Edge of Love (17 page)

“
So am I.”

He sighed. “Fine.”

“
Well, have a good night
then.” I started to close the door.

He stopped it with his hand. “It’s
been three days, Scar.”

I knew what he meant.

“
And I want
it.”

I stared at the contours of his body
and knew I wanted it too. I missed having sex with him. It was like
going through sexual withdrawals. He pressed his face close to mine
and stared at my lips.

“
How about
you?”

I licked my lips.

He moaned. “Is that a yes?”

I nodded.

He grabbed my face and kissed me hard,
harder than he normally did. His tongue was in my mouth and his
hands gripped my breasts. He pushed me into the apartment then
closed the door behind him.

I grabbed his face and pulled his lips
to mine, kissing him like it was the last time. His breaths came
out hot and uneven. He pushed me against the wall and I felt his
erection through his jeans. I moved my hands up his shirt and felt
his chest and stomach. His hand slipped into my pajamas then
underneath my underwear. He fingered me hard and almost made me
come right then and there.

Sean picked me up and I wrapped my
legs around his waist. He carried me in the bedroom then dropped me
on the bed. I stripped off his clothes as fast as I could. When I
saw his cock, I moaned. I didn’t realize how much I missed fucking
him until now. Sean pulled my clothes off and stared at my breasts.
He leaned over me and sucked each nipple, making me wetter than I
already was.

Sean separated my legs then leaned
over me. “I miss fucking you.”

I grabbed his ass. “I
know.”

He slipped inside of me with no
resistance. He started pounding into me hard and fast. We tried to
stay quiet, but we eventually abandoned the attempt. I couldn’t
care less if my brother heard me. I heard him have sex with tons of
different women.

I felt my climax build. “Fuck me,
Sean.”

He thrust into me harder and
deeper.

“
Yes, yes.” I moaned. I
scratched his back as I felt his entire shaft slide in and out of
me. “Yeah, Sean.”

He grunted as he thrust into me. “Even
when you are pissed at me, you are so wet for me.”

“
Sean, I’m almost
there.”

“
I know, babe. Come on.”
He continued to pound into me.

I felt it grow. “Please don’t
stop.”

“
I want you to come, babe.
Come for me.”

“
Okay.” I felt the sweat
drip from my breasts.

“
Who’s making you come?”
he said through his heavy breathing.

“
You.”

Who?”

I bit my lip. “Sean.”

He grabbed my shoulders as he fucked
me as hard as he could.

I started to scream his name. “Sean,
Sean. Yeah, Sean.”

“
Here it
comes.”

I bit my lip as I came. He pressed his
lips over mine as he hammered into me so I would remain quiet. The
electricity that ignited within me was enough to light an entire
city in a blaze. It felt so good and so amazing. I couldn’t believe
we went three days without doing this.

“
I love watching you come
for me,” he said.

“
Only for you.”

His body stiffened at my words as he
reached his unexpected climax. I knew my words started a wave of
pleasure through his body. He closed his eyes as he came inside me.
I grabbed his face and whispered words of love into his ear. I was
still pissed at him, but I loved him so much.

When he was done, he stayed on top of
me. A moment later, he opened his eyes. “God, I missed
that.”

“
I did, too.” I grabbed
his face and kissed him. Instead of lying down beside me like he
normally did, he stood up and dressed himself.

My face fell. “You’re
leaving?”

“
Yes,” he said as he
pulled on his pants. “I got what I wanted. Now I want to
go.”

I could hear the anger in his voice.
When he was fully dressed he walked toward the door. “Make sure you
lock the entrance behind me.”

I rose from the bed and dressed myself
quickly then followed him to the door.

Without looking at me, he stepped
outside into the hallway.

“
Sean?”

He stopped and looked at me. I could
see the ferocity in his eyes. His anger hadn’t dimmed at all. His
horniness won out over his temper for a moment. “What?”

I swallowed the lump in my throat. I
hated seeing him this way.

“
Do you have something you
want to say to me?”

I looked away. “No.”

He stared at me. “You know where to
find me.” He turned around and left.

13

Sean

“
Yes, I faxed the payroll
records to the accountant and I made the schedule for next month.”
I listened to my boss on the line but didn’t really listen to what
he said.

“
Great, Sean.”

“
Anything else you need,
sir?”

“
No, you got it
all.”

“
Thank you, sir.” I hung
up the phone and stared at my computer screen. Dealing with
retirement accounts, taxes, and payroll issues wasn’t nearly as
interesting as being a financial analyst but I gave that up—for
Scarlet.

I don’t regret that decision. I just
wish Scarlet understood what I sacrificed to be with her. I realize
I was the one who screwed up to begin with, but I still made amends
for my mistakes. My mom was disappointed with my career choice,
hated the fact that I lived in a different time zone, and she
disapproved of my relationship with Scarlet. I knew they loved her,
but they also thought she was a rebound. That wasn’t true at all.
Why couldn’t Scarlet pull her head out of her ass and realize how
annoying she was being?

When I went over to see her last
night, I fucked her brains out. I thoroughly enjoyed it. I couldn’t
classify what type of sex it was. It wasn’t breakup sex, make up
sex, or one night stand sex, and we certainly weren’t making love.
I guess it was angry sex. And I loved angry sex. I intended to fuck
her again tonight. I knew Scarlet would want me to.

I just wish that she would just
apologize so she would come back home. I missed her. I hated
sleeping alone. Not being able to talk to her was torture. I didn’t
realize how much we talked until she wasn’t there anymore. We never
said anything extremely important, but without her next to me, I
felt completely alone. The guys from the office took me out for a
few drinks, but I didn’t do any other socializing.

“
Mr. Prescott?”

My thoughts were shattered.
“Yes?”

Maria, the assistant human resources
director walked in the room. She had long legs that looked tan
under her pencil skirt, and her breasts were curvy under her
blouse. I thought she was attractive, but that’s the most my
thoughts ever went. If I said I didn’t notice her beauty, I would
be a liar. “Wanna grab a drink after work?”

I didn’t understand what she was
asking me. She knew I was engaged. “No thank you.”

“
Come on.” She smiled at
me. “It’ll be fun.”

I wonder what she meant by
the word
fun
.
“Maria, I’m engaged.”

She rolled her eyes. “You told me that
at least twenty times.”

I nodded.

“
I meant as a friendly
get-together.”

“
Is the rest of the office
going?”

“
Well, no.”

It was obvious she just wanted to get
laid. I had too many one night stands not to notice. I saw her
stare at me when I walked by her desk. I knew she wanted me. It
wasn’t her fault. I knew I gave off the persona of a guy without a
lot of morals. I didn’t talk about Scarlet often but there were
pictures of her scattered around my desk, and I always told people
I was engaged. Even though I was pissed at Scarlet right now, I
would never cheat on her. Despite her current issues, she was the
most amazing woman in the world. She was everything to me. “Then I
don’t think it’s a good idea.”

“
You just seem so
sad.”

I sighed. “My fiancé and I are having
problems.”

“
Anything I can do to
help?”

“
No.”

“
Then we should go
out.”

Now I was just angry. Since I was the
lead human resources director, I couldn’t offend her or cause any
additional problems. It would bite me in the ass later. I wanted to
tell her to fuck off, and I probably would have if it was outside
of work. “Thank you, but no thank you. I appreciate the offer,
Maria.” I grabbed my bag from the floor then hoisted it over my
shoulder. “I need to get going.” I walked out of my office and
locked the door behind me. I didn’t say goodbye to
Maria.

When I got home, I showered and made
dinner—tried to make dinner. Everything was easier when Scarlet was
here. I just wished she would apologize already. Perhaps if I
withheld sex, she would come back to me quicker. I loathed the idea
because I had needs, but I knew she did too. Eventually, she would
give in and come back to me on her knees, and I would accept her
with open arms.

When I went to bed that night, I
masturbated. I thought of Scarlet the entire time, but my orgasm
was weaker than it normally was. I preferred the real thing. I fell
asleep immediately and repeated the cycle for the following days.
Scarlet never reached out to me and I was getting more frustrated
with every passing day. She must be suffering as much as I was.
This is so stupid. If she didn’t call me tomorrow, then I was just
going to surrender to her. Scarlet could have whatever she wanted
as long as she came home to me. I was just an empty shell without
her. I had no life, no purpose without her smile and her beauty.
This was definitely one of the worst weeks of my life. The only one
that rivaled it was when I almost overdosed on pain killers.
Scarlet is the one who picked up the pieces.

When I was at work the next morning, I
called Ryan. This was the only way I knew Scarlet wouldn’t be
around.

“
Hey,” he said.

“
Hey. How is
she?”

“
You tell me. She seemed
fine when you came over the other night.”

I smiled. “You heard that?”

“
My neighbors heard it,
man. You give me a run for my money.”

I laughed. “I’m sorry, man.”
“It’s fine. I just wish she would leave and go home
already.”

“
I want the same
thing.”

“
Then drag her by the hair
if you have to.”

I laughed. “She’s being that
annoying?”

“
No,” he said. “I love
having her here. But I know she doesn’t belong here anymore. I just
don’t want her to make a mistake and lose you.”

“
You never have to worry
about that, Ryan.”

“
That’s a relief because I
know she’s being a brat right now.”

“
So you’re on my
side?”

“
Yeah. She’s just
overreacting. She needs to compromise.”

I laughed. “I’m guessing you haven’t
told her this?”

“
Oh, she knows! She’s just
being a stubborn brat about it. Thanks for putting up with
her.”

I sighed. “I can’t live without her. I
just wished she would see the error of her ways and come home. I
don’t know how clearer I can make it that she isn’t being fair. She
doesn’t even want my parents there. They wouldn’t even know about
the wedding if she had it her way.”

“
That bitch is
crazy.”

I laughed hysterically.

“
I admire you. I don’t
know what I would do if Janice acted like that.”

“
I hope you never have to
experience that.”

“
So, what are you going to
do?” Ryan asked.

I sighed. “I’m just going to close.
I’ll give her whatever she wants if she just comes home. I can’t
stand this anymore.”

He was quiet for a moment. “If you’re
sure.”

“
Yes, I think I am. I just
want to be with her. Hopefully, I talk her out of it after she
cools off.”

“
I’m about to leave the
shop. You wanna get a beer?”

“
Yeah. At
Larry’s?”

“
See you soon.” He hung up
the phone.

I returned my phone to my pocket then
walked out of the office. I didn’t care for my job all that much,
but I never wanted to tell Scarlet that. She would either respond
in two ways: she would tell me to quit my job because she made
enough money for the both of us, or she would start crying because
she would feel so bad that I disliked my job. Both of those events
were unacceptable. I preferred to hide it from her.

When I walked into the sports bar,
Ryan was already at the bench. He was watching a baseball game on
the television.