Weapon. She needed some sort of weapon.
Damn it, she had two four-year-olds in the house; she didn’t keep weapons around.
Except for her knives. She was a cook. She had a lot of knives. She also had that cliché woman’s weapon, a rolling pin. Fine. Anything would do.
Keeping the flashlight aimed at the floor so the beam would be more difficult to see, she eased into the kitchen and went straight to her block of knives, pulling out the biggest one, the chef’s knife. The handle fit into her hand like an old friend.
Silently she moved back into the hallway, which was centrally located in the house. This was where she would be least trapped, where she could go in any direction.
She turned off the flashlight and stood there in the dark, listening, waiting. How long she stood there didn’t matter. She could hear her own harsh breathing, feel it rasping in her throat. Her head swam. She could feel her heart racing in panic, feel the almost painful thud of her heartbeat against her ribs. No, she couldn’t panic—she
wouldn’t
panic. Drawing in a deep breath, as deep as she could manage, she held it and used her inflated lungs to compress her heart and hold it, force it to slow. It was an old trick she’d used while climbing, whenever she’d caught her body’s automatic responses overpowering her discipline and focus.
Slow…slow…already she could think better…slower, slower…she gently released that breath and took another, more controlled one. The dizziness faded. Whatever happened, she was readier to face it now than she had been a moment before.
Thudding on the front porch, fast and heavy, and the doorknob rattled violently.
“Cate! Are you all right?”
She took a step forward, then froze. A man. She didn’t recognize the voice. Mellor and Huxley both knew her first name, because she’d introduced herself to them.
“Cate!”
The entire front door shuddered as something was slammed hard against it, then slammed again. The door frame seemed to groan.
“Cate, it’s Cal! Answer me!”
Relief swept over her in a huge surge and a cry burst out of her. She started forward as the door gave up its resistance and banged back against the doorstop. A flashlight suddenly came on, sweeping across her face and blinding her. She threw up an arm to shield her eyes, skidding to a stop as she tried to see. She could make out only the vague outline of a man behind the glare of the light, and he was moving fast, too fast for her to get out of his way.
IT WAS LIKE HITTING A WALL. HIS BODY COLLIDED WITH Cate’s with enough force to knock the knife from her hand and send it clattering down the hall. The blinding beam from his flashlight waved wildly back and forth in a strobe effect before spinning to the side. She staggered back, grabbing wildly for something, anything, to break her fall and found herself clutching a hard, lean waist. She couldn’t have fallen anyway, because a steel band clamped around her back, steadying her against him.
A sharp sense of unreality made her head swim again as time collapsed and the world shrank to a tiny point of focus, poised on the edge of a cliff. None of this was real; it couldn’t be. She was just Cate, an ordinary woman living an ordinary life; people didn’t
shoot
at her.
“It’s okay,”
She heard the words, but they didn’t make sense because he was part of the whole unreality. This man was not the man she’d known for three years. Mr. Harris wouldn’t hold her this way, wouldn’t have broken in her door and come charging across the floor like some avenging warrior badass dude, holding a shotgun in one hand—
Except he had.
The body she was clinging to so tightly was hard and muscled, almost steaming with heat. He was breathing fast, as if he’d been running, and his head was bent down to press against hers. And the way he was holding her was—She hadn’t been held this way in so long that she was stunned, disbelieving.
Mr. Harris?
Her body whispered,
yes.
That was even more disconcerting, tipping her further and further off balance. What kind of pervert was she, to have some sort of weird sexual response to the
handyman
when the entire community was evidently under some sort of attack? It still sounded like a war out there, but she felt as if the two of them were contained in a small private cone of existence where reality didn’t intrude. For a moment his arm tightened, arching her even closer, so that she felt the bulge of his genitals pushing, seeking…then he released her and eased away, bending to pick up the flashlight.
Cate stood unmoving, desperately trying to put herself back in time to the way things had been just half an hour before, before explosions and shooting and the upheaval of all she knew or had thought she knew.
Hooking the strap of the shotgun over his shoulder,
She had never seen him wearing anything other than baggy coveralls, stained with grease, paint, dirt, or whatever else he’d been working with that particular day. She’d had him firmly fixed in her mind as a skinny shy handyman, backward but useful. That view had taken a hit when she’d seen the expression in his eyes as he looked down his shotgun barrel at Mellor, and now it was shattered forever.
He was wearing his usual work boots, but nothing else was the same. The khaki cargo pants were belted at his waist, and despite the chilly weather, he was wearing only a dark T-shirt that clung to wide shoulders and a lean, rock-hard body. Even with just the light from the flashlight she saw the gleam of sweat on his bare arms, arms that were sinewy and powerful. His shaggy hair was still shaggy, but there was no hint of shyness in his grim, set expression.
Cate could barely breathe. She was standing on the edge of some internal cliff and she was afraid to move, afraid she would…would what? She didn’t know, but the sense of instability frightened her almost as much as all those guns shooting outside.
Someone appeared in the broken doorway, and to Cate’s amazement he, too, was carrying either a shotgun or a rifle. “Is Cate all right?” he asked, and Cate recognized Walter Earl’s voice.
“I’m fine, Walter,” she said, moving toward the door. “Is Milly okay? Is anyone hurt?”
“Milly’s sitting on your back lawn. Staying low seemed smart to me, so that’s where she is. People are pulling back. Someone said that’s what you said to do, so that’s what they’re doing. Are we out of range here?”
“No,”
“The window in the boys’ bedroom was shot out,” Cate said softly, and the horror of it hit her all over again. What if they’d been here? They’d have been terrified, possibly hurt…possibly dead. Her heart squeezed in anguish at just the thought.
“Then what are we doing here?” Walter asked.
“Putting as many walls as possible between us and them, plus I’m pretty sure they have either night-vision or infrared spotters. Infrared is limited to about four hundred yards, so we need to get beyond that. Won’t stop the bullets, but at least they’ll be shooting blind—and they may not want to waste the ammunition.”
Obediently the people around her clicked off their flashlights, and the darkness almost swallowed them.
“Right now, we need to determine two things,”
“I’d like to know just who is shooting at us,” Milly said angrily.
“First things first. Who isn’t here? Look for your neighbors. Creed went down to Neenah’s house; has anyone seen either of them?”
There was silence for a moment, then a voice behind Cate said, “Lanora was right behind me when we were running, but I don’t see her now.”
Lanora Corbett lived in the second house from the bridge, on the left.
“Anyone else?”
There was murmuring as they looked around and took stock, and names began to surface: the elderly Starkeys, Roy Edward and his wife, Judith; the Contreras family, Mario, Gena, and Angelina; Norman Box; and others. A cold hand squeezed Cate’s heart as the horrible possibility began to creep in: Would she ever see these people again? And Neenah.
Neenah
!
No. She couldn’t lose her friend. She absolutely refused to think it even possible.
“All right,”
“Is anyone hurt?”
“You are,” Sherry Bishop said with some tartness.
Cate’s head whipped around.
Cate spotted the black-red streaks on his arms. “Your arms,” Cate said as she began to climb to her feet.
In a flash he was beside her, his hand on her shoulder, pressing her down. “Stay down,” he said in a low voice intended just for her. “I’m fine, it’s just a couple of glass cuts.”
To her way of thinking, cuts should be taken care of no matter what caused them. And if sitting was safer than standing, why wasn’t
he
sitting? “If you don’t sit,” she said in the same tone of voice she used with the boys, “then I’m standing. Your choice.”
“I can’t sit, I have a few things to do first—”
“Sit.”
He sat.
Cate got to her knees and moved behind him. “Sherry, can you help me here? Hold the light and let’s see how bad these cuts are. And I need to get some bandages from—”
“My first-aid kit is on the porch,” he said. “I dropped it there.”
“Someone get it, please.” Cate raised her voice a little, and Walter moved to obey.
“Keep low,”
The back of
Walter arrived with a tackle box and flipped the latches, opening it up to reveal compartments full of first-aid supplies. Sherry switched the light beam to the contents of the box, allowing Cate to pick out the individually packaged antiseptic wipes. She tore one envelope open and unfolded the wipe to its full four-by-six inches, and began swabbing. “I don’t know what we’ll do if these two bigger cuts need stitches,” she muttered to Sherry.
“I have sutures in the box,”
“Ahnt!”
She made one of those wordless warning sounds that were a mother’s specialty, and he froze, then carefully faced forward again.
In silence she cleaned the wounds, and pressed gauze pads over the deepest cuts. Unfortunately, the blood seepage kept them in place, which allowed her to apply antiseptic ointment to the smaller wounds and cover them with adhesive strips. His skin was cold and damp under her hands, reminding her not only that he wore nothing more than a T-shirt and pants on this chilly night, but he’d been sweating—and now she’d cleaned his back with damp wipes. He must be freezing, but somehow he kept still.
“He needs something to wear,” she murmured to Sherry.
“It’s okay,” he said over his shoulder.
Cate felt something rising in her, some great big bubble of tension that almost choked her. “No, Calvin Harris, it is
not
okay!” she said fiercely. “It is not okay for you to run around half naked and wounded on a cold night. We’ll find something for you to wear, and that’s that.” Many things had happened that night that were far worse, but she couldn’t do anything about those. She was damned, however, if
He fell silent again, and she wondered if she’d lost her mind. Events were swimming out of focus again, so that small things seemed vitally important and large things were fading into the background. She looked at the strong length of his back, the deep furrow of his spine and the layers of muscle, and wanted to weep. Instead she took a deep breath and concentrated on cleaning the two deeper cuts. They were still oozing a little watery blood, but that was all. She put antibiotic on them, then held the edges together with one hand while with the other she painstakingly placed a row of butterfly bandages over each cut. When she was finished, the cuts no longer gaped open. Maybe they wouldn’t have needed stitches, because neither of the gashes was truly severe, but she didn’t want to take the chance.