At Risk (5 page)

Out on the marsh, two egrets take flight, struggling furiously for distance, as if frightened for their lives.

CHARLIE MAKES HIMSELF French toast. He leaves the eggy bowl on the counter and the burned frying pan on the stove. Summer is so boring, but he dreads the thought of school. Ten more days of freedom. Today he and Sevrin are going to sneak down to the pond, which both their mothers think is too far for them to bicycle to, and look for specimens. They have a theory that not only can sugar not harm you, it is actually good for you, and they intend to set up an experiment that will prove them right, down in Sevrin’s basement, where no one ever goes. Charlie’s backpack is bulging with the Mason jars he’s pilfered from the pantry. He hopes his mother won’t notice they’re missing until next June, when she wants to make strawberry jam. Maybe, when the experiment has been completed, Charlie can set the newts free and replace the Mason jars so that his mother will never know anything amphibian was ever in them. He makes himself laugh thinking about what his mother could find on the shelf: strawberry jam, orange newt, pickled cucumbers, little green frogs in vinegar.

If Charlie catches whatever his sister has, and misses out on this last week of freedom, he will commit hara-kiri. He has a million things to do in ten days. The door slams as Charlie is pouring syrup on his French toast. Ivan has already been to the drugstore before setting out for the institute.

“Hey, buddy,” Ivan says to Charlie. He eyes the French toast. “Looks good.”

Polly comes down from upstairs. She’s been sponging Amanda down with cool water, just as the doctor told her to do when she phoned during the call-in hour.

“Did you get the Tylenol and the Gatorade?” she asks Ivan.

Ivan produces the Tylenol. “No Gatorade at Larson’s,” he says.

“That’s all you tried?” Polly says, furious. “One damn store?”

Charlie feels bad for his father; he tends to forget things, too, especially when he runs errands.

“I’ll go back out,” Ivan says.

Polly knows he is supposed to prepare for the upcoming seminar in Florida; he wanted to get to work early and try one more rewrite.

“Don’t bother,” Polly says. “I’ll go.” She turns to Charlie. “You.”

“I didn’t do anything,” Charlie quickly says.

“Stay with Amanda,” Polly tells him.

“I can’t,” Charlie groans. “Sevrin’s waiting.”

“Let him wait,” Polly says.

Polly doesn’t kiss Ivan good-bye, and she doesn’t look at either of them as she grabs her car keys. Charlie and Ivan exchange a guilty look.

“She’ll cool off,” Ivan says.

Ivan grabs his backpack and follows Polly out, hoping to make up in the driveway. Charlie finishes his French toast, then goes upstairs to look for the net he and Scvrin will need. Amanda’s door is open and the room is dark. All the shades have been pulled down. Charlie stops at the door and looks in.

“Hi,” Amanda says from under the quilts.

Charlie comes into the room and switches on the light on the night table. “Mom is so crazy about keeping things dark whenever anyone’s sick.”

“Yeah,” Amanda says.

“I’m going to look for my net,” Charlie says. “Me and Sevrin are going collecting.”

“Good luck,” Amanda says.

She’s whispering because her sore throat is really bad, the worst she can remember. She feels cold no matter how many quilts are piled on top of her. This is worse than when she had the chicken pox and couldn’t sit down, not even to go to the toilet. Worse than when she cried all night because her skin itched.

“Well, go ahead,” Amanda tells Charlie. “Go meet Sevrin.”

Her throat hurts so much she may start to cry, and she doesn’t want Charlie to see.

“I’ve got to stay with you,” Charlie tells her. “Mom,” he says apologetically.

“Oh,” Amanda says, understanding completely. Her mother’s done the same thing with her, forcing her to spend time with Charlie when she doesn’t even want to be in the same room with him.

Charlie sits down on a chair near the bed. “Want me to put on a tape for you?” he asks. “Duran Duran?”

Amanda tells him no, she has a headache. They can hear kids down the block, enjoying their freedom.

“Just don’t blow your germs this way,” Charlie says. “Only ten more days till prison.”

That makes Amanda smile. She can’t wait for school to start; she’s been looking forward to sixth grade all summer. With Helen Cross graduated and Evelyn Crowley getting sloppy, Amanda will be the best gymnast on the team.

Charlie sits next to her, thinking about horseshoe crabs. If he bikes the long way, and rides along the marsh, he may find some on his way to meet Sevrin. Horseshoe crabs are endlessly fascinating to him, since they were here before the dinosaurs. He cannot understand why no one has discovered the secret of how they managed to survive. Charlie is already half an hour late and Sevrin is probably mad at him by now. His mother does things like this to him all the time, and to Amanda, too. She doesn’t understand when they have appointments to keep or phone calls to make. She forgets they have lives of their own.

“I could bring you back a newt,” he tells Amanda. “You could keep it in a terrarium.”

He realizes then that his sister has fallen asleep. She’s holding onto the quilt his mother always covers them with when they’re sick. It is blue and white with a border of stars and a few boxes of red in the center. They used to believe it was this quilt that made them well, and if both of them were sick they fought over it. Charlie reaches up and turns off the lamp on the night table. He sits in the chair, his hands on his knees. He finds himself counting the minutes until his mother comes back. In the dark he can see the white stars in the border of the quilt, whiter even than bones.

When twenty-four hours have passed, and Amanda’s fever has not gone down, Polly takes her in to be examined. Ed Reardon has been the kids’ doctor for seven years, ever since they moved to Morrow. He does a routine throat culture, takes Amanda’s temperature, examines her ears, and then, concerned mostly with the swollen lymph nodes he’s found all over her body and the girl’s weight loss, decides to run some blood and stool tests. He tells Polly they’ll have the results back from the lab by tomorrow or the next day, and in the meantime Amanda should continue taking Tylenol. Absolute bed rest, even though Amanda puts up a fight and insists she’s feeling better. He would never mention that the first thing he thinks of when he sees symptoms like Amanda’s is cancer.

Ed Reardon has seen nearly a dozen kids in the past week with a virus that combines a high fever and vomiting, and he thinks, once again, that he needs a partner and at least one more person on his office staff. He has tomorrow off, and he needs it. He knows he should have longer office hours and spend less time with each patient, his accountant has told him this. But finding a way to see more bodies per hour is not why Ed chose pediatrics. He has three kids himself, a two-year-old son and two daughters, five and eight.

“It’s not fair,” Amanda says as she gets dressed.

“She’s worried about practicing,” Polly explains, as she quickly signs the permission slips for all the lab tests. “Gymnastics.”

“Don’t worry,” Ed Reardon tells Amanda. “I can tell just by looking at you. You’re better than Mary Lou Retton.”

Amanda ducks her head, suddenly shy, but Polly can tell she’s pleased. “Thanks,” she says to Ed after Amanda has gone to the bathroom to leave urine and stool samples. “She seems better already.”

Polly does not add that Ed has made her feel better too. He always does. High fevers make her crazy with fear. Ivan thinks she overreacts, but Ed Reardon listens to her; he seems to trust her instincts.

“She’s a great kid,” Ed tells Polly. “I’ll bet you say that to all the mothers,” Polly teases him. “I most certainly do not,” Ed tells her. “Ten to one her fever subsides by morning.”

He’s right. Amanda’s fever breaks sometime in the night, and by breakfast time her temperature is normal. She’s still too tired to do much more than sit on the couch and watch TV, and that suits Charlie since she might have wanted to come to the pond with him and she always wants to go swimming. Amanda doesn’t have the patience to watch for specimens.

Charlie and Sevrin filled all the Mason jars with newts yesterday, and last night they sneaked into Sevrin’s basement. Half the newts were given sugar-water; the control group had only lettuce and water. But now the boys meet again, back to look for something that got away yesterday. At least Charlie is. Sevrin was busy eating a sandwich and he missed it. He doesn’t quite believe that the turtle was at least three feet across.

“Bullshit,” Sevrin says now. He is belly down, his hands in the cool water, his knees and bare feet dark with dust. He’s brought his dog, a golden retriever named Felix, whom they have to keep on a leash so he won’t make a dash for the water. “No turtle could get to be that size in a pond this small.”

“A mutant,” Charlie suggests. “Maybe someone’s been dumping radioactive waste in here.”

“Oh, yeah, sure,” Sevrin says, echoing his mother’s cynical tone. “The one that got away.”

“We’ll see him,” Charlie says. “We’ll sit here all day if we have to.”

Charlie reaches into his backpack and pulls out two cans of orange soda and two Almond Joys. Sevrin leans back and takes one of the sodas. He snaps the top open loudly.

“Quiet!” Charlie whispers, annoyed.

Sevrin wrinkles his nose and guzzles his orange soda.

It’s hot and Charlie takes off his Red Sox T-shirt. If they weren’t waiting for the turtle, he’d dive right into the pond. Instead, he holds the cold can of soda against his bare skin. Blue dragonflies skim over the surface of the water. There’s a new housing development through the trees, but the boys aren’t aware of it. Small deer still come to the ponds and marshes in Morrow; Charlie knows you can see them at dusk if you’re quiet enough.

“Just think, tyrannosauruses might have hung out here,” Sevrin muses. “They could have attacked a brontosaurus right here where we’re sitting.”

Charlie opens his can of soda and drinks deeply. He doesn’t bother to tell Sevrin that tyrannosaurus and brontosaurus lived eighty million years apart, and that no fossils of either have been found anywhere near Morrow. Charlie’s been told he’s a know-it-all enough times for him to have learned when to keep his mouth shut.

Sevrin sits up and takes a candy bar. He puts his feet in the water, and small startled frogs jump into the pond. Sevrin looks back at Charlie apologetically.

“You think our mothers are going to get rich from this book they’re doing?” Sevrin asks. Felix sits facing him, panting, waiting for some chocolate to fall. Sevrin finishes his candy bar and puts the crumpled wrapper in his pocket. “Maybe it will be a best-seller. Maybe we’ll all be millionaires. Boy, my father will go nuts. He always tells my mom she should go out and get a real job.”

“My mom didn’t say anything about being a millionaire,” Charlie says.

“You know what I’d buy?” Sevrin says. “First a motorcycle, and then a yacht.”

Charlie likes being with Sevrin because he doesn’t have to talk. Even when Sevrin asks a question, he doesn’t necessarily expect an answer. It’s been this way since they were three years old. Sevrin dragged his cot next to Charlie’s at nursery school and that was it, they were best friends. As far as Charlie is concerned, he never needs another friend as long as he has Sevrin.

“Gonna eat that Almond Joy?” Sevrin asks.

Charlie has taken one bite, but he hands the rest of the candy bar to Sevrin. It’s too hot for chocolate; it melts in your hands.

“If I could live on a yacht,” Sevrin goes on, between bites of Charlie’s candy bar, “I’d never go to school. I’d dive for starfish. I’d never hang up my clothes in the closet because there wouldn’t be any closets.” He holds out his hands so Felix can lick off the chocolate.