He pointed behind me and I turned. Jamie and the others had left the walkway. They were roaming the stairs, scattered around the building. Searching for a way across. I knew that it was only a matter of time before they found it.
I ran across the metal sheeting of the roof. Martin was ahead of me and I tried to keep up with him. But my legs were tired, my lungs straining and the gap between us widened. I couldn't work out where we were. I was confused and the darkness was profound, the sky heavy with clouds. Rain spun into my eyes. Martin became a moving silhouette, a darker wedge against a black backdrop. My muscles were burning again, but I kept my legs moving.
I didn't see the wall until I was right up against it. I locked my feet against the slick surface of the roof and planted my hands in front of me as it loomed up. Even so, it was a painful blow when I collided with it. Exhaustion flooded through me. I leaned against the wall, head bowed, muscles twitching. Over the sound of my own gasping I heard the drum of urgent footsteps. Getting closer. I forced myself away from the wall and moved along the roof, to my right. There was no sign of Martin now.
I wasn't prepared for the lights. I turned a corner and there was another roof below me. It was ablaze. I stood for a few seconds, blinking, before I realised it wasn't fire. The roof of the hall. The Social. I heard excited voices, the familiar thud of the bass. Coloured lights shone along the wall below me, to my right. Three or four skylights glowed with pulses of light at evenly spaced intervals in the dark expanse of corrugated iron.
The drop to the hall roof was about two metres. I had nowhere else to go. I could hear footsteps closing. I stepped up onto the narrow ledge and jumped. When the metal sheeting hit me, pain shot through my left leg. I fell heavily to the side, scrambled to my feet and limped away. The noise was louder here. The roof vibrated to the music and the yells of students. I passed one of the skylights and peered down. It was a twenty metre drop. I was above the stage area. The DJ was bent over his machine. The number of dancers had swelled now. A sea of heads swayed.
I passed two more skylights. This time I didn't look down. My gaze was fixed on the last skylight. It seemed important to get there. My progress had slowed, the pain in my leg getting worse. Wherever I looked there was only roof. No stairs, no exit. Nowhere to hide. Five metres short of the last skylight, I stopped. Above the noise of the Social I heard the clatter of feet landing on metal. I turned.
The boys were at the far end of the roof, fifty or sixty metres away. Jamie Archer was in the centre. The other boys fanned out to the right and left. They walked slowly towards me. I backed away, my feet inching across the roof. I kept my eyes locked on the semi-circle of approaching boys. Only when I scuffed up against the frame of the skylight did I stop.
I felt hands take mine. I glanced quickly to each side. Martin was on my left, Leah on my right. We stood there and watched Jamie and his mates close in. They were forty metres away now. Jamie was smug, lazily confident.
âYou're dead, Terny,' he said and his voice, though soft, carried.
5
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Forty metres.
âYou made us in your own image, Michael,' said Leah. âAnd we're here to help you.'
Martin chuckled.
âBit of a Scrabble buff, eh, Michael?' he said. âMove those tiles around and Michael Terny becomes Leah McIntyre, Martin Leechy. Like magic. I reckon I got the worst deal, though. Leechy? Something that clings and sucks and has no backbone? You've got to admit, mate, that isn't me. But I guess there's only so many variants you can make out of the letters of your name. I forgive you.'
Jamie was in no hurry. He knew, as I did, that there was nowhere for me to go. Beyond the last skylight was another ten metres of roof and then a high, featureless wall. He strolled, arms swinging gently. I tried to focus on his left hand, but it was lost in shadows. He kept his eyes fixed on mine.
âYou never mention your step-mum's last name.' Martin's voice was calm, controlled. No sense of urgency. âMary what, Michael? I don't have your skill at anagrams, but here's an educated guess. Cheltine? Enelitch? Enelitch sounds Eastern European. Not that it matters, of course. Three of us. Born of your hopes and fears. Quite a feat, Michael. Keeping the three of us close, satisfying your needs. What a trinity!'
âI don't need you, Martin,' I said.
He laughed. âYou're wrong. You need me most of all. I mean, Leah's a lovely girl. Gentle, kind. But she's not a lot of help in this situation, is she? When things get nasty. “Turn the other cheek, Michael.” “Let's save the world, Michael.” And Mary's a sweetheart. I'd be the first to admit it. A sweet heart. But me, I'm your reality check. The others are good at touchy-feely. I'm the one who deals with boys with ice in their eyes and violence on their minds.'
âStill talking to yourself, Wrenbury?' said Jamie.
Thirty metres.
I could feel the lip of the skylight against my heels. Leah gave my hand a firm squeeze but didn't say anything. Maybe Martin was right. I couldn't see how she could help me now. But it felt good to know she was there. Martin's grip was firmer. He was hurting my hand.
âI said I was going to show you. Here, at the Social.' Martin's voice held no hint of anxiety. âThe Dream. That's the key. Power. How to wield it, not just when you're asleep, but all the time. All the time, Michael. And you were so close. That idea about the Möbius strip. Twisting the two planes so they connect. That was good. Clever.'
Twenty metres.
âBut you haven't got the trick yet, have you? To travel between those two worlds whenever you feel like it. Yet the solution's been staring you in the face all this time. Literally staring you in the face. Do you know what I'm talking about?'
âNo,' I said.
âI think you do. I
know
you do. How could I know if you don't? The problem is, you've buried it, Michael. It's time to do some digging.'
Ten metres.
âYou're a crazy bastard, Wrenbury.'
âLook behind you, Michael. Look down.'
I did. The glass filled my vision. Framed by a metal edge the glass was dark, but shapes were moving deep beneath the surface. The beat of the bass was like a distant ticking. Colours bloomed gently at the edges. Martin's voice seemed to come from a very long way away.
âWhat did you call it, Michael? A gateway from the Dream to the real world. But you didn't step through it. You watched. Just like you watched when your mother died. You didn't have the guts then and you've never had the guts since.'
A flash of yellow bathed the corner of the glass and then a seed of red. I knew what would happen. The colours would explode, fill the glass. And just before they did, I'd see what was there, beneath the surface. Any moment now. I tore my eyes from the glass, looked over my shoulder.
Five metres.
Martin's voice continued. Goading, pricking me towards that final twist of greatness. âBut when you're through, the planes connect. The loop complete. Fixed. And who knows? This time you could stop the flames. Maybe your mother doesn't have to die. The Dreamride, Michael. Forever. Where you can make the world as you want it.'
The colours grew. It was slow at first. It's always slow at first. Then they mushroom, explode. Jamie's arm was slow, too. His fist traced an arc through the air, slicing the night. And then down. Picking up speed. Mushrooming speed. I ducked, came up under the slice of the punch. I grabbed Jamie, hugged him like a lover, my arms locked against his back, my face close to his. I didn't need to turn. His movement took us. I felt my feet leave the floor and then the glass giving, the explosion of noise and colour, bathing us in fire.
We fell, like angels.
I made that final twist. Jamie's face was beneath me. I could see his eyes. There was no fear in them. Just deep bewilderment. Then the crack as we hit, the crash of a collapsing cave. And another crack, not loud, but final. We lay on the floor, me and him. No other sounds. His face was pale and freckled. His acne stood out like sparks, his neck twisted at a strange angle beneath the fire of his hair. There was nothing in the eyes now.
As I kissed him gently on the cheek, the pain bloomed within me. Along my arm and leg. It took away the light.
There is something wrong with the light.
I focus on the people who float around me. Some have names attached to them. Others don't. There are people in white. They drift in and out. They control the pain. Making it worse and, once or twice, getting it to fade. Not entirely. I hug the pain to me. I see again the glass and the colours. I can't remember what it means. Faces appear sometimes. They swim into vision. I can see their eyes. Most times, there is nothing in them except curiosity. No emotion. It gets dark for a while.
There are faces from a long time ago. I remember. Mr Atkins. His mouth moves but if there is any sound it is sucked up before it reaches me. My arm and my leg are still and the pain has nearly gone. And so is Mr Atkins. He is there one moment. I see the whiteness of the ceiling framing his face. Then he's gone. Like a vanishing trick. Instead there is a stain on the ceiling. It's shape resembles a map of Australia. I stare at it. I have something important to do, but I can't remember what it is.
Miss Palmer is there. She has a kind face. I can't hear what she is saying, but I listen to her eyes. There used to be fear there. I remember. Fear of me. Now, I don't know exactly. It might be pity. The stain returns and is replaced by Dad. I watch his face. His nose has a grid of broken veins. Like the maps we used to draw of river systems in a school a long time ago. His breath is sour and there's fear in his eyes. I can't mistake that. It makes me feel good to know he's scared of me. He should be. He should be. But I don't know why.
It's quiet now. And dark. I can't see the stain. I'm lying in a bed but I can't move my head. There are straps over my legs and chest. I feel them as a dark pressure. If I swivel my eyes as far as I can I see a metal rail on each side of me. Just enough light for that, but no more. I'm tied down. Locked in. My body can't move. Not yet. But they can't tie my mind down. They can't lock that in. Memories are coming back to me.
It's almost completely dark now. I can't even see the ceiling. But I hear. I can hear fine. And I can think fine. Mary is sitting at the foot of my bed. I know it's her. I don't need eyes for that. She doesn't say anything. Nothing at all. But she doesn't need to. I know she'll always be here for me. I feel that in the pressure at the end of the bed. No words needed.
An image sits behind my eyes. A strip of paper, twisted and joined. Stapled. In my mind I trace the journey over the plane. One plane now, where there used to be two. I go round and round. One to the other and there is no difference. I know what I can do. It's all clear now. I feel the power within me. Waiting to be released. Waiting for me to use it.
Martin is in the darkness to my left. He talks. He talks constantly. He talks of pain and punishment. He paints a picture of a man in a bar. A man who has had too much to drink. His car keys are in his pocket. He decides to have one more drink before going home. Martin tells of him going out to a car park, swaying. He has difficulty getting his keys into the lock. He scratches paintwork. He sits in the driver's seat. The car smells of sweat, tobacco and alcohol. He starts the engine. He doesn't notice the dark shape in the rear seat, rising up. He doesn't see it until he turns in his seat to reverse out. And then the horror begins.
Martin talks of a man in silk shorts in a sea of fluorescent light. He is moving on his toes, dancing. He is talking about movement and the power in the shoulder. He is smiling as he jabs out a left, ducks his head, weaves and bobs. The fat boy opposite doesn't move. He stands there, his gloves at his side. The boy will move soon. When he's ready. And the man doesn't understand. He doesn't understand the power in the shoulder. But he will. He will when the boy decides.
Leah is in the darkness off to my right. Her voice mingles with Martin's. They talk at the same time, but I can hear what each is saying. It is all clear. She talks of Mrs Atkins, of cancers gone, of children in hospital wards, of horror and pain banished. She describes a boy moving through the world. He cuts through pain and suffering. He moves into darkness and leaves behind him light. There are smiles on faces that were twisted with hurt.
I listen to their voices. They argue. They tell me what I should do. But I have my own mind. And there is room in that mind for both their voices.
I know what I will do. I know when I will start to do it. I will rest tomorrow. I am tired, because of everything I've done, everything I've created. But the day after tomorrow I will move within my world. And those who are good and pure of heart need fear me not. I will bestow on them all blessings. I shall take away their pain. Their suffering shall be as if it never was. And where there is darkness I will bring light, where there is fear I will bring hope and my name will be praised above all others. Yet those who dwell in evil, who have not purity in their hearts, will tremble as I pass. I shall bring vengeance upon them and their sufferings will endure forever. I shall cast out their evil and the world will be born, new and afresh. And I will do this in my name. Michael Terny.