Even Vampires Get the Blues (22 page)

The enormity of what I'd done sank in at that moment. “I'm not . . . I'm not immortal anymore.”

“
What?
” The word shot out of his mouth in a manner that might be said to be yelling. I matched the sudden frown that appeared between his eyebrows.

“I'm not immortal anymore. I used that to barter with the seer.”

He stared at me in disbelief for a moment. “You saw a seer after I explicitly told you not to?”

“No, I saw the seer after you unreasonably ordered me not to. The difference should be apparent, even to you.”

“Unreasonably? Is it unreasonable for a man to expect his Beloved to listen to him once in a while?”

I pushed back so I could really glare at him. “You de-Beloveded me! You told me you didn't want me anymore—oh, not in so many words, but you know what I mean.”

“You used your immortality—the one thing I could give you—in exchange for information?” he asked, disbelief warring with pain in his eyes.

I rubbed my thumb along his jaw, sharing the anguish he felt. “You said we had no future together. I thought there was no reason for me to live forever if the man I loved didn't want me to share eternity with him.”

“Oh, Sam—” Regret filled him, spilling over onto me. “I never meant for you to be hurt. I just . . . I didn't . . .”

“I know,” I said, kissing his nose. “You just were a little commitment-shy. What changed that? It happened so fast—one minute you were yelling, the next everything went flying and we were using my breasts to polish the desk.”

He groaned. “You're going to force me into a detailed discussion of my emotional state, aren't you?”

“Yup. It's every woman's right as soon as she knows she's snagged a man. The sooner you start, the easier it'll get. Now spill.”

“I stopped pretending you weren't important,” he said, trying to look pathetic. I kissed him just because he was so cute. “When you ran off earlier, there was a moment when you passed through me. I felt just how much I'd hurt you—and how much you loved me. No one but my family has loved me, Sam. I thought I didn't need it. I realized then that I was wrong.”

“It takes a big man to admit he's wrong,” I teased, squirming against his penis. My tone was light, but I let him feel how much joy his words brought to me.

His hands tightened on my hips. “Stop distracting me or I won't tell you the last bit.”

I stopped and looked contrite.

“I told myself the entire time you were gone that I was just waiting around for you to return so I could fire you, and go back to my life. But then you walked in looking so warm, and beautiful, and sexy—and all I could think about was how right it was that you were here with me.”

Tears formed in my eyes. “Oh, Paen, that's just about the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. That's so sweet, and I'm so glad you got your head out of your ass and realized that I'm the best thing that'll ever happen to you.”

He laughed and kissed me. “I know I can trust you to keep me humble.”

“Of course, it's my job. Only . . .” I bit my lower lip until he gently freed it with a few soft strokes of his thumb. “Now I'm back to living a mortal life. I didn't mind that before, but if you're going to live for hundreds of years, I think I'd like to live them with you. Is there any way to get my immortality back?”

His arm tightened around my waist, pulling me closer. The regret that simmered in him rose up again until it made me want to weep. “No reasonable way, I'm afraid.”

“Stop blaming yourself for this,” I said, leaning back against his arm so I could see him without my eyes crossing. “You are not responsible for my actions.”

“If I hadn't said I didn't want you as a Beloved—”

I put my finger on his lips. “Paen, it was my decision. I had the choice, and I took it. You are not to blame.”

“I am as much to blame as you are,” he said, his eyes going stubborn.

“Fine, we can share the blame, but that's not going to do either of us any good,” I pointed out. His chest rose and fell beneath me in a slower rhythm as we both recovered from the lovemaking. “You said there's no reasonable way for me to get back my immortality—what unreasonable ways are there?”

“Any number, varying from becoming a demon lord—which I don't advise—to buying it back, which isn't likely since seers never part with those items they collect.”

“Oh,” I said, my hopes plummeting. The thought of growing old while Paen remained young and vital made my heart ache. “There's no other way?”

He hesitated. It was an almost infinitesimal hesitation, but his mind purposely went blank for a moment. “No.”

I put a finger on his chin and turned his head so he was looking at me. His eyes were clouded and wary. “What?”

“
What
what?”

“Paen.” I frowned at him. “I felt you deliberately not think something at me.”

One eyebrow rose. “That is the most ridiculous thing I've heard yet.”

“You know what I mean, so stop evading it, and just spit it out. What is the other way that you don't want to tell me about?”

He sighed. He sighed so deeply, it came from the very depths of his soul. “Anyone who is turned by a Dark One is made immortal.”

“Turned?” I thought for a moment. “Oh, you mean made a vampire? You can do that? I thought it was just a myth or something.”

He looked away. “Dark Ones can turn mortals. It doesn't happen very often since there is no real reason to do so, but it is within the realm of improbable possibility.”

“But females aren't Dark Ones, so what do they turn into?”

“Moravians.”

I thought about that for a minute. “Finn said a Beloved was more or less a female Moravian. So if turning would put me back there, then I say let's do it.”

“No.” He gently pushed me off his lap and started gathering up his clothes. Since I didn't want to be caught standing around naked and sweaty, I did the same.

“Why?” I asked, fingering my shredded underwear and wondering if I could staple it back together. “It sounds like the ideal solution to me. I'd be immortal again, and you said the females don't have to drink blood.”

“You're not doing it and that's the end of the discussion.” Paen turned his back to me as he pulled on his shirt.

I ground my teeth and pulled my jeans on without underwear (something I disliked, but I didn't have much of a choice). “You're being high-handed again. I really don't appreciate that.”

“What did you find out about my statue?”

“And now you're changing the subject.”

“What did you find out about my statue?”

I finished dressing, thinking several loud thoughts that he summarily ignored. “Fine, I'll talk about the statue, but don't think I'll forget about this. I'm thirty-three now—I want to be immortal while I still look halfway decent. Pilar had the statue last. I'm sure he's hidden it somewhere nearby.”

“Pilar?” A frown wrinkled Paen's forehead. “Where is he?”

I pulled my sweater on and reached for my shoes. “Somewhere in the area, according to Kelsey the seer. Edinburgh, most likely.”

“I thought you said he had your statue. He has both?”

Paen turned around, dressed, and watched as I slipped on my loafers. I gave him a brief recap of my conversation with the seer, ending with the question of why Pilar would want both statues.

“Unless,” I said, stopping as I tried to fit together two pieces of the puzzle that didn't want to mesh.

“Unless the two statues are the same?” Paen asked, clearly thinking the same thing I was.

“Yeah, but how can that be? One is of a bird. We all saw it—it was definitely a falcon of some sort. Your
statue is of a monkey. They don't look even remotely alike.”

“You saw the statue as entombed, confined in a dark place,” he said slowly.

I nodded.

“And the seer told you the statue was hidden from sight, protected while it slept.”

“Yes. But the statue I had wasn't hidden from sight, and it wasn't protected, unless you call a shoebox protection, and I don't.”

“What if the Jilin God was held within the falcon statue?” he asked, his brow still wrinkled with puzzlement.

“Of course,” I said, enlightenment finally dawning. “It's inside the bird! That's why I saw the bird statue when I tried to scry the location of the Jilin God. Now it makes sense why Pilar would do anything to get it—he must have known the Jilin statue was inside the bird, and wanted it for his own purposes.”

Paen pulled on his long black coat. “Let's go get it back.”

“What, right now?” I glanced at the clock. The trip back from the seer had taken me twice as long to return by bus as the trip out. It was now less than an hour to deep night. “I don't know exactly where he is. It may take us a while to track him down.”

“The sooner we get started, the sooner we can retrieve that statue,” Paen said, holding the door open. “You don't need to come if you are too tired.”

“No, I'm fine,” I said, getting my jacket and purse. “You're right. The sooner we have it, the sooner your father's debt can be paid, and the easier I'll rest. Let's go kick some whatever-Pilar-is booty!”

“You are a strange woman,” Paen said as we hurried down the stairs.

“Why, because I'm proactive and independent? Because I take pride in my work ethic? Because I'll move heaven and hell to see a job done?”

“I was referring to the fact that you are willing to face a potentially lethal opponent armed with nothing more than a purse and a PDA.”

I smiled at Paen as he held open the door at the bottom of the stairs, brushing my fingers across his jaw as I passed. “I have a secret weapon.”

His eyebrows rose in silent question.

“I have you,” I said, smiling, full of confidence. Things were looking so rosy for us—we'd worked out the worst of the relationship kinks, Paen's statue was within our grasp, and I was sure I would be able to talk him into making me a Moravian to regain immortality. I still had a longer than normal life span, but that wasn't going to cut it when there was Paen to spend an eternity with. “All in all, things are coming together nicely. Nothing can stop us once we put our heads together on it.”

I really wish someone would stop me from making those sorts of generalizations. They're almost always wrong.

We found Pilar the second hour of deep night. We'd spent the last two hours trolling through the city, following mostly my instincts on where Pilar was, but whenever we'd arrive at a location (nightclub, store, two cemeteries, an all-night McDonald's, and Edinburgh Castle), we'd find he'd been there and left. Finally we lucked out and found Pilar at one of the oddities in Edinburgh—the Real Mary
King's Close, an underground historical site made up of a warren of several seventeenth-century closes (narrow lanes used as shortcuts that were “closed” in by surrounding multistoried buildings). It was reported to be one of the most haunted spots in Edinburgh, so several ghost-hunting groups and parapsychology devotees booked time in it at night. We slipped in at the tail end of a ghost-hunting group and made it inside without anyone the wiser, following as the group walked down several levels until we were deep beneath the modern streets. Narrow white stone walls and uneven dirt floors made every whisper echo, so we were careful to be as silent as possible.

“Are you sure he's here?” Paen asked me in a whisper as the group gathered around their excited leader in front of the remains of a store.

We clung to the shadows cast by reproduction seventeenth-century lighting to avoid being noticed. I rubbed my arms, understanding why people thought this area was haunted. The buildings in the close had been built over for a couple hundred years, but this part had been excavated and restored to what were pretty realistic historic conditions. It was dark, damp, cold, and smelly.

I shivered as cold fingers of air touched my neck, then closed my eyes and concentrated for a moment. “I think so. It feels like he's here. I think he's”—I turned, my eyes still closed, trusting my elf instincts to guide me—“that way.”

We waited for the ghost chasers to hurry off for their ghostly hot spots before turning in the opposite direction.

“Which one?” Paen asked as we came to a narrow alley with three entrances. I ignored the door marked
MR
.
CHESNEY
'
S DWELLING
and entered the sawmaker's workshop next to it. The room was empty of everything but a few shelves and hooks on the walls, but a partially opened wooden door led to a room beyond. I pointed and started toward it, but Paen pulled me behind him, giving me a look that warned me not to challenge him.

I stuck my tongue out at the back of his head and followed closely on his heels.