Read Can You Forgive Her? Online
Authors: Anthony Trollope
‘It wouldn’t do any good, you know.’
‘But I do want to be of service to you. There is something of truth in what you say. You have been disappointed; and I, perhaps, of all men am the most bound to come to your assistance now that you are in need.’
‘How can I take it from you?’ said Burgo, almost crying.
‘You shall take it from her!’
‘No; – that would be worse; twenty times
worse. What! take her money, when she would not give me herself!’
‘I do not see why you should not borrow her money, – or mine. You shall call it which you will.’
‘No; I won’t have it.’
‘And what will you do then?’
‘What will I do? Ah! That’s the question. I don’t know what I will do. I have the key of my bedroom in my pocket, and I will go to bed tonight It’s not very often that I look forward
much beyond that.’
’Will you let me call on you, tomorrow?’
‘I don’t see what good it will do? I shan’t get up till late, for fear they should shut the room against me. I might as well have as much out of them as I can. I think I shall say I’m ill, and keep my bed.’
‘Will you take a few napoleons?’
‘No; not a rap. Not from you. You are the first man from whom I ever refused to borrow money,
and I should say that you’ll be about the last to offer to lend it me.’
‘I don’t know what else I can offer?’ said Mr Palliser.
‘You can offer nothing. If you will say to your wife from me that I bade her adieu; – that is all you can do for me. Good night, Mr Palliser; good night.’
Mr Palliser left him and went his way, feeling that he had no further eloquence at his command. He shook Burgo’s
hand, and then walked quickly down the hill. As he did so, he passed, or would have passed the man who had been dodging them.
‘Misther, Misther!’ said the man in a whisper.
‘What do you want of me?’ asked Mr Palliser, in French.
Then the man spoke in French, also. ‘Has he got any money? Have you given him any money?’
‘I have not given him any money,’ said Mr Palliser, not quite knowing what
he had better do or say under such circumstances.
‘Then he will have a bad time with it,’ said the man. ‘And he might have carried away two thousand francs just now! Dear, dear, dear! Has he got any friends, sir?’
‘Yes, he has friends. I do not know that I can assist him, or you.’
‘Fitzgerald; – his name is Fitzgerald?’
‘Yes,’ said Mr Palliser; ‘his name is Fitzgerald.’
‘Ah! There are so
many Fitzgeralds in England. Mr Fitzgerald, London; – he has no other address?’
‘If he had, and I knew it, I should not give it you without his sanction.’
‘But what shall we do? How shall we act? Perhaps with his own hand he will himself kill. For five weeks his pension he owes;
yes, for five weeks. And for wine, oh so much! There came through Baden a my lord, and then, I think he got money.
But he went and played. That was of course. But; oh my G—1 he might have carried away this night two thousand francs; yes, two thousand francs!’
‘Are you the hotelkeeper?’
‘His friend, sir; only his friend. That is, I am the head Commissionaire. I look after the gentlemen who sometimes are not all—not all – ’ exactly what they should be, the commissioner intended to explain; and Mr Palliser
understood him although the words were not quite spoken. The interview was ended by Mr Palliser taking the name of the hotel, and promising to call before Mr Fitzgerald should be up in the morning – a purposed visit, which we need not regard as requiring any very early energy on Mr Palliser’s part, when we remember Burgo’s own programme for the following day.
Lady Glencora received her husband
that night with infinite anxiety, and was by no means satisfied with what had been done. He described to her as accurately as he could the nature of his interview with Burgo, and he described to her also his other interview with the head commissioner.
‘He will; he will,’ said Lady Glencora; when she heard from her husband the man’s surmise that perhaps he might destroy himself. ‘He will; he will;
and if he does, how can you expect that I shall bear it?’ Mr Palliser tried to soothe her by telling her of his promised visit to the landlord; and Lady Glencora, accepting this as something, strove to instigate her husband to some lavish expenditure on Burgo’s behalf. There can be no reason why he should not take it,’ said Glencora. ‘None the least Had it not been promised to him? Had he not
a right to it?’ The subject was one which Mr Palliser found it very hard to discuss. He could not tell his wife that Fitzgerald ought to accept his bounty; but he assured her that his money should be forthcoming, almost to any extent, if it could be made available.
On the following morning he went down to the hotel, and saw the real landlord. He found him to be a reasonable, tranquil, and very
good-natured man, – who was possessed by a not irrational
desire that his customers’ bills should be paid; but who seemed to be much less eager on the subject than are English landlords in general. His chief anxiety seemed to arise from the great difficulty of doing anything with the gentleman who was now lying in his bed upstairs. ‘Has he had any breakfast?’ Mr Palliser asked.
‘Breakfast! Oh
yes;’ and the landlord laughed. He had been very particular in the orders he had given. He had desired his cutlets to be dressed in a particular way, – with a great deal of cayenne pepper, and they had been so dressed. He had ordered a bottle of Sauterne; but the landlord had thought, or the head-waiter acting for him had thought, that a bottle of ordinary wine of the country would do as well. The
bottle of ordinary wine of the country had just that moment been sent upstairs.
Then Mr Palliser sat down in the landlord’s little room, and had Burgo Fitzgerald’s bill brought to him. ‘I think I might venture to pay it,’ said Mr Palliser.
‘That was as monsieur pleased,’ said the landlord, with something like a sparkle in his eye.
What was Mr Palliser to do? He did not know whether, in accordance
with the rules of the world in which he lived, he ought to pay it, or ought to leave it; and certainly the landlord could not tell him. Then he thought of his wife. He could not go back to his wife without having done something; so, as a first measure, he paid the bill. The landlord’s eyes glittered, and he receipted it in the most becoming manner.
‘Should he now send up the bottle of Sauterne?’
– but to this Mr Palliser demurred.
‘And to whom should the receipted bill be given?’ Mr Palliser thought that the landlord had better keep it himself for a while.
‘Perhaps there is some little difficulty?’ suggested the landlord.
Mr Palliser acknowledged that there was a little difficulty. He knew that he must do something more. He could not simply pay the bill and go away. That would not
satisfy his wife. He knew that he must do something more; but how was he to do it? So at last he let the landlord into his confidence. He did not tell the
whole of Burgo’s past history. He did not tell that little episode in Burgo’s life which referred to Lady Glencora. But he did make the landlord understand that he was willing to administer money to Mr Fitzgerald, if only it could only be administered
judiciously.
‘You can’t keep him out of the gambling salon, you know, sir; that is, not if he has a franc in his pocket’ As to that the landlord was very confident.
It was at last arranged, that the landlord was to tell Burgo that his bill did not signify at present, and that the use of the hotel was to be at Burgo’s command for the next three months. At the end of that time he was to have notice
to quit. No money was to be advanced to him; – but the landlord, even in this respect, had a discretion.
‘When I get home, I will see what can be done with his relations there,’ said Mr Palliser. Then he went home and told his wife.
‘But he’ll have no clothes,’ said Lady Glencora.
Mr Palliser said that the judicious landlord would manage that also; and in that way Lady Glencora was appeased,
- appeased, till something final could be done for the young man, on Mr Palliser’s return home.
Poor Burgo! He must now be made to end his career as far as these pages are concerned. He soon found that something had been done for him at the hotel, and no doubt he must have made some guess near the truth. The discreet landlord told him nothing, – would tell him nothing; but that his bill did not
signify as yet Burgo thinking about it, resolved to write about it in an indignant strain to Mr Palliser; but the letter did not get itself written. When in England, Mr Palliser saw Sir Cosmo Monk, and with many apologies, told him what he had done.
‘I regret it,’ said Sir Cosmo, in anger. ‘I regret it; not for the money’s sake, but I regret it.’ The amount expended, was however repaid to Mr
Palliser, and an arrangement was made for remitting a weekly sum of fifteen pounds to Burgo, through a member of the diplomatic corps, as long as he should remain at a certain small German town which was indicated, and in which there was no public gambling-table. Lady Glencora expressed herself satisfied
for the present; but I must doubt whether poor Burgo lived long in comfort on the allowance
made to him.
Here we must say farewell to Burgo Fitzgerald.
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ALLISER
did not remain long in Baden after the payment of Burgo’s bill. Perhaps I shall not throw any undeserved discredit on his courage if I say that he was afraid to do so. What would he have said, – what would he have been able to say, if that young man had come to him demanding an explanation? So he hurried away to Strasbourg the same day, much to
his wife’s satisfaction.
The journey home from thence was not marked by any incidents. Gradually Mr Palliser became a little more lenient to his wife and slightly less oppressive in his caution. If he still inquired about the springs of the carriages, he did so in silence, and he ceased to enjoin the necessity of a day’s rest after each day’s journey. By the time that they reached Dover he had
become so used to his wife’s condition that he made but little fluttering as she walked out of the boat by that narrow gangway which is so contrived as to make an arrival there a serious inconvenience to a lady, and a nuisance even to a man. He was somewhat staggered when a big man, in the middle of the night, insisted on opening the little basket which his wife carried, and was uncomfortable when
obliged to stop her on the plank while he gave up the tickets which he thought had been already surrendered; but he was becoming used to his position, and bore himself like a man.
During their journey home Mr Palliser had by no means kept his seat opposite to Lady Glencora with constancy. He had soon found that it was easier to talk to Mr Grey than to his wife, and, consequently, the two ladies
had been much together, as had also
the two gentlemen. What the ladies discussed may be imagined. One was about to become a wife and the other a mother, and that was to be their fate after each had made up her mind that no such lot was to be hers. It may, however, be presumed that for every one word that Alice spoke Lady Glencora spoke ten. The two men, throughout these days of close intimacy,
were intent upon politics. Mr Palliser, who may be regarded as the fox who had lost his tail, – the tail being, in this instance, the comfort of domestic privacy, – was eager in recommending his new friend to cut off his tail also. Your argument would be very well,’ said he, ‘if men were to be contented to live for themselves only.’
‘Your argument would be very well,’ said the other, ‘If it were
used to a man who felt that he could do good to others by going into public life. But it is wholly inefficacious if it recommends public life simply or chiefly because a man may gratify his own ambition by public services.’
‘Of course there is personal gratification, and of course there is good done,’ said Mr Palliser.
‘Is, – or should be,’ said Mr Grey.
‘Exactly; and the two things must go
together. The chief gratification comes from the feeling that you are of use.’
‘But if you feel that you would not be of use?’
We need not follow the argument any further. We all know its nature, and what between two such men would be said on both sides. We all know that neither of them would put the matter altogether in a true light. Men never can do so in words, let the light within themselves
be ever so clear. I do not think that any man yet ever had such a gift of words as to make them a perfect exponent of all the wisdom within him. But the effect was partly that which the weaker man of the two desired, – the weaker in the gifts of nature, though art had in some respects made him stronger. Mr Grey was shaken in his quiescent philosophy, and startled Alice, – startled her as much
as he delighted her, – by a word or two he said as he walked with her in the courts of the Louvre. ‘It’s all hollow here,’ he said, speaking of French politics.
‘Very hollow,’ said Alice, who had no love for the French mode of carrying on public affairs.
‘Of all modes of governing
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this seems to me to be the surest of coming to a downfall. Men are told that they are wise enough to talk, but
not wise enough to have any power of action. It is as though men were cautioned that they were walking through gunpowder, and that no fire could be allowed them, but were at the same time enjoined to carry lucifer matches in their pockets. I don’t believe in the gunpowder, and I think there should be fire, and plenty of it; but if I didn’t want the fire I wouldn’t have the matches.’
‘It’s so
odd to hear you talk politics,’ said Alice, laughing.
After this he dropped the subject for a while, as though he were ashamed of it, but in a very few minutes he returned to it manfully. ‘Mr Palliser wants me to go into Parliament.’ Upon hearing this Alice said nothing. She was afraid to speak. After all that had passed she felt that it would not become her to show much outward joy on hearing
such a proposition, so spoken by him, and yet she could say nothing without some sign of exultation in her voice. So she walked on without speaking, and was conscious that her fingers trembled on his arm. ‘What do you say about it?’ he asked.