Chained (When Bondage Meets Innocence) (6 page)

Hannah didn’t say anything. She just blinked. The words coming out of her friend’s mouth didn’t seem like they should be put together in that order. They didn’t make sense, at least not when she was talking about Krista. “Huh?” Hannah asked.

“
The doctor said the vagus nerve controls blood pressure or something and mine had some kind of rare reaction which made me pass out,” Krista said.

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I got that part,” Hannah said. “I’m missing the part about the anal sex.”

Krista slowly chewed the bite of burger in her mouth and said, “Who knew that anal sex could be awesome? I always figured it would hurt like hell and that the woman couldn’t possibly enjoy it. Turns out, it’s amazing.”

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Krista, you aren’t making any sense. You aren’t even seeing anyone. Who on earth were you having anal sex with?” her friend exclaimed.

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No idea,” Krista said.

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You didn’t know his name or anything?” Hannah asked. “I didn’t know you did the casual sex thing.”

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I don’t,” Krista said. “I didn’t even know what he looked like. I never saw his face.”

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Am I being punked?” Hannah asked, looking around the room.

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No seriously,” Krista said. “I didn’t know anything about him other than that he had a sexy voice.”

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Okay, even if I could think of some reason for you to have sex with someone you hadn’t ever seen before,” Hannah said, “which I can’t, by the way, how did it end up being anal sex?

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Because he was amazing and I couldn’t say no,” Krista replied.

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Amazing?” Hannah said. “As in actually amazing or amazing as in ‘I’m Krista and I’ve never had a real orgasm before, so I think everything is amazing.’”

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Actually amazing,” Krista said. “And that whole orgasm thing – not as overrated as I thought.”

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You finally had one?” Hannah asked, clapping her hands with an idiotic grin on her face. “Oh my god, I’m so happy. I was starting to worry you know. I thought your female parts might not ever start working right.”

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Anyway,” Krista said as she rolled her eyes. “He rocked my world upside down and I think he may have changed me on a fundamental level.”

“
Wow,” Hannah said. “So the first time you had sex with him, it was so good, you let him do you anally.

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Actually, it wasn’t the first time I had sex with him,” Krista said.

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Okay now I’m really confused,” Hannah said. “When did you have sex with him before?”

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On Friday night,” Krista said.

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So you slept with him the first time on Friday night, but you didn’t know who he was, right?” Hannah asked.

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Right,” Krista said.

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And again on Saturday, but you still didn’t know who he was.” Hannah said, trying to piece it all together in her brain.

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Correct,” Krista said.

“
If you joined some kind of sex club, and didn’t tell me, I’m going to be super pissed,” Hannah said.

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No nothing like that,” Krista said, trying to keep a straight face.

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So how do you know it was the same guy?” Hannah asked.

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Same voice,” Krista responded. “Plus the second time, I went back to where it happened the first time, hoping to run into him.”

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Where did you fuck him the first time?” Hannah asked.

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Technically, I think he fucked me,” Krista said.

“
Whatever,” Hannah said. “Where?”

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In the bathroom at the club,” Krista said, buffing her nails innocently.

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So let me get this straight,” Hannah said. “You, had sex in the bathroom at the club with some guy you had never seen. The sex was amazing, but you didn’t know who he was. So you went back the next night and had sex with him again, except anal this time. And you still didn’t know who he was.”

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Right,” Krista said.

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How’d you get him into the bathroom the second night?” Hannah asked.

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I didn’t,” Krista said, trying to keep the smile off her face. This was the funniest thing she had heard in a long time and she was laughing hysterically on the inside. “He fucked me in the hallway,”

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In the hallway?” Hannah asked, cocking her head to the side in confusion.

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In the hallway,” Krista said. “Bent over the speaker, actually and up against the wall.”

“
In the hallway?” Hannah asked again.

Krista laughed. “Yes in the hallway,” she said.

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Bent over a speaker?” Hannah asked quizzically.

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Yup,” Krista said.

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And against the wall?” Hannah asked.

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Uh-huh,” Krista replied.

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In the hallway?” Hannah asked going back to the beginning where she had gotten confused.

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For god sakes, yes,” Krista said. “In the hallway.”

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Okay then,” Hannah said. “I’m gonna let that one go for now and focus on something I can wrap my brain around.”

“
Sure,” Krista said.

“
So how’d you get him to go back into the hallway,” Hannah asked.

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I didn’t,” Krista said. “He was just there. Same thing in the bathroom the night before.”

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So you had sex with a stalker,” Hannah concluded.

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No,” Krista said. “He’s not a stalker.”

“
He sounds like a stalker,” Hannah said.

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Nope,” Krista said.

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How do you know?” Hannah asked.

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I know he’s not a stalker,” Krista replied, “because he’s a rapist.”

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He raped you?” Hannah asked.

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I wasn’t raped,” Krista said. “I said he was a rapist. Turns out, you can’t actually rape the willing, and he had me more than willing before he even put away the knife.”

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He pulled a knife on you?” Hannah asked, outraged.

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Cut me with it too,” Krista said, tilting her head to the side so she could point to where Damien had nicked her with the knife.

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So you knew he was a rapist,” Hannah said. “and that he was willing to cut you with a knife. And you still went back the second night. Why?”

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Because Friday night was the first time I had ever actually had an orgasm,” Krista said, “and I was hooked. Unfortunately, since I didn’t know who he was, I didn’t know what to do. The only thing I could think of was to go back. Although, I did consider putting an ad on
CraigsList
.”

“
So the best sex you ever had was with a rapist,” Hannah said, “who actually cut you while he was trying to rape you, but you didn’t care and had sex with him anyway two nights in a row, one of which landed you in the hospital for observation. Am I missing anything.”

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Well, at the time I didn’t know who it was, but I do now,” Krista said.

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So who was it?” Hannah asked.

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Lance McPherson,” Krista said slowly. “Known to almost everyone as Damien, the bartender.”

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Oh god,” Hannah said, a look of horror on her face. “Krista I have to tell you something.”

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What?” Krista said blinking up at her innocently.

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Krista, Damien’s not a rapist,” Hannah said, taking a deep breath. “I guess I sort of put him up to it.”

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Huh?” Krista asked, feigning ignorance.

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I accidentally told him about your fantasy,” Hannah said. “He’s really into you and he’s been asking me things about you for a couple of months now. I didn’t mean to tell him. It just sort of popped out. But he’s not a rapist.”

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I know,” Krista said, smiling. “I figured that out when he and I were talking before I passed out. Just giving you a chance to come clean.”

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I’m sorry,” Hannah said, coming over to give Krista a hug. “It was truly just a slip of the tongue.”

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I’m not,” Krista said laughing as she hugged her back. “Seriously, the sex may have changed my whole life. I mean come on. I went back to a club to stalk a guy who I thought had tried to rape me the night before and ended up fucking him in the hallway. Given what you know about me, what are the odds of that EVER happening? None, right? But it did because the sex was so fucking amazing, I’ve gone insane, actually lost my mind.”

“
Start at the beginning,” Hannah said. “I need details.”

As Krista opened her mouth to explain everything, the doctor came in. “Hello Ms. Hamilton,” he said while flipping through her chart. “You’re looking much better this morning.”

“
Thanks Doc,” Krista said. “So can I finally get out of here?” she asked.

The doctor looked at Hannah.

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You can talk in front of her Doc. She knows the whole story now anyway.”

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We didn’t find anything wrong with you, so you’re free to go as soon as you sign the paperwork. One of the nurses will bring it by shortly. I would advise that you try to take it easy after any anal penetration. This type of occurrence is really rare, so I doubt it would happen again, but just be on the safe side. You ladies have a good afternoon.”

The doctor shook both of their hands and walked out of the room, leaving the door open. No sooner had he left than a nurse zipped through the doors with a clipboard and some papers in her hands. She quickly checked Krista out and gave her copies of the information for her insurance. The two girls thanked her and were glad to be on their way.

As they left the hospital and Hannah drove to Krista’s house, Krista replayed the entire two days for her friend. She started at the beginning and told Hannah everything. By the time they arrived at Krista’s house, she had talked about her thoughts and feelings – about all of it. More importantly, she was completely addicted to Damien and the way he made her feel. The only problem was that he wasn’t aware of how she felt. In fact, he thought she didn’t like him at all and she had blacked out before she had a chance to tell him differently.

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So what are you going to do?” Hannah asked as they sat at Krista’s kitchen table sipping coffee after Krista finished telling the story.

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The first thing I have to do is get a hold of Damien and explain how I really feel,” Krista said. “I have to wait until the club opens tonight, but if he’s there, I’m going to go talk to him. Will you come with me?”

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Of course,” Hannah said. “I just can’t stay long. I have to work tomorrow morning.”

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Me too,” Krista said. “I just need a little while.”

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You know, if you’re serious about this whole change thing, it may not just be about Damien,” Hannah said. “I’ve always thought there was more to you than the sugary sweet feelings you always wore on your sleeves, pretending there’s nothing deeper.”

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Maybe I never looked too deep because I was afraid of what I’d find,” Krista said. “The only thing I can say for sure is that this is the first time I’ve ever been satisfied sexually. I fought it at first because it’s so far outside what I consider to be normal, but honestly, it was like coming home. It felt so right. I don’t know if that’s because I was finally being who I was supposed to be or if it was because I was with Damien. Maybe it’s both. I just don’t think I will ever be the same.”

Hannah grasped her friend’s hand. “It’s just another thing that makes you, you. To tell you the truth, I’m glad to know. It puts a few things in perspective,” Hannah said. “Anyway, I have to get some groceries and stop by my house to pick up a few things for tonight, but I’ll be back in a few hours so we can get ready to go.”

Hannah pulled into the parking lot of her apartment a few hours later, all of her errands finished. She was planning to take a quick shower, when the phone rang. It was Krista.

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Hey you,” she said juggling her keys and the groceries as she walked up to the door of her apartment.

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Don’t bother coming back,” Krista said sounding depressed. “We aren’t going.”

“
You’re not having second thoughts,” Hannah said.

“
No, I’m not,” Krista said. “I just called the club and the other bartender, Greg I think, said Damien doesn’t work there anymore. Hannah, they fired him and it’s my fault.”

“
You don’t know that, Krista,” Hannah said. “It could be something else.”

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It’s not,” Krista said with a sob. “I know it. He’s never going to talk to me again.”

“
It will be fine, honey,” Hannah said assuredly. “I’ll ask Ryan to call him. Okay?”

“
Okay,” Krista said with a sniffle. She had broken into tears when she realized it was her fault he’d gotten fired. She couldn’t imagine that he would still want to have anything to do with her.

“
Now take it easy,” Hannah said. “Everything will work out.”

As the days turned into weeks and the weeks turned into months, Krista lost hope. Everything hadn’t worked out. No one could get a hold of Damien. Ryan had even gone by his apartment, but it looked like he didn’t even live there anymore. Krista went back to the club a few times, but Greg had quit shortly after Damien was fired and the new bartender wouldn’t tell her anything. As a last resort, she’d called the hospital to find out if he had put down his phone number when he filled out her paperwork, but he’d left it blank. She was never going to see him again and it left her feeling empty and alone.