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Fear Me
© 2011 by Tim Curran

Cover Artwork © 2011 by Daniele Serra

All Rights Reserved.

This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are either a product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

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1

Soon as Romero saw the new meat, he knew there was going to be trouble. He felt it down in his guts, something cold and inexplicable that just started chewing through him. You were sitting on ten years hard time and wouldn’t see parole for another three, you got real good at spotting trouble. Knowing how it smelled, how it walked, and how it talked.

The sergeant hack, Jorgensen, brought the new meat in, said, “Here you go, Romero, we got you a new cellmate. He’s young and pure, don’t go dirtying him up.” Jorgensen thought that was funny, took the kid by the arm and pushed him at Romero. “He’s all yours now, don’t break him.”

 

Then Jorgensen stepped out and the cell door slid closed. He went on his merry way, twirling his stick, laughing with the other hacks, looking for cons to hassle and heads to crack.

Romero just stood there, giving the new meat the look. You did enough time, you got real good at “the look.” This was Romero’s second stretch. He’d already done five years at Brickhaven for grand theft and an illegal weapons charge when he was twenty. Now he was forty, doing a dime for aggravated assault and battery of a police officer, staring down the long tunnel at the light flickering at the end. Romero wanted to feel that light on him real bad, on his face and hands, making things glow inside him where there had only been darkness for too long.

What he didn’t need was this skinny little boy fucking things up for him.

“You got a name, Cherry?” Romero put to him, crossing his muscular forearms over his chest, letting the kid see the jailhouse tats on them. Letting him know right off that he was a ballbuster, a hardtimer that would bite out your eyes and fuck your skull if you got in his way.

“Danny, Danny Palmquist,” the kid said.

Romero shook his head. Candy-ass name like that.
Palmquist.
Damn, the cons were going to eat that up with their bare hands. “Good, Danny, I’ll call you Cherry. You got a problem with that,
Cherry?”

Little shit didn’t have anything to say to that. Just stood there in the corner, that lost puppy hang-dog look on his face. But then, Romero knew, that’s what guys like Danny Palmquist were: hang-dog puppies.

Jesus, look at the kid.

Not more than 5’6, 5’7, maybe 140 pounds, more meat on a taco than this one. The cons were probably already arm-wrestling to see who got to pop his puppy ass first. Sickening. Just a skinny little nothing. Size didn’t always matter—some of the meanest pricks behind those walls were little guys with shivs and acid attitudes—but you could see that Danny Palmquist was a zero. He wouldn’t be able to defend himself, which made him prey. Within 48 hours, he was going to be somebody’s punk old lady.

Romero was hard.

Before he took this fall, he’d worked the streets, pushed coke and junk, stole cars, busted skulls, even had himself a few bodies out there. A life like that made a guy ready for the joint. Made him lean, mean, ready to bust if you looked at him the wrong way. But this kid? No, he didn’t have any streets on him. He was small town, junior glee-club material. Probably pissed himself when the local bully gave him a shove. There was just nowhere for a guy like that in a maximum security joint. Blacks would sniff out ve d sniffhis sugar-ass. If they didn’t, spics would take him. Shit, cons his own color—bikers and Aryan Brothers—they’d be all over him, be selling his ass first thing you knew.

He needed somebody to watch over him, protect him.

But he wasn’t tough enough for the ABs, Skinheads, or redneck whiteboy traffickers. No gang would touch a cherry like that. And Romero? He had his own problems.

He sat on his bunk, lit a cigarette. “You’re on top, Cherry.”

But the kid didn’t move. “What you in for?” he asked.

Stupid little peckerwood.
What you in for?
Kid saw too many prison movies, James Cagney and shit. “Like I said,” Romero told him. “You’re on top.”

“I guess you don’t like to talk much.”

Romero gave him the look. “Shut your pisshole, Cherry. You don’t, I’ll shove something in there, shut it for you. You know what I’m saying to you?”

The kid did.

2

The second day.

The kid was still a virgin and still hadn’t been extorted, but it wouldn’t last. Out in the yard, all the cons were watching him, smelling that new meat, wondering whose punk he was going to be.

Wasn’t going to be long, Romero knew.

First, they’d take his food in the mess hall, then they’d throw him a beating out in the yard, maybe try to rape him in the laundry or showers. That’s how it would begin. Pressure would build. Cons would get randy like starving dogs circling a fresh, juicy bone. Decide who was going to get the first bite. Then some ballbuster would come along, tell Palmquist that he’d protect him for money. Didn’t matter where he got it—mother, father, sister, brother, priest—long as he got it. And if he couldn’t get it? Then he’d be a punk for some hardtimer, sucking the guy’s dick and bending over for him. Because that’s how it worked inside: You weren’t part of a gang or tough enough to do your own fighting, somebody had to do it for you.

And it never came free.

Not at Shaddock Valley.

It was a real hard-time sort of hole. You locked up thousands of guys like animals for months and years, pretty soon even the good ones lost their humanity and showed their teeth. It was a grim, gray concrete world where you buried hope with the biggest shovel you could find and yourself with it. Violent guards, bad food, cramped conditions, loneliness, frustration. Hot in the summer, like an icebox in the winter. Bugs. Rats. Throw into the mix dehumanizing treatment and the constant invasion of privacy, the degradation of strip searches and cavity searches…it took away what was left. Then all you had were predators and prey. Guys with tattoos and dead eyes wandering the yard, sniffing around the block, looking for the stragglers, the weak ones, anything they could bring down, sink their teeth into that wouldn’t bite back.

The inmates at Shaddock robbed each other, fought each other, pushed drugs and booze, smuggled porno and contraband, sometimes even women. They killed for money and sometimes for free. They made weapons and stabbed each other, beat each other, raped each other, murdered each other, snitched on each other. Most of them had absolutely nothing to lose. Shaddock was a bubbling, seething cauldron flavored by the very worst society had to offer—bullies and rapists, serial killers and racists, Jesus freaks and gangsters, psychopaths and fanatics—only in there it was compressed, localized, compacted behind barbwire and high stone walls. Refined, if you will, into a toxic brew that stank like shit and body odor, vomit and pain and blackness and you could smell it the moment they processed you through.

End of the line.

And in such a place, a guy like Danny Palmquist didn’t stand a chance.

3

“You don’t say much, do you?”

Romero was laying on his bunk before lights out, trying to read a book about some guy surviving in Antarctica. He liked books like that because he understood survival real well. “Why don’t you shut the fuck up, Cherry?”

The kid sighed, sitting at the little desk against the cement block wall, staring at those bars. “Just saying, shit, we’re locked up together, might as well pass the time.”

“Listen, Cherry. I ain’t trying to get in your asshole or slit your throat…why don’t you be happy with that?”

“I’m just saying we could talk.”

Romero didn’t want that, didn’t want nothing to do with the little bastard. You talked to a guy, then you started feeling like he was your friend. And when that happened, y he/ou felt like you had to take care of him.

And I don’t need that, he thought, I really don’t.

Thing was, Romero wasn’t sure that this is what was bothering him about the kid. That he’d have to fight his battles for him. There was something else, something about the kid he just didn’t like only he wasn’t sure what it was.

“Okay, Cherry, give it to me then. Tell me your sad fucking story. What did you do? Rape somebody’s poodle? Go after a couple kids? Tell me the kind of pathetic shit that landed you here.”

“Manslaughter.”

Romero almost laughed.
Man-slaughter?
“You? What’d you do? Run down some old lady in your mommy’s car?”

Palmquist wasn’t biting. “No…there was a girl. We were sort of going out, you know? Nothing major. Just some dates and things. She got killed, murdered, and they blamed me for it because I was the last one with her.” The kid studied his hands, maybe wondering if they were capable of doing what the courts charged him with. “So…I don’t know, I copped a plea. Took five years for manslaughter, otherwise the DA wanted to prosecute me for capital murder.”

Romero did laugh now. “Why the fuck you do that, Cherry? DA was just dancing, you stupid shit, bobbing and weaving. They try you for murder one, they got to prove it.”

“My lawyer said that, too, but I went for it.”

“You should’ve listened to him, Cherry. You’d be out there now.”

But Palmquist just shook his head. “No, you don’t understand. I didn’t kill that girl, my brother did. And, well, I didn’t want any of that coming out.”

Romero chuckled, lit a cigarette. “That’s some kind of brother you got there, letting you do time for him.”

“My brother…Damon…he’s not like us, he’s different. I didn’t want it coming out about the way he was, the things he does.”

Romero just watched Danny Palmquist, Cherry sonofabitch. Way he talked, you would have thought this brother of his swung from trees, had two heads, and a stainless steel dick. It was all pretty funny in a seriously fucked up sort of way. When the kid talked about his brother, he got a real skittish look in his eyes like maybe he was afraid of him. Maybe that’s what this was all about.

Romero saidlan>Romero, “You better screw your head on straight, Cherry. And you better do it soon. Get hold of your lawyer, tell him the truth. It’s what you gotta do.”

“I can’t do that.”

“Then you’re gonna suffer, Cherry. You’re gonna suffer real bad.”

The kid looked at him now, a dusting of menace in his eyes. “I ain’t a cherry, Romero. This is the second joint I’ve been in. I know how things work.”

“Yeah? Where were you before?”

“Brickhaven, upstate.”

“Brickhaven?”

“Sure. You been there?”

Romero told him he had, years before.

Brickhaven.
Is that what the kid said? Brickhaven was definitely no kiddie joint. He couldn’t imagine this fish surviving in a place like that. Maybe he got lucky, but he wouldn’t get lucky at Shaddock Valley. Shaddock got all the troublemakers who couldn’t make it in the other state joints. But it all gave Romero pause…something had happened at Brickhaven a few months before, something real ugly, and he was starting to wonder now how the kid might have factored into that business.

“Brickhaven ain’t Shaddock, Cherry. Guys in here’ll do bad things to you.”

“Worse than they did to me at Brickhaven?”

“Yes.”

But Palmquist just shook his head. “They better not. Not if they know what’s good for ‘em…my brother finds out, it’ll be trouble.”

“In
here?
You stupid little shit! Listen to yourself. Your brother can’t help you in here. Don’t you see that? Maybe he’s some kind of crazy-assed freak out in the world, but in here you’re on your own.”

Palmquist’s eyes went about three shades darker, looked like bubbling sap. “You better watch it, Romero. You don’t want to piss him off.”

Romero tossed his cigarette and got to his feet. “Fuck you say, asshole? Fuck you think you’re talking to, motherfucker?” Romero was standing over him now, ready to bust him, slap that cherry face right off the bone beneath. “Let’s tell it the way it en- the wais, Cherry. How about we do that? Maybe you survived Brickhaven, maybe you got lucky, but you won’t get lucky in here. You’re nothing but meat and everyone wants a bite, tasty thing like you. These animals will stab you, beat you, burn you, rape you. And who’s gonna stop ‘em? This fuck-up dog-humping brother of yours? Don’t make me fucking laugh. This is the end of the world, you dumb cocksucker.”

Palmquist looked like he was ready to cry.

And Romero wanted him to. It was the best thing that could happen to him, drain all that human weakness right out of him, squeeze the little prick dry and the sooner the better. “I’m gonna let you in on a little secret, Cherry. You don’t stand a chance. You might as well pick your daddy now before he picks you.”

“Hell, I will.”

Romero wanted to put his hands on him, give him some pain to think about…but it was there again, that feeling in his guts, that sense that this kid was trouble, three kinds of hell. It stayed Romero’s hands…the idea of touching the kid somehow
loathsome
, like handling a big spider or a rat full of worms. A deep-set almost physical revulsion.

And feeling that the kid had that kind of power over him when he had no damn right to, it just pissed Romero off. “You goddamn punk! Right now, I decide to beat you or rape your ass, you can’t stop me. I’ll take what I want and ain’t nothing you can do about it, is there? I’ll beat you and fuck you and tomorrow or next week, I’ll be selling your sweet ass for cigarettes and soap. You like that?
You like that idea?
Why don’t you gimme a fucking reason, Cherry, gimme a reason to pull my razor and cut you to shreds and fuck what’s left. Go ahead, you fucking little snot,
gimme a reason…”

But Palmquist didn’t.

He just stared at those bars like he was wondering what was beyond them.

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