Full Fathom Five (23 page)

“Yes.”

“That night, when they beat me, the panic broke through the glass. Something crawled out of the hole it made. Blades tore from my lips. I do not mean that as metaphor. Glass and steel spines, a creature of solid light. That night, when I slept, I dreamed of green fire. A … a green man with a skull’s face and claws like a bear, only not. We embraced. It is strange to say. And the words came.”

“Not so strange.” A man. Interesting. “You said this muse was a lady.”

“The man was first. The Lady, later.”

“And after the attack, your work took off.”

“Yes.” He nodded. “The work had never seized me that way before. A whole-body trembling, a terror. I lived that scream. And then one night it stopped.”

“Stopped,” she echoed. “About eight weeks ago.”

“Yes.” He stopped, facing the off-white wall. “How did you know?”

She slipped the folded vellum out of the notebook, and held it between them, though he was not looking. “Three months back, on the twenty-ninth, an idol died up the mountain. I tried to save her, but I failed. When she died, I heard a line from your poem.
Howl, bound world.
Just that. Our idols don’t speak; they have no minds. Those words have haunted me ever since. That’s why I came up to you that night. That’s why I asked you for your sources.”

“Could have come from anywhere. That poem’s popular. They ran it in the
Journal.
”

“That’s what I thought, at first. I convinced myself I imagined the whole thing. But we keep track of our idols. Every gift they grant, every bit of grace they bestow, is written in our library. I found this list of gifts issued by the dead idol. Your name appears again and again. But you’re no pilgrim of ours.”

He turned from the wall to face her. “I don’t understand.”

Somehow she found the strength not to look away. “What do you know about idols, M. Margot?”

He swallowed. “They are … repositories. Holes where one hides soulstuff from gods and kings.”

“I think when you were attacked, you needed help so bad you somehow broke through into the pool, into the space where our idols live. I don’t know how, yet, but you took soulstuff from them. You prayed, and your Lady answered those prayers. Your poems caught fire, and some of them bled back along the bond into your Lady, and lingered inside her. Until one day she died. Now you have a reputation you can’t sustain without more poems. Meanwhile, our vaults have been pilfered, our pilgrims robbed. On paper, it looks like you were stealing from the Grimwalds, a family of, let’s call them legitimate businessmen. People who are very jealous of their property.”

“I didn’t steal anything. I wrote.”

“Great writers steal,” she said. “Didn’t someone say that once?”

“What happened was a consummation.”

“Maybe. Look. I bet the priests up the mountain have been hunting everywhere for Edmond Margot—but they’re looking for a thief, not a poet. You’re lucky my friends aren’t literary types.” He didn’t seem to get the joke. Kai continued. “It gets worse. The Grimwalds have a Craftswoman working for them, and she’s already suspicious. She’s combing through our records, and when she learns the truth, she’ll come after us both—the Order in public, and you, too, if your luck holds.”

“And if it doesn’t?”

“She’ll come for you in private. I doubt her clients would use anything flashy. Knives are cheap. Efficient. Hard to trace.”

“I didn’t mean to take anything.”

“Intent doesn’t matter, it’s the fact of the taking. What you did should be impossible. If others can follow in your footsteps—the pool holds tens of millions of souls. If you knew what you had tapped into, you could be the richest man in the world today. Hells, I doubt the Grimwalds will even kill you. Their smartest play is to take you apart and learn how you wormed past our defenses.”

“Let me see that.” He reached for the vellum, but she pulled it away.

“No.”

“You expect me to believe you on the strength of evidence you refuse to show me?”

“I’m not supposed to have these papers. If you see what’s here, you could end up in even more trouble.”

“If you’re not supposed to have them—”

“That’s not important. If you come with me, I can protect you.” She’d think of something, anyway.

“Protect me,” he repeated. “You don’t want to return my muses. You want to stop me from finding them again. Your people will keep me in a cell. Deny me pen and ink until you can plug up the wellspring of my art.”

“You’ll be safe.”

He shook his head. “You offer me a cage, and say this cage will protect me from wolves I have never seen.”

“You don’t see these wolves. That’s my point. You’re walking down the street and all of a sudden you die. These people can destroy you.”

“Manuscripts don’t burn,” he said.

“Maybe not. But poets do.”

He looked at her as if she stood a great distance away, rather than a few feet. A ridiculous man, nothing about him noble or grand. Fool who traveled a foolish distance for foolish reasons, hungry for a foolish death. She wanted to help him climb from the hole he’d dug himself. She wished she didn’t feel as if she were the one in the hole, and he the one outside. “Will you force me to accept your help?”

“You mean am I going to wrestle you to the ground and drag you up the mountain if you say no?”

“Yes.”

She closed her eyes, and breathed, and reviewed the extent of her injuries, of her weakness. “No. I’ll get someone to do that for me.”

“Someone who will understand where you found the slip of paper you aren’t supposed to have?”

She crossed her arms.

It took a long time for him to speak his next words. “I will not go with you.”

“You don’t believe me.”

“I believe you,” he said. “As much as I’ve ever believed anything.”

“This is for your own good.”

“I came to Kavekana for my own good,” he said. “I thought I knew what I needed, and I had to go to the edge of death to learn that I knew nothing. If you’re right, if my need is the gateway into your idols’ world, perhaps I’ll meet my Lady again when your gremlins come to kill me.”

“Your Lady’s dead, Margot. She never lived, not the way you think. You invented a muse, and made believe it loved you.”

He pulled his hands from his pockets, and set them on his hips. Gallantry, Kai thought, always looked ridiculous. “Her love was not a lie. She spoke to me. And I will wait for her. Call your people, if you can. Imprison me. But I will not walk into your cage of my own will. Now.” He pointed to the door. “Please, leave.”

She slammed the door behind herself so hard the trees by the balcony shook. Her chest hurt.

She waited, hoping he’d open the door and apologize, say he’d seen reason and would follow where she led. When he didn’t, she retreated down the steps and into the city. She was already late for work.

30

Izza watched the woman enter Margot’s house, and waited. Island time flowed like cold honey. She walked the coin through her fingers and felt the soulstuff there. No surprise the woman had convinced Margot to let her in. He was all arm, and easy to twist.

Izza didn’t trust her. Looked local, but walked foreign: back too straight, chin high, shoulders square like she had something to prove. Some of that might be from her injury—she used a cane. But the rest spelled priest, and trouble.

I don’t want the kind of attention this guy attracts, Cat had said. And you don’t, either.

But if Margot was in trouble, so was Izza.

She bit the coin and inhaled its soulstuff. Most folk didn’t bother to taste souls, just sucked them down quick, hungry for that rush of life. Linger on a thaum or two, though, and you could feel the other spirit bitter on your tongue. Regret, here. Anger. Fear. More fear than she expected. Fear was trouble.

Izza crossed the road and climbed the stairs. When she reached Margot’s floor, she crouched low, crawled to the rear balcony, and waited beneath the open window. The curtains were closed, but she didn’t want to risk a flicker of shadow or skin betraying her.

Kneeling, she listened. The priest kept her voice down, but Izza heard the important words. “Theft.” “Idols.” “Muse. The priest thought Margot had stolen from her, thought he was in danger. Promised him protection, which sounded like jail to Izza. And when he refused to go with her, she threatened him, and left.

That last happened so fast Izza had no time to hide, or even to slip off the balcony down to the yard. The priest stood a few feet away, out of sight around the corner, close and quiet. Izza could hear the softest shift of shoe on stone. She withdrew deep into herself. Breathed so slowly a flower petal set under her nose would not have fluttered.

The priest swore. Izza wondered what her soul would taste like now.

Heels descended the stairs, sharp taps like the wood blocks in a Shining Empire orchestra. This woman didn’t seem the type to let go when frustrated, or back off when afraid. She’d return. Or she would send the watch, the Penitents, who asked questions and got answers and didn’t so much care how much pain they inflicted between the two.

If the Penitents snapped him up, then they would come for her next. And then they’d find Cat.

Which meant Izza had business with a priest today.

31

Kai left the poet’s house walking fast, but her leg soon revolted, forcing her to slow and lean heavier on her cane. The stroll should have been pleasant: a brisk cool trade wind blew off the morning’s heat and the harbor’s soft stink, leaving only salt and sun and space. But her talk with Margot festered in her mind.

Idiot. Fool. Romantic. She didn’t know whether she meant her, or him.

Margot couldn’t be left free. If he’d done what she thought—and all the evidence, including his own story, pointed in that direction—he was a threat: Not the man himself, but the possibility he represented. He had broken the island’s security somehow. What he did unconsciously, others could learn to replicate. If clients knew the pool was no longer safe, they would desert the Order in droves, and without the Order, the island would wither. Kavekana had no military, few resources. Without pilgrims and Deathless Kings, Kai’s home was a coconut lying in the sand, waiting for someone to break it open.

She could, should, tell Jace everything she knew, but after their argument last night, she doubted he would listen to anything short of an airtight story. He thought Kai was paranoid, desperate to the point of hallucination; that might cause him to miss a real danger. And Kai still had too many questions, about Mara, about Ms. Kevarian, about Seven Alpha herself.

Thinking about the problem all at once would get her nowhere.

Break it down.

Start with simple, easy knowns: Margot was a thief. He should be in custody, for his own protection and the island’s. Take care of that first. Next, find Mara, confront her, learn the rest of the story. Then go to Jace.

She needed muscle. Fortunately, she knew where to get it.

Her schedule this afternoon was all but empty. She’d claim a doctor’s appointment, and take care of Margot fast. Every minute spent was a minute wasted.

She reached the Order’s building, brushed through glass doors into the lobby, and tried and failed to catch the lift. She pressed the up button, crossed her arms, and waited, frowning at her reflection.

“Kai?”

A touch on her shoulder. She tried to turn, but her leg betrayed her and she tripped. A strong hand caught her arm before she fell.

“I’m sorry,” Teo Batan said. “I called your name, and you didn’t hear me.” The Quechal woman looked rested, happy, and innocent. She braced Kai’s weight and helped her right herself. “I thought we got off on the wrong foot yesterday.” Was that only yesterday? “Are you okay?”

Kai checked her skirt, her blouse, her hair, all in place. “I’m fine. Ms. Batan.”

“Teo.”

“Teo. I didn’t expect to see you again.”

“Surprise.” And again she deployed that wide, easy saleswoman’s smile, the smile of a person who’d practiced being personable. “I thought about what you said, and I’d like to keep talking. I don’t blame you for bristling at me. I’m curious. I pry into things that don’t bear prying. Stubborn. That’s what my girlfriend says.”

“Ah,” Kai said, and to cover surprise, “I’m sorry. I wasn’t offended.”

“Great.” She was growing to hate that grin. “What’s the next step?”

Faint chimes rang as the elevator descended. “I think my next step is to recommend you to another priest.”

“Why not you?”

Because I have more on my mind today than some mainlander pilgrim who wants to save her boss’s soul. “I don’t think I’m the best guide for your pilgrimage. For this to work, we must be partners. I need to know your inner needs. I spoiled our first meeting for reasons that have nothing to do with you. I hope you’ll accept my apology.” Four bells. Lifts arrived too fast, except when you wanted them to. “But don’t worry. I’ll find someone more compatible.”

“You fought back when I pushed you. Stood up for yourself. That makes us compatible in my book.”

Finally the doors rolled open, and Kai escaped into the lift. She spread her arms to stop Teo from following. “I have enough battles to fight already. I’m sorry. I will find someone to help you. Someone else.”

The doors shut on Teo’s answer. Kai leaned against them, and found them cold.

32

Kai trained all morning: chanted the acronym litanies once more, recited the steps to a relationship sale, joined yet another role-playing exercise. (“What are you looking for from a god?” The putative pilgrim hems and haws and finally says: “I’m worried about my children’s future. We live in unstable times. I want to know they’ll be taken care of when I’m gone.” “I hear that you’re interested in security and grace. Is that right?” “I suppose.” “I think we can help. I’ll describe some myths for you. Listen, and at the end you can tell me which ones most resonated with your situation. Which spoke to you. How does that sound?”) She emerged less settled than before.