Fiancee for One Night (13 page)

And little wonder she thought in terms of frostings and cakes, because it reminded her so much of the cake she’d made for Sam for his first birthday, knowing that as he got older he’d want bears or trains or some cartoon character or other. She figured that for his first, before he had a say, she could choose, and she’d made a heart shape, because that was what Sam meant to her.

‘Look, Richard,’ Felicity said, clasping his hand as they circled around. ‘It’s a heart. Isn’t that amazing?’

‘It magical,’ Eve said, gazing down in wonder at the unique formation below. ‘This entire place is just magical. Thank you.’ The Culshaws laughed, delighted with the reactions of their guests as Leo took her hand and pressed it to his lips. She turned to him, surprised at the tenderness of the gesture, finding his eyes softly sad, feeling that sense of loss again, for something she had not yet quite gained. ‘What is it?’ she asked, confused.

‘You are magical,’ he told her, and his words shimmied down her spine and left her infused with a warm, golden glow and a question mark over her earlier accusation. A heart of stone? she wondered.

But there was definitely something magical in the air.

They dined alfresco that evening, an informal barbecue held early enough that Sam could join them, happily showing off his new toy collection to anyone who
displayed an interest. Luckily nobody seemed to mind and Sam was in his element, lapping up the attention. When he yawned, there was general consensus amongst the couples. It had been a fabulous day, but exhausting, and tomorrow there was serious work to be done, an agreement to finally be hammered out between the men, a morning at the spa on a neighbouring island for the women.

And before that a night of explosive sex
. Eve felt the tension change in the man alongside her, the barely restrained desire bubbling away so close to the surface she could just about smell the pheromones on the fresh night air. She sensed the changes in her own body, the prickling awareness, the mounting heat. It distracted her.

Sam, sensing the party winding up around him, found his second wind and made a dash for the toy room. Eve was too slow, caught unawares, and surprised when it was Felicity who snatched up the squirming child. ‘Gotcha!’ she said, swinging him in the air and tickling his tummy before, breathless and red cheeked, she passed him to his mother.

He was asleep before they reached the bure. She put Sam down, emerging from his small room to a darkened bedroom, lit only by the moonlight filtering through the glass windows. Leo had left the blinds open. She liked that; liked the way the shadows of the palms swayed on the breeze; liked the way the room glowed silver.

‘Come to bed,’ came the velvet-clad invitation.

And that was the part she liked best of all.

‘Leo, it’s okay.’

He sat bolt upright in bed, panting, desperate for air, burning up. He put his hands to his head, bent over his knees.

‘You had a nightmare again.’

God, it wasn’t a nightmare.
It was his life
. He swept the sheet aside, stormed from the bed, pacing the floor, circuit after circuit.

Twenty years ago he had escaped. Twenty years ago he had made his own way. But he had always known it was there, always known it was lurking. Waiting.

But it had never been this close. This real.

He felt cool hands on his back. ‘What is it?’

He flinched, jumping away. ‘Don’t touch me! You shouldn’t touch me!’

‘Leo?’

‘I have to go for a walk.’ He pulled open a drawer, pulled out a pair of cotton pants and shoved his legs into them.

‘It’s two o’clock in the morning.’

‘Let me go!’

The night air fanned around him, warming against his burning skin, the shallows sucking at his feet. There was a reason he didn’t get close to anyone. Good reason. He was broken. Twisted. Made to be alone.

Couldn’t she see that?

And yet she kept looking at him that way with those
damned blue eyes and even had him wishing for things that could never be. It was his fault. When had he stopped acting a part? When had he forgotten that this weekend was about pretence, that it wasn’t real?

When she’d bucked underneath him in bed, her body writhing in its sweat-slicked release? Or when she’d talked about her parents and made him want to reach out and soothe her pain?

He stopped where the beach turned to rock, looked out over the sea to the looming dark shapes of the nearest islands.

One more day. One more night. And he would take her home before he could hurt her and there would be no more dreams.

It was as easy and as hard as that.

S
HE
needed this. Eve lay on the massage table, scented candles perfuming the air, skilful hands working the knots out of her back and neck. She only wished someone would work out the knots in her mind, but that was impossible while Leo Zamos was at their core.

He’d been so desperate to get away, bursting from the bure this morning like the devil himself was after him. She’d watched him go, lit by moonlight as he’d moved through the trees towards the beach. Watched him and waited for him to come back. But eventually she’d gone back to bed and when she’d woken, he’d been sitting, having coffee on the deck.

She didn’t know what it was, only that something was terribly, desperately wrong and that if he only opened up and shared what was troubling him, maybe she could help.

She sighed, a mixture of muscular bliss and frustrated mind, as the masseuse had her roll over, readying her for her facial. What was the point of wanting to help? He didn’t want it and tomorrow she would go home, and all of this would be nothing more than a memory.

She couldn’t afford to care. She mustn’t, even when he told her she was magical. Even when he tugged on her heart and her soul with his kiss.

Even though she so very much wanted to believe it.

Thoroughly pampered after their hours at the spa, the three women enjoyed a late lunch at the big house, on the terrace overlooking the pool. The men were still in conference apparently, although Maureen suggested that might just mean they’d popped out in the boat for a spot of fishing while the women weren’t looking. Not that it mattered. After they’d been massaged until their bones had just about melted, they were more than content to sit and chat in the warm, balmy air of tropical North Queensland. After all, they were going home tomorrow. Soon enough real life would intrude.

Sam was once again more than happy to provide the entertainment if they weren’t up to it. He tottered between the three women, perfectly at ease with them all now, sharing around building blocks he’d taken a shine to, taking them back and redistributing them as if this was all part of some grand plan, happily chattering the whole time. Eve watched him, so proud of her little man, knowing that at least when Leo walked out of her life, she would still have Sam. He’d surprised her too. Instead of providing a disruptive force, as she’d expected, it seemed that, at least in some part, he seemed to pull them together. He definitely kept them amused.

And Felicity surprised her again, playing his games, picking him up when he passed, giving him hugs and raspberry kisses on his cheek to his squeals and giggles of delight before he scampered off on his toddler legs.

‘I always wanted a child,’ she said wistfully, her eyes following his escape. ‘In fact, I always imagined myself surrounded by children. And when I met Richard and thought he was the one, I thought it might happen, even though it was already getting late…’ Then she blinked
and looked around. ‘I guess things sometimes turn out differently to what we expect.’

And the other two women nodded, each wrapped in their own separate thoughts and experiences.

‘It seemed easier to give up and pretend it didn’t matter. But meeting you and seeing you with Sam makes me realise how much it means to me. I want to try again. At least one more time.’ Tears made her eyes glassy. ‘You’re so lucky to be able to give Leo a child, Evelyn. I really wish I could do the same for Richard.’ Her voice hitched. ‘Damn! I’m so sorry.’ She fled inside.

Eve felt sick, a hand instinctively going to her mouth. And all the good feelings, all the positive goodwill she’d been stashing away in her memory while she was determined to enjoy this weekend were for nothing. They meant nothing if her deceit led someone else to want what she was having. A wish based on a lie.

She rose to follow and tell her exactly that when Maureen stopped her. ‘Let her go.’

‘But she thinks—’

Maureen nodded. ‘I know what she thinks.’

‘But you don’t understand.’ She slumped back in her chair, feeling the weight of the lie crushing down on her, feeling her heart squeezed tight, knowing she couldn’t go home without admitting the truth. ‘I hate this! I hate the pretence. I’m so sorry, Maureen.’ She shook her head, and still couldn’t find a nice way to say it. ‘Look, Leo’s not really Sam’s father.’

She heard a sharp intake of air, followed by an equally sharp exhalation. But then, instead of the censure she’d expected, or the outrage, she felt a gentling hand over her own. ‘I wondered when you were going to feel able to share that.’

Warily, feeling sicker than ever, Eve looked up. ‘You knew?’

‘From the moment I met you in that bar in Melbourne. Of course, Sam could have passed for Leo’s son, but it was crystal clear to anyone who had ever been a mother that Leo had no idea about being a father. And then his awkwardness at dinner, not knowing his own son’s birthday, only reinforced that impression, at least to me.’ She shrugged. ‘Though when it comes down to it, does Sam’s parentage really matter?’

‘But you don’t understand. It’s not that simple—’

‘Of course it’s that simple.’ Maureen said, cutting her off. ‘I saw you and Leo out there yesterday in the boat and on the beach. It’s clear to everyone that you love him and he loves you, so why should it matter one bit who Sam’s father really is?’ she insisted. ‘Why should a silly detail like that matter when you are going to marry a man who clearly worships the ground you walk on? Now, I’ll go check on Felicity and you stop worrying.’

How could Maureen know so much and yet be so wrong? Eve sat on the sand with Sam, watching him busily digging holes. All those hours of massaging and jet baths and a relaxing facial, all that pampering and all for nothing. Not even the magic of the island itself, the rustle of the palms and the vivid colours, none of it could dispel the tightness in her gut.

She didn’t love Leo.

Sure, she was worried about him and whatever it was that plagued his dreams and turned his skin cold with sweat, and she certainly had an unhealthy obsession with the man, one that had started that fateful day three years ago, and which had only gathered momentum after mind-blowing nights of sex.

And maybe she didn’t want to to think about going home tomorrow and never seeing him again.

But that was hardly the same as love.

As for Leo, no way did he love her. He was merely acting a part, plying her with attention as a means to an end, certainly not because he loved her. Ridiculous. They’d only been together a couple of days after all. What Maureen was witnessing was pure lust. Leo just had a bit more to throw around than most. He didn’t do family and he didn’t want her thinking he’d change his mind. Why else would he underline every endearment, every tender moment with a stinging reminder that it would soon end?

Sam oohed and pulled something from the sand then, shaking it, showing her what looked like some kind of shell, and she gave up thinking about questions she had no answers to, puzzles that made no sense. Tomorrow, she knew, she would go home and this brief interlude in her life would be over and she would have to find herself new clients and build a new fee base. And look after Sam. That’s what she should be worrying about.

‘Shall we see what it is, Sam?’ she said to the child, a launch catching her attention for just a moment as it powered past the bay, before taking Sam’s hand as they stepped into the shallows to wash this new treasure clean.

‘Boat!’ he said, pointing.

‘It is,’ she said. ‘A big one.’

Her sarong clung to her where she’d sat in the damp sand, her ankles looked lean and sexy as her feet were lapped by the shallows, all her attention on her child by her side, guiding him, encouraging him with just a touch or a word or a smile, and he knew in that instant
he had never seen anything more beautiful or powerful or sexy.

All he knew was that he wanted her. He wanted to celebrate, knowing the deal was finally done, but he wanted something more fundamental too. More basic. More necessary.

Except he also knew he couldn’t let that happen. He’d realised that during his walk this morning and as much as he’d tried to find a way around it all day, even when he was supposed to be thinking about the Culshaw deal, he still knew it to be true. He couldn’t take the chance.

He watched, as mother and son washed something in the shallows, he couldnt tell what, and she must have sensed his presence because he hadn’t moved and she couldn’t have heard him, yet she’d turned her head and looked up and seen him. And he’d seen his name on her lips as she’d stood and she’d smiled, only a tentative smile, but after the way he’d abandoned her this morning, he didn’t deserve even that much.

And something bent and shifted and warmed inside that he could treat her so badly and still she could find a smile for him. He hoped it meant she liked him, just a little, just enough to one day find a way to forgive him for the way he had no choice but to treat her.

The wash was nothing really. No more than a ripple to any adult, and Leo had no idea it would be any different for a child, until he saw Sam pushed face first into the water with the rolling force of it.

‘Sam!’ he yelled, crossing the beach and pulling the child, spluttering and then squealing, from the water. ‘Is he all right?’ he asked, as she collected the wailing child, dropping to her towel, rocking him on her shoulder.

‘Oh, my God, I took my eye off him for a second,’ she said, her voice heavy with self-recrimination. ‘I’m so sorry, Sam,’ she said, kissing his head. ‘I should have seen that coming.’

‘Will he be okay?’ Leo asked, but Sam’s cries were already abating. He sniffled and hiccuped and caught sight of a passing sail, twisting in his mother’s arms as his arm shot out. ‘Boat!’

She sighed with relief. ‘He sounds fine. He got a shock. I think we all did.’

Leo squatted down beside them and they said nothing for a while, all watching the boat bob by.

‘You actually picked him up,’ she said. ‘Is that the first time you’ve ever held a child?’

He frowned as he considered her question, not because he didn’t already know the answer but because this weekend suddenly seemed filled with firsts: the first time he’d thought a cotton nightie sexy; the first time he’d looked at a woman holding a baby and got a hard on; the first time he’d felt remorse that he’d never see a particular woman again…

But, no, he wasn’t going there. What were his nightmares if not a warning of what would happen if he did?

‘It’s not something my job calls for much of, no.’

‘Well, thank you for acting so quickly. I don’t know what I was doing.’

He knew. She’d been looking at him with those damned eyes of hers. And he hadn’t wanted to let them go.

Sam soon grew restless in his mother’s arms and wiggled his way out, soon scouring the sands and collecting new treasure, keeping a healthy distance from the water, his mother shadowing his every movement.

‘So how goes the deal?’

‘It’s done.’

She looked up, her expression unreadable, and he wasn’t entirely certain what he’d been looking for. ‘Congratulations. You must be pleased.’

‘It’s a good feeling.’ Strangely, though, it didn’t feel as good as it usually did, didn’t feel as good as he’d expected it would. Maybe because of all the delays.

And then she was suddenly squatting down, writing Sam’s name with a stick in the sand while he looked on, clapping. ‘So we’re done here.’

And that didn’t make him feel any better. ‘Looks like it. Culshaw is planning a celebratory dinner for tonight and tomorrow we all go home.’

‘I thought you didn’t have a home.’

There was a lump in the back of his throat that shouldn’t have been there. He was supposed to be feeling good about this, wasn’t he? He rubbed the back of his neck with his hand, watched her write ‘Mum’ in the sand. ‘Mum,’ she said to Sam, pointing.

Sam leaned over with his hands on his pudgy knees and solemnly studied the squiggles she’d made in the sand. ‘Mumumumum,’ sang Sam.

‘That’s right, clever clogs, you can read!’ And she gave him a big squeeze that he wriggled out of and scooted off down the beach.

‘Tell me about Sam’s father,’ Leo said, as they followed along behind.

She looked up suspiciously, her eyebrows jagging in the middle. Where was this coming from? ‘Why?’

‘Who was he?’

She shrugged. ‘Just some guy I met.’

‘You don’t strike me as the “just-some-guy-I-met” type.’

‘Oh, and you, with your vast experience of women, you’d know about all the different types, I guess.’

‘Stop trying to change the subject. This is about you. How did you manage to hook up with such a loser?’

She stopped then, her eyes flicking between Leo and Sam. ‘You don’t know the first thing about me. And you certainly don’t know the first thing about him. He just turned out not to be who I thought he was.’

‘I know that he was a fool to let you go.’

Wow
, she thought, forced to close her eyes for a second as the tremor rattled through her,
where did that come from
?

‘Thanks,’ she said, still getting over his last comment. ‘But it was me who was the fool.’

‘For getting pregnant? You can’t blame yourself for that.’

For ever imagining he was anything at all like Leo. ‘No. For believing him. He was an interstate consultant who visited every couple of weeks. Always flirting. We worked late one night, he invited me out for a drink afterwards’—
and he had sexy dark hair and olive skin and dark eyes and I wanted to pretend…

‘And?’

She shrugged. ‘And the rest, as they say, is history.’

‘You told him about Sam—about the pregnancy?’

‘I told him. I wasn’t particularly interested in seeing him again, but I thought he had a right to know. He wasn’t interested as it happened. He was more interested in his wife not finding out.’

‘Scum!’ he spat, surprising her with the level of ferocity behind the word.

‘It’s not so bad. At least I’ve got Sam. And it got me motivated to start my own business.’ She caught a flash of movement in the crystal clear water, a school of tiny
fish darting to and fro in the shallows. She scooped up her son and ventured to the water’s edge, careful not to disturb them. ‘Look Sam,’ she said, ‘fish!’