Because You Loved Me

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Authors: M. William Phelps

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Praise for
Murder in the Heartland
 

“Drawing on interviews with law officers and relatives,
Murder in the Heartland
will interest anyone who has followed the Stinnett case. The author has done significant research and—demonstrating how modern forensics and the Internet played critical, even unexpected roles in the investigation—his facile writing pulls the reader along.”

—St. Louis Post-Dispatch

“Phelps uses a unique combination of investigative skills and narrative insight to give readers an exclusive, insider’s look into the events surrounding this incredible, high-profile American tragedy…. He has written a compassionate, riveting true crime masterpiece.”


Anne Bremner,
op-ed columnist and legal analyst on Court TV, MSNBC,
Nancy Grace,
FOX News Channel,
The O’Reilly Factor
, CNN,
Good Morning America
,
The Early Show

“When unimaginable horror strikes, it is certain to cause monstrous sufferings, regardless of its locale. In
Murder in the Heartland
, M. William Phelps expertly reminds us that when the darkest form of evil invades the quiet and safe outposts of rural America, the tragedy is greatly magnified. Get ready for some sleepless nights.”


Carlton Stowers,
Edgar Award–winning author of
Careless Whispers
,
Scream at the Sky
and
To the Last Breath

“This is the most disturbing and moving look at murder in rural America since Capote’s
In Cold Blood
.”


Gregg Olsen,
New York Times
bestselling author of
Abandoned Prayers

“A crisp, no-nonsense account…masterful.”

—Bucks County Courier Times

“An unflinching investigation…Phelps explores this tragedy with courage, insight, and compassion.”


Lima News
(Lima, OH)

Praise for
Sleep in Heavenly Peace
 

“An exceptional book by an exceptional true crime writer. In
Sleep in Heavenly Peace
, M. William Phelps exposes long-hidden secrets and reveals disquieting truths. Page by page, Phelps skillfully probes the disturbed mind of a mother guilty of the ultimate betrayal.”


Kathryn Casey,
author of
She Wanted It All
and
A Warrant to Kill

Praise for
Every Move You Make
 

“An insightful and fast-paced examination of the inner workings of a good cop and his bad informant culminating in an unforgettable truth-is-stranger-than-fiction climax.”


Michael M. Baden, M.D.
, author of
Unnatural Death

“M. William Phelps is the rising star of the nonfiction crime genre, and his true tales of murderers and mayhem are scary-as-hell thrill rides into the dark heart of the inhuman condition.”


Douglas Clegg,
author of
The Lady of Serpents

Praise for
Lethal Guardian
 

“An intense roller-coaster of a crime story. Matt Phelps’ book
Lethal Guardian
is at once complex, with a plethora of twists and turns worthy of any great detective mystery, and yet so well-laid out, so crisply written with such detail to character and place that it reads more like a novel than your standard non-fiction crime book.”


New York Times
bestselling author
Steve Jackson

Praise for
Perfect Poison
 


Perfect Poison
is a horrific tale of nurse Kristen Gilbert’s insatiable desire to kill the most helpless of victims—her own patients. A stunner from beginning to end, Phelps renders the story expertly, with flawless research and an explosive narrative. Phelps unravels the devastating case against nurse Kristen Gilbert and shockingly reveals that unimaginable evil sometimes comes in pretty packages.”


Gregg Olsen
, bestselling author of
Abandoned Prayers, Mockingbird,
and
If Loving You Is Wrong

“M. William Phelps’s
Perfect Poison
is true crime at its best—compelling, gripping, an edge-of-the-seat thriller. All the way through, Phelps packs wallops of delight with his skillful ability to narrate a suspenseful story and his encyclopedic knowledge of police procedures.
Perfect Poison
is the perfect antidote for a dreary night!”


Harvey Rachlin,
author of
The Making of a Detective
and
The Making of a Cop

“A compelling account of terror that only comes when the author dedicates himself to unmasking the psychopath with facts, insight and the other proven methods of journalistic leg work.”


Lowell Cauffiel,
bestselling author of
House of Secrets

“A blood-curdling page turner and a meticulously researched study of the inner recesses of the mind of a psychopathic narcissist.”


Sam Vaknin,
author of
Malignant Self Love—Narcissism Revisited

Other books by M. William Phelps
 

Perfect Poison

Lethal Guardian

Every Move You Make

Sleep in Heavenly Peace

Murder in the Heartland

BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME
 
M. W
ILLIAM
P
HELPS
 

PINNACLE BOOKS

Kensington Publishing Corp.

http://www.kensingtonbooks.com

 

For Dave Perkins,
I still cannot believe you’re gone….

A N
OTE TO
R
EADERS
 

There is always a downside to writing these books. Either the prosecution doesn’t want to participate, which makes your life as an author looking for even basic information very difficult. Or the victim’s family and friends can’t seem to relive what are, I understand, the most incredibly horrible memories of their lives. Through that, as an author, you have to weigh how much you can add to a particular case that hasn’t been reported already during the trial, or overexposed by the media. My goal—always—is to obtain as much exclusive information about a case as I can. I strive for it, and want to provide readers with a total access pass into the lives of all the people involved. If I feel I cannot do that, I move on and try to find a case where I think I can.

In this case, I had the support of the prosecution and several of the victim’s close friends, former coworkers and neighbors. What I didn’t have—which I can accept on some level—is the support of the murderers’ friends and family, at least some of them. I might also say that victim Jeanne Dominico’s immediate family wanted nothing to do with this book and certain members of her family sent me a few rather strange e-mails, expressing their opinions about the work I do and the nature of my job as a journalist. This was upsetting to me, both as a human being who has lost a family member to a serial murderer and a journalist working to report what is a public case.

In the pages that follow, you will find a story of love and loss, manipulation, sex and lies, deceit, selfishness and, of course, murder and redemption. But more important, you will find the story of one woman’s commitment, even if it meant giving up her own life, to her children, friends and community.

The dialogue in this book was reconstructed with the help of many sources: police reports, witness statements, interviews with some of the parties involved, motions, trial testimony, letters, diary entries, recorded conversations and several other important documents.

Any name that appears in
italics
when first introduced is a pseudonym.

M. William Phelps
February 2007

A
CKNOWLEDGMENTS
 

I would not have written this book without Chris McGowan’s blessing and help. For everything he did, I am indebted to Chris and his willingness to share so much of his life and memories of Jeanne Dominico with me.

All of Jeanne’s friends, those whose names I changed and didn’t, your input was some of the most valuable I have ever had while writing a book. You changed the entire scope of this story and helped me fulfill a goal: to get to the true essence of who Jeanne Dominico was as a human being. You should be commended for your courage, candor and motivation to share with me those personal memories of Jeanne that meant the most to you.

Prosecutors Will Delker and Kirsten Wilson were extremely helpful with all my requests. I appreciate their professionalism. To everyone at the Hillsborough County Court in Nashua, I appreciate your help. Court clerk Mike Scanlon was extremely accommodating in helping me collect documents and photocopy letters and journal entries. He made sure I had everything I needed.

Michaela Hamilton, Kensington Publishing Corp.’s editor in chief, has taught me more about writing and publishing than anyone else in the business. I have been blessed with one of the most knowledgeable and professional book editors in publishing. Michaela has made my life as a full-time author a pleasure, as has her entire staff at Kensington.

Maureen Cuddy, my publicist at Kensington, has gone out of her way to do more for me than I could ever explain. She has been a wonder to work with throughout the years and I appreciate all she does to help support my career and get word out about my books.

Peter Miller, who would give me a tongue lashing if I didn’t refer to him as my manager (as opposed to agent), has changed the course of my career, and continues to. Peter, president of PMA Literary & Film Management in New York, is a friend, mentor, watchdog and administrator of my career. Thank you, Peter, for everything you do on my behalf. I would be lost without you and everyone else at PMA.

Fellow true crime author Gregg Olsen, my blogging partner at www.crimerant.com, mentor, best friend and confidant, has pulled me up when I’m down, slapped me around when I needed it and convinced me that what we do is worth the highs and lows that go along with it. Gregg has been a true teacher, the best I’ve ever had.

I dedicated this book to my friend David Perkins, who took his life during the period in which this book was written. Dave and I were brothers in spirit. There was no one like Dave, who could make me laugh, cry and, most important, feel like I mattered. My God, I miss Dave more as the days pass, but have to believe (and accept) he is in a better place.

Lastly, I want to say to my readers: thank you for all of the kind letters and e-mails. I have the greatest fans in the business. You have all stuck by me and continued to support my career and I am grateful for each one of you. Thank you for allowing me the opportunity to do what I love.

Eating apples together is always the first step.

—LeRoi Jones,
Dutchman

 
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