Authors: Ellie R Hunter
The Lost Souls MC
Ellie R Hunter
Ellie R Hunter
© 2015 Ellie R Hunter
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Table of Contents
“Cheers, may they rest in peace, brother,” Michael snorts, as I raise my beer to him and lounge back against the couch at our booth in the corner of the bar.
“Michael, please,” urging him to talk to me. “When are you going to acknowledge they’re not coming back?”
In a tragic car accident one year ago today, our parent’s died on impact when a trucker, drunk off his ass, ploughed into their car.
“Oh, I acknowledge it Mark. Doesn’t mean I want to raise my fuckin’ glass to their deaths.”
Neither Michael nor I were around when it happened and it eats away at my brother more than it is me. I was in the Marine Corps and didn’t find out until two days before their funeral. I barely made it back in time to see their coffins lowered into the ground. Michael hadn’t been told about their deaths until I told him myself on the next prison visit that I could get with him. He wasn’t allowed out for the funeral, he was handed a two year sentence for assault and was deemed too much of a risk to be allowed out to say goodbye. I was surprised he was released at all. Since he got out six months ago, I have tried to get him to say goodbye at their graves in the cemetery but he always refuses. Up till now he has refused to talk much about it at all. I know my brother, if he doesn’t put himself in a position where he has to front up to it then he can make himself feel better thinking it never happened.
He was already in lock up for a year before it happened and had shunned our mother’s insistence to visit him, a choice he now and will forever regret.
“Then raise your glass to their lives, to raising us and giving us everything we possibly needed,” I spit, beginning to lose my patience with him.
“They were good people, Mark. They didn’t deserve to die. We should be tracking down the asshole that got away with murder,” he growls.
So this is what he has been holding to. I take a deep breath wondering how to reach him so he understands. Michael has always been a ‘hit first and ask questions later’ kind of guy. It only served him well until it didn’t and I wasn’t around to keep him out of trouble, and trouble has a habit of following my brother around on a daily basis. He has no direction, no level of control that would help him look at the bigger picture around him. I have always tried to do this for him but when I left he had no one. Our parents couldn’t understand where his anger came from. No one could.
Sitting here now, I look at him. He’s a grown man and a very strong one. At six foot one inch, he’s more than capable of looking out for himself. He’s underestimated a lot of the time because although tall, he’s slender and lean with it. Unless you catch him with his shirt off you wouldn’t know he’s muscular with each muscle defined to the point he looks like an action man doll. It’s then I realise I don’t know how to reach him because I’m just as lost as he is. When I think of my sweet, loving mother sprawled along the roadside it takes everything inside me not to track down the guy myself and make him disappear.
“What do you need to get past this?” I ask him.
“Get past it? Fuck, Mark. They were our parents, do you think we should be able to get over it, ever?”
“I will never forget them, they will always be with me. But there will come a time when we move on with our own lives like they would want for us. So tell me, what do you need?”
He leans forward on the table between us and dips his head closer to mine.
“I need him to be buried deeper than our parents are. If it wasn’t for him they would still be here and I wouldn’t be on my own.”
The pain in his voice slices through me like a hot knife through butter and knocks me back. He has always had a quick temper and from what I’ve heard since I came home, a short fuse for violence. But what he needs is murder born from his own hands.
I stare at him still unsure of what to say, he’s deadly serious and maintains my stare until his lips pull up at the corner and he grins, looking almost evil.
“Then you’d have to live with that for the rest of your life,” I say.
The laugh that erupts, from deep down in his gut takes me back. “Do you think I’d lose sleep over that little fact?” he says, continuing to laugh.
He shakes his head and drains the rest of his whiskey in one mouthful.
“You can’t tell me you haven’t thought about it, marine boy. I know you’re capable of it and you know I am too. For our parents, you know what we should do.”
“Yeah, and who are the cops going to come looking for first when they find his body? We’d be prime suspects. Go home and stop drinking before you do something that will land you back behind bars for the rest of your breathing days.”
“You’ve always been the same,” he mutters, going to raise the glass in his hand to his mouth, only stopping when he remembers it’s empty.
“Promise me you won’t do anything stupid yet, and not on your own. Just let me think about it,” I say, hoping this will placate him enough tonight not to rush into any half-hearted plans.
He knows he has me where he wants me and knowing my brother, he will bide his time for me to stand by his side.
“Found any work yet?” he asks, casually.
And just like that the violence in his eyes is gone. I flow with the shift in the tension between us and shake my head.
“I don’t have much cash left and if I don’t find any work soon I don’t know what I’ll do,” I admit.
“Let me get you another drink then so you don’t have to cut into your grocery money,” he chuckles.
Before I can decline he is at the bar with the barmaid’s attention solely on him. I’ll give him his dues. He has women all over him wherever he goes without even having to try.
Old habits I guess, but I watch his every move. With Michael, trouble can happen in the blink of an eye and it seems tonight is no exception.
He leaves the bar with our drinks grinning like the cat who got the cream and is holding on to a beer mat, no doubt the barmaid’s number. Halfway between the bar and our booth a drunk knocks into him from the side causing his whiskey to topple out of his hand and smash to the floor.
I jump out of my seat knowing this isn’t going to end well. Keeping my eyes on Michael every second I know he isn’t going to walk away from this without kicking off.
The drunk guy stumbles back as Michael shoves him away from him and he holds his hands up, but I know this won’t be enough for Michael.
“I don’t want no trouble,” the drunk guy slurs, noticing Michael was the wrong guy to stumble into.
Michael rolls his neck and turns to face him.
“I don’t want you near me but here we find we don’t always get what we want.” Michael sneers.
I move closer as the look in Michael’s eyes become like a predator about to pounce on his prey.
When he takes a step closer to the drunk I grab onto his arm. He tries to shrug me off never turning away from the drunk guy but I squeeze tighter.
“Learn when to walk away, choose your fights, Michael. This punk isn’t worth going back to jail for,” I urge, trying to calm him down.
The guy is drunk and should be at home sleeping it off. From what I saw he didn’t intentionally cross Michael’s path, so for the sake of an accident and my brother’s freedom, I try to defuse the situation.
Michael looks to me and for a minute, I think I have gotten through to him.
“Yeah, walk away, man.”
For less than a second I close my eyes and wish the drunk guy would just have kept his mouth shut.
For his own good and before Michael makes matters worse, I reach out and slam the drunk guy’s head on the table and watch as he drops to the floor. No more messing around. I force Michael out of the bar and push him towards our bikes.
As soon as I release him he turns on me and I see the younger version of my brother before I left him to join the Marines. He looks so lost and angry at the same time.
He swipes his black hair away from his eyes and glares at me.
“You tell me to walk away then you knock the guy out yourself. You’re such a fuckin’ hypocrite,” he yells.
I know he has a point but I try to justify myself anyway.
“Yeah, I did. I left once he hit the ground though, you wouldn’t have would you? You wouldn’t have stopped until you found that release you seem to need.”
“You always do this, you come steaming in trying to be the hero…”
I cut in because I can’t listen to this bullshit again.
“All I want is for you to think more. I’m not completely fuckin’ clueless. I know you’re going to get into fights, it’s who you are but I want you to control yourself. That guy was simply too drunk to walk and accidently fell into you. Instead of laughing at him, you wanted to rip his head off.”
“I have control,” he grinds out.
“Then fuckin’ use it,” I snap, feeling his weight on my shoulders.
“Fuck this, I’m out of here.”
I stand there surrounded by the glow of the street lamp and watch him swing his leg over his bike and ride off. It’s becoming harder to watch him go down like this. When we were younger I never needed to watch out for him when it came to school yard fights, most of the time it was he who was the cause of them. Neither of our parents had to ask for me, as his big brother, to look out for him in that sense. I looked out for him because I needed to make sure he never went too far. I’d hoped he would grow out of it but at twenty-four he only seems to be getting worse and the death of our parents hasn’t helped.
Throwing my own leg over my bike, I bring the engine to life and pull away from the bar and head for home where tonight sleep will hopefully find me.