“More than just ⦠French now?” she asked.
He nodded his head worriedly. “Lots more,” he said. “Likeâ” He looked up from his cup. “Listen to this. Main progress in producing fast particles has been made by using relatively small voltages and repeated acceleration. In most of the instruments used, charged particles are driven round in circular or spiral orbits with the help of aâyou listenin', Eva?”
He saw her Adam's apple move. “I'm listenin',” she said.
“âhelp of a magnetic field. The acceleration can be applied in different ways. In the so-called betatron of Kerst and Serberâ”
“What does it
mean,
Fred?” she interrupted.
“I don't know,” he said helplessly. “It's ⦠just words in my head. I know what it means when I say something in a foreign tongue, but ⦠this?”
She shivered, clasping at her forearms abruptly.
“It's not right,” she said.
He frowned at her in silence for a long moment.
“What do you mean, Eva?” he asked then.
“I don't know, Fred,” she said quietly and shook her head once, slowly. “I just don't know.”
She woke up about midnight and heard him mumbling in his sleep.
“The natural logarithms of whole numbers from ten to two hundred. Number oneâ
zero
âtwo point three oh two six.
One
âtwo point three nine seven nine.
Two
âtwo pointâ”
“Fred, go t'sleep,” she said, frowning nervously.
“âfour eight four nine.”
She prodded him with an elbow. “Go t'
sleep
, Fred.”
“
Threeâ
two pointâ”
“Fred!”
“Huh?” He moaned and swallowed dryly, turned on his side.
In the darkness, she heard him shape the pillow with sleep-heavy hands.
“Fred?” she called softly.
He coughed. “What?”
“I think you better go tâDoctor Boone t'morra mornin'.”
She heard him draw in a long breath, then let it filter out evenly until it was all gone.
“I think so, too,” he said in a blurry voice.
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On Friday morning, when he opened the door to the waiting room of Doctor William Boone, a draft of wind scattered papers from the nurse's desk.
“Oh,” he said apologetically.
“Le chieggo scuse. Non ne val la pena.”
Miss Agnes McCarthy had been Doctor Boone's receptionist-nurse for seven years and in that time she'd never heard Fred Elderman speak a single foreign word.
Thus she goggled at him, amazed. “What's that you said?” she asked.
Fred's smile was a nervous twitch of lips.
“Nothing,” he said, “Miss.”
Her returned smile was formal. “Oh.” She cleared her throat. “I'm sorry the doctor couldn't see you yesterday.”
“That's all right,” he told her.
“He'll be ready in about ten minutes.”
Twenty minutes later, Fred sat down beside Boone's desk and the heavy-set doctor leaned back in his chair with an, “Ailing, Fred?”
Fred explained the situation.
The doctor's cordial smile became, in order, amused, fixed, strained and finally nonexistent.
“This is really so?” he demanded.
Fred nodded with grim deliberation.
“Je me laisse conseiller.”
Doctor Boone's heavy eyebrows lifted a noticeable jot. “French,” he said. “What'd you say?”
Fred swallowed. “I said I'm willing to be advised.”
“Son of a gun,” intoned Doctor Boone, plucking at his lower lip. “
Son
of a gun.” He got up and ran exploring hands over Fred's skull. “You haven't received a head blow lately, have you?”
“No,” said Fred. “Nothing.”
“Hmmm.” Doctor Boone drew away his hands and let them drop to his sides. “Well, no apparent bumps or cracks.” He buzzed for Miss McCarthy. Then he said, “Well, let's take a try at the x-rays.”
The x-rays revealed no break or blot.
The two men sat in the office, discussing it.
“Hard to believe,” said the doctor, shaking his head. Fred sighed despondently. “Well, don't take on so,” Boone said. “It's nothing to be disturbed about. So you're a quiz kid, so what?”
Fred ran nervous fingers over his mustache. “But there's no sense to it. Why is it happening? What is it? The fact is, I'm a little scared.”
“Nonsense, Fred.
Nonsense
. You're in good physical condition. That I guarantee.”
“But what about myâ” Fred hesitated “âmy brain?”
Doctor Boone stuck out his lower lip in consoling derision, shaking his head. “I wouldn't worry about that, either.” He slapped one palm on the desk top. “Let me think about it, Fred. Consult a few associates. You knowâ
analyze
it. Then I'll let you know. Fair enough?”
He walked Fred to the door.
“In the meantime,” he prescribed, “no worrying about it. There isn't a thing to worry about.”
His face as he dialed the phone a few minutes later was not unworried, however.
“Fetlock?” he said, getting his party. “Got a poser for you.”
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Habit more than thirst brought Fred to the Windmill that evening. Eva had wanted him to stay home and rest, assuming that his state was due to overwork; but Fred had insisted that it wasn't his health and left the house, just managing to muffle his
“Au revoir.”
He joined Harry Bullard and Lou Peacock at the bar and finished his first beer in a glum silence while Harry revealed why they shouldn't vote for Legislator Milford Carpenter.
“Tell ya the man's got a private line t'Moscow,” he said. “A few men like that in office and we're in for it, take my word.” He looked over at Fred staring into his beer. “What's with it, elder man?” he asked, clapping Fred on the shoulder.
Fred told themâas if he were telling about a disease he'd caught.
Lou Peacock looked incredulous. “So that's what you were talking about the other night!”
Fred nodded.
“You're not kiddin' us now?” Harry asked. “Y'know
everything?
”
“Just about,” Fred admitted sadly.
A shrewd look overcame Harry's face.
“What if I ask ya somethin' ya
don't
know?”
“I'd be happy,” Fred said in a despairing voice.
Harry beamed. “Okay. I won't ask ya about atoms nor chemicals nor anythin' like that. I'll just ask ya t'tell me about the country between my home town Au Sable and Tarva.” He hit the bar with a contented slap.
Fred looked hopeful briefly, but then his face blanked and he said in an unhappy voice, “Betweeen Au Sable and Tarva, the route is through typical cut-over land that once was covered with virgin pine (
danger: deer on the highway
) and now has only second-growth oak, pine and poplar. For years after the decline of the lumber industry, picking huckleberries was one of the chief local occupations.”
Harry gaped.
“Because the berries were known to grow in the wake of fires,” Fred concluded, “residents deliberately set many fires that roared through the country.”
“That's a damn dirty lie!” Harry said, chin trembling belligerently.
Fred looked at him in surprise.
“You shouldn't ought tâgo around tellin' lies like that,” Harry said. “You call that knowin' the countrysideâtelling
lies
about it?”
“Take it easy, Harry,” Lou cautioned.
“Well,” Harry said angrily, “he shouldn't ought to tell lies like that.”
“I didn't say it,” Fred answered hopelessly. “It's more as though IâI read it
off.
”
“Yeah? Well ⦔ Harry fingered his glass restlessly.
“You really know
everything?
” Lou asked, partly to ease the tension, partly because he was awed.
“I'm afraid so,” Fred replied.
“You ain't just ⦠playin' a trick?”
Fred shook his head. “No trick.”
Lou Peacock looked small and intense. “What can you tell me,” he asked in a back-alley voice, “about orange roses?”
The blank look crossed Fred's face again. Then he recited, “Orange is not a fundamental color but a blend of red and pink of varied intensity and yellow. There were very few orange roses prior to the Pernatia strain. All orange, apricot, chamois and coral roses finish with pink more or less accentuated. Some attain that lovely shadeâ
Cuisse de Nymphe émue.
”
Lou Peacock was open-mouthed. “Ain't that something?”
Harry Bullard blew out heavy breath. “What d'ya know about Carpenter?” he asked pugnaciously.
“Carpenter, Milford, born 1898 in Chicago, Illiâ”
“Never mind,” Harry cut in. “I ain't interested. He's a Commie; that's all I gotta know about him.”
“The elements that go into a political campaign,” Fred quoted helplessly, “are manyâthe personality of the candidates, the issuesâif anyâthe attitude of the press, economic groups, traditions, the opinion polls, theâ”
“I tell ya he's a Commie!” Harry declared, voice rising.
“You voted for him last election,” Lou said. “As I reâ”
“I did
not!
” snarled Harry, getting redder in the face.
The blank look appeared on Fred Elderman's face. “Remembering things that are not so is a kind of memory distortion that goes by several names such as
pathological lying or mythomania.
”
“You callin' me a liar, Fred?”
“It differs from ordinary lying in that the speaker comes to believe his own lies andâ”
“Where did you get that black eye?” a shocked Eva asked Fred when he came into the kitchen later. “Have you been fighting at
your age?
”
Then she saw the look on his face and ran for the refrigerator. She sat him on a chair and held a piece of beefsteak against his swelling eye while he related what had happened.
“He's a bully,” she said. “A bully!”
“No, I don't blame him,” Fred disagreed. “I insulted him. I don't even know what I'm saying any more. I'mâI'm all mixed up.”
She looked down at his slumped form, an alarmed expression on her face. “When is Doctor Boone going to do something for you?”
“I don't know.”
A half hour later, against Eva's wishes, he went to clean up the library with a fellow janitor; but the moment he entered the huge room, he gasped, put his hands to his temples and fell down on one knee, gasping, “My head! My
head!
”
It took a long while of sitting quietly in the downstairs hallway before the pain in his skull stopped. He sat there staring fixedly at the glossy tile floor, his head feeling as if it had just gone twenty-nine rounds with the heavyweight champion of the world.
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Fetlock came in the morning. Arthur B., forty-two, short and stocky, head of the Department of Psychological Sciences, he came bustling along the path in porkpie hat and checkered overcoat, jumped up on the porch, stepped across its worn boards and stabbed at the bell button. While he waited, he clapped leather-gloved hands together energetically and blew out breath clouds.
“Yes?” Eva asked when she opened the door.
Professor Fetlock explained his mission, not noticing how her face tightened with fright when he announced his field. Reassured that Doctor Boone had sent him, she led Fetlock up the carpeted steps, explaining,
“He's still in bed. He had an attack last night.”
“Oh?” said Arthur Fetlock.
When introductions had been made and he was alone with the janitor, Professor Fetlock fired a rapid series of questions. Fred Elderman, propped up with pillows, answered them as well as he could.
“This attack,” said Fetlock, “what happened?”
“Don't know, Professor. Walked in the library andâwell, it was as if a ton of cement hit me on the head. Noâ
in
my head.”