Daye, Rainey - An Unconventional Love (Siren Publishing Ménage Amour) (9 page)

“Why?” Maggie cried out. “Why do you think? You were there. I know you were there!” An angry note had crept into her tone at how dense he was being.

“Yes, I was there. Believe me, the memory of that is branded into my mind for all time. But it doesn’t explain why you think you have to move out.”

“Move out?” Jess gasped from the open doorway. “Oh, hell no! You are not moving out on us, Mags. We won’t let you. Besides, you don’t have anywhere else to go.”

“I know that!” she cried, pushing out of Alex’s arms and brushing angrily at her tears. “Why do you think I’m crying? I have to move out of here, and I don’t want to!”

“Nor do we want you to,” Alex stated reasonably.

“How can I stay? Do you really expect the three of us to develop amnesia and just continue on as if nothing has happened?”

Alex and Jess both shook their heads at her. “I told you that memory was branded in my memory for all time. And frankly, I never want to lose it,” he revealed.

Maggie gaped at him in shock.

“But the current situation is no longer working for us ,” Jess piped in.

“We’ve fucked up with you since the very beginning, and we’ve decided it’s time to come clean and share some ‘true confessions’ with you.”

Maggie was truly confused by all this. “I don’t understand,” she said as she looked back and forth between them, trying to get a feel for what they were talking about. “You say you fucked up. What did you fuck up? Oh, wait. I remember now. You both sucked on my breasts and gave me a mind-blowing orgasm. You’re right. You really did fuck up there.” She felt anger replace her shame. And then she truly wanted to hit them both when she saw their chests puff up in a display of masculine pride.

“I lost you at ‘mind-blowing orgasm,’ didn’t I?” she remarked in disgust.

“Well, it does assuage us to know that we haven’t lost our skills in that department,” Alex admitted. “After all, I haven’t sucked on a woman’s breasts since last fall. I’m glad to know that I haven’t forgotten how.”

“What?” she cried in shock, taking a step away from them.

Alex and Jess both took a step forward and, shoulder to shoulder, they backed her up until her knees connected with the end of her bed, and she sat down abruptly. Alex immediately sank down on the bed next to her and tentatively placed his arm around her bare shoulder.

“True confession time,” he reminded her. “The two of us fucked up in the beginning by not telling you the full truth about us.”

“The full truth?” she echoed.

Jess sank down at her feet and clasped her hands in his while he gave her an apologetic look. “The truth that, although Alex and I are lovers, we both fully desire women as well.”

“We should have told you the truth from the very beginning, but we both wanted you to move in here with us so badly and were afraid that you would refuse if you knew we were bi.”

“You’re bi, as in
bisexual
?” Maggie gasped.

“Yes, we’re bi, as in bisexual,” Jess confirmed.

“And you thought I would be afraid that you would hit on me and wouldn’t feel comfortable living here with you?”

They exchanged a sheepish look with each other before Jess continued with their confession. “No, Maggie,” he said seriously as he raised her hand to his lips and kissed her fingers while looking up at her through hooded eyes. “We both fully intended on hitting on you from the very beginning.”

“What?” she gasped, yanking her hand away while scooting away from Alex, who was still sitting on the bed beside her.

Jess sank back onto his flanks, looking truly miserable, like he didn’t know how to proceed.

Alex took up the slack and tried to explain to her. “In the gay sense of the word, Jess and I have only been with each other. We’ve told you that, right?”

Maggie nodded slowly.

“Well, at first neither one of us wanted to be ‘gay,’ so we both continued to chase and score tail. And after a while, we both realized that we truly enjoyed all the pussy we were able to get,” he said bluntly.

“But we also really enjoyed being with each other,” Jess added helpfully.

“So it took us a while, but we both finally realized that we weren’t gay men trying to be straight, we were really two
bisexual
men.”

“So you find other men attractive, also?”

“You would think so, wouldn’t you,” Alex said, “but strangely enough, no. We’ve only been turned on by each other, not any other men.”

“Although we both continued to still be turned on by many different women.”

“How many women?” Maggie couldn’t stop herself from asking, wondering at the flare of jealousy that rose up inside her.

“Too many to count,” Alex admitted with a tired sigh. “When it comes to women, we were true horndogs.”

“It helped that Alex and I were never attracted to the same type of woman before. It kept us from becoming jealous whenever the other scored, and it kept the competition between us to a minimum.”

“Oh,” Maggie breathed, wondering why she suddenly felt crushed.

“But we’ve recently grown tired of all those one-night stands,” Alex admitted.

“How recently?” She wanted to know, while wondering just how many women they had been with since she had moved in.

“The last time I was with a woman was about a month before you moved in,” Alex said.

“It was somewhere around that time for me, too,” Jess said.

“If you like women so much, then why has it been so long?”

The two men exchanged another long look before Alex softly confessed, “Because of you.”

Maggie felt her breath catch in her throat and her heart stutter at that softly spoken confession as she wondered crazily if she had cried herself to sleep in her window seat and was now dreaming.

“Because of me?” she croaked.

Jess took her hand in his again and gently squeezed it. “I developed a major crash on you the first time I saw you in class. It’s why I put together our study group. I wanted to spend more time with you,” he confessed to her.

“Why not just ask me out?”

“Because Alex and I don’t date women. We just troll the college bars for one-night stands.”

“Why don’t you date?” she wanted to know, not understanding.

“Because when all is said and done,” Alex explained, “the fact remains that Jess and I are a couple, and neither of us thought a girlfriend would be understanding and okay with that.”

“Even if she didn’t think we were freaks, she would still be too freaked over the idea of AIDS or something,” Jess added.

“But you two always use condoms and get tested twice a year.”

“Doesn’t change the fact that a girl would go dry over the fact that I thoroughly enjoying sucking my boyfriend’s dick,” Alex pointed out bluntly.

“Okay,” Maggie said slowly as she considered that. “But all this still doesn’t explain why you didn’t even try for a one-night stand with me, Jess.”

“Because you’re the type of woman a man keeps, not a one-night-stand type of woman. I liked and respected you way too much to reduce you to that level,” he replied matter-of-factly.

“So when you found out about my dorm situation and invited me to move in here, what? Was that because you liked and respected me and had given up on the crush you had on me?” she asked, more confused than ever.

“No. By the time I brought you home with me that night, I was totally jonesing to have you as my girlfriend but wasn’t sure how to go about approaching you. I even kept asking Alex for his advice,” he admitted.

“Really?” Maggie breathed, feeling flattered.

“Really.” Jess nodded while Alex stated drily, “You were all Jess could talk about. It was quite irritating, actually. I was really getting tired of hearing him rave on and on about the ‘Great and Wonderful Maggie.’”

“Oh, I’m sorry,” Maggie whispered lamely.

Alex laughed and placed his arm back around her shoulder. “Don’t be,” he assured her. “It’s what actually got us to thinking. If you really were as great as Jesse claimed, then surely there must be a woman out there for us.”

“So you decided to start looking seriously for your own girlfriend?” she asked, wondering why she was feeling strangely disappointed.

But Alex was already shaking his head. “No, we finally decided what we both wanted and had found missing in our lives was a girlfriend. The
same
girlfriend. One who knew all about us and could accept us and love us that way.”

“I started trying to lay the groundwork with you because I wanted you so damn much, and Alex said that if you really were as great as I claimed you were, then you sounded perfect for him, too, and he wanted to meet you for himself. So I tried to feel you out to see if you would be open to a relationship with us. ”

Maggie nodded slowly as she remembered some of the highly personal questions Jesse had started bombarding her with. Unsure of why he was asking such outrageous things, she had laughed them off and refused to answer.

“When Jess brought you home that first night, I was instantly smitten. You were even more beautiful in person than in the pictures Jesse had snapped of you with his cell phone,” Alex confessed to her.

“Are you out of your mind? I looked a mess that night, all rumpled and sleep deprived from all those hours I had spent hiding out in the library.” She couldn’t help but remind him of her sorry appearance the first time she had met him.

“Your lips were swollen, your eyes were hooded, and your hair was tousled,” Alex stated. “Very hot.”

“Men find that attractive?” she asked in disbelief. “My makeup was smeared, and my clothes were wrinkled.”

“Which made you look as if you had either just engaged in some head-banging sex or had been caught in the middle of some serious foreplay. Which leads a guy to have some serious fantasies,” Jess said.

“So if you were both attracted to me, then why haven’t either of you made a move on me?”

“We did today,” Alex pointed out.

“Before today,” she clarified, her cheeks heating up at the reminder.

“Because as Alex here will gladly point out to you, I’m a rank idiot.” Jess sighed in self-disgust.

“What do you mean?”

“He means that Einstein here was the moron who told you we were gay in order to get you to allow him to bring you home that night,” Alex snarled.

“And I’ve already apologized for that fuckup a thousand times,” Jess snapped back. “But Maggie wouldn’t have felt comfortable sleeping under the same roof with two men unless she had some reassurance that she was perfectly safe with us, would you have, Maggie?”

“No, I wouldn’t have,” Maggie confirmed. “I would have preferred to take my chances staying at the library all night where there was at least
some
semblance of security rather than to take my chances with two unknown men, no matter how well-intentioned they claimed to be.”

“So I did the wrong thing for the right reason,” Jess declared with a “so there!” look at Alex, and Maggie couldn’t control the giggle that escaped her lips.

“Perhaps,” Alex conceded, “but that didn’t make up for the fact that you were now under the impression that we were homosexual lovers, and we didn’t have a clue about how to tell you the real truth.”

“So was earlier an attempt on your part to ‘show’ me rather than tell me?”