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At lunch, Claire stopped by the administration office to explain about her locker before working her way through the crowd of students to the bustling cafeteria. As she entered the room, the delectable, mingled aromas of baking pizza and chocolate chip cookies enveloped her, making her mouth water.

Erica, Brian, and Alec were just getting into line together. As Claire joined them, she noticed a pair of freshman girls in the next line over eyeing Alec appreciatively and whispering among themselves—but he didn’t seem to be aware of it.

“Hey, CB!” Brian greeted her. “Alec said Patterson assigned you a paper already. Due on Wednesday!” He laughed mockingly.

“Are you still sorry you’re not in the honors track?” Claire responded dryly.

“Only because it means I’ll probably never make it into Harvard,” Brian sighed.

“Alec,” Claire said, “I didn’t want you to get in trouble, so I reported that my locker was broken when I found it.”

“Thanks.”

“They’re going to assign me another one by the end of the day. So I’ll be out of your hair before you know it.”

Alec looked disappointed. “All right.” Now at the front of the line, he turned and studied the food on offer.

The hairnetted man behind the counter smiled patiently. “Pepperoni pizza or the works, take your pick. Otherwise, it’s salad bar.”

Alec hesitated. “I’ll take salad bar.”

Claire stared at him. “Are you nuts, or just a vegetarian?”

“Neither.”

Claire waited, but he didn’t elaborate further. “Eschew prolixity. Your personal motto, right?” she teased.

Alec grinned and gave her a nod. Claire caught Erica eyeing them intensely with that
Aren’t you two cute?
look. Was she jealous or amused? Claire couldn’t tell.

Brian brashly inserted himself in front of Alec before the counter. “Ignore this man, he’s new and hasn’t had his meds today. He’ll take a slice of each, please.”

“Wait—” Alec began.

“You can have rabbit food any day,” Erica agreed, “but trust us: Pizza is the best thing this cafeteria has going. They bring it in from a New York–style restaurant in Brentwood Village, just off campus.”

Alec didn’t offer up any more arguments. After they all got two slices and their cartons of milk, Claire paused before the snack bar, where an assortment of goodies were for sale. She saw that Erica and Brian had already each bought a freshly baked chocolate chip cookie, but Alec had not, so she grabbed two.

The foursome made their way across the South Quad, past the tables crowded with the popular, athletic kids. Claire spotted Neil standing by one of the tables. A gaggle of seated girls stared at him dreamily while he chatted with Gabrielle Miller—the star of the girls’ volleyball and tennis teams, and one of the prettiest girls at school. As usual, Gabrielle was wearing an outfit that was worth more than everything in Claire’s closet combined—and looked absolutely great with her olive skin and long, perfectly highlighted chestnut hair.

As they left the quad, Claire felt a stab of envy. Not for Gabrielle’s money or beauty, but because of the way Neil had been looking at her while they talked. It wasn’t outwardly romantic, but he did seem to be hanging on her every word. What would it feel like, Claire wondered, to have a guy interested in
her
like that?

She shook her head, determined not to think about it as she and her friends tromped down the stairs to the small outdoor terrace beyond the library. At the far corner, a lone wooden picnic table with attached benches overlooked the landscaped hills and Middle School below and the football field beyond.

“Nice spot,” Alec said, admiring the view as they all sat down.

“This table was handed down to me at the end of eighth grade by my senior drama friends after we did
Peter Pan
,” Erica explained. “I was one of the Lost Boys. See? Here’s where we carved our initials.”

“Hooligans. Shameful of you. Defacing school property!” Brian said through a mouthful of pizza.

“Brian’s initials are right here,” Claire added, tapping the spot on the table with a pointed look.

Alec laughed.

Score!
Claire thought. She had actually made the guy laugh! As she dug into her pizza, however, she noticed Alec staring at the slices on his plate, looking a bit uncomfortable. “Something wrong?”

“No.”

“Then why aren’t you eating?”

“I will. It’s just … this may sound strange, but I’ve… I’ve been on a kind of strict diet for a really long time. And I haven’t—”

Claire exchanged a look with her friends. “Don’t tell me that pizza is against your religion or something.”

He grinned. “No, nothing like that.”

“Why in hell would
you
be on a diet?” Brian asked. “Did you used to be fat?” As Erica swatted him forcefully, he cried, “Ow! What?”

“I was raised to eat healthfully, and pizza has always been off-limits.”

“Are you serious?” Claire gasped. A bite of her own pizza caught in her throat and she coughed, her eyes watering.

“Are you saying you’ve
never
tasted pizza
?” Brian cried, pounding Claire on the back until she could breathe again.

Alec shook his head.

“Holy shit!” Erica dug into her backpack and withdrew her cell phone, glancing about to make sure no one was watching. “Screw the rules. I have to document this moment for posterity.” Placing the phone in camera mode, she aimed it at Alec with a grin. “What are you waiting for?
Bon appétit
.”

Alec took a deep breath, picked up his large slice of the works, and deliberately folded it in half. He paused, glancing at them, then took a bite and began to chew. The look that crossed his face—
If there’s an expression that mirrors attaining nirvana
, Claire thought,
this is it
.

“I think he like
s
it,” Brian decreed with satisfaction, as Erica proudly displayed the photo.

Alec was mostly silent through the rest of lunch. When it came to dessert, it was the same thing all over again—he practically devoured the cookie Claire gave him. She was beginning to change her opinion of him. It seemed that Alec wasn’t rude or totally introverted after all. He was just quirky, and … new.

After school, Claire picked up her new locker assignment.

“It’s the last one available,” the lady from the administration office explained as she wrote down the new locker number and combination on a card. “You’re lucky we even have this one.”

Claire thanked her and hurried up to Alec’s locker, where she removed all her books and folders, stuffed them into her backpack, and then lugged them up the hill to her new locker. Passing through an arched brick entryway, Claire found herself in a narrow, dark corridor that culminated in a dead end. To her dismay, the locker they’d given her was at the very end of the passage, in the bottom corner, where a pile of dead leaves and filth had accumulated. She hesitantly entered the combination, opened the door, and shuddered in dismay. Every surface inside was caked black with dust, grime, and cobwebs. She slammed the door in disgust and heaved a sigh.

Better to share with a food-impaired Scotsman than be stuck with
The Locker That Time Forgot
, she thought.

Moments later, she was back at Alec’s pristine locker, returning her books to their shelves. She hoped he didn’t mind sharing. He
did
break her locker, after all.

She was headed for the stairs nearby when she heard the music. Someone down below was playing the guitar. The melody was gentle. Haunting. And beautiful.

For as long as Claire could remember, she’d always been drawn to guitar music, although she couldn’t quite explain why. She especially loved anything acoustic. She followed the sound to an enclosed space at the bottom of the stairwell, just outside the rear entrance to the theater, where she was stunned to find the music’s source—Alec. He sat on one of the small wooden boxes left over from former stage productions, strumming a guitar with his eyes closed. His dirty-blond hair was brushed back off his forehead in smooth waves, framing his handsome face. Claire couldn’t help but notice his muscular arms as his long fingers moved along the guitar’s strings. She stopped and leaned against the wall, closing her own eyes. For a long while, she stood there listening in wonder, transported to another time and place.

The music stopped. Ripped back to the present, she opened her eyes to find Alec looking at her.

“Please don’t stop,” Claire said quickly. “You’re amazing.”

He shrugged modestly. “What would you like to hear?”

“Anything. What
was
that?”

“A flamenco lament.”

“Then more of the same! Or—whatever you feel like playing.” She grabbed a wooden box and sat down across from him.

“Ladies’ choice.”

“I don’t know the names of anything classical like that. Can you … do something by the Beatles?”

Without missing a beat, he began playing “You’ve Got to Hide Your Love Away”—one of Claire’s favorites. As Alec began to sing, Claire’s heart leapt. He had the voice of an angel, far more beautiful than Neil’s, which she had thought impossible.

After the first verse, the singing stopped, but Alec went on playing.

“Keep singing,” she prodded.

“Only if you sing with me.”

A knot formed in Claire’s stomach. “No. I don’t—”

“—sing, aye, so you said. But how about if we both try something new today?”

Claire shook her head, horrified. “Trust me. You don’t want to go there.”

“Come on. There’s no one else around. What have you got to lose?”

“My dignity?”

“Dignity’s overrated.”

There he went, rolling those
R
s again. It was charming but so distracting. Alec began strumming again, his eyes holding hers as he launched into the second verse.

As Claire listened to him sing, she felt mortified by the notion of mingling her sorry excuse for a voice with his. It was akin to Rembrandt inviting a kindergartner to paint on the same canvas. But embarrassed as she was, she couldn’t ignore the playful challenge in his eyes. She inhaled deeply and tentatively forced herself to join in.

Claire sang a line, then froze in astonishment. Was that really
her
voice?

Alec smiled with his eyes and kept going, silently urging her on. Claire continued singing, amazed to find that—for the first time in her life—she was not only perfectly in tune, but she actually sounded good. Great, in fact. How was that possible?

They finished the duet. Claire couldn’t stop grinning. “Wow. Wow.
Wow
.”

“You’re right,” Alec teased. “You’re terrible. Like fingernails on a chalkboard.”

“I don’t get it. I’ve never been able to sing like that before.”

“Maybe you never really gave yourself a chance. Or maybe your voice is like a fine wine: It just needed time to mature.”

“Maybe.” She smiled, still overwhelmed by what had just happened. Glancing at his guitar, she said, “Where do you keep that all day? It wouldn’t fit in our locker.”

“
Our
locker?” he asked with a grin.

“Yeah. I hope you don’t mind. The one they assigned me was filthy and in Siberia.”

Before Alec could respond, the backstage door swung open and Neil peered at them eagerly. “Was that you guys singing?”

Claire sprang to her feet. Her heart skipped a beat as she nodded wordlessly.

A slow smile curved the edges of Neil’s handsome mouth, and there was a twinkle in his eyes. “I could hear you all the way from the lobby. You’re both awesome.”

“Thanks,” Alec replied, abruptly packing up his guitar.

Claire’s voice was still firmly lodged in her feet.

“What a drag that we don’t have a guy’s spot left in Concert Singers this year,” Neil said, before turning his gaze toward Claire, “but Brennan, guess what? We’re short a soprano.”

Claire could hardly believe he was talking to her, or that he knew her name. She struggled to unearth some words in response. “I—”