Do You Want to Know a Secret?

BOOK: Do You Want to Know a Secret?
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About the Book

Vicky Harper is still hopelessly single and having to face up to the unpalatable fact that the last time she had a relationship with that highly elusive species, the decent single man, was
well
before
Phantom of the Opera
hit Broadway.

So, having discovered an ancient book which says you can have anything you want from the Universe . . . and that all you need do is ask, she decides to give it a whirl. Turns out all she has to do is focus on
thinking
her wildest fantasies into reality. Kind of like Pollyanna, except with a Magic 8 Ball, a mortgage and a
lot
of vodka.

So, along with her two beyond-fabulous best friends, Vicky decides to put ‘The Law of Attraction’ into action. Trouble is, ‘The Law of Attraction’ doesn’t come with an instruction manual and Vicky soon realizes that you have to be very, very careful what you wish for. . .

Contents

Cover

About the Book

Title Page

Dedication

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty-One

Chapter Twenty-Two

Chapter Twenty-Three

Chapter Twenty-Four

Chapter Twenty-Five

Chapter Twenty-Six

Chapter Twenty-Seven

Epilogue

Acknowledgements

About the Author

Also by Claudia Carroll

Copyright

For Marianne. With love and thanks, always.

Chapter One

RIGHT THEN, HERE
goes.

Happy, positive things about turning, ahem . . . Well, let’s just say about ‘getting another year older’ today.

1. I am finally able to handle my hairdresser.

2. I have learned to say ‘NO’, simply, clearly, emphatically and without any residue emotional guilt whatsoever. Unless it’s a guy asking me out, that is, in which case, sorry, but at my age, as long as he’s straight and has a job, then, hey, he passes the Vicky test.

3. I now understand the concept of Sky Plus and am able to work it. Sort of.

4. At long last, I accept each of the following, in no particular order.

- I will never carry off a pair of skinny jeans and may as well stop forking out for incredibly pricey gym membership, which invariably I only use the week before I go on holidays and am obliged to shoehorn myself into a bikini.

I am kidding no one, only myself.

- Nor will I ever become the effortless cook I once dreamed of, and I hereby vow to stop doing my usual trick of buying ready-made meals from Marks & Spencer, then artfully arranging them in oven-proof dishes, while disposing of the packaging, or hard evidence, if you will, in the outside bin so that none of my more devious friends (Barbara Fox, take a bow) will suspect that I’m a dirty big cheat. This, also, fools no one but me. Particularly as Barbara does most of her shopping in Marks & Spencer too.

5. I’m now scarily advanced into my thirties and still single. The time has come to accept that, unless I’m prepared to go down the grade-A-gay-sperm-and-a-spatula route, I will never have a child and will end up one of those sad old ladies in retirement homes who no one ever visits at Christmas, except kids from the local school and only then because it’s part of their detention.

Ouch, ouch,
ouch
. That last one really hurt.

6. Furthermore, just while I’m doling out tough love, I will now stop believing that fortune-tellers, palm readers and psychics hold the key to my future. Every year I go to one, every year I’m promised that my future husband is out there for me, and every year he’s a no-show.

Honest to God, if I ever do meet the poor idiot I’m destined to spend the rest of my life with, the first thing I’ll do is smack him across the face and tell him it serves him right for being so bloody unpunctual.

7. And while we’re on the subject of monumental let-downs, the time has come for me to come clean and finally accept that feng shui isn’t all it’s cracked up to be either. Embarrassment prevents me from recording on these pages how much I forked out for a self-styled ‘lifestyle and home-design guru’ (I am
NOT
making this up), to call out to my house, make me shift the TV out of the relationship corner, and then place pictures of lovey-dovey couples in my south-west corner with big lumps of rose quartz beside them. She then gave me a daily affirmation (‘love does not conform to schedule’), and told me that I should really stop panic-dating,
tell
myself I’m a goddess and fully embrace my aloneness.

And there was me thinking you had to go to a hairdresser for that kind of deep, psychological insight.

Right, enough’s enough. Decision made. At the grand old age of, ahem, never you mind, I hereby make this, my solemn vow. No more clairvoyants, psychics, mystics, cosmic ordering, on-line tarot readers or spending ages in the office pretending to be working when in actual fact I’m checking out my astrological compatibility with whatever guy I happen to be daydreaming about at the time. Time to act my age and leave my destiny in the very capable hands of the universe.

Yes, love it, brilliant plan.

Oh yeah, except that . . . emm . . . maybe I’ll just start tomorrow.

Well, the Mind, Body, Spirit, Health and Healing Exhibition is on after work tonight, and I can’t very well miss out on that, now can I?

Birthdays are so fabulous, the one day out of three hundred and sixty-five when you are allowed full emotional leverage over your best friend to drag her along to absolutely anything, against her will, with the promise of a lovely sushi meal afterwards plus as many margaritas as she can handle. My best friend, the
aforementioned
Barbara Fox, is just fabulous, you’d love her. When I grow up, I want to be her. We’ve been mates ever since primary school, all the way through college; and as Barbara always says, men may come and go, blue eyeliner and the bubble perm may come and go, but true friends are like the Manolo sling-back or the Hermès Birkin bag . . . here to stay whether we like it or not. In all our years of friendship, we really have been through thick and thin together; thick mostly. And, in short, like I always joke with Barbara, my love for her is a bit like my appendix scar. Ugly and permanent.

So anyway, I drag her off to the exhibition, kicking and screaming. I’m not messing. Only my solemn promise that, come her birthday, I’ll be her white slave for the day and will even go to one of her beloved rugby matches with her, should she so decree, shuts her up.

‘This is what community service must feel like,’ she whinges as we head into the packed hall, forking out twenty euro just for admission. ‘Deliver us from drivel, that’s all I ask, and if anyone comes near me with a crystal and threatens to cleanse my chakras, I’m so outta here.’

Barbara, I should point out, is absolutely cynical about anything remotely other-worldly and is probably the only woman I know who doesn’t even bother reading her horoscope. I, on the other hand, will try
anything
once, and by that, I really do mean anything. I even did a novena to St Clare at one point, a few years back now, which, according to my mum, has never EVER been known to fail. Mum, the polar opposite of Barbara, is staunch Catholic, a daily Mass-goer and so deeply religious that she’s still not over the death of Pope John Paul II.

‘I can’t take to that new German, Benedict or whatever he calls himself,’ she’s always saying. ‘The eyes are far too close together for my liking.’ Then, with a heartfelt sigh, ‘Ah sure, there’ll only ever be the one Pope.’

Anyway, I was just so knickers in love with this particular emotionally unavailable guy (invariably the usual type I attract) that even if it meant going down on my hands and knees to Heaven for things to work out, then that’s what I was prepared to do.

The novena itself was straightforward enough, all you had to do was say nine Hail Marys for nine days and it promised to deliver three favours for you, one personal: ‘Dear St Clare, if he’s the right man for me, then please let things work out with . . . well, let’s just call him Mr X.’ One professional: ‘Please can Barbara get the part she’s up for in that movie with whatshisname, your man who used to be James Bond, she’s a resting actress and hasn’t worked in so long that she’s actually starting to wonder if the profession is any different now, and this would be the big break she really needs, please, St Clare,
ah
go on, go on, go on.’ And one impossible: ‘Finally, please can I be happily married and pregnant within a year, St Clare . . . well, you did specify impossible, didn’t you?’

You should have seen me. I was like Aladdin discovering the magic lantern and making my three wishes, but, wouldn’t you know, the success-rate of that particular excursion into Catholicism was zero out of three. Although to be brutally honest, I didn’t really expect it to work anyway, on the principle that life just isn’t like that really, is it? Mum had the last word on the subject, wisely pointing out that God is not a bit impressed with people like me who don’t attend church, don’t do anything they’re supposed to do, and then expect favours to be lavished on them, just because they bothered to ask. Ho hum. Back to the drawing board.

The exhibition hall is jammers and when we eventually do get inside, we’re immediately approached by this hippy-dippy-looking guy wearing open-toed sandals, at a stand with a sign in front of it saying, ‘Cosmic Orders Accepted Here!’

Well, actually it would be more correct to say that he approaches Barbara, who’s just one of those women who guys seem to lose their reason over. We all have a Barbara in our lives, you know, those rare, lucky, lucky women who men just fall over themselves to go out
with
, begging them for dates.
Everyone
fancies her. Now, she is fabulous-looking, in a tall, lean, leggy, titian, curly-haired way, kind of like Nicole Kidman pre-Tom Cruise and most definitely pre-Botox, but for her part, she does absolutely nothing to encourage this reaction from guys. And I should know, over the years I’ve practically studied her modus operandi in action, on the off chance that I could pick up any dating tips from her. Honestly, at this stage, I could probably write a thesis on her behaviour in bars alone. But Barbara really, truly, genuinely isn’t looking for anyone special and just effortlessly flits from relationship to relationship leaving a trail of broken hearts behind her.

Theirs, I hasten to add, never, ever hers.

I don’t know what her gift is, but the best way I can describe it is like this lethal, man-eating pheromone which she exudes from her pores that says: ‘You can ask me out, or not, whatever, frankly I couldn’t be bothered, I’d rather stay home and watch my DVD box set collection of
Lost
’ . . . and men go
bananas
over her. The irony is that here’s me dying for a fella I can call my own, and they run a mile from me, whereas all Barbara has to do is be her fabulous, non-committal, nonchalant self and they immediately turn into her slobbering lapdogs.

I swear, she was a ‘Rules’ girl before they’d even invented the term, but never with marriage as her end
goal
; she’s just having a laugh and casting her dating net wide, as she calls it, all the while waiting for her big break in showbiz to come along. We often talk about this: I moan about how I’m turning into a human man-repeller and she jokes about how unemployable she feels, and how every single casting she now goes to, the parts invariably go to younger, perter, perkier twenty-somethings, so hungry they’d scratch your eyes out just for a walk-on part in something . . .
anything
.

Fab wing-woman that she is though, Barbara invariably points out that while I may be single and whinging, I am doing pretty much my dream job, which I do have to admit is true. I run my own PR company, by the way, and yes, I am very, very lucky. It’s great crack, there’s always loads of lovely invites to launches, and more freebies than I or my pals can sometimes handle. And business is booming so much that I’ve had to take on two extra staff, so no complaints there. In other words, while Barbara has a string of guys practically impaling themselves to ask her out, I, on the other hand, may be on my own, but at least I do have disposable income.

We’re always telling each other, if we could just somehow trade life problems, we’d be grand.

Anyway, back to the exhibition.

‘Peace be with you, ladies, would you care to place an order with the cosmos?’ asks Sandal Man, and I’m not
joking
, the combined whiff of garlic, incense and stale BO from him is making my tummy churn a bit. Talk about taking a holiday from hygiene . . .

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