Authors: Diane Chamberlain
Tags: #Family Life, #Fiction, #General, #Literary, #Mothers and Sons, #Psychological Fiction, #Arson, #Patients, #Family Relationships, #Fetal Alcohol Syndrome, #People With Mental Disabilities
“What’s his, uh, disability?” he asked. “Brain injury?”
“Fetal Alcohol Spectrum Disorder,” I said, the words as
familiar to me as my own name.
“Really?” He looked surprised, glancing over my shoulder
as though he could see through the curtain. “Don’t those kids
usually…you know, have a look to them?”
“Not always,” I said.“Depends on what part of them was developing when the alcohol affected them.”
“You’re his adoptive mother then?”
The police on Topsail Island know me and they know Andy
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and they know our story. An ATF agent in Wilmington,
though, was a world away.
“No, I’m his biological mother,” I said.“Sober fifteen years.”
His smile was small. Tentative. Finally he spoke.“You’ve got
a year on me,” he said. “Congratulations.”
“You, too.” I smiled back.
“So—” he looked down at his closed notepad “—how much
of what he says can I believe?”
“All of it,” I said with certainty. “Andy’s honest to a fault.”
“He’s an unusual kid.” He looked over my shoulder again.
“You don’t need to tell
me
that.”
“No, I mean, in a fire, seventy-five percent of the people
try to get out the front door. That’s their first reaction. They’re
like a flock of sheep. One starts in that direction and they all
follow. The other twenty-five percent look for an alternate
exit. A back door. Bash open a window. Who’s the bald-headed
guy he was talking about?”
“I have no idea.”
“Anyway, so Andy here goes for the window in the men’s
room. Strange choice, but turns out to be the right one.”
“Well,” I said, “kids like Andy don’t think like that first
seventy-five percent, or even the twenty-five percent. It was
sheer luck. He could just as easily have gone for…I don’t know,
the ladies’ room window, let’s say, and still be stuck there.” I
hugged my arms across my chest at the thought.“Do you know
if everyone got out okay? I heard rumors that some didn’t.”
He shook his head. “This was a bad one,” he said. “Last
report, three dead.”
I sucked in my breath, hand to my mouth. “Oh, no.” Some
parents wouldn’t have the luxury of hearing their children tell
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what happened tonight. “Do you know who?” I thought of
Keith. Of Marcus.
“No names yet,” he said. “Two of the kids and one adult is
all I know. A lot of serious burns and smoke inhalation. This
E.R.’s packed tight as a can of sardines.”
“What’s the metal box?” I asked.
“The AC unit. Whoever laid the fire skipped around it.”
“Whoever… You’re saying this was
arson?
”
He held up a hand as if to erase his words. “Not for me to
say.”
“I know there was an electrical problem at the youth
building. Could that have affected the church?”
“There’ll be a full investigation,” he said.
“Is that why you asked Andy if he saw anyone else outside
the church?”
“Like I said, there’ll be a full investigation,” he repeated,
and I knew that would now be his answer, no matter what
question I asked.
I opened the curtain around Andy’s bed once I returned to
his cubicle, and noticed a man sitting on the edge of a bed on the
other side of the room. His head was bandaged and his T-shirtclad broad shoulders drooped. When he looked up to say something to his nurse, the movement made him wince. I recognized
the dark hair, the thick-lashed brown eyes. He passed a tremulous hand over his face and I saw the sheen of tears on his cheek.
Andy’s nurse was listening to his lungs. She asked him to
breathe deeply. To cough. I took that moment to whisper to
Maggie.
“Ben Trippett’s over there,” I said. Ben was a volunteer firebefore the storm
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fighter, twenty-seven or twenty-eight. He was also Andy’s
swim-team coach and I wasn’t sure how Andy would react to
seeing him there, injured and upset.
Maggie started as if I’d awakened her from a dream, then
followed my gaze to the other side of the room. She knew Ben
fairly well, since she coached the younger kids’ swim team.
Maggie got up, and before I could stop her, walked across
the room toward Ben. He’d be embarrassed that we’d seen him
crying, but Maggie was seventeen and I had to let her make
her own errors in judgment. Her back was to me as she greeted
Ben and I couldn’t see his reaction. But then she pulled a
rolling stool close to the bed and sat down and they talked,
both of them with their heads bowed as though they were
sharing a prayer. Ben’s shoulders shook, and Maggie reached
out and rested her hand on his wrist. She amazed me at times.
Had she learned that compassion from me, watching me with
Andy? I doubted it. All good things about Maggie had been
Jamie’s doing. A seventeen-year-old girl finding it in herself to
comfort a grown man. I was, for just a moment, in awe of her.
Andy’s nurse straightened up. “Let me take your vitals and
then I’ll see about getting you discharged,” she said.
Andy stuck out his left arm for the blood pressure cuff.
“Your other arm, Andy,” the nurse said. “Remember? You
need to be careful with the burned arm for a few days.”
She took his blood pressure and temperature and then left
us alone.
“I’m going to write a book about being a hero,” Andy said,
as I reached beneath the bed for the plastic bag containing his
shirt and shoes.
“Maybe someday you will.” I considered bringing him down
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to earth a little, but how often did he get to crow about an accomplishment? Other people would not be so kind, though.
Opening the bag, I recoiled from the pungent scent of his
clothes. “Andy, what you did tonight was very brave and
smart,” I said.
He nodded. “Right.”
I thought about letting him leave the hospital without his
odorous shirt or shoes, but it was chilly outside. I handed him
the striped shirt.
“But the fire was a very serious thing and a lot of people were
hurt.” I hesitated. It was best that he heard it from me. “Some
died.”
He shook his head violently. “I saved them.”
“You couldn’t save everyone, though. That’s not your fault.
I know you tried. But don’t talk to people about how you’re
a hero. It’s bragging. Remember, we don’t brag.”
“Is it bragging if it’s in a book?”
“That would be okay,” I said.
Behind me, the glass door plowed open and I turned to see
Dawn Reynolds fly through the room toward Ben.
“Oh my God!
Ben!
” She nearly knocked Maggie off the stool
as she rushed to pull Ben into her arms. “I was so scared,” she
said, crying. Tears welled in my own eyes as I watched the love
and relief pour from her. She and Ben lived together in a little
beach cottage in Surf City, and Dawn worked with Sara at
Jabeen’s Java.
“I’m okay.” Ben rubbed her arms in reassurance. “I’m all
right.”
Maggie quietly stood up, offering the stool to Dawn, then
walked back to us.
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“Is he okay?” I nodded toward Ben.
“Not exactly.” She bit her lip. “He has a seven-year-old
daughter who lives with his ex-wife in Charlotte. He keeps
thinking about her being trapped like that. He’s upset that
people…” She looked at Andy, then me. “You know.”
“I explained to Andy that some people died in the fire,” I
said.
Maggie started to cry again. She reached in her jeans
pocket for her shredded tissue. “I just don’t understand how
this could happen.”
“I’m going to write a book about it so it won’t be bragging,”
Andy said as he pulled on one of his shoes.
Maggie stuffed her tissue in her pocket again. She lifted
Andy’s leg so his foot rested on her hip as she tied his shoelaces. “Ben said a beam landed on his head,” she said. “Uncle
Marcus was with him.”
Marcus.
I remembered what the ATF agent had said:
Two kids
and one adult.
And for the second time that night, my fear and
worry shifted from my son to my brother-in-law.
I DIALED LAUREL’S NUMBER FOR THE THIRD TIME as I
swerved onto Market Street. Voice mail. Again.
Cute, Laurel.
Now’s not the time to pretend you don’t know me.
“Call me, for Christ’s sake!” I shouted into the phone.
I still couldn’t picture Laurel letting Andy go to a lock-in,
especially one at Drury Memorial.
I’d just come out of that fire pit when Pete ran up to me.
“Lockwood!” He’d only been a few feet away, but he had to
shout above the racket of generators and sizzling water and
sirens. “Your nephew’s at New Hanover. Get out of here!”
It took a second for his words to register. “Andy was
here?
”
I shrugged out of the air pack and peeled off my helmet. My
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hands had been rock steady inside the church. Suddenly, they
were shaking.
“Right,” Pete called over his shoulder as he raced back to the
truck. “Drop your gear and get going. We’ll take care of it.”
“Does Laurel know?” I shouted as I stripped off my turnout
jacket, but he didn’t hear me.
I ran the few blocks to the fire station, yanking off my
gear along the way until I was down to my uniform. Jumped
into my pickup and peeled out of the parking lot. They’d
closed the bridge to all traffic other than emergency
vehicles, but when the officer guarding the entrance recognized me, she waved me through. I’d tried Laurel at home
as well as her cell. Now I called the emergency room at New
Hanover. I had to dial the number twice; my hands were
shaking that hard. I set the phone to speaker and dropped it
in the cup holder.
“E.R.,” a woman answered.
“This is Surf City Fire Marshal Marcus Lockwood,” I shouted
in the direction of the phone. “You have a patient, Andy
Lockwood, from Drury Memorial. Can you give me a status on
him?”
“Just a moment.”
The chaos at the hospital—sirens and shouting—filled the
cab of my pickup. Someone screamed words I couldn’t make
out. Someone else wailed. It was like the frenzied scene at the
fire had moved to the hospital.
“Come on, come on.” My fists clenched the steering wheel.
“Mr. Lockwood?”
“Yes.”
“He’s being treated for smoke inhalation and burns.”
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Shit.
“Hold on a sec…”
I heard her talking to someone. Then she was back on the
phone. “First-degree burn, his nurse says. Just his arm. He’s
stable. His nurse says he’s a hero.”
She had the wrong boy. The words “Andy” and “hero” didn’t
go together in the same sentence.
“You sure you’re talking about Andy Lockwood?”
“He’s your nephew, right?”
“Right.”
“His nurse says he led some kids out of the church through
the men’s room window.”
“What?”
“And she says he’s going to be fine.”
I couldn’t speak. I managed to turn off the phone, then
struggled to keep control of the pickup as the road blurred in
front of me. As nerve-racking as the fire had been, it hadn’t
scared me half as much as those last couple of minutes on the
phone.
Now that I knew Andy was going to be okay, I was royally
pissed off. The fire was arson. I had been on the first truck out
and done a quick walk around. The fire ring was even on all
four sides of the building. That didn’t happen by accident.
I understood arson. I’d been the kind of kid who played with
matches and I once set our shed on fire. I tried to blame it on
Jamie, but my parents knew their saintly older son would
never be that stupid. I don’t remember my punishment—just
the initial thrill of watching Daddy’s oily rags explode into
flame on his workbench, followed by terror as the fire shot up
the wall. So I got it—the thrill, the excitement. But damn it,
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if some asshole had to start a fire, why a church filled with kids?
Why not one of the hundreds of empty summer homes on the
island? The building itself was no great loss. Drury Memorial
had been on a fund-raising kick for years, trying to get the
money to build a bigger church. So, was that just a coincidence? And was it a coincidence that the lock-in was moved
from the youth building to the church? Whatever, it felt good
to be thinking about the investigation instead of Andy.
Ben Trippett and Dawn Reynolds were coming out of the
E.R. as I ran toward the entrance. Now
there
was a guy who
could call himself a hero. As much as I wanted to see Andy, I
had to stop.
“There’s the man!” I said, clapping him on the shoulder.
“Dude,” Ben said, with a failed effort at a smile. He leaned
against Dawn and in the light from the entrance I saw her eyes
were red.
“How’s the head?” He’d been crawling in front of me in the
church when something—a joist or a statue or who knew