Edge of Midnight (5 page)

“Oh, I’m not worried.” Embarrassment sharpened her voice. “So did you just come to gawk? Quite a spectacle, isn’t it?”

He looked around. “Yes, it is.”

“Must be a real satisfaction to you.” She regretted the words instantly. Everything that came out of her put her at a disadvantage.

His eyes flickered. “Not in the least,” he said quietly. “I never wished you anything but the best.”

Her vertebrae stacked, clickity-click. That snotty bastard. After all the horrible things he’d said to her, he dared to get up on his high horse and make her feel in the wrong. “Isn’t that sweet,” she snapped. “I’m so touched, but that doesn’t explain what the hell you’re doing here.”

He crossed his arms over his chest, and it took all her willpower not to stare at his ropy, powerful forearms. His long, graceful hands. The bulge of his biceps, distending his T-shirt sleeve. “I heard about the fire,” he said simply. “I wanted to make sure you were OK.”

She swallowed back an unreasonable quivering in her thoat.

“This place…” She gestured around with her hand. “This used to be my brand new, fabulous, beautiful bookstore. Did you know that?”

“Yeah,” he said, his face somber. “I did know that.”

“Some reptilian asshole burned it down,” she said. “On purpose.”

He nodded. “That sucks. You’ve got no idea who—?”

“None.” She struggled with the quiver in her throat. “I assume it’s T-Rex, though. The weirdo who’s been sending me the e-mails.”

His eyes sharpened. “Who’s T-Rex? What e-mails?”

“I’ve been getting e-mails for the past few weeks,” she explained wearily. “I call him T-Rex, just to call him something. Declarations of love, comments on what I’m wearing. He’s been watching me. Up close.”

“You told the police about the e-mails?” he asked.

“Of course,” she said. “What could they do? There was nothing particularly threatening in them. Just, you know, slime.”

“Did he leave a note today?” he demanded.

She choked off the laughter before it could become hysterical. “Oh, yes. Today he told me how I would twist and burn in the fire of his passion, and then…how did he put it? That soon we would be as one. That our union would be explosive. All written in this sticky, psuedo-poetic prose that makes my flesh crawl.”

Sean made a sound in his throat, like a wild animal’s growl. It made her hairs prickle up. “That sick fuck needs to be disemboweled.”

She gaped at him, then forced her mouth to close. “Ah. Thank you, Sean, for putting that lovely image in my head.”

“Sorry,” he murmured. “You haven’t been in town very long?”

“A few months. Ever since I bought the Old Brewery. I just opened the store about six weeks ago.” Her voice quivered again. “It was going well. It was a great location. I had the college crowd, the writing workshops at the Arts Center, and they’ve been spiffing up the historic downtown for the tourists, too. It would have paid off. I’m sure of it.”

“So am I,” he said. “I’m sure it still will.”

He was just humoring her, but it was all rushing out, dignity be damned. “I always wanted to do this. Always, since I was a little girl.” Her voice was almost defiant. “Bookstores are my favorite places. They’re like wonderland. Endless goodies. A candy shop for the mind.”

“It’s good to know what you want to do,” he said. “You’re lucky.”

“Lucky?” A bitter laugh hurt her. She looked around herself. “Excuse me? You call this lucky?”

“You’ll get past this,” he said. “It would take more than a can of kerosene to keep you down, Liv. This is just a blip on your screen.”

She felt her spine straighten, her chin go up, her lungs fill. His words gave her a jolt of energy and pride. She didn’t dare examine the feeling too closely. She might kill it, and she needed all the help she could get. “I did a lot of renovating myself,” she hurried on. “I’ve studied woodworking. I can handle big power tools. You name it, I can use it.”

“Wow.” His eyes widened, impressed.

“Yeah, my folks about had kittens. And there was the café. Picking out fixtures, bar equipment. Ordering books. I was in hog heaven. I’m so deep in debt, it’s not even funny, but I didn’t care. I just didn’t give a shit.”

“Good for you,” he said gently.

“I painted the murals in the childrens’ corner myself, did you know that? Of course you don’t. What a silly question. Why would you?”

She was barely making sense, at this point, but Sean was taking it in stride, his face calm and attentive. She rubbed furiously at her eyes. “They turned out pretty well, if I do say so myself,” she said, voice wobbling. “Scenes from fairy tales. I’m no Leonardo Da Vinci, but those murals weren’t half bad. They really weren’t.”

“I’m sure they were beautiful. I’m sorry I never got to see them.”

Oh, God. His words were so exactly what she had needed to hear.

Her parents had seemed hardly surprised by the disaster. What did she expect, when she went against their well meant advice? They’d been tapping their feet, waiting for her to fail from the beginning.

One crumb of genuine sympathy, and she fell right to pieces.

She covered her face with one hand and fished with the other one in her pocket for tissues. All that was left were wet, soggy wads. Bleah.

She would stay like this forever. A cautionary tale for unwary entrepreneurs. Birds could come to roost on her. She didn’t care.

Sean’s warm hand came to rest tentatively on her shoulder. Awareness sparkled through her nerves at the gentle contact, and the sobbing eased down. Startled into hiding, no doubt. She peeked over her hand. “I don’t suppose you’ve got a tissue? I’m leaking.”

“I’m sorry.” His voice was full of regret. “I’m not the kind of guy who carries packs of tissue around.”

“Don’t worry about it,” she mumbled. She couldn’t use her too short, too tight shirt to blot her face without flashing her bare tits to Sean McCloud and the rest of the Endicott Falls business district, but hey, why not offer the gawkers a final act of public indecency to round off the day’s array of entertainments? It was just that kind of a day.

She blinked to bring her vision into focus, and sucked in a bubbly gasp of shock. Holy crap. Sean McCloud was pulling his shirt off. Right out here, in front of God and everyone. Talk about public indecency.

“What the hell do you think you’re doing?” she hissed.

He stopped partway through the act, the tight microfiber shirt jerked up high enough to show off his thick, broad, muscle-bound chest.

Oh, man. Amazing. The tight brown oblongs of his nipples adorned hard, cut pecs. His fuzz of bronze hair thickened into a treasure trail over his washboard belly, vanishing into jeans that hung low on lean hips. Hard muscles moved beneath the gold skin of his abdomen. A jagged scar gleamed silvery, on his side. She wrenched her gaze away.

“It’s clean,” he said earnestly. “Just out of the dryer. And I took a shower and smeared perfumed goop over myself,” he checked his watch, “just three hours ago. Use it for a handkerchief. Go ahead. Please.”

Oh, yeah. Like he didn’t know just how stunning his body was. Dazzling her to distract her from her sobfest. The humiliating thing was, it was working. “I’m not using your damn shirt for anything.”

“I spent all that time in an air-conditioned car, so I’ve barely sweated.” He whipped the shirt off, and presented it to her. “It’s not worthy of your Divine Highness’s royal snot, but it’s all I’ve got to offer.”

No. She would not laugh, and let him score points at her expense.

“Go on,” he urged. “Just honk right into it. Never let it be said that I’m not willing to sacrifice my shirt for a lady’s convenience.”

He stuck it in her hand. Her fingers closed around it, leaving a greasy black splotch. The shirt was soft and incredibly warm. A spicy, woodsy smell rose from it. Smothered giggles made her nose run even more copiously. “You’re making it worse!” She thrust the shirt against his chest. “Put this thing back on before you get me in trouble.”

He took his own sweet time pulling it back on. Sure enough, he had a black handprint on the front of the T-shirt, as if she’d grabbed his pec and given it a tight squeeze. He looked at it. His smile made her toes curl.

“You’d do anything to make me stop crying, right?” she accused.

“Nope. Tears don’t bother me,” he said. “It’s just that once I get a laugh, I have to follow up and try to get another one. I just can’t help myself. It’s, like, an obsessive-compulsive thing with me.”

“I don’t want to hear about your obsessions or compulsions, thank you. That’s way too much information for me.” She sniffed violently, mopped her face with her hand. “Sorry about your shirt.”

He petted the black mark tenderly with his hand. “I’m not,” he said. “I’m never washing this thing again. I think I’ll frame it.”

Her breath stopped. She stared over the edge of her hand. His eyes looked straight into her mind, sifting through thoughts, memories, fantasies. Drawing his own inscrutable conclusions. His lips curved, as if what he’d seen had given him license to take any liberties he liked.

“The thought of you using power tools is really arousing,” he said.

“I—I cannot believe you just said that to me,” she floundered.

“So put me in my place,” he said. “You’re Her Divine Highness, the Crown Princess of Endicott Falls. Who dares to mess with you?”

Who, indeed. She realized, after it was too late to stop, that she was licking her lips. “You never stay in any place that you’re put.”

He shrugged. “True enough. I can just see you, in my mind’s eye, looking sleek and powerful. Using a table saw. Dominating the hell out of it. Muscles flexing. Sweat dripping. Sawdust flying. Metal screaming.”

“Oh, you are so full of shit,” she said. “Just stop it, right now.”

“Scold me. Show me who’s boss.” His eyes glinted. “I go for that.”

She covered her face again. “You can stop jerking me around any time now,” she forced out, between helpless, hysterical giggles.

“Not yet. I drop to my knees and offer you a cold beer. You tilt the bottle back. A drop slides down, trembles on your collarbone, keeps on sliding. That’s when I fall on my face…and beg for mercy.”

She remembered that coaxing charm, that could get her to agree to anything he wanted. But in the end, he hadn’t wanted it. Or her.

She stepped back. She couldn’t slide into this honey-baited trap.

“So,” she said brightly. “How are your brothers these days?”

Sean’s eyes went blank as he switched gears from full-out seduction to bland pleasantries. His mouth twitched. “Uh, great,” he said. “Davy and Con are blissfully married. Con’s about to have a kid.”

“That’s fabulous. What about Kev? Is he blissfully married, too?”

His face hardened. A cold flash in his eyes sent a chill through her. “No,” he said. “You never heard about Kev?”

Her stomach dropped. “Heard? What should I have heard?”

Sean’s throat worked. “Kev’s dead. Ran his truck off a cliff.” He paused, eyes boring into hers. “You mean you never heard about that?”

She tried to speak several times before her vocal cords would respond. “No,” she whispered. “I left that same night. They put me on a plane for Boston. No one ever said anything to me about it.”

“Of course they didn’t,” he said. “Why would you ask?”

That hurt. It implied that she didn’t care, which was unfair.

But his eyes were haunted with old pain. How petty, to get huffy about semantics in the face of his loss. “I’m sorry. Kev was special.”

Sean silently inclined his head, accepting her words.

She gulped before asking the next question. “So, um, was it…”

“Suicide?” Sean jerked his chin. “So they say. Who knows?”

“And that stuff he told me? About the guys trying to kill him?”

Sean paused. “We never found any evidence that it was true.”

She took a moment to process that. “So it was…he was…”

“Yeah. Paranoid delusions. Persecution complex. Like our dad. That was the official conclusion, anyhow.”

The bitterness in his voice prompted her to ask. “And your own conclusion?”

“My own conclusion doesn’t count for shit. I keep it to myself.”

She could think of nothing to say. Or rather, she could think of many things, none of which were appropriate. Like grabbing him by the throat, yelling that he shouldn’t have gone through that without her.

Stupid bastard. Her throat tightened, like a fist.

“What the hell?” Blair was loping towards her, his face alarmed. “Liv! Are you OK? You look like you’ve been crying. Did he—”

“My eyes were watering,” she said hastily. “From the smoke.”

Blair handed her a handkerchief. When she came up for air, Sean and Blair were having a curiously hostile staring match.

“I’m surprised you have the nerve to show your face,” Blair said.

Sean’s eyebrows lifted. “I wanted to make sure Liv was OK.”

“Liv’s fine,” Blair said stiffly. “We’ve got her covered.”

“I’ll leave you in his capable hands, then,” Sean said to Liv. “Take it easy, princess.” He nodded politely at her, turned, and walked away.