorite blogs, I found a photo of an old-world-looking kitchen with stone walls occupied by a woman in a chef's apron and two handsome, fortyish-looking couples who were eating bruschetta and toasting each other with big glasses of white wine and pinned it to my “Traveling Light” Pinterest board, still semilistening as Sandy Tolland wondered what she was supposed to tell her friends whose children
get into the Ivies when they said they'd never heard of St. Michael's.

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