Bad Boy's Secret: Enemies with Benefits Book One (8 page)

"Yeah, I don't know exactly what's
going on.. I think I'm going through something." I joke, and she laughs at
my reference. We make it out without interruptions, and she leads the way to
her car. She stops outside the driver's door and looks up at me, I smile unsure
what she wants or what she is doing.

"Hey, I just want to tell you. I do
believe you, and I will go to that dinner. Just let me know when?" She
says, opening the door.

"Sounds like a plan." I say
holding the door while she tosses her things into the passenger seat.

"Not a date." She takes note, and
I nod.

"No way." I say, I never ever
bring dates to meet my parents! Well, none have ever lasted long enough. I've
never really been in a relationship. She studies me a moment, and a smirk
spreads across her face. "What?" I panic. What's she thinking?

"You've never brought a girl home have
you?" She lays her hand on the door next to mine. My face heats, and I
look down at my feet. "They know I'm just your tutor right?" She asks
me, narrowing her eyes.

"I emphasized it. Don't worry they
know." I tell her, and she nods. "Alright well I'll let y-"

"Jake!" A couple guys yell from
across the street. We both turn our attentions towards them. "Nice target,
she's a beast man!"  Oh shit! No! I send them glares, and they get
the hint. I look back at Paige, and she is sending me a look.

"I'm not trying anything I swear, if I
was I wouldn't be out here saying good bye!" I defend myself.

"That's not the point Jake." She
sighs. "You don't walk girls to their cars, you don't talk to girls unless
you're flirting with them. You don't have friends who are girls." She
finishes looking past me, I'm assuming at the dorm. Where is she going with
this? What does she want? What do I want? "Jake.. I just don't understand,
what do you want from me?" She asked. "You kissed me earlier.. well
we kissed earlier, but you haven't said or done anything else. I don't know
what you want from me."

Everything. I want you. I can't tell her
that, she won't believe me. I want her to be comfortable around me like she is
around Robbie. I want her to trust me, and want to be around me! Want. I just
want. Although, I need her in my life somehow, I know that for a fact. Whether
is just as my tutor. I need her. So I don't just want, I need as well. Although
it is a wanting type or need, I still need her. How do I tell her this? I can't
just be like I need you, or I want you... that sounds weird and she won't
believe me.

"I'll see you at drama tomorrow."
She says quietly. No! I can't leave things like this!

"Paige wait." I say walking
around the door, so it's not between us. If I can see her body language, I can
get a little on how she feels. I've known body language for a while now.
"I don't ... I haven't... Ugh!" I'm speechless. What do I say to her?

"I get it... you don't want me to ruin
your reputation. No worries, just a tutor from now on." She murmurs. I
can't say anything. I'm losing my control here. She is about to leave dude do
something! I grab her hand, in my moment of panic.  "Ja-" It's too
late. I'm already kissing her. I cup her face in my hands, wanting more. I push
into it more, wanting her to really kiss me like she did before. Instead she
takes steps backwards but I keep up with her until her back hits the car. Her
hands land on my chest, but they are tense and she is still holding back. No,
I'm not going to just let her walk away.. technically drive away but whatever!
How can I get her to stay! The only way I know is through sex. I don't want
that with her. I do.. I really do, but not like this. Then it's over she pushes
against me, and I move away. She doesn't say anything, she turns facing her car
again.

"Paige!" I blurt, and she stops.
She doesn't look at me but she stops.

"What?" She whispers, and she
sounds obviously confused. I can see her shaking, I don't want to hurt her. But
if I let her go I'll hurt myself! Why can't I just say this to her? I've never
said anything like that to a girl. I've never even told a girl if I wanted them
or not, they just assumed it.

"I can't let you get in the car."
I rasp finally saying something, she rubs her forehead.

"What does that mean?" She
mumbles, tired. I'm wide awake, I'm trying to grasp onto anything that will
help me right now.

"You know what it means!" I
whisper, and she lets out a small cry.  "Don't cry. Please.. I just..
I can't.." I'm speechless again. God way to go Jake she is crying!

"You. It had to be you." She
whispers wiping her face. I don't understand. What does she mean? What did I
do? God, I just want her to stop crying! I was told to not hurt her, I was told
to leave her alone period but to hell with that! I slowly come back in close,
and I pull her away from the car slightly. I hold her. Just a nice embrace.
Perfect. "Why are you doing this?" she pleas.

"I want you." I whisper in her
ear, and I can feel her tense up. "I want you to stay with me tonight...
stay. Don't leave. Please."

"For what?" She says in disgust.
Tears leaving and anger replacing them.

"I don't want to say goodbye that's
why. I feel like, I'm losing you. As if I'll never see you again." I
admit.

"I was never yours to have." She
mumbles, and I squeeze her tighter. Why is she so complicated! Why am I being
so possessive?

"I have you now." I say looking
down at her. "I'm not letting you the car. Not tonight." I inform
her.  "I won't pull anything, I just want you with me. One night.
That's all I'm asking for." I beg her. Desperation loud and clear in my
voice.

"How can I trust you?" She
whispers, and I take a breath.

"You know you can. You're just scared
to." I say. We're both quiet for what seems like eternity.
"Please." I say one last time. I feel her nod against my chest. My
heart rate quickens, and I almost jump like I just won a gold medal. Hell I
did! She is staying with me! "Really?" I say, holding out at arm's
length. No way am I letting go now. "Come on you're tired." I say
wrapping am arm around her waist. We walk back into the dorm, after she has her
car door closed and her cell phone in her pocker. The party is dwindling down,
and it's lost about have its numbers since we came out here. It's a school
night, not surprising. We walk back up the stairs to my room, and once we're
their she pulls  my plush blanket off of the corner of my bed. Then she
lays back in my recliner I have in my room. I look at her, she has her eyes
closed, trying to sleep.

"I can feel you looking." She
says, "No, I'm fine over here.. away from the bed." She adds, and I
sigh.

"Good night." I say. Wishing she
wasn't so stubborn, but I think that's something about her I like.

"Yeah." She whispers already
falling victim to sleep. I lay in my bed alone, but not. She is here that's a
start. Whether she stays the whole night is what I'm wondering.

Paige's POV

Okay, the ringing woke me up a minute ago.
It's still going off. It's not my phone, it's Jake. Yes, I'm in Jake dorm. Yes,
I'm in his room. For some reason, deep down in my gut it feels right. Although
the phone ringing is bugging me. I finally after the person calls back twice,
get up and answer the phone.

"Hello?" I say, sounding groggier
then I feel. I wipe my eyes, and look at Jake who seems to be in a coma like
sleep. Mr. Sleeping Beauty. I smile, his looks so defenceless in his sleep. Not
worried about anything. At peace. His blonde hair is falling into his eyes, and
I almost reach out and brush it back.

"Oh? Is this a girl?" a goy
speaks on the other end of the line. I let out a breath, I should've looked to
see who it was before answering.  By the surprise in his voice though I
can tell girls answering Jake's phone isn't common. I role my eyes of course
it's not! Although him begging a girl to stay with him and not sleep with him
isn't common either.. on fact I'm partly sure it was a first for him.

"Yes, and who calls this late at
night?" I mumble sitting on the edge of the bed. I might as well let Jake
sleep. I don't think I could wake him anyways.

"His brother." the guy says
easily into the phone. I grip the phone tighter, and I stop wiggling my feet.
His brother? Oh god.. I shouldn't have answered the phone! Why would his
brother call this late? This is going to give off the wrong impression!
"Who might this be? If you don't my asking."   Well shit.
Do I tell him? No, he is going to think we're together or something. 
"Hmmm, you're just a fling aren't you... yeah figured. Where is
Jake?" He asks, after I don't reply.

"I'm not a fling!" I growl into
the speaker. His brother just chuckles.

"Sweetie they're all flings.. nothing
more than a one-nighter." He sighs. I role my eyes, yeah he doesn't
understand.

"Paige what are you doing?" Jake
mumbles behind me, and I turn tossing his phone on his bed. He picks it up
eyeing my confused. I point at his phone, and brings it to his ear.
"Hello?" He lays back down. I sit back down on his bed, wondering
what woke him up. Watching him intently with wonder about why his brother would
call so late. I listen in. "What do you want?"  Jake sighs.
There is a long pause, and Jake wipes his eyes.  I wish I could here the
other end. I want to know what's going on! Jake sits up looking at me real
fast, mad. "No, off limits! I'm serious Jace!"

Off limits? Why does he say that and look
at me? Why does he sound mad?  I run over to the chair grabbing 
plush blanket, and  cuddling into it I sit back down on his bed. 

"It's none of your business. Why are
you calling?" Jake continues watching me, with curious eyes now. After
another moment of silence, Jake lets out a yawn as do I. I turn over, laying my
head down on the other pillow waiting until his phone conversation is done. I
want to ask him about it, and stays sitting up and talking about things with
his brother. I catch a couple things like spring break and the lunch. Another
yawn hits me, and I close my eyes. What time is it even? It's obviously past
midnight, oh well I guess, I'll just be tired tomorrow.

The buzzing of an alarm slowly brings me to
life, and I open my eyes, looking at the ceiling. One crazy ass dream, staying
in Jake's room with him! I look over wondering where the buzz is coming from,
none of my alarms sound like that. But it's not my room, it's just like Jake's
from my dream. Finally waking up and gaining my senses, I feel the arm wrapped
around me and the body pressed against my back side. I turn my head, and right
there is Jake's his messy bed head covering his eyes, just like last night when
I answered his phone.  I'm sleeping with Jake! I fell asleep last night!
On his bed! Don't freak out, Paige. Be mature about this. I sit there ignoring
the still buzzing alarm. I smile slightly, I've always wondered what this felt
like. I've watched this in movies and T.V shows, and read about it in books,
but it's different with the real thing. It's better. More special. Carefully
turning so I'm facing him, I look at his features. Strong cheek bones, and
straight nose. His lips lush and soft, although I only know that from the times
they have kissed me, I smile at the small seeing the small gap between his
lips. It's cute seeing him sleeping this close. His jaw is relaxed, and well
set. My eyes drift back  to his mouth, wonder spikes my mind. I could kiss
him.  My body shivers, why am I thinking about kissing him? Why am I still
laying here with him?!

Oh but was my mind right. He looks so
vulnerable, and cute. He is good looking, I've always known and said that. But
now, watching him sleep, like a stalker, I can see he is cute and he obviously
wasn't joking last night when  he said he wouldn't pull anything. Because
here I am in his bed, and we're both fully clothed still. What does he think of
me? Why did he want me to stay so bad last night. The desperation and the
longing in his eyes last night stunned me. He was begging me to stay.
Why?  What does that mean? I focus on his face again, his lips still
parted and his eyes still lightly closed. My body is screaming at me to kiss
him, but what if I wake him up? What would I say? He stirs in his sleep
slightly, and I remember and hear the alarm buzzing in the distance. We have
drama  club/class to get to.

KISS HIM!

My body yells, as I think about getting up.
We need to get up. I need to get up. My body chants, begging me now to kiss
him. I'm turning into a ball of lust, and I look up at his eyes. Still closed.
Just one innocent kiss. Just one? I sit up slowly being sure to not wake him.

"Jake?" I whisper, and he doesn't
respond. I move in a little closer, should I? No, I shouldn't. It's technically
sexual assault. Oh god I can't do it! But I want to! Still leaning in, unsure
now if it's my brain or body moving me.  "Jake?" I whisper one
more time, and his eyes slowly open. Oh shit he is awake! He looks at me with
tired eyes, although his face is confused. I touch our lips, and he reacts
right away. As if he is wide awake, he kisses me desperately and his arm that is
wrapped around me pulls me in tighter and closer. I lay a hand on his chest, to
help balance myself. As I lean over him more, he movies his hands to my hips
lifting me so I'm now sitting on him. He sits up lifting me, and his thumbs
slip under the fabric of my shirt. Then both of his hands slip under.  I
tense, oh god what's going to happen? Our kiss changes, to one of hunger and
lust. His thumbs circling massaging my skin, as they inch up pulling my shirt
with them. My stomach is showing, and my breathing gets quicker. I know where
this goes, am I ready? I'm a virgin. Oh god, I'm a virgin! I don't know what to
do, and he has been with countless girls.  This isn't right. It feels
right, but it can't be can it?

I pull away abruptly, and I jump from the
bed. Pulling my shirt back down, I reach for my phone on the night stand. I
can't stay here. I need to leave, and get to drama. Forget this happened. I
need to forget.

"Paige stop." He says, getting
up. I can't I'm shaking so bad and I can't focus. All I can think about is if
it's right or wrong. And the fact that I'm a virgin, and he isn't! "Hey,
you can't keep denying this! You feel it too, I know you do. Otherwise you
wouldn't have kissed me. Why fight it?" He say closing the door as I open
it. My back is to him, but I know he is right behind me. I can feel his eyes on
the back of my head.

"No." Is all I can manage. I do
feel it the lust in the air around us, and the I feel the longing in my head
and heart to continue, and not leave. But I have to. I shouldn't have kissed
him, I knew it, yet I still did. I fight it because I don't want to be
the  other girls. I don't want to be another one-nighters. Even his
brother has no hope for him to be in a relationship!

Jake's POV

"Don't do this." I whisper, and I
take a deep breath. Desperation loud and clear in my voice again. 

"What do you want from me Jake? What
do you want me to say .. or to do?" she whispers, trying to stay calm and
collected. I flex my fingers, trying to stop myself from shaking. 
"Just change my mind over night, and hop right into bed with you?"

"I don't know what I all want from
you." I admit keeping the door closed. We need to talk this out. I need to
talk this out!

"But you know some things." she
whispers, not sounding happy. I let out a breath. I do want to sleep with her.
I want to see her body, touch her and hold her. "What else is there that
you could want? All you ever want from girls is sex. The only thing that makes
me different is I won't do it." She says, gaining her voice back. That's
not true, there is more! She knows it. She doesn't want to believe! She is
different on all levels. She is stubborn and a mystery. She isn't slutty in
fact she is shy and she somewhat closed off. I like that she isn't an open
book, and that she is guarded around me. She knows the type of guy I am, and
she isn't trusting me because of it. How do I get her to see me without all of
my baggage? Why do I want her to see me like that? Why do I notice all these
things about her!

"You know some of them.. yes." I finally
say, and she turns facing me. I put my other arm up on the door creating a cage
around her. Now what do I say? I know what I want to do, the tension between is
practically creating sparks! She wants me, and yet she still won't do anything!

"Jake... I'm not like you..." She
whispers. "I don't have near as much experi-"

"I don't care!" I stop her, she
is bringing up experience. "Whether you have 20 times more the experience
then me, or if you have no experience, I don't care." Her face pales, but
her cheeks are pink. She looks at the floor, turning away. "You have no
experience." I whisper, and she doesn't move and doesn't reply. She is a
virgin. I smile at the thought of no one else having her like that. I want her
even more now. Her first time. I want that to be me, I want to be her first and
her last. Why can't I just tell her that. I've never expressed feelings to a
girl. To anyone actually, only my family, I've never even told Wyatt how much I
appreciate him being my friend!

"Yeah." She finally speaks.
"I'm still a virgin." She lets out a breath, and I pull my arms from
the door. I wrap her in my arms. "Jake what are you doing?" she asks.
I move her hair, and lay my lips on her neck. I want to comfort her. She is
practically limp in my arms, still tired and wanting my touch. She is breathing
fast, and shaking. She doesn't protest, or flinch away.

"I want you." I whisper in her
ear, and she leans back into me more. "I know you want me, stop fighting
it.." I say and she closes her eyes. Fighting what she is feeling.

"We can't." She whispers, getting
out of my grip. "I have to go." She whispers. "Good bye
Jake." then she is gone. What? NO! She left. She said goodbye. Rejected
I've been rejected. For the first time, me Jake Lincoln, have been rejected. My
chest feels like it's being cut open and tore apart.

"No." I whisper to myself.
"I'm not giving up yet." I turn and turn off my damn alarm clock
that's been buzzing the past twenty minutes. I go to my bathroom working
through my plan to get Paige back.