Finding Dandelion (Dearest #2) (29 page)

Travis isn’t a huge guy. He’s tall and has kind of a lanky build, but with the tension radiating off him, I’m sure he could do some damage if prompted. He points at me. “I’m only going to tell you this once. If you hurt her again, I will make sure that pretty face of yours meets with my fist.”

I smile grimly at him. “If you think I’m here to make her miserable, why did you come?”

“Because she hasn’t texted or called me back since she got home.” He grabs his phone and scrolls through the screen. “We’ve never gone this long without talking.” His eyes flick toward me. “I’m worried about her. Even when you landed her in the hospital, she texted me right away. She hasn’t responded to her roommates either.”

My jaw tightens, and I drive faster, my back tires sliding as we curve around a bend. Spotting my destination, a pristine but small white two-story at the end of the block, has me exhaling in relief.

The curtains at the front of the house are pulled back, and Dani’s red hair immediately catches my eye. She sits near the window, still, like she’s frozen, even though a half dozen people move around in her living room. I’m still not quite used to the red streaks in her hair, but she’s impossible to miss.

“Maybe they’re having a holiday party,” Travis says as an older couple walks up to the house with an armload of tupperware.

“Yeah.” But even as I say that, I think it’s odd that there are so many people in Dani’s living room, but she sits there alone like she’s in her own little sphere.

Glancing in the rearview mirror, I groan. “Fuck, I look like shit.”

Travis smirks. “Didn’t want to go there, but since you’re pointing it out…” He lets the sentence fade, and I try to ignore the way that gets under my skin.

Maybe I shouldn’t have come straight here after driving all night, but I can’t let this go on any longer. I can’t let her think I wanted her to sign that contract. Jesus, it makes it seem like… like I used her, like I made a move on her because I wanted something.

“Now don’t fuck this up.” Travis zips up his jacket and gives me a mocking grin. “And let me do the talking. She likes me.”

“Thanks, fuckwad. Good to know,” I mumble as I stretch out my legs for the first time in hours.

My stomach is in knots when Travis knocks on the front door. An older-looking blonde woman opens the door. Is that Dani’s mom?

“You must be Dani’s friends,” she says, relief in her face when Travis nods. “Thank goodness. I haven’t been able to get her to eat anything in days, and I really don’t think Jack Daniels qualifies as food.”

I look at Travis who frowns.

The woman ushers us in and takes our coats. Turning to the living room on the right, Travis heads straight to her and drops down on the couch like he owns the place. Dani’s eyes barely leave the small flatscreen TV. She brings a tumbler of amber liquid to her mouth and takes a big gulp. I wanted to give her time to talk to Travis first, but seeing her pale and thin and obviously drunk has me stalking across the living room. I sit next to her, and she barely seems to register that either of us is here.

The people who had been milling around all take the hint and shuffle off to another room.

“Dani, sweets, are you okay?” Travis asks, petting her hair.

She laughs, but it’s cold and lifeless. “Wow. I did not realize I drank that much.” Her words slur. She stares into her drink. “I must be really fucked up if I’m imagining you and Jax.” Her eyes well with tears. “If I’m trying to make myself feel better, why the hell would I imagine him? Hey, hot guy who looks like Jax, want to fuck me over too?” There’s that lifeless laugh again, and it guts me.

“Dani,” I say slowly, “we’re really here. I wanted to apologize.” She blinks at me. “I texted you and called on Christmas, but you didn’t pick up.”

Her head turns toward me, tears streaming down her face, but she doesn’t look surprised to see me.

“She would have liked you,” Dani says. Blowing out a big breath, she laughs. “I tried telling her you broke my heart, and she seemed to think that was okay, that it was part of living.” She rolls her eyes before she takes another swig of her drink. “Fuck, that sounds stupid.”

I want to pull her onto my lap and hold her, but Travis wraps his arm around her shoulders and she goes willingly, snuggling up to him. He shoots me a worried look, and I feel totally helpless. I don’t know what has her so despondent. I know our relationship is fucked up right now, but my sister said Dani had finished the semester strong and was in decent spirits before she left for home.

Getting up, I decide to find her mom. She might have some choice words for me, but I’m done fucking around. I can handle whatever she sends my way.

The living room leads to a small dining room. Turning, I find everyone in the kitchen. I see the woman who opened the door for us.

Lowering my voice, I extend my hand. “Hi, I’m Jax.” She smiles at me, her eyes warm and welcoming. I clear my throat. “It’s good to meet you, Mrs. Hart.”

Her face pales, and everyone stills around us. She blinks several times, and it takes her a few moments before she looks at me again.

“I’m so sorry.” She shakes her head. “I’m not Beth. I’m her neighbor Susan.”

I start to apologize and ask for Dani’s mom when Susan places her hand on my arm. She leans toward me, her eyes watery, and quietly says, “Beth passed two days ago.”

Beth passed. Passed where?

When I look around, everyone averts their eyes. That’s when I realize most of them are wearing dark colors.

Understanding grips me like a vice.

Dani’s mother died.

CHAPTER FORTY-ONE

- Dani -

My head is throbbing a frenzied beat against my skull. Groaning, I roll over, and a voice in the darkness tells me to drink some water. A strong arm loops around my waist and sits me up, and a cold glass of water is placed in my hand.

I take small sips, my stomach turning inside out with each bit of liquid that goes down.

“I don’t think she has anything left in her stomach to throw up, so that’s good,” someone says.

In the dark, the shadows cast against the wall makes me think how much I hate being alone. A warm hand pushes the hair off my forehead when I lie back.

“You’re not alone, baby. You’re not alone,” a voice, soft and reassuring, whispers in my ear as though reading my mind.

My eyelids flutter closed as the room spins and spins and spins.

* * *

Hours later, the harsh morning light makes me wish for death. I grab my pillow and stuff my head underneath it.

“Can she breathe like that?” a male voice asks.

Another guy says, “Close the curtain. It’s bothering her.”

That voice. It teases me with the kind of familiarity that sends a flood of sadness sweeping through me.

My eyes crack open, but from this angle, all I see is my comforter and a patch of the floor.

“What do I look like? Your maid?”

Recognition jars me.
Travis.
Someone grunts and shuffles across the floor and then the offending light dims through the crack in my pillow cave.

My ears perk up. I thought it was all a dream.

“We need to get her to eat something.” Jax. That’s Jax. Holy shit.

Nausea rises up the back of my throat, and I bolt upright, scattering pillows across my small room. My eyes narrow on him as I struggle to not throw up by pressing my hand across my mouth.

Jax and Travis are sitting on my purple love seat across from my bed. Their clothes are wrinkled, and both are sporting dark circles under their eyes.

When I can talk, when I’m sure my stomach contents won’t come spewing up, I pin Jax with my glare and say the first thing that comes to mind.

“What the fuck are you doing here?”

On any other day, I might have had a different reaction to seeing him—I can’t deny that I’ve missed him—but right now, all I can think is that he has a knack for leaving me and taking little slivers of my heart with him. And right now, with my mom gone, I have nothing left. Nothing.

Jax’s eyes widen for a split second before he nods and looks down. When he looks up again, I see the remorse in his face.

“I fucked up, Dani. I want to explain.” He runs his hands through his hair and closes his eyes.

I fight the urge to comfort him and shrink back into my bed. Travis sits next to me, and I let him hug me for a second before I push him away.

“I might throw up, and I’m saving it all for him,” I say, motioning toward Jax. “So don’t get too close.”

My best friend nods, scooting back a little. Jax shoots him a strange look, like he’s confused that Travis is on my side. Which is weird. So weird.

Unless…

I turn to Travis, afraid of what I need to ask. “Did you come here with…
him
?” I can’t help the hurt that tinges my voice or the tentativeness of my words.

He shrugs and gives me a sheepish smile. I bite my cheek to keep from crying. Because if anyone knows what I went through over the last three weeks, it’s him. My eyes burn.

“In that case, fuck both of you.”

The shock spreads on Travis’s face when he realizes I’m not kidding, and then I jump out of bed, ignoring the way the floor shifts beneath me like I’m rocking on a boat out at sea. I stumble into my bathroom and slam the door behind me, flinching from the throbbing pain in my head.

Having Travis get all chummy with Jax when he should be taking my side hurts. For a fleeting instant, I see my former friend and roommate Ashley hooking up with Reid, and my stomach turns. Ashley and Reid, Jax and nameless blondes. Travis taking Jax’s side. Different people in different situations, but they all feel like betrayal.

At least this time I didn’t stand there silent.

When the water in the shower pelts my back, I let myself fall apart. I hate that I don’t have any control of my emotions, but everything in me feels raw and ripped open after losing my mom.

Lost. I feel so lost, and I cry until it seems like the oxygen has been pulled from my lungs and the water runs cold.

After dragging myself out, I wrap a towel around my chest and tuck it so that it holds. Using my elbow to wipe off the condensation, I stare at the girl in the mirror. A sad laugh escapes my lips. I look like crap, and I don’t have the energy to do anything about it. I let my hair sit tangled on my shoulders and ignore the way I shiver in the cold.

I don’t bother to look at either Travis or Jax when I walk back into my bedroom and grab a change of clothes.

One of them starts to talk, and I cut him off. “Get out,” I say, a few seconds before I toss the towel on the bed.

As I’m pulling a thermal, long-sleeved t-shirt over my head, footsteps pad away and the door closes. I’m too angry to care if they see me naked. Life is too short to give a shit about stuff like that.

* * *

Several hours later, I wake up with the dried tracks of tears on my cheeks, so I splash some water on my face and decide to brave a trip downstairs.

Stilling every few steps to see if I can hear anyone talking, I lean forward and listen.

Maybe they left.

For some reason, that doesn’t make me feel any better. When I get to the first floor, I hear the hum of the TV. I peek around the corner and find Travis sprawled on the couch.

I watch him flip through the channels. He rubs his eyes, and I realize how tired he looks. He came all this way only to have me yell at him. I feel a twinge of guilt. For the last three years, he’s been nothing but loyal.

“Hey,” I say from across the room. “I’m sorry for yelling at you. I don’t know what got into me. I—”

“Shut up. You don’t owe me an apology.” He pats the space next to him, and I scurry to him. The second my butt hits the couch, he yanks me into a tight hug. I don’t have the heart to tell him the pressure of his arms around me makes me want to hurl.

His arms relax, and I stay pressed to his chest. He whispers that he’s sorry about my mom, and I nod, not able to form words.

After several minutes, Travis squeezes me. “How’s your head?”

“Hurts like a motherfucker.”

He lets out a laugh that makes my temples throb harder. I grab my head, and he tells me he has something that will help my headache. He gets up, trots to the kitchen and returns with a tumbler of dark liquid. “Here, drink this.”

I eye it suspiciously and then give him a pointed stare.

“Don’t look at me like that. Drink it. Jax says it’s the best thing for hangovers.”

Hearing Jax’s name makes me stiffen, and I drop my eyes. “Did he leave?”

Travis chuckles like I’m cracking a joke. “That man just drove over a thousand miles to see you. He ran down to the grocery store to get some coffee. He was going through withdrawals after drinking a dozen Red Bulls in the last few days.”

I’m surprised by the relief I feel knowing that Jax is still here. Surprised but scared.