Feral (2 page)

He smiled and held her as her eyes slipped shut.
 
“You weren't dreaming.”

He picked her up.
 
She lay limp as a rag doll in his arms, and he had held her like that for a long time before leaving.
 
Instead of devouring her, as he had come to do, he took her with him.

Looking into her eyes that night, he found something unexpected.
 
Something he had never seen before, or thought he would ever see, in any of these sheep-like creatures.
 
He saw something in her that would always separate her from the rest of the flock.
 
Something strong.
 
Something wild.

Something that would set him free.

G
et ready
, said a voice from the shadows of the park.

She's coming
.

C
harity chanted as she ran, an endless mantra that governed the beat of her sneakers against the blacktop, concrete, and bare earth.
 
The words kept her running through the night although she was too tired to run, kept her focused ahead when every shadow, tree limb, or mirage that she viewed sidelong transformed itself into
him
.
 
When she was too scared to do anything but curl up in a ball somewhere and wait for him to find her, wait for her punishment, the mantra kept her moving.

 
Run, run as fast as you can
,

Running away from the Bogey Man
.

Through the light and through the dark
,

Running home to Feral Park.

Charity was nine years old now, and this was the third time she had run.
 
He was neither patient nor forgiving; if he caught her again it would be over.
 
She knew he wouldn't kill her, couldn't kill her no matter how mad he got, but he could be very mean.

She ran, keeping to the unlit streets and alleys as much as possible so no one would see her.
 
This time she knew where she was going, and she thought if she made it, she would finally be safe.

She'd dreamed about it, the playground by the river, except it wasn't really a playground anymore.
 
It had gone wild, the grass in the park around it, uncut for many years, supported large clusters of wild sage and thistles.
 
The iron bars and rails that surrounded it were a blood-red color from years of rust.
 
The swing's chains, the slides, and other metal surfaces were the same.
 
Wooden ladders, towers, and walkways, though still sturdy in most places, were gray with age, showing signs of warping from seasons of cold, rain, and the cooking summer sun.
 
Thick, knotted ropes used for climbing and swinging hung frayed.
 
Some were tied into hangman's nooses.

There was a large wooden sign at the entrance that read Blackstone Park; only
Blackstone
was painted over in purple with the word
Feral
.

Feral; free, wild, returned to a natural state.

Charity understood what feral meant the way she sometimes understood things without knowing why, upon waking from the first dream of Feral Park.
 
The meaning touched a part of her that she thought was dead, the part that dared to hope.
 
The part that laughed, cried, felt anything beyond the dumb, numb fear.
 
The word, and the idea that she could be feral too, drove the numbness away.
  
For the first time she actually dared to hate him.

Her fear of him was still there, but for the first time she realized she
needed
to escape him.
 
The other times she had run away had been impulse, the way a dog will run from a cruel master.
 
It doesn't think of escape, because the cowed dog does not believe in freedom.
 
It can only hide, knowing its punishment will be great when the master finds it.

Charity was finished being his dog, his pet.
 
This time she wasn't just hiding; this time it was for keeps.

S
hannon Pitcher started taking her late night walks after settling into her brother's house on Walnut Street.
 
They had started late one evening as a walk to the convenience store for snacks, and maybe a good book to pass the next few nights with.
 
She hadn't slept well the past few months, hadn't slept at all the past few weeks except in short violent bursts just before dawn.
 
She was tired of watching the midnight movie marathons, mostly B-movie rejects culled straight from the bargain basement of the trashy eighties, and the infomercials were pure insomniac hell.

That night, an hour after starting toward the Sunset Mart she had awaken to her surroundings and realized two things: she had no idea where she was, and she was exhausted.
 
She could have curled up in the dew-damp grass of someone's front yard and fallen asleep right then.
 
Instead she did a drunken about-face and walked back the way she had come.

She stopped only to read the first street sign she saw.
 
It was the corner of Fair and 17
^th
Street.
 
She had walked over a dozen blocks without turning once.
 
She wasn't used to this much street running unbroken and straight.
 
Riverside was only a small city, but much larger than her hometown, Normal Hills.

She forgot the snacks and walked home, then crashed until late the next afternoon without the help of her hated pills.

While that long, uninterrupted sleep had been the greatest thing to happen to her in this new life, her post-Thomas-and-Alicia life, it had completely reversed her sleep cycle.
 
Shannon found it was a change she could live with.
 
Sleep during the day, take care of life's mundane necessities in the evening, and spend her nights in a nocturnal parody of life.

She had money, and the ability to make more when she needed it, so she was set.
 
All she needed was a place to crash and a good movie or book to keep her company.
 
That, and her night walks; the exhaustion and the dreamless sleep she needed to do it all over again.

S
hannon heard the music before she saw the playground.
 
It was a muffled, almost ethereal mixture of heavy metal and children's laughter.
 
Her brother, Jared, had listened to heavy metal as a teenager.

Her taste for what their father called The Wild Stuff had never been as wide or varied as Jared's, but she recognized this tune.
 
It was Queen's “Stone Cold Crazy,” but not Queen that was playing it.
 
Behind the heavy metal noise, and running through the fast beat and sandpaper rhythm like a scarlet thread, was the laughter of lunatic children.

Shannon knew she should turn back, caution being the greater part of valor and all that shit, and just go back the way she had come.
 
Kids will be kids, she knew, and the safest thing to do when they got up to harmless mischief was to leave them alone.
 
Just stay the hell out of their way and let them wind down.

Like I'm doing now
, she thought.
 
Let them exorcise, or maybe just exercise, their demons and hope their better natures kick in before any real trouble starts
.

There was something fundamentally wrong about this though.
 
It was not the boisterous carousing of teenagers.
 
The voices behind the laughter were too young, the maniacal tittering of grade-school lunatics on a field trip to some carnival freak show.

Can't be
, she thought.
 
You're crazy
.
 
You're hearing things
.
 
Just turn around and walk your ass back home
.
 
It's getting early, and you're so fucking dead on your feet you're hallucinating
.

Instead, she continued along the river, ear cocked toward the odd sound of toddler metal madness.
 
She wasn't hallucinating; there was a playground over there by the edge of the wild, where all traces of the city ended.
 
A goddamn big one, and so old and neglected she couldn't believe any parent would let their child play in it.

The music and the laughter ebbed and swelled, ebbed and swelled.

The playground was empty.

A single voice, the voice of a haughty schoolyard queen, rose above the others.
 
She sounded eight, maybe nine years old, Alicia's age.

Stop it
, a voice in her head screamed.
 
We are not going there tonight
.
 
Not tonight, not ever
!

She tried to kill the thought as she approached the playground.
 
It quieted, falling back into the denied darkness of her subconscious, but it would not die.
 
It hung on, whimpering in the darkness where she could still hear it.

That crazy music, ebbing and swelling, and the sound of muffled laughter, distorted into something horrible.

It was
Her
voice, beautiful and frighteningly familiar, singing some nonsense hopscotch song, one of many in her repertoire.
 
Then she spoke to Shannon.

“Why did you let him do it, Mommy?
 
Where were you when he took me away?
 
Why didn't you stop him?”
 
The voice, Alicia's voice, came from inside the playground, and from somewhere within her own head.

Alicia
?

It can't be her
, she thought coldly.
 
There's no way it's her, she's dead
.

You don't know that, they never found her body
.
 
You don't know she's dead
.

Shannon ran toward the playground, stumbling through ankle-high grass and clumps of stinging thistles.
 
The music, the laughter, the screams of terror that she recognized only vaguely as her own, expanded.
 
The jumble of noise pulsed between her temples.

“
Alicia
!”

She passed a large wooden sign, Feral Park, and as she ran beneath the sign at the entrance that proclaimed
The Playground of Dreams
, the noise popped like a bubble and was gone.
 
Her momentum and the adrenaline pumping through her body carried her on.
 
She ran through to the heart of the playground, dodging obstacles, ducking one low-hanging rope bridge strung between a pair of wooden towers.
 
Her feet tangled in the cover of old graying wood chips and she landed, sprawled out in the sandbox a few feet away.

She lay there for a minute, not hurt, but physically and emotionally drained.

What the hell just happened to me
?

She didn't understand the specifics, but the basics were clear enough.
 
She was having a walking nightmare; she was losing her mind.

When she felt she could trust her legs, she rose and brushed the dust from her jeans.
 
She remained as still as possible, silent, listening for the music, the laughter, or the voice, but the silence endured.
 
She looked around, eyes and senses wide open, but in the toy-crowded playground it was impossible to know if she were truly alone.
 
There were too many shadows, too many cubbyholes, too many hiding places.

Behind her a rusty swing squeaked, nudged by the wind, or perhaps an unseen hand.
 
To her left, old wood groaned as if being relieved of some unseen burden.
 
Something moved in front of her.
 
A shadow that hadn't been there a few seconds earlier snaked across the wood-chip covered ground toward her.
 
She stumbled away from it in horror, and something grabbed her from behind.

Hey lady
!
 
A soft young voice, faint but clear, as if someone had come unnoticed behind her and whispered in her ear.

Shannon spun around, a startled shriek escaping her lips.
 
She tasted fear, thick and salty, in the back of her throat.
 
She could feel, worse, could hear, the increasing tempo of her heart.
 
It pulsed irregularly, echoed by a pounding behind her eyes.

No one was there.

Something touched her ankle.

She jerked away, striking something hidden in the darkness with her temple.
 
The low ringing sound suggested it was metal, but the ringing may have only been in her head.
 
For a second the playground was gone, and she was alone with the pain and a frightening sense of surrealism.
 
Then the laughter started, like a white noise broadcast in the tender gray meat between her ears.
 
It grew, its volume increasing like a radio that has been turned from one to ten, bringing her back to herself.
 
She opened her eyes and looked up into the dirty face of a young boy.
 
He was laughing too, but no sound came from his wide-stretched mouth.
 
It was in Shannon's head with the rest of the sounds.