Chernevog (25 page)

He had no notion himself why he felt in better spirits the last two days—as if, somewhat like the night he had fallen off The Doe's shed roof, this whole business with Eveshka running off had hit him hard and left him dazed; but eventually, even after a fall like that, one started walking straight and realizing nothing he had done lately was sensible.

He got saner and Sasha got crazier—precisely the trouble with wizards, Sasha and Eveshka both.

Hell, she needed him, absolutely she did—she was doing
something crazy and she needed both of them. They
would
catch her
...

He swung up to Volkhi's back and Babi scrambled out of Sasha's way as Sasha tried the same trick getting up on Missy. —And failed, his booted heel sliding down Missy's flank while Babi watched from the ground.

“
Not as light as you used to be,
”
Pyetr observed, leaning on Volkhi's shoulders, watching the second attempt, Missy wincing, standing quite staunchly still through this.
“
Taller, though. Wish, why don't you?
”

Sasha gave him a dark look and made it, not elegantly, hauling himself up belly-down while Missy started to travel. He managed in a most remarkable way not to dislodge the baggage.

At which Pyetr found himself chuckling, as if there were truly hope in the world, as if—

—as if he had had a right to laugh, without Eveshka to approve it.

As if he had no right to a joke with Sasha, that she would not approve—that he had not had certain rights—for a very long time.

God, he did
not
want to feel what he was feeling, damn, he did not! He wanted 'Veshka to be happy: he had done everything to make her happy
...

...
which mostly seemed to mean giving up one and the other habit of his that 'Veshka could not abide, considering her delicate state, until there were bits and pieces of himself just
...

...
dying, until this morning.

Damn, he thought in panic. No, that's not so, that's not so, I've never been happier in my life
...

Granted my misspent youth; and 'Mitri and all the rest, not to mention all Vojvoda wanting my neck in a noose
...

—That's not altogether a happy life, is it?

“
Pyetr? Is something wrong?
”

His hands had gone cold. Volkhi was wandering under him without direction. He looked at Sasha with a sudden, acute fear that Sasha might have eavesdropped just then. But Sasha only looked puzzled.

“
Pyetr?
”

“
I'm fine,
”
he said, knowing that had not come out as reas
suri
ng as he had hoped. He took up Volkhi's reins.
“
Fine. I'm absolutely fine.
”

Up one foggy hill of ghostly young trees and down another— Babi jogging briskly ahead, the carter's mare going along at Volkhi's side, her ears up, her nostrils working, a constantly worried look in her eye, as if she were still looking for a familiar street, or trying to figure what dangers hereabouts particularly relished horses.

But the mare kept up very well on the climbs, sturdy legs carrying her quite resolutely—straightforwardly trampling down the sort of nuisances Volkhi danced over.

Precisely when and why she had started from town and whether they had indeed only arrived at a place that the mare was headed for before any of them knew they were going to need her
...
that was the kind of thinking a sane man left to wizards; but if some of Sasha's wishes were looking out for them before they even knew they needed it, then maybe their other wishes would come true. Maybe that was why he could feel as if—

As if a burden that had been on him for years was falling away from him on this dismal trail—as if, away from the house, with all the rules upset and his life in danger, he could breathe again.

He never, ever thought ill of 'Veshka, he swore to himself he never, ever begrudged her what he gave up to please her
...

But he still thought, God, what's the matter with me? What's happening to me? And why am I so damned angry with her?

“
What did she write?
”
he asked Sasha that night when, after a little hot tea and a bite to eat, Sasha opened his book and got out his inkpot.
“
Show me where she wrote.
”

Not that he knew what good it would do him to see it. He mistrusted writing, he suspected books of contributing to their troubles, but Eveshka set great store by writing things, and her curious ways of thinking had been turning over and over in his mind all day. Her likes and dislikes made him so angry that for small, frightened moments today he had not even been able to remember anything but her frown—stupid of him, he knew; and self-centered; and all the reprehensible things he knew he had been before Sasha and 'Veshka had reformed him. So it suddenly seemed to him that, writing being magical, maybe—just
maybe, Sasha doing the reading, and Sasha not knowing her quite so well, or not having the right spell on him, Sasha might have missed something essential.

So he overcame
his
apprehensions and asked to see the very writing; and Sasha carefully opened the book and canted it to the light while he shifted his shoulder to see past their single shadow.

He knew where her work was before Sasha ever pointed it out—marvelous as it seemed to him, the same as he could tell 'Veshka's fine stitches from their coarser repairs, he knew precisely the two lines she had done. He did not touch the page: he had no idea whether that might disturb the spell; but he squatted on his heels looking at it, while Babi snuggled up as a warm lump in his arms, and he listened while Sasha ran his finger along the line and said what he read in it.

But it was only the same thing.
“
You said that already.
”

“
That's what it says.
”

One hated to accuse Sasha of inability. But it was a desperately serious point:'
“
Try. I really think it ought to be more than that. Try again.
”

“
Pyetr, I swear
by
you, ink is ink, and not even a wizard can play tricks with what's on that page. It doesn't change.
”

“
Are you sure?
”

“
Pyetr, it doesn't ever change. You can burn it, maybe, scrape it off, but nothing can make those letters into something else. It's there, exactly w
h
at she said, as long as the book lasts.
”

‘‘What if some other wizard wishes it?
”

‘‘Not that easy. Not in any wizard's book. Letters don't shape-shift. What's there is there. She wanted me to understand things by what she said. Bat I'm sure of exactly what's there, too. She was worried about us coming after her.
”

‘‘And getting in her way.
”

“
Yes.
”

That did sound like
“
Veshka. He pointed at the blank space at the end.
“
Then write one about her being careful, too,
”
he said, and Sasha not forbidding, he watched while Sasha did that—because he saw a use for writing, finally, that no matter how his thinking shifted around, and no matter what happened to him, still, ink being ink, the way Sasha said, that wish if

Sasha wrote it might stay and take care of her, even if he failed her, or some spell on him made him forget everything he loved.

He wished with all his heart he could think of a better wish than that. He sat there looking into the fire and trying to think of one, but it seemed to him that anything beyond that doubted Eveshka, and he knew that was no help to her at all.

So he poured Babi a generous bit from the jug, he had some himself, and lay down to sleep, thinking, Well, we're ahead by one horse, aren't we? Things are looking better.

Pyetr did sleep, finally. One learned to be deft about magic, when one was cheating. Sasha spun sleep like wool, wished it soft and deep while he worked, all promises to the contrary—

Water curling white about the bow, ropes creaking
—

One tried—even with one's skin crawling, one snatched at thoughts like that the instant they came, tried to speak to Eveshka if it were at all possible
...
but all that echoed back was that sound, over and over, just when he thought he had the thread.

He kept wishing, he leaned his head against his hand, fighting sleep himself, and wrote, simply, with all the wisdom he had,
I
wish Eveshka may see Pyetr with her heart, and never doubt him.

That might be interfering. He was afraid that it was. It might in some unpredictable way be dangerous. But, doggedly unrepentant, he went on writing:

If there's anything common about everything that's gone wrong with us, it's not the silence, it's our losing touch with what's going on around us.

Things happen that can happen. Pyetr reminds me: It's the things we take for granted that we most of all
mustn’t
forget.

It was up before the dawn and roll the blankets, pack half-blind in the dark and the chill, and move again, one long half-asleep confusion—a bit of sausage by daybreak as they rode, and a drink from the jug, while Babi sometimes perched on Missy's rump and sometimes Volkhi's, and occasionally, the mood taking him, jogging ahead of them.

Pyetr gave up asking questions, reckoning he knew as much about the leshys' reasons as Sasha did—which was very little:
no one knew what went through leshys' minds. But they were moving, gaining ground with the steady rhythm of the horses' stride, up one hill that looked like another hill and down this one that looked like the last, slow down for the horses to rest, pick up the pace again, stop for the horses to recover their wind, rub their legs down with salves one could thank the god Sasha had brought plenty of, and on and on again.

Sometimes he completely despaired, fearing he would never see 'Veshka again, that events were combining against them, and that the short rest of his life was aimed straight for a disaster even leshys could not deal with. At such moments he was in no hurry at all to get where they were going, or to discover what was waiting there.

Then quite as suddenly all such thinking would seem completely unreasonable to him: they were riding up north simply, grandly, to deal with wizardry matters Sasha and Eveshka would realize quickly how to deal with: then all his fears seemed ignorant and foolish.

“
Are you wishing me?
”
he asked Sasha suddenly.

“
Sometimes,
”
Sasha admitted.

“
Thank the god. I thought I was losing my mind.
”

“
I'm sorry.
”

‘‘It's all right,
”
he said. But he began to shiver then—want of sleep, perhaps, or the sense that in one way or the other—he was constantly being lied to.

“
Pyetr?
”
Sasha said.

It kept coming and going
…
extreme despair and foolish, unreasonable
hope.

“
Are you still doing it? Stop it!
”

“
I'm not. Things keep shifting. Do you feel it?
”

“
What in hell is it?
”

“
I don't know. I 'm not doing it. I—god!
”

They came through a curtain of young trees and the afternoon sun hit the young woods ahead of them in a blaze of transparent gold—green-veined gold on sapling boughs, all shot through with sunlight, gold leaves covering the ground
…

Pyetr was struck dumb as Sasha, first by the color and the beauty of it—as if they had ridden magically from spring into a golden autumn.

Then he thought with a chill, It's not a healthy color. The trees are dying here
...

Sasha said, in a hushed voice:
“
I've seen this place. I've been seeing it for days, in my dreams.
”

Something strong and heavy hit Pyetr's boot and climbed. He caught his breath and realized it was only Babi, clambering up not to sit on Volkhi's rump this time—but to cling to his side like a frightened child.

‘‘I don't like this,
”
Pyetr said, for what it mattered to anyone.

13

Falling leaves, trampled under
the horses' hooves
—
Dream of riders in a golden wood, nearer and nearer
—
Dream of a boat, where another sleeper lay, arm over
the swinging tiller, pale hair like a veil
—
Dream of blood, a dark wall of thorns
—
Wolves
...
whose eyes were gold as the falling leaves
...

Every brash against a branch, every gust of wind loosed leaves about them, a constant drift against the sunlight, both beautiful and dreadful.

This is the way the old woods must have died, Sasha thought. But it's not Eveshka's doing this time—surely not.

He said to Pyetr, ‘‘I think we're going straight to the heart of this.
”

“
Fine,
”
Pyetr said with an anxious look, and patted Babi, who clung to him.
“
Fine. How far, and what's there, and do we go on going straight to it?
”

“
I don't know. I'm not sure what we ought to do.
”

“
Babi's not happy with this, you know.
”
There was an unwonted pitch of anxiousness in Pyetr's voice.
“
It's not many things make Babi afraid
...”

A sudden spate of golden leaves where the riders
passed
...
Light faded, the gold dimmed
...
cloud drew across
the sun. Time moved now—the heart beat, faster and faster.

“
God!
”
Pyetr said as a sudden gale hit their backs. The horses snorted and ducked their heads, leaves and twigs pelting them. Grit of some kind went down Pyetr's neck, Babi hissed and vanished out of this sudden inclemency, and Sasha said,

“
He's waking. I'm terribly afraid he is.
”

“
Wish him not to!
”

“
I am!
”
Sasha said.
“
I'm just not sure it's doing any good!
”

“
Don't doubt, dammit!
”
The blizzard of golden leaves dimmed suddenly with a shadow over the sun. Pyetr looked up and back, shielding his eyes from the wind-borne debris. A single rain-dark cloud loomed over the treetops in the west.

‘‘Rain and thorns,
”
Sasha said faintly—which made no sense, but a man got used to that.

“
I'm very tired of rain,
”
Pyetr said, set his cap securely on his head, and looked about him for wherever Babi might have gotten to—but there was that Place that Babi could go when the going got unreasonably uncomfortable; and at the moment he wished he were there, too, if it was out of the coming rain and whatever worse they were going into.
“
Damn. Damn. Damn.
”

“
Don't swear,
”
Sasha chided him, and he kept his mouth shut, hoping Sasha was wishing something such as Chernevog staying where he was, such as them living to see the river again-such as 'Veshka and the boat safely waiting for them on that shore.

Thunder rumbled. The sky went to iron gray, not unlikely weather for spring: storms came whisking up over the forest horizon, spat a bit and swept on again—and one did truly hope this one was that sort, and not someone else's wishing. Wizards had a knack with lightning—at least the real ones did—and the rumblings and flashes overhead could make a man very uneasy.

“
I do hope,
”
Pyetr said,
“
you're noticing the sky. And the thunder.
”

“
I do,
”
Sasha murmured,
’‘I have,
”
—as if a thousand other things were more important. Sasha pointed ahead of them,
where, if one squinted through the rain, one could see a gathering of leafless trees far taller and stouter than the saplings they had been seeing.

That seemed strange, on a second thought, that the leshys should have cleared and replanted these woods so completely— and left such a grove standing.

Tall, aged trees, Pyetr thought as they rode closer—old trees of that generation that had died with the south woods, all standing in thorn brakes and weeds, dead and dry, in springtime
...

Volkhi viewed it askance, pulling at the rein; but that was the way they had to go, and Volkhi settled with a snort, shaking his head—while poor Missy kept her steady, wizard-wished pace.

Pyetr was about to lodge his own objection when it came to him what they were seeing in the peeling, brushy trunks ahead of them. A chill went through him.

“
Leshys!
”
he said on half a breath.
“
God, what's happened to them?
”

‘‘I don't know,
”
Sasha murmured. ‘‘I
honestly don't know.
”

“
Leshys can't die!
”

“
They're not dead.
”

“
They're not doing damn well, are they?
”
They came to the last edge of the gold, in among thorn thickets, thorns and vines twining round leshys standing so very still, in this desolation—

The horses stopped suddenly, and stood— Sasha's doing, Pyetr was sure; and he looked around with the strongest, most uncomfortable feeling of something ominous all about them.

A whisper of brush surrounded them. He saw the stirring of twiglike fingers, the slow opening of vast, strange eyes in trunks all around them.

“
Wizard,
”
a voice rumbled, deep as the grinding of millstones.

And another, deeper still,
“
Promises broken
...”

Twigs rustled, thorns bent and snapped as that leshy slowly stretched out its arm toward Sasha. It grasped Sasha's coat and dragged him from the mare's back, Sasha holding desperately to its twiglike fingers.

“
Be careful!
”
Pyetr shouted at it. Misighi had warned them of the wild ones, leshys from woods unaccustomed to visitors— leshys which had no appreciation at all what discomfort flesh
and bone might suffer in a stone-breaking grip.
“
Be careful of him!
”

Foolish, he thought in the next breath. Of course Sasha was quite capable of taking care of himself—a fool going after a leshy with a sword sheathed or unsheathed was only likely to annoy the creature.

But:
“
Promises,
”
the leshy said, and Sasha said, in a voice which clearly said he was in pain:

“
Pyetr, Pyetr, don't do anything—don't argue with them— please!
”

That was not right. Nothing was right about these creatures.

“
Let him down!
”
Pyetr yelled at it, waving the sword to attract its
a
ttention.
’‘Damn it, you're hurting him! Let him go!
”

It paid no heed. It began to move, striding through the thorns, bending and breaking them, Sasha's coat snagging, the god only knew about his face and hands.

Volkhi was not moving, spell-bound as he was. Pyetr pulled his head around and waked him with a kick, rode after the leshy that had Sasha—straight on into branches that raked him off Volkhi's back and caught him up and up in a painful grip.

“
Misighi!
”
he yelled. It was all there was left to do, as it snatched him along.
“
Misighi, dammit, help!
”

Twigs wrapped him about, the sky and the ground exchanged positions more than once, and his ribs were creaking.

“
Misighi! —Sasha! Let go, damn you!
”

Maybe it listened. At least the grip let up, and it handed him on to another and another, a confusing wrapping and unwrapping of twiggy grips about his body and his face, until one took him painfully by both arms and held him in front of its huge, moss-green eye.

“
This one,
”
it said, in a voice like rolling stones.
“
Yes.
”

It let him go. He flailed out, hit the ground on his feet, and staggered into Sasha's steadying hands.
“
What in hell—
”
he said, and caught sight of the stone and the sleeping man beyond Sasha's shoulder.

Then he knew beyond a doubt where they were.

“
Promises,
”
a leshy said, and the murmur from the lot of them was like the sound of stones in a river.

“
Killing the trees,
”
another said.

And another: ‘‘Trust no wizards. Break bones, crack limbs.
”

Twigs reached toward them, quivering, grasped them both and drew them close, folding about them.

“
Misighi!
”
Pyetr yelled; and the one who had them rumbled, above the other voices:

“
Stone and brine, young wizard, fail the root, fail the leaf, fail the tree. Foolish, foolish wizards.
”

“
Is it Misighi?
”
Sasha asked.

“
Misighi, yes.
”
Brushy arms extended, rustling in the hush that had fallen, and set them safely back on the ground.
“
This root goes deep, deeper than leshys drink, young wizard.
”
Twigs felt them over, twigs grasped and curled and faced them both about, toward the sleeper on the stone.

“
What do we do?
”
Sasha asked, turning about again; and Pyetr turned, seeing nothing but a grove of trees.

“
Misighi?
”

Nothing stirred. There was nothing but the grove, the thorn hedges around them—the young wizard lying pale and still.

“
God,
”
Pyetr said, catching a breath.
“
Is
he asleep?
”

‘‘He certainly seems that way,
”
Sasha said, and walked closer to that stone, and to Chernevog.

Pyetr overtook Sasha and caught his arm.
“
Close enough. Don't touch him.
”

Rain glistened on Chernevog's pale face and hands, soaked his dark hair and his clothing. Like wax, he seemed—but he breathed. His clothes—white shirt, black breeches—were weathered and scattered with bits of twigs and leaves. That seemed to Pyetr the most disconcerting sight—that cloth should have faded, while Kavi Chernevog remained so apparently alive.

This creature—who had murdered 'Veshka once, and caused so much harm—slept like nothing so dangerous or evil. He looked so young and so incapable of the things he had done.

“
So we're here,
”
Pyetr said, with a breath. He look
ed around the circle of leshys,
that looked like nothing so much as aged, weathered trees.
“
Here before she is, I hope to the god. — Misighi, where's Eveshka? At least tell us that!
”

Not a branch moved, not an eye opened anywhere around the grove.

Sasha said,
“
The way the river bends—it's entirely possible we've beaten her here.
”

“
I don't like this, damn, I don't like this at all. What's the
matter with the leshys? What in the god's name are we going to do with him? What do they expect?
”

“
I don't know,
”
Sasha said.

Pyetr shoved his cap back and raked his hair out of his eyes, set it again and looked at Chernevog, thinking how in his impoverished, cellar-pilfering boyhood he had killed a rat once; he had even pinked a rascal in a duel once, and he could, not enthusiastically, behead a fish; but that dreadful thump that
had
put finish to the rat resounded in his dreams; and the god knew he had never killed another.

So here he was contemplating killing a sleeping man—even if it was Chernevog and even if he deserved a hundred times over to die.

“
I think you should go get the baggage,
”
he said to Sasha.