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My entire life I was surrounded by sex. My Father made it a dirty commodity. I had sex twice. The first time was my own choice when I was fourteen, and I gave my virginity to one of the stable boys. It was an act of rebellion against my father. I knew how much he got for a virgin and I was scared that he would sell me too, the way he sold my mother. He only kept my mother around to raise me until I was thirteen, then he sold her. I don’t know to who, or where in the world she is. I don’t even know if she’s still alive! I keep hoping I’ll find her one day.

With my virginity gone it took care of the one fear, but not for long. Father found out and that’s when I had sex for the second time. He forced me to have sex with the stable boy, threatening that the boy would be killed if I didn’t. The boy was still climaxing inside me when Father put a gun to the back of his head and pulled the trigger. That was the day I realized just how evil Father was. That was also the day I promised to make up for all the evil he has done.

Jack frowns lightly, indicating that he’s not understanding me. I quickly explain, “I don’t have sex. I don’t like it.” The words are curt and I almost realize my mistake too late, but I quickly add, “I do however like to watch.” I have to be careful with the cameras on us.

Jack’s features soften a little as he finally grasps what I’m saying. And then I see it in his eyes, empathy. He understands because he feels the same way! 

I lift my hand to his face and let my palm rest against his cheek. I don’t know why I’m touching him. I don’t make a habit of touching the people I save, but with Jack it’s different, I just can’t explain it.

I want to touch him. I want to offer him comfort. There is so much I want to tell him. I want to tell him that soon he will be free! I want to tell him that he’ll never be hurt again. But I keep all the words in and try to tell him with my eyes that everything will be okay from now on.

I drop my hand away from his warm skin and I move to take a seat at the table. I make sure my back is to the camera so they can’t see my face.

“Satisfy yourself,” I order.

Jack drops to his knees and as he removes the towel, I let my eyes flit to the window. It’s the only privacy I can offer him.

Minutes pass when I hear a distressed whisper, “Mistress.”

My eyes flit back to Jack. He’s still on his knees, his hand firmly wrapped around his hard cock. When my eyes meet his, I’m shocked at what I find. He is silently begging me to help him. I’ve seen that broken look before but this time it cuts at my heart.

I get up and walk over to him. Kneeling in front of him, I take a deep breath. I lean a little forward and whisper, “Do you want me to help you, Jack?” I will not touch him without his consent.

For a moment I watch the battle play off over his tense features and then he nods. “Please, Mistress.”

~*~

Chapter Three

Jack~

Feelings swamp me. I’ve always been able to shut down. It’s not because Mistress Ryland is nice to me, that’s not it at all. Mistress Claire is also kind and I’ll even go as far as saying that I’ve grown fond of Mistress Claire. This is something else, something I’ve never felt before.

When Mistress Ryland told me she doesn’t like sex I was shocked at first, but then I felt an unfamiliar warmth creep into my chest.

Just maybe she’s like me. Just maybe she’s not bad -
I hoped for a split second before the warmth faded and I was reminded that there are no good people. Any person who is willing to do business with Cameron has to be bad!

She brings her hand to my cheek and her touch is silky soft, just like her eyes. The lust filled looks I normally get is nowhere to be seen in her eyes.

She doesn’t want me? I’ve never experienced this before. People always want something from me, either my cock, or my ass and sometimes my blood.

Mistress Ryland’s eyes are so warm I want to crawl into them – I want to find rest there.

She drops her hand to her side and then walks over to the table. I watch her take a seat.

She’s really not going to fuck me?

This whole evening with her is foreign to me.

“Satisfy yourself,” she orders, but there is not bite in her voice.

I drop to my knees and I remove the towel baring myself to her. Her eyes quickly fly to the window and it confuses me. She said she’s a visual person, then why won’t she look at me?

I palm my rock, hard cock. It will be hard for a few hours still. I slowly start to stroke myself, just like Mistress Ryland instructed.

Minutes pass where my cock feels lifeless in my hand. My eyes are glued to Mistress Ryland. She has a sad look on her face and it makes the warm feeling from earlier return. I’m not used to feeling anything but longing and heartache for Momma and worry for David’s safety. I don’t know what this emotion is called that’s tightening my chest to the point where it’s getting hard to breathe.

More time passes, and the feeling becomes so overwhelming that it hurts my chest. I know I won’t come and I can’t stand the emotions any longer. “Mistress,” I say softly, hoping I won’t get in trouble for talking to her without her permission.

I keep my eyes on her, silently asking her to understand what I cannot put into words. I can’t come.

She comes to me, and kneeling in front of me, she makes my heart clench. It almost looks as if she cares for me. I know that’s only my imagination. These people don’t possess the capability of caring for another person.

I watch as her lips part and she sucks in a breath, and then she leans forward. Her sweet scent forms a cloud around me as she whispers, “Do you want me to help you, Jack?”

Again she’s using my name. I’m usually called slave. Only the other slaves use my name. I can only stare at her as her words sink in. She wants to help me? Why would she want to help me? I’m nothing but a slave here for her enjoyment.

Is this a game she’s playing with me?

Is this some kind of trick?

Her soft eyes tell me it’s not, but I could be wrong. A monster can be disguised behind many faces.

I have to remind myself that I’m only a slave and she’s a monster.

I nod, “Please, Mistress.” I say the words that are expected of me. The number one rule for a slave is to always do what a mistress or master wants you to do.

If they ask you whether you want your freedom you answer no, because that is what they want to hear.

If they ask you if you want to be flogged or whipped, you answer yes, because it’s for their satisfaction that you will bleed and scream.

I let my eyes travel over Mistress Ryland’s head and focus on the wall. For a moment I was stupid, I let myself feel something. It won’t happen again.

~*~

Chapter Four

River~

His eyes focus somewhere behind me and the blank look that comes over his face cuts deep into my soul.

He didn’t say yes because it’s something he wanted! He thinks it’s what I want.

I take hold of his arm and getting up I pull him up alongside me.

“Let’s just sleep, Jack. It’s been a long night.” I throw the covers back and looking up at him I order, “get in bed and sleep.”

Jack slips under the covers, his eyes not once meeting mine.

I switch off the bright light and then I strip out of the ridiculous outfit, but I keep on the bra and panty set. I get in next to Jack and then turn my back to him. “Night, Jack,” I whisper.

I can hear his breathing behind me. He’s not moving a muscle, most probably waiting for me to pounce on him.

I turn around and scoot closer to him. I reach under the covers and feel for his hand. Holding his hand in mine, I start to whisper so only he can hear, “I saw you working in the garden earlier, is that something you like to do?”

“Yes,” his answer is clipped with no emotion.

“My favorite flower is a daisy.” I glance up at him, trying to see his reaction in the meager light the moon is offering through the window. “Have you seen a Brown Betty?” He doesn’t respond so I just go on, “The Black-Eyed Susan is the state flower of Maryland. It has thirteen petals. Thirteen is my lucky number.”

My mind races, searching for something else I can tell him. “Do you like water?”

“Yes,” he answers but this time the clipped tone is gone.

“Me too,” I sigh thinking of the plantation. I can’t wait to go home. “I love how it brings life to the surrounding areas.”

Silence engulfs us again but this time it’s not as tense. I close my eyes and keeping hold of Jack’s hand I drift between sleep and consciousness. I’ll never be able to get a good night’s rest in one of these places.

~*~

In the early hours of the morning Jack gets up. I watch as he walks to the bathroom and seconds later he comes out dressed in his jeans.

He walks to the door and he unlocks it, then he turns back to me. His eyes are filled with confusion when he asks, “Will that be all you require of me, Mistress Ryland?”

“Yes, Jack,” I sigh heavily as I too get out of bed. I get dressed in the stupid outfit from the night before and then walk to Jack. I stand on my toes and press a soft kiss to his stubbled cheek. “I’ll see you soon, Jack.”

I watch Jack walk away and then return to the room I share with Adam. When I walk in I find Adam sitting on the bed, his face in his hands.

“Morning,” I say softly so I don’t give him a fright. He hates it when people sneak up on him. I did it once and I landed flat on my back with an angry Adam towering over me.

He looks up, a world of exhaustion clouding his face.

I crawl onto the bed behind him and pull at his arm until he stretches out next to me.

I place my head on his shoulder. “Want to talk about it?”

He shakes his head. Adam is not a talker. 

We both just take comfort in the others presence until there is a knock at our door. Adam gets up and opens the door to a girl. She pushes in a trolley and the smell of coffee makes me get up.

I have a cup of coffee while Adam enjoys the bacon and eggs. I usually have a healthy appetite but after a night like the one I just had, food is the farthest thing from my mind.

After coffee I go to shower. When I’m done I go to stand in front of the window, looking out over the estate while Adam freshens up.

The garden is really pretty. I wonder if it’s all Jack’s work. If he really loves gardening then I’ll make sure that he can continue his hobby back at the sanctuary.

~*~

Chapter Five

Jack~

I’m still confused by Mistress Ryland as I make my way to the room where Mistress Claire is waiting in for me. She comes every Friday. Sometimes she’ll visit more than once a week but she’s a busy woman so that’s not often.

I knock once and then I let myself in. I close the door behind me and before I can kneel Mistress Claire comes to me. “Ahh … there you are, my pet.” She kisses both my cheeks. She smiles up at me for a moment, as if I’m a precious possession.

“I want to take you hard today. I’ve had an awful week.”

I step out of my jeans before I start to undress Mistress Claire. I make sure to brush the back of my hands against her skin. She likes that. When we’re both naked I go to the bed and position my body over the length of it. I’m never on top. It’s one of the rules to always remind me that I’m a slave.

Mistress Claire crawls on top of me. She takes hold of my cock, positions it at her opening and then slides over me.

“Oh my, how I’ve missed your cock this week,” she murmurs as she starts to move up and down. She takes my hands and places them on her hips. “You know I love it when you touch me.”

I hold her for a while and then she begs, “Dig your fingers in, my pet. I want to feel your strength on my body!”

I do as she asks, tightening my hold on her. She starts to bounce hard on me, and her breaths rasp over her parted lips. Just as she’s about to come she stops. Her face contorts into a lust filled smirk. “I’ve been a bad … bad girl, my pet.” I scoot to the edge of the bed and she crawls over my lap. “I have to be punished,” she purrs.

I slap her ass and she jerks against my legs. “Harder! Hit me harder!”

I slap her harder and harder as she commands, until her ass is red and my palm is stinging.

She gets up and then sits on my lap with her back to me. She takes my cock in all the way and then starts to move faster again.

Taking my hands she brings my arms around her, and then she shoves one of my hands down between her legs, until I can feel her pussy. I can feel as my cock slides in and out of her.

“Pinch me hard!” I find her nub and then pinch hard. She starts to convulse on top of me and then she moans deeply with pleasure.

When she’s done orgasming she gets up and goes to the bathroom.

I stay seated on the bed. Sometimes she wants to come more than once.

When she comes out she goes to where her clothes are on the floor. “That will be all today, my pet.”

Her face is always sad after an appointment with me. I don’t understand her. But then, it’s not my job to understand her. It’s my job to make her come any way she wants to.

~*~

Friday passes just like any other day. I wake up early on Saturday morning. Cameron always has an appointment for me on a Saturday night. Sometimes it’s a private party I have to attend and sometimes it’s a one on one fuck.

I spend the day outside clearing weeds and just making sure the gardens are all tidy.

Late afternoon I go back to my room. I eat the food that was left in my room at lunch time before I go to get ready for the appointment.

Dressed in jeans and the leather bands, I leave to go to the room that is always assigned for the clients coming to see me. Most of the slaves are kept in a building separate from the main house. Sophia and I are kept in the house, on the first floor where the guards’ rooms are. The visitors’ rooms are all on the ground floor. The third floor is reserved for Cameron. Everything has its place here, exactly how Cameron wants it.