Complete Works of Rudyard Kipling (Illustrated) (20 page)

Dick threw his head from side to side and groaned.

‘Let me go,’ he panted. ‘You’re cracking my ribs. We-we mustn’t let them think we’re afraid, must we, — all the powers of darkness and that lot?’

‘Lie down. It’s all over now.’

‘Yes,’ said Dick, obediently. ‘But would you mind letting me hold your hand? I feel as if I wanted something to hold on to. One drops through the dark so.’

Torpenhow thrust out a large and hairy paw from the long chair. Dick clutched it tightly, and in half an hour had fallen asleep. Torpenhow withdrew his hand, and, stooping over Dick, kissed him lightly on the forehead, as men do sometimes kiss a wounded comrade in the hour of death, to ease his departure.

In the gray dawn Torpenhow heard Dick talking to himself. He was adrift on the shoreless tides of delirium, speaking very quickly — ’It’s a pity, — a great pity; but it’s helped, and it must be eaten, Master George. Sufficient unto the day is the blindness thereof, and, further, putting aside all Melancolias and false humours, it is of obvious notoriety — such as mine was — that the queen can do no wrong. Torp doesn’t know that. I’ll tell him when we’re a little farther into the desert.

What a bungle those boatmen are making of the steamer-ropes! They’ll have that four-inch hawser chafed through in a minute. I told you so — there she goes! White foam on green water, and the steamer slewing round. How good that looks! I’ll sketch it. No, I can’t. I’m afflicted with ophthalmia. That was one of the ten plagues of Egypt, and it extends up the Nile in the shape of cataract. Ha! that’s a joke, Torp. Laugh, you graven image, and stand clear of the hawser.... It’ll knock you into the water and make your dress all dirty, Maisie dear.’

‘Oh!’ said Torpenhow. ‘This happened before. That night on the river.’

‘She’ll be sure to say it’s my fault if you get muddy, and you’re quite near enough to the breakwater. Maisie, that’s not fair. Ah! I knew you’d miss.

Low and to the left, dear. But you’ve no conviction. Don’t be angry, darling. I’d cut my hand off if it would give you anything more than obstinacy. My right hand, if it would serve.’

‘Now we mustn’t listen. Here’s an island shouting across seas of misunderstanding with a vengeance. But it’s shouting truth, I fancy,’ said Torpenhow.

The babble continued. It all bore upon Maisie. Sometimes Dick lectured at length on his craft, then he cursed himself for his folly in being enslaved. He pleaded to Maisie for a kiss — only one kiss — before she went away, and called to her to come back from Vitry-sur-Marne, if she would; but through all his ravings he bade heaven and earth witness that the queen could do no wrong.

Torpenhow listened attentively, and learned every detail of Dick’s life that had been hidden from him. For three days Dick raved through the past, and then a natural sleep. ‘What a strain he has been running under, poor chap!’ said Torpenhow. ‘Dick, of all men, handing himself over like a dog! And I was lecturing him on arrogance! I ought to have known that it was no use to judge a man. But I did it. What a demon that girl must be! Dick’s given her his life, — confound him! — and she’s given him one kiss apparently.’

‘Torp,’ said Dick, from the bed, ‘go out for a walk. You’ve been here too long. I’ll get up. Hi! This is annoying. I can’t dress myself. Oh, it’s too absurd!’

Torpenhow helped him into his clothes and led him to the big chair in the studio. He sat quietly waiting under strained nerves for the darkness to lift. It did not lift that day, nor the next. Dick adventured on a voyage round the walls. He hit his shins against the stove, and this suggested to him that it would be better to crawl on all fours, one hand in front of him. Torpenhow found him on the floor.

‘I’m trying to get the geography of my new possessions,’ said he. ‘D’you remember that nigger you gouged in the square? Pity you didn’t keep the odd eye. It would have been useful. Any letters for me? Give me all the ones in fat gray envelopes with a sort of crown thing outside. They’re of no importance.’

Torpenhow gave him a letter with a black M. on the envelope flap. Dick put it into his pocket. There was nothing in it that Torpenhow might not have read, but it belonged to himself and to Maisie, who would never belong to him.

‘When she finds that I don’t write, she’ll stop writing. It’s better so. I couldn’t be any use to her now,’ Dick argued, and the tempter suggested that he should make known his condition. Every nerve in him revolted. ‘I have fallen low enough already. I’m not going to beg for pity. Besides, it would be cruel to her.’ He strove to put Maisie out of his thoughts; but the blind have many opportunities for thinking, and as the tides of his strength came back to him in the long employless days of dead darkness, Dick’s soul was troubled to the core. Another letter, and another, came from Maisie. Then there was silence, and Dick sat by the window, the pulse of summer in the air, and pictured her being won by another man, stronger than himself. His imagination, the keener for the dark background it worked against, spared him no single detail that might send him raging up and down the studio, to stumble over the stove that seemed to be in four places at once. Worst of all, tobacco would not taste in the darkness. The arrogance of the man had disappeared, and in its place were settled despair that Torpenhow knew, and blind passion that Dick confided to his pillow at night. The intervals between the paroxysms were filled with intolerable waiting and the weight of intolerable darkness.

‘Come out into the Park,’ said Torpenhow. ‘You haven’t stirred out since the beginning of things.’

‘What’s the use? There’s no movement in the dark; and, besides,’ — he paused irresolutely at the head of the stairs, — ’something will run over me.’

‘Not if I’m with you. Proceed gingerly.’

The roar of the streets filled Dick with nervous terror, and he clung to Torpenhow’s arm. ‘Fancy having to feel for a gutter with your foot!’ he said petulantly, as he turned into the Park. ‘Let’s curse God and die.’

‘Sentries are forbidden to pay unauthorised compliments. By Jove, there are the Guards!’

Dick’s figure straightened. ‘Let’s get near ‘em. Let’s go in and look. Let’s get on the grass and run. I can smell the trees.’

‘Mind the low railing. That’s all right!’ Torpenhow kicked out a tuft of grass with his heel. ‘Smell that,’ he said. ‘Isn’t it good?’ Dick sniffed luxuriously. ‘Now pick up your feet and run.’ They approached as near to the regiment as was possible. The clank of bayonets being unfixed made Dick’s nostrils quiver.

‘Let’s get nearer. They’re in column, aren’t they?’

‘Yes. How did you know?’

‘Felt it. Oh, my men! — my beautiful men!’ He edged forward as though he could see. ‘I could draw those chaps once. Who’ll draw ‘em now?’

‘They’ll move off in a minute. Don’t jump when the band begins.’

‘Huh! I’m not a new charger. It’s the silences that hurt. Nearer, Torp! — nearer! Oh, my God, what wouldn’t I give to see ‘em for a minute! — one half-minute!’

He could hear the armed life almost within reach of him, could hear the slings tighten across the bandsman’s chest as he heaved the big drum from the ground.

‘Sticks crossed above his head,’ whispered Torpenhow.

‘I know. I know! Who should know if I don’t? H’sh!’

The drum-sticks fell with a boom, and the men swung forward to the crash of the band. Dick felt the wind of the massed movement in his face, heard the maddening tramp of feet and the friction of the pouches on the belts. The big drum pounded out the tune. It was a music-hall refrain that made a perfect quickstep —

He must be a man of decent height,

He must be a man of weight,

He must come home on a Saturday night

In a thoroughly sober state;

He must know how to love me,

And he must know how to kiss;

And if he’s enough to keep us both

I can’t refuse him bliss.

‘What’s the matter?’ said Torpenhow, as he saw Dick’s head fall when the last of the regiment had departed.

‘Nothing. I feel a little bit out of the running, — that’s all. Torp, take me back. Why did you bring me out?’

CHAPTER XII

There were three friends that buried the fourth,

The mould in his mouth and the dust in his eyes

And they went south and east, and north, —

The strong man fights, but the sick man dies.

There were three friends that spoke of the dead, —

The strong man fights, but the sick man dies. —

‘And would he were with us now,’ they said,

‘The sun in our face and the wind in our eyes.’

— Ballad.

THE NILGHAI was angry with Torpenhow. Dick had been sent to bed, — blind men are ever under the orders of those who can see, — and since he had returned from the Park had fluently sworn at Torpenhow because he was alive, and all the world because it was alive and could see, while he, Dick, was dead in the death of the blind, who, at the best, are only burdens upon their associates. Torpenhow had said something about a Mrs. Gummidge, and Dick had retired in a black fury to handle and re-handle three unopened letters from Maisie.

The Nilghai, fat, burly, and aggressive, was in Torpenhow’s rooms.

Behind him sat the Keneu, the Great War Eagle, and between them lay a large map embellished with black-and-white-headed pins.

‘I was wrong about the Balkans,’ said the Nilghai. ‘But I’m not wrong about this business. The whole of our work in the Southern Soudan must be done over again. The public doesn’t care, of course, but the government does, and they are making their arrangements quietly. You know that as well as I do.’

‘I remember how the people cursed us when our troops withdrew from Omdurman. It was bound to crop up sooner or later. But I can’t go,’ said Torpenhow. He pointed through the open door; it was a hot night. ‘Can you blame me?’

The Keneu purred above his pipe like a large and very happy cat — ’Don’t blame you in the least. It’s uncommonly good of you, and all the rest of it, but every man — even you, Torp — must consider his work. I know it sounds brutal, but Dick’s out of the race, — down, — gastados expended, finished, done for. He has a little money of his own. He won’t starve, and you can’t pull out of your slide for his sake. Think of your own reputation.’

‘Dick’s was five times bigger than mine and yours put together.’

‘That was because he signed his name to everything he did. It’s all ended now. You must hold yourself in readiness to move out. You can command your own prices, and you do better work than any three of us.’

‘Don’t tell me how tempting it is. I’ll stay here to look after Dick for a while. He’s as cheerful as a bear with a sore head, but I think he likes to have me near him.’

The Nilghai said something uncomplimentary about soft-headed fools who throw away their careers for other fools. Torpenhow flushed angrily. The constant strain of attendance on Dick had worn his nerves thin.

‘There remains a third fate,’ said the Keneu, thoughtfully. ‘Consider this, and be not larger fools than necessary. Dick is — or rather was — an able-bodied man of moderate attractions and a certain amount of audacity.’

‘Oho!’ said the Nilghai, who remembered an affair at Cairo. ‘I begin to see, — Torp, I’m sorry.’

Torpenhow nodded forgiveness: ‘You were more sorry when he cut you out, though. — Go on, Keneu.’

‘I’ve often thought, when I’ve seen men die out in the desert, that if the news could be sent through the world, and the means of transport were quick enough, there would be one woman at least at each man’s bedside.’

‘There would be some mighty quaint revelations. Let us be grateful things are as they are,’ said the Nilghai.

‘Let us rather reverently consider whether Torp’s three-cornered ministrations are exactly what Dick needs just now. — What do you think yourself, Torp?’

‘I know they aren’t. But what can I do?’

‘Lay the matter before the board. We are all Dick’s friends here. You’ve been most in his life.’

‘But I picked it up when he was off his head.’

‘The greater chance of its being true. I thought we should arrive. Who is she?’

Then Torpenhow told a tale in plain words, as a special correspondent who knows how to make a verbal precis should tell it. The men listened without interruption.

‘Is it possible that a man can come back across the years to his calf-love?’ said the Keneu. ‘Is it possible?’

‘I give the facts. He says nothing about it now, but he sits fumbling three letters from her when he thinks I’m not looking. What am I to do?’

‘Speak to him,’ said the Nilghai.

‘Oh yes! Write to her, — I don’t know her full name, remember, — and ask her to accept him out of pity. I believe you once told Dick you were sorry for him, Nilghai. You remember what happened, eh? Go into the bedroom and suggest full confession and an appeal to this Maisie girl, whoever she is. I honestly believe he’d try to kill you; and the blindness has made him rather muscular.’

‘Torpenhow’s course is perfectly clear,’ said the Keneu. ‘He will go to Vitry-sur-Marne, which is on the Bezieres-Landes Railway, — single track from Tourgas. The Prussians shelled it out in ‘70 because there was a poplar on the top of a hill eighteen hundred yards from the church spire There’s a squadron of cavalry quartered there, — or ought to be. Where this studio Torp spoke about may be I cannot tell. That is Torp’s business. I have given him his route. He will dispassionately explain the situation to the girl, and she will come back to Dick, — the more especially because, to use Dick’s words, “there is nothing but her damned obstinacy to keep them apart.”‘

‘And they have four hundred and twenty pounds a year between ‘em.

Dick never lost his head for figures, even in his delirium. You haven’t the shadow of an excuse for not going,’ said the Nilghai.

Torpenhow looked very uncomfortable. ‘But it’s absurd and impossible. I can’t drag her back by the hair.’

‘Our business — the business for which we draw our money — is to do absurd and impossible things, — generally with no reason whatever except to amuse the public. Here we have a reason. The rest doesn’t matter. I shall share these rooms with the Nilghai till Torpenhow returns. There will be a batch of unbridled “specials” coming to town in a little while, and these will serve as their headquarters. Another reason for sending Torpenhow away. Thus Providence helps those who help others, and’ — here the Keneu dropped his measured speech — ’we can’t have you tied by the leg to Dick when the trouble begins. It’s your only chance of getting away; and Dick will be grateful.’