Dragonwitch (47 page)
The library was quiet in the wake of Alistair's departure. The chronicler who was king sat awhile upon his high stool, staring around at the stone walls, trying not to think, for any thought might be too overwhelming.
“I am weak,” he whispered. “Too weak for this.”
And in you, my might will be made visible to all people.
“Give me the strength, then,” said the Smallman. “Give me the strength and the wisdom I need.”
A knock at the door. Sighing, the Chronicler slid off the stool and opened it. One of his guards stood there. Beyond him stood Leta.
“Your Majesty, this young woman insists you would wish to see her,” said the guard tentatively, for he was uncertain of required protocol when it came to kings. “She says you need her to put the library back together,” he added, glancing back at her.
“Oh. Yes,” the Chronicler said, opening the door a little wider. “You did well. Let her pass.”
Relieved, the guard stepped back. Leta entered the library, proceeding to her usual place under the window, though the table had been overturned and broken and all the inkpots scattered. The Chronicler shut the door.
“I can't imagine how terrible this looks to you,” said Leta, gazing around the chamber. She met the Chronicler's eyes, and he saw sorrow equal to his own. “All your work.”
“I shall have to transcribe it again. If there's time,” he said. Then he shrugged ruefully. “Or hire my own chronicler.”
“I thought about that,” said Leta. “I thought maybe . . .” She hesitated, then hurried on. “I thought maybe you'd consider me for the position. I know I'm not very skilled,” she persisted, seeing him open his mouth and,
in that moment, not caring that she'd just interrupted a king. “I know I still have much to learn. But I am
quite
familiar with this library now, and I should like to be part of its restoration. Even if you can't commission me as official chronicler, I hope you will allow me to help. . . .”
Her voice trailed off, and he thought perhaps there were tears in her eyes, for she no longer was willing to meet his gaze. He sighed and bent to pick up several loose sheets lying at his feet. They were torn as though by great claws. He pretended to read them but for some reason couldn't discern the words.
“I think,” he said, “it might be best if you returned to Aiven. To the home of your father.”
“You'd send me away?” Her voice was sharp.
He bowed his head and shuffled the papers. “There's no place at Gaheris now for an unwed maiden.”
He felt the power of her stare full upon him, and he dared not meet it.
“What did you say to me?” Leta asked.
His throat was too dry to swallow. “I simply don't think it would be wise, my lady.”
She did not speak for a long moment. She felt rebellious Leta rising in full force and fury, ready, after all the dreadfulness of the last week, to explode.
But practical Leta reminded her,
Do be reasonable. A little reason never hurt anything.
“Very well, Your Majesty,” Leta said, her voice as prim as any lady of the court's. “As concerns my return to Aiven, there is a legal question I should bring to your attention.”
“A legal question?”
“Indeed. As you may recall, I am contracted, by the will of Earl Aiven and your late father, to marry the heir to Gaheris.” She waited but could not discern from the side of his face presented to her whether or not he understood. So she added, “Which is you.”
He turned away and marched across the room, pausing to pick up a torn volume and tracing the damage with his finger. “Never fear, my lady,” he said. “I have no intention of holding you to such a contract.”
“What do you mean?”
“I am not unreasonable.” His back was still to her, though his head was
up and his shoulders straight. “I would not expect any maiden to hold herself to a legal arrangement intended for another.”
Leta's eyes narrowed. “Do me the courtesy of plain speaking, Your Majesty.”
He sighed and half turned to her. “I wouldn't ask you to marry a dwarf.”
Leta couldn't breathe. Her rebellious side took up all the breath remaining to her, shouting:
Tell him! Tell him what you think! Tell him now!
She waited. Practical Leta, after all, should have a chance to whisper reason into the tumult of her mind.
But practical Leta said only:
Do it.
“Chronicler . . . Your Majesty . . .” She ground her teeth, eyes squeezed shut. “Florien, do you love me?”
The hot rush of blood flooding her face was almost too much. She felt him turning, looking her way, but she couldn't quite raise her gaze to meet his. She rushed on before she could collapse with embarrassment but found that her courage rose and the words came more easily. Soon they spilled out quite beyond her control.
“Because I love you. I love you very dearly and have for . . . I don't even know how long! Since you taught me that silly alphabet. Since you looked at me and saw more than a bargaining chip, more than an instrument for your use. Since you saw me for who I
am
, the rebellious, the practical, everything. I love you for seeing me, and I believe you love me too. You'll tell me, of course, that what I believe has no bearing whatsoever on the truth, and I'm ready to hear it. Still, you needed to know. Before you break your contract with my father, you needed to know.”
The king stared at her. He saw so many things as she stood there before him, things he could not quite understand. He saw that she was strong though vulnerable, courageous in her fear. Every contradiction filled her face, and all he saw was true and real.
“M'lady,” he said, finding his voice at last. “M'lady, I love you.”
Her smile was quick and brilliant as sunlight, filling his whole world.
“In that case,” she said, “if you don't want me for chronicler, what do you think of queen?”
L
ET
ME
TELL
YOU
A
STORY
.
Ever flowed the Final Water, through the high lands of the moon's own garden, along the warm vistas of the sun's great realm. Into the Boundless it swept, reaching at last to the very banks of the Farthest Shore.
Before the water stood a man, and he watched intently, his eyes shining bright. None could guess how long he had remained in this attitude. A thousand years, a handful of momentsâit did not matter. Here he would stand until he found what he sought.
The Final Water swelled with many burdens and sorrows, washing them far and away.
Suddenly the man gave a glad shout and stepped out into the shallows, wading deeper and deeper. The rushing torrents, though mighty beyond all mortal comprehension, could not sweep him away. He put out his hands and caught up something from the water, a figure dressed in rags.
“Etanun!” the man cried. “Etanun, you've come at last!”
The ragged figure coughed up water from his lungs and, with the aid of his companion, stood on trembling feet. His face was scarred with terrible burns, and he dared not raise it but whispered with his head bowed:
“Akilun.”
Whole worlds lived and died in his voice. For a moment, he stood in the haggard shreds of his disguise, the scars of death marring every feature, and he could say nothing more.
But Akilun caught him up and held him close. There, with the Final Water flowing about their knees, the two reunited were made whole as they once were. Beneath the watching gazes of Lumé and Hymlumé, they embraced. As they stood thus, Etanun's frailty melted away, and he was transformed, stronger, more beautiful, more complete than he had ever been.
“Welcome home, my brother,” Akilun said and took Etanun around the shoulders.
Together, without another word spoken between, they waded to the shore. They put their backs to the Final Water and ran together up the green and golden slopes, vanishing into the lights of the sun and the moon and the greater, ringing light of the Song ever singing.
And nevermore were the Brothers Ashiun seen by mortal eyes.
Ever flowed the Final Water, bearing with it all burdens, all sorrows. It poured down into the deepest reaches, cascading into the depths of the Netherworld. At last it came to the Dark Water. There it cast a carcass up upon the shore and left it, sodden and unmoving.
The Black Dogs stood over the body of their mother. First one, then the other nudged and pawed at her still form. She was broken. She was burned.
She was drowned.
As though one animal, her children threw back their heads and howled. It was a sound unlike the baying of the hunt: a sound of mourning, of loss, of devastation. These monsters with their gaping jaws and red eyes howled the cry of the forsaken and rejected, and they could know no comfort.
The Dragon found them thus. He gazed at the broken form of his firstborn, lying wet upon the stones of the Netherworld. Her flame had been more brilliant than tongue could tell. Even at her final death, the
Dragon had wondered if her fire would be enough to burn away the waters rushing in.
But no. She was finally dead. As they all must die.
“Enough,” the Dragon snarled, turning to the Black Dogs and cuffing them both with his clawed hand. “Enough of this weeping. She never loved you anyway. Come. I have need of you.”
With special thanks to my David Rohan, who not only designed Gaheris Castle and the surrounding countryside so I could have a clear mental picture, but also wrote both versions of the Smallman nursery rhyme.
Anne Elisabeth Stengl makes her home in Raleigh, North Carolina, where she lives with her husband, Rohan, a passel of cats, and one long-suffering dog. When she's not writing, she enjoys Shakespeare, opera, and tea, and studies piano, painting, and pastry baking. She studied illustration at Grace College and English literature at Campbell University. She is the author of
Heartless
,
Veiled Rose
,
Moonblood
,
Starflower
, and
Dragonwitch
.
Heartless
and
Veiled Rose
have each been honored with a Christy Award.
Heartless
Veiled Rose
Moonblood
Starflower
Dragonwitch
