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Authors: Jessica Warman

Between

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Contents

Cover

Title Page

Dedication

Epigraph

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty-one

Chapter Twenty-two

Chapter Twenty-three

Chapter Twenty-four

Chapter Twenty-five

Acknowledgments

Also by Jessica Warman

Imprint

For M. C. W.

Because we fit.

This living hand, now warm and capable

Of earnest grasping, would, if it were cold

And in the icy silence of the tomb,

So haunt thy days and chill thy dreaming nights

That thou wouldst wish thine own heart dry of blood

So in my veins red life might stream again,

And thou be conscience-calmed – see here it is –

I hold it towards you.

—John Keats

One

It’s a little after two a.m. Outside the
Elizabeth
, things are relatively quiet. Boats—yachts, really—are tied to the docks, clean white buoys protecting their fiberglass and porcelain exteriors from the wood. The
slosh
of the Long Island Sound, water beating against boats and shore, is a constant in the background. In most of the other boats—with names like
Well Deserved
,
Privacy
,
Good Life
—there is peace.

But inside the
Elizabeth
, there is persistent unrest. The boat is a sixty-four-foot cruiser, equipped with a full kitchen, two baths, two bedrooms, and enough extra space to sleep a total of twenty people. Tonight there are only six, though. It’s a small party—my parents wouldn’t have let me throw a big one. Everybody is asleep, I think, except for me.

I’ve been staring at the clock for twenty minutes now, listening to this annoying
thump, thump, thump
against the hull. It’s late August. The air outside is already cool, and the water is undoubtedly frigid. Connecticut’s like that; the water gets warm for a month or so in July, but near the end of the summer it’s already cold again. Sometimes it seems like there are only two seasons around here: winter and almost winter.

Regardless of the water’s temperature, I’m pretty certain there’s a fish out there, stuck between the dock and the boat, pounding against the fiberglass, trying to free itself. The noise has been going on for what feels like forever. It woke me up at exactly 1:57 a.m., and it’s starting to drive me nuts.

I finally can’t take it anymore.
Thump. Thump-thump.
If it’s a fish, it’s a
stupid
fish.

“Hey? Do you hear that?” I say to my best friend and stepsister, Josie, who’s sleeping beside me on the fold-out couch in the front of the boat, her highlighted dirty-blond hair plastered against the side of her face. She doesn’t respond, just continues to snore softly, passed out since a little after midnight from an alcohol-marijuana combination that sent us all to bed before the late show came to an end. That’s the last thing I remember before falling asleep: trying to keep my eyes open, mumbling to Josie that we had to wait for 1:37 a.m., which is exactly when I was born, before we fell asleep. Nobody made it. At least, I know I didn’t.

I stand up in the near darkness. The only light in the boat is coming from the TV, where there’s an infomercial for the SuperMop! running with the sound turned off.

“Anyone awake?” I ask, still keeping my voice low. The boat rocks against the waves coming in from the Long Island Sound.
Thud-thud-thud
. There it is again.

I look at the clock. It’s 2:18. I smile to myself; I’ve officially been eighteen for over a half hour.

If it weren’t for the thumping, the rocking of the boat would feel like being tucked inside a lullaby. This is just about my favorite place in the world. Being here with my friends makes it even better, if that’s possible. Everything seems peaceful and calm. The stillness of the evening feels almost magical tonight.

Thump.

“I’m going outside to liberate a fish,” I announce. “Somebody please come with me.”

But nobody—not one of them—even stirs.

“Bunch of selfish drunks,” I murmur. But I’m only kidding. And anyway, I can go outside by myself. I’m a big girl. There’s nothing to be scared of.

I know it sounds hypocritical, since we’ve been drinking and smoking, but it’s true: we’re good kids. This is a safe town. Everyone onboard has grown up together in Noank, Connecticut. Our families are friends. We love each other. Looking around at all of them—Josie in the front of the boat, Mera, Caroline, Topher, and Richie in sleeping bags on the floor in the back—life inside the
Elizabeth
feels like a hazy dream.

Elizabeth Valchar. That’s me; my parents named this boat after me when I was six years old. But that was a lifetime ago. A few years before we lost my mother, before my dad married Josie’s mom. My dad got rid of a lot of my mom’s stuff after she died, but he was always adamant about keeping the boat. See, we have so many happy memories here. I always felt safe here. My mom would have wanted it this way.

Still, it can be eerie so late at night, especially outside. Other than the sloshing of the waves, the dull thumping against the hull, the night is dark and silent. The smell of ocean salt water, algae dried onto all the thick rock formations this close to shore, is so overwhelming that, if the wind catches it the right way, it can almost make me nauseated.

I’m not particularly keen on trying to figure out where the mystery noise is coming from all by myself, even though I’m almost certain it’s just a fish. So I give Josie one more try. “Hey,” I say louder, “wake up. I need your help.” I reach out to touch her, but something stops me. It’s the oddest feeling—like I shouldn’t be disturbing her. For a minute, I think that I must still be drunk. Everything feels kind of fuzzy.

Her eyelids flutter. “Liz?” she murmurs. She’s confused, obviously still asleep. For a second there’s a flash of something—is it fear? Am I freaking her out?—in her gaze. And then she’s out again, and I’m standing by myself, the only person awake.
Thud-thud-thud
.

The docks are like a wooden jigsaw puzzle. Waves break in from the ocean, and by the time they reach the Sound they’re usually gentle enough, but tonight they seem stronger than normal, rocking us all to sleep like a bunch of babies. Despite my attempts to be brave, I feel small and afraid as I tiptoe out the open sliding glass door, my shoes making light
clacking
sounds against the fiberglass deck of the boat. Each arm of the docks has only two overhead lights: one at the middle and another at the very end. There is no visible moon. The air is so chilly that I shudder, thinking what the water must feel like. Goose bumps rise on my exposed flesh.

I stand on deck, frozen, listening. Maybe the noise will go away.

Thump.
Nope.

It’s coming from the stern, between the dock and the boat, like something heavy and alive, persistent, stuck. We’re the last boat on this arm of the dock, which means the back of the
Elizabeth
is almost fully illuminated by the light. I don’t know why I feel the need to be so quiet. The noise from my shoes against the deck is jarring, every footstep making me cringe, no matter how carefully I step. I make my way along the side of the boat, holding tightly to the railing. Once the sound is directly beneath me, I look down.

Wet.
It’s the first word that comes to mind before I scream.

Soaked. Waterlogged. Facedown.
Oh, shit.

It isn’t a fish; it’s a person. A girl. Her hair is long and so blond that it’s almost white, the pretty, natural color shimmering beneath the water. The wavy strands, moving back and forth like algae, reach almost to her waist. She’s wearing jeans and a short-sleeved pink sweater.

But that’s not what’s making the noise. It’s her feet; her boots, actually. She’s wearing a pair of white cowgirl boots, encrusted with gemstones, steel-toed decadence.

The boots were a birthday gift from her parents. She’d been wearing them proudly all night, and now the steel toe of her left boot is lodged awkwardly between the boat and the dock, and with each passing wave it’s kicking against the side, almost like she’s trying to wake people up.

How do I know all this? Because the boots are mine. So are the clothes. The girl in the water is me.

I scream again, loud enough to wake everyone for a mile around. But I get the feeling nobody can hear me.

Two

I’ve been sitting on the dock for how long—hours? Minutes? It’s hard to tell. I stare down at myself, stuck in the water, my body waiting for someone living to wake up and discover me. It’s still dark.

I’ve been crying. Shaking. Trying to come up with any possible explanation for what’s happened tonight. For a while I tried to wake up myself, convinced I was having a nightmare. When that didn’t work, I went back through the open door of the boat—making no attempt to be quiet this time—and tried to wake everyone else. I stood in their faces and shouted. I tried to shake them, to slap them; I stomped in my boots and cried for someone,
anyone
, to open their eyes and see me. Nothing. When I touched them, it was like there was a thin layer of invisible insulation between my hand and their bodies. Like I simply could not reach them.

Now I’m outside again, looking at my body. I’m officially freaking out.

“Elizabeth Valchar,” I say out loud, in the sternest voice I can muster, “you cannot be dead. You’re sitting on the dock. You’re right here. Everything is going to be okay.”

But there is doubt in my voice, which trembles as I say the words out loud. I feel so young and alone, so incredibly helpless. It is beyond a nightmare. It’s like a hell. I want my parents. I want my friends. I want anyone.

“Actually, it’s not going to be okay.”

I look up, startled. There’s a boy standing beside me. He can’t be older than sixteen or seventeen.

I put a hand to my mouth, jump to my feet, and clap my hands in excitement. “You can see me! Oh yes! You can hear me, too!”

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