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Authors: Brian W. Aldiss
It beats the living daylight
Out of one-time lifetime
Spill my living daylights down my shirt-front
Chase my living nightmares round my shirt-tail
All my trite cares
They’re just rag and bob-tail
So I’ve got circadian rhythm
You’ve got circadian rhythm
We’ve got circadian rhythm
So we ain’t going home no more
THE DEAD SEA SOUND
The First and Future Paradise
We all know it —
There was primordial epoch
In which everything was decided
An exemplar for future ages.
Let’s say it again —
You glimpse it sometimes behind bedroom
Curtains — a paradise and then
Catastrophe! They constitute the present.
Meaning what we do now is an end trajectory
Trajectory.
When I love you love
There’s nothing personal in it.
The decisive deed took place before us
Essential preceeding actual.
We must confront mythic ancestors
Unless we wish for ever
To be driven by our whirlwinds
To live in their old nostalgias.
Paradise is lingering legend in our day
The world’s smiles are few and wintry.
And the mountains no longer shore the sky.
But one may be a mountain even now —
It’s not too late! — if you pursue your self
If you can make cosmic journeys
Be a shaman not a sham man.
Dangers lie in the self, serpents
Lurk but there are new animals
And auxiliaries and tongues
To help psychopomps and singers
(Listen to birds and the throat of the cockatoo!)
Friendship with the animals who are
Beyond broken time, and schizophrenics:
Bliss of other bodies: the paradisiac
Journeys beyond life and
Death: pushing of utterance into
Mystery of myth: these are the four known ways
To the seat of the Free | Death is the sin |
The Free who live in the Tree | And on the many motor-roads |
The Cosmic Tree | Until we attain incombustibility |
Above the Sea | We fly in its qualifying face |
Of Being | Man the driver close To the ultimate tick |
We all know it | And abolition of that curtain time |
All we have to do is | Which killed |
Wake and know it. | The primordial epoch. |
Fall About Laughing
When we tell them that we’re in love
Men’ll fall about laughing
When the lion gets around to lying down with the dove
Men’ll fall about laughing
When they try to work the machines
Men’ll fall about laughing
Ride a bike or open a can of sardines
Men’ll fall about laughing
What happened to the old straight line
Is no affair of yours or mine
Or the guys who run the place
It’s such an awful disaster
When the mind’s not the master
You can’t even keep a straight face
When we say that the wild days are back
Men’ll fall about laughing
When they find out that we’re sharing a sack
Men’ll fall about laughing
Men’ll fall about laughing
THE DEAD SEA SOUND
Formal Topolatry of Aspiring Forms
Love’s Nocturnal Entry into Bombed
Topography of an Unrealised Affair
An Anagrammatical Small Square Palinaromic Vision
MULTI-VALUE MOTORWAY
She too was obsessed with pelting images. Phil Brasher, her husband, was growing more and more violent with Charteris, as if he knew the power was passing from him to the foreigner. Charteris had the certainty Phil lacked, the gestalt. Certainty, youth, handsome. He was himself. Also, perhaps, a saint. Also other people. But clearly a bit hipped, a heppo. Two weeks here, and he had spoken and the drugged Loughborough crowds had listened to him in a way they never did to her husband. She could not understand his message, but then she had not been sprayed. She understood his power.
The pelting images caught him sometimes naked.
Nerves on edge. Army Burton, played lead guitar, passed through her mind, saying, ‘We are going to have a crusade.’ Lamp posts flickered by, long trees, a prison gate, furry organs. She could not listen to the two men. As they walked over the withdrawn meaning of the wet and broken pavement, the hurtling traffic almost tore at their elbows. That other vision, too, held her near screaming pitch; she kept hearing the squeal of lorry wheels as it crashed into her husband’s body, could see it so clear she knew by its nameboards it was travelling from Glasgow down to Naples. Over and over again it hit him and he fell backwards, disintegrating, quite washing away his discussion, savage discussion of multi-value logic, with Charteris. Also, she was troubled because she thought she saw a dog scuttle by wearing a red and black tie. Bombardment of images. They stood in a web of alternatives.
Phil Brasher said, ‘I ought to kill Charteris.’ Charteris was eating up his possible future at an enormous pace. Brasher saw himself spent, like that little rat Robbins, who had stood as saint and had not been elected. This new man, whom he had at first welcomed as a disciple, was as powerful as the rising sun, blanking Brasher’s mind. He no longer got the good images from the future. Sliced bread cold oven. It was dead, there was a dead area, all he saw was that damned Christmas cactus which he loathed for its meaninglessness, like flowers on a grave. So generated hate and said powerfully and confusedly to Charteris, ‘I ought to kill Charteris.’
‘Wait, first wait,’ said Colin Charteris, in his own English, brain cold and acid. ‘Think of Ouspenski’s personality photographs. There’s a high gloss. You have many alternatives. We are all rich in alternatives.’ He had been saying that all afternoon, during this confused walk, as he knew. Ahead a big blind wall. The damp smudged crowded city, matured to the brown nearest black, gave off this rich aura of possibilities, which Brasher clearly was not getting. Charteris had glimpsed the world-plan, the tides of the future, carried with them sailor-fashion, was not so much superior to as remote from the dogged Brasher and Brasher’s pale-thighed wife, Angelina, flocking on a parallel tide-race. Many alternatives; that was what he would say when next he addressed the crowds. Power was growing in him; he stood back modest and amazed to see it and recognise its sanctity like his father had. Brasher grabbed his wet coat and waved a fist in his face, an empty violent man saying ‘I ought to kill you!’ Traffic roared by them, vehicles driven by drivers seeing visions, on something called Inner Relief Road.