“Promise me you will not kill yourself after I am dead,” he had said. I had been amazed. How had he known about the second vial I had mixed up, giving one to him and keeping one for myself? “Promise me this disease will only take one life.”
And because I had been unable to refuse him anything, I had promised, but I had only in the most rudimentary way kept my vow. You could not say I had really lived in the past eleven years.
Except for the last couple of days, when once again I had held life and death in my hands, and shuddered at the responsibility.
I picked up the white king and studied it a moment. A fair-haired man, or a good man, or an old man; the card meant all of these things. I had not looked for such a card in such a position at such a time in my life.
Outside, I heard the gate squeal on the unoiled hinges, and running footsteps crossed the gravel walk. I did not have much time to debate whether or not I would answer the door before it was flung open and Sam strode into the room. He had never before entered my house, for he had never been invited in, and I stared at him in astonishment.
He was laughing. Before I could move toward him or away, he was upon me. He grabbed me around the waist and lifted me in the air. I clutched at his shoulders to keep my balance, staring down at him in excitement and alarm.
“Samuel Berris!” I cried out. “What are you doing?”
He actually tossed me in the air once before setting me on my feet. Then he hugged me and finally let me go.
“The news from Kessing arrived this morning,” he said.
I made a big show of smoothing my hair down after the unexpected, rough treatment. “It did?” I said coldly.
“It was a miracle, they say. None of the halani can explain it. Sir
Havan of Kessing awoke this morning a whole man, with all his limbs answering the call of his will and his mind completely sharp. He is weak, of course, and they think it will be some time before he walks again under his own power, but he is well; he is healed. There has been a general rejoicing throughout Kessing.”
“I'm sure there has been,” I said. “Who brought the news to Salla City?”
“Some peddler. Not the Lady Leonora.”
“I wonder how she reacted to the news this morning,” I said.
Sam grinned. “She is a most dutiful and loving daughter-in-law,” he said. “I'm sure she fell to her knees in gratitude.”
“I doubt she will ever thank me personally,” I said.
Sam was watching me, some of his elation tempered now with speculation. “Lady Bella will, though,” he said. “Or the lord himself. You cannot expect this secret to be kept.”
“No,” I said. “I can't.”
“And will you be here when they come?” he asked. “And when the others come, with terrible stories of dying lords and sick children and beloved mothers wracked with pain? Will you be here when travelers come to Salla City, looking for you?”
I glanced around the rented cottage. Perhaps I could have done more with it, changed the curtains or stocked the larder. “I don't care much for this place,” I said. “That's why I spent so much time in your tavern.”
“I have a house that is too big for one,” he said. “And it's very close to the tavern.”
I looked at him. “I thought your heart was broken,” I said.
“I know a healer,” he replied.
“I will be traveling a lot,” I said. “None of these sick mothers and crying babies will be able to journey to Salla City.”
“I like to travel,” he said. “Groyce can mind the bar.”
“Then I suppose I will stay in Salla City,” I said.
“Good,” he said, “I'll help you pack.”
Not that there was much to transfer to the small, welcoming house
behind the tavern. Groyce and Sam carried the heavier items I elected to keep. Lina helped me organize my clothes. She smiled at me shyly, and for the first time in the five years that I had known her, I attempted to make conversation.
“I'm glad you're staying,” she told me when I asked her how she was. “I'm going to have a baby.”
It was not quite dark yet, and we had just moved the last of my things into Sam's house when one of the girls from the tavern ran over with more news. A delegation had been spotted on the road, led by a virtual army of blue-and-gold-clad guards.
“So soon?” I murmured, wiping dust from my face.
“They're late,” Sam said. “They should have been here by noon.”
“Who are they?” Groyce asked. “Friends of the noblewoman who was here?”
“Friends of Aesara's,” Sam said. He took my hand, and we went outside together to greet the travelers.
BY SEAN WILLIAMS AND SHANE DIX
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Adelaide author and occasional DJ, Sean Williams has published nineteen novels and more than sixty short stories. Multiple winner of Australia's speculative fiction awards, recipient of the “SA Great” Literature Award, and
New York Times
bestseller, he has also written a sci-fi musical and the odd piece of bad haiku. You can find out more about Williams and his writing at his excellent Web site:
www.seanwilliams.com
. In collaboration with author Shane Dix, he has produced the Evergence and Orphans trilogies and cowritten three books in the
Star Wars: New Jedi Order
series.
“Night of the Dolls” is set in their Geodesica world. Forthcoming in 2006,
Geodesica: Descent
is the concluding volume of a diptych begun with
Geodesica: Ascent
in 2005. As much about grief as the alien artifact after which it's named, the series explores the ramifications of a single, localized catastrophe on the million-year future history of humanity, as witnessed by Isaac Forge Deangelis during his long, post-human life. “While it's doubtful he would seem very human to someone from the twenty-first century,” said Williams, “he would recognize us perfectly well and, I honestly believe, approve without reservation of the outpouring of generosity following the December 26 Indian Ocean earthquake.”
Williams and Dix both live in Adelaide, South Australia.
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August 15, 2381, on a sumptuous
Southern Hemisphere spring evening in a region that had once been the birthplace of humanity, Isaac Forge Deangelisâbarely seven years alive and still finding his feet in the mind-rich environment of Sol Systemâaccepted the invitation to attend the Annual Graduate's Ball. He did so on the advice of the Archon, whose encouragement that it would be an educational experience had been enough to convince him. Deangelis knew before stepping through the front door that it would be a challenge, and used the decadently quaint cover of “fashionably late” to dawdle along the way. It fit the theme of the evening, anyway.
The magnificent glass ballroom, constructed in the middle of nowhere on the boundary of old Richtersveld National Park, stood out
against a backdrop of jagged mountains that bore the scars of their volcanic origins. The sun had already set, but the sky still glowed a deep, diamond-sparkled purple, fading to black in the east. A stand of immature quiver trees made him think of alien soldiers from a B-grade, twentieth-century movie as he walked up the long, sweeping drive, feeling like a complete fool in his black tuxedo with a silk tie choking his Adam's apple. The rest of him, scattered across the system, watched with a mixture of fascination and amusement at the anachronistic getup. No matter how hard he tried to distract himself, his attention kept returning to Earth.
His feet crunched on gravel with a raw, startling sound. A butler met him at the top of the marble stairs and offered to take his coat. The sound of voices grew louder as he trod thick red carpet through an arched doorway and entered the ballroom.
It was an odd experience, being in the company of so many people at once. Like the other guests, he freely roamed the Earth in both corporeal and virtual forms, interacting and communicating with his peers and himself via all manner of media, not needing to be face-to-face for any conceivable reason. The presence of his body on that particular evening, he had assumed, was a mere formality, no more or less anachronistic than the suit he had been asked to wear. Both could have been assembled at will in a moment, as could have a belly dancer's outfit and a body to match. That he hadn't yet decided what his physique would be when he finished his training wasn't an issue he spent much time considering; while he waited, he wore a physical form of indeterminate age, with blond hair and broad shoulders generated by the genes the Archon had bestowed upon him. It fitted.
The ballroom was expansive and gleaming and full of music. That was his first impression. His second was of the crowd, all beautiful and familiar and garbed in clothes no less outlandish than his own. Out of a thousand, two dozen pairs of eyes looked up when he crossed the thresholdârecognizing him, he assumed, just as he recognized them in turn. He went to wave.
Their true reason for looking at him became apparent when his body lost all connection to the rest of
him
, scattered across the system, and collapsed down to a mere individual. He stumbled, as disoriented as if he had lost his sense of sight or balance. His perception of the world, and of himself, suddenly crashed to
just him
in
just one room.
Mentally reeling, he struggled to work out what could possibly have gone wrong. Since his awakening in many bodies scattered all across Sol System and experiencing the wondrous union that had risen out of his disparate thoughts, he had never been alone. The experience was jarringly dysfunctional, even frightening.
“Fear not, old boy,” said a familiar voice. A hand clapped down on his shoulder. Lazarus Hails was all grin and gloat as he came round to confront his fellow student. He too hadn't fixed his final form, but his nose bore a patriarchal prominence that would remain later. “All part of the experience. You'll find our bodies don't quite work the same way anymore, just like our minds.”
Deangelis watched Hails with some puzzlement. His balance centers seemed dangerously out of whack, and his speech patterns were different. He had clearly suffered the same mental impairment Deangelis had on entering the ballroom. Were they under attack? Could their brain damage possibly be
permanent
?
A laugh as sharp as a cut diamond drew Hails's attention away from Deangelis. Lan Cochrane, dressed in a lime green flapper's outfit, was puffing on a cigarâthe genuine, burning articleâand blowing rings of smoke at Frederica Cazneaux. Dark-skinned and wonderful in a black suit of her own, Cazneaux batted the smoke away and turned down a chance to try a drag for herself, despite her friend's insistence. Cazneaux held a cocktail glass containing an electric blue liquid balanced between two fingers; she raised a perfectly shaped eyebrow at Hails as he took Cochrane's cigar and blew a messy cloud between them. Deangelis looked around in disoriented wonder. Across the shimmering expanse of the ballroom, the vast majority of the Exarchate's future leaders were engaged in similar physical debaucheries:
dancing, drinking, snacking, smoking, and singing as though 350 years had rolled back and plunged them all into some upper class Light Ages.
“I think it's an experiment,” said Jane Elderton, appearing at Deangelis's side with a thin, white-papered cigarette in a long filter pinned between gloved thumb and forefinger. She smelled of perfume and smoke. “A test, perhaps.”
“Not a graduation party?”
“We're beyond that,” she said, pale lips pursing in faint amusement. Her skin was porcelain-pale and her gaze a startling blue. Blond hairâlonger than he'd ever seen on her beforeâcurled exquisitely tight around her skull and ears. The color of her silk dress matched her eyes. Deangelis took in her silver necklace, her cleavage, the delicate bracelet on her left wrist, and her thin-strapped shoes with one sweep.
“We don't need rites of passage,” she went on, taking a sip of smoke and inhaling it as though she had done so every day of her life. Wisps emerged from her mouth and nostrils as she spoke. “Growing up is something anyone can do. Even animals, and we don't throw them parties.”
“Bonding, then, before we all go our separate ways?”
“Wrong again, Ike. Why join something destined to be shattered? We're designed to be loners. It goes with the territory.”
He looked around. Something thrilled in the air. He could guess what from the way his flesh responded to it. His heart rate was rapid, along with his respiration. His pupils dilated and his skin tingled. He felt his body in a new way, or a very old wayâprimal and not entirely unpleasant.
“You need a drink,” Jane said. “Is there something you've always wanted to try? Gin and tonic? Sea breeze? Gimlet?”
“Gimlet. How do Iâ?”
A waiterâartfully humaniform like the butler outside but obviously no more than thatâappeared beside him holding a silver tray. His drink rested on it, gleaming with condensation. Deangelis took the glass and sipped carefully. Volatile alcohol made his tongue and throat sing. He
laughed at the play of chemicals on and in his suddenly unpredictable body. It was like reading an old novel in its original language, or listening to the first take of a famous jazz recording: full of unexpected nuances and subtleties that he had never anticipated. In the raw flesh, with nothing to distance himself from the play of molecules in his bloodstream, he was suddenly, vividly, nothing but a man. A gendered man in a room full of people, as men had been for tens of thousands of years before him.
He drank and danced and laughed with the rest of them, awash with hormones and pheromones and as utterly delighted as a child with a new toy.
Dinner came, an extended six-course feast with dishes from all over the old world. Some of the partygoers forwent the meal, preferring to keep dancing, but Deangelis took the opportunity to experience another lost art. He had been born with a complete range of culinary skills and knowledge, none of which he had ever expected to use; until now, it had been just one miniscule part of the enormous pool of human knowledge he had inherited. Dining came as naturally as play, and he wallowed in the succulence of meat, the richness of gravy, the texture of vegetables, the indulgence of pavlova. Crayfish, pigeon, artichoke, plum; caviar, sturgeon, puy lentils, bread.
The Archon had been absolutely right; the evening was an education he hadn't known he needed. He raised his glass to their absent creator, wondering what it made of the evening's activities from its lofty perspective.
An intoxicating rainbow of after-dinner drinks followed. Port. Sherry. Coffee. Brandy. His grip on proceedings began to slip. He knew he wasn't thinking properly, but that didn't stop him from attributing far too much weight to the thoughts he did have. There was no baseline profundity against which he could measure his drunken revelations. They seemed groundbreaking. Every emotion felt new and powerful. And why couldn't they be? He was content for the moment to be tugged along by alcohol's smooth, seductive currents.
The party spilled out into the night, onto a green glassy lawn he would have sworn hadn't been there before. The interference that separated them from the rest of their minds followed them, maintaining the illusion that they and they alone were the full extent of their beings. Among prickly green hedges and mazes they ran like fools, shouting and stumbling and willfully ignorant.
He gravitated naturally to those whose systems his would neighbor and basked in the broader ambience of merriment. Lazarus Hails's jokes and wickedly timed outrages had kept them all amused through dinner. In another age, he might have been a Byron or a Nicholson, genetically tailored for carousing. Deangelis was content to go with the flow, sipping Merlot or Shiraz on the fringes of the group, only interacting when Giorsal McGrath or Jane Elderton or one of the others drew him in.
He caught Frederica Cazneaux and Lan Cochrane whispering about him behind their hands. They actually blushed. “You're beautiful, darling,” Cochrane said when he pressed her for an explanation. “Don't you know it? You really scored when the genetic dice tumbled. I wonder where your stock comes from.”
Lan was a Vietnamese name meaning “orchid.” She looked more Malaysian, Deangelis thought, full and high-cheeked, with hair subtly framing her face. Her brown eyes were wide and laughing. He felt the butt of a joke, and blushed in turn.
He became aware of other people looking at him. Some did more than look. In the torch-lit wonderland of the gardens, with shapes rushing by and laughter everywhere, hands touched him; lips pressed against his ear, whispering jokes or flirtations. Warm fingers laced with his and soft hair brushed his cheek. Dizzying stimuli prompted yet more novel sensations.
“Come with me,” Frederica Cazneaux breathed in his ear, tugging him down a dead-end in a hedge maze. His free hand held a bottle of champagne he didn't remember picking up.
She pulled him to her in the darkness and kissed him. The smell and taste of her occupied his mind more completely than any training exercise.
Her lips were full and warm. The touch of her moist tongue against his made his skin shimmer from head to toe. The feel of her body was unimaginable.
Where that kiss might have gone, he would never know. With a rustle and crack of vegetation, Lazarus Hails's head burst through the hedge.
“Enough of that, you two,” he said. “Dalman's climbed onto the roof and says he's found a stash of dope!”
They pulled apart. Intrigued by the possibility of yet more sensory destabilization, Deangelis said that he would come. Satisfied, Hails's head retreated through the gap in the hedge. He followed Hails out of the maze and across the lawn, where a conga line had formed. Cazneaux trailed him at first, then fell behind to join the dance.
The sound of raised voices didn't alarm him, nor did the sight of someone vomiting into a flower bed. He was fully aware of the effects of alcohol poisoning, and had no doubt that he, too, would experience them at some point that night, especially in combination with other drugs. That concern seemed distant and unimportant. His entire being was focused like a poorly tuned laser on the now, with no thought for what had come before and what might follow. His body seemed to move of its own accord. He was little more than a passenger.