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Finn:
yeah

Genevieve:
all my parents ever say about it is are you off the meds yet

that's practically all my fucking psychiatrist says about it

and my friends, whenever one of them is like “wow my bio teacher is a psycho” they're all shutting their mouths and looking at me out of the sides of their eyes like i'm going to burst into tears or something

because apparently it would be fine with them if I were that badly adjusted, but i'm not allowed to talk about it like it's not a big deal. which it's not, really, anymore. it was a long time ago.

so i just don't talk about it at all

which is fine.

Finn:
well...I wouldn't pretend to know how to help, really, or what the right things to say are

but I'm good at listening

I care about you. if that's not too weird

so...if you ever need anything

and if you just want to talk about jake being perfect, I'm always up for that too

Sent at 11:54 PM on Tuesday

Genevieve:
heh.

i like you.

Finn:
I like you too.

Genevieve:
how's stuff with charlie?

Finn:
all quiet on the western front

no marriage talk lately

Genevieve:
and how do you feeeeel about that

Finn:
lol. relieved. maybe I'm off the hook

Genevieve:
fingers crossed

how's he doing with fandom stuff?

Sent at 11:58 PM on Tuesday

Finn:
a lot of jokes at my expense

it's like he's accepting it as long as he gets to mock me a little

it's not mean spirited, so I'll take it

Genevieve:
go you

:)

all right apparently i have to go walk a dog now

HOLY SHIT no wait

finn holy shit

Finn:
what?!

Genevieve:
i have an email from zack

Finn:
FUCK ME. details.

Genevieve:
i haven't opened it yet i'm scared

...what the fuck am i scared of

oh my god finn do you know what i'm doing right now

Finn:
aaaah I have to go to work TEXT ME

Genevieve:
i'm having a mother fucking FANGIRL MOMENT OVER ZACK MARTOCCHIO

genevieve what have you come to

okay go to work i'll forward it to you

text you asap

xoxo

Finn:
xxxoo

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 12:01 PM
subject: Sorry :(

Hey there, Genevieve--

Kyle gave me your email. I hope that's cool? I meant to get your info at the convention but it was hella hectic.

Toby feels like an ass for pointing you out like that. Trust me, I made sure of it. I think he thought you were there to be noticed. Clearly he didn't ask me about it beforehand. I would have told him no one had heard from you in ages.

Not to mention that even back then you wouldn't let anyone call you Genny.

Are you okay?
-Z

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 1:00 PM
subject: me too :(

Hi.

I'm okay. Embarrassed mostly about causing a scene and pulling you away like that.

Also embarrassed about being a dorky fangirl over your show.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 1:11 PM
subject: <3

I love dorky fangirls of my show.

You know people ask me all the time about you.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 1:15 PM
subject: RE: <3

Who?

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 1:18 PM
subject: RE: <3

Mia, Katherine, Tyson, Carter. And those are just the ones I'm still in touch with.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 1:21 PM
subject: RE: <3

yeah i saw that reunion special with you guys five years ago. Pretty cute. Nice hair back then, by the way.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 1:22 PM
subject: :$

Oh god, that was the fauxhawk stage wasn't it?

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 1:23 PM
subject: XD

yeah, you were a walking boy band.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 1:24 PM
subject: <:-|

I seriously thought of you when they gave me that haircut. And the one in UB season two.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 1:25 PM
subject: XD XD XD

don't even talk about that i'm laughing too hard to type.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 1:27 PM
subject: ;)

I seriously looked at myself in the mirror and was like...This is exactly the kind of thing Gena would lose her shit over.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 1:28 PM
subject: :-O

I kind of can't believe you still think about me. God i'm being such a loser right now. Omg jake thinks about me! I can't believe myself.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 1:34 PM
subject: :-/

Did they even invite you to that reunion?

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 1:40 PM
subject: :p

louis left a message. i never answered and they never followed up.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 1:58 PM
subject: :(

Hey, Gena, do you hate me?

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 2:04 PM
subject: RE: :(

hey, what?? did you miss the part where i just paid twenty thousand dollars to stand in a crowd of sweaty girls screaming your name?

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 2:10 PM
subject: RE: :(

I did that reunion without you. And I never came and found you.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 2:15 PM
subject: RE: :(

didn't want to be found. we moved away, i got stuffed with meds and shipped off to boarding school. fresh new start and all that, everyone gets to wash their hands of it.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 2:22 PM
subject: RE: :(

Maybe if I'd done a better job it wouldn't have gotten that bad and you could have stayed.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 2:24 PM
subject: RE: :(

a better job at what?

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 2:24 PM
subject: RE: :(

Taking care of you. You know. Little sister.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 2:29 PM
subject: :)

ughhh don't get all sad, I can like FEEL you doing that look you did when tyler was telling you how he got beat up in prison.

it doesn't work that way. it's a chemical thing. it's bigger than us.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 2:38 PM
subject: RE: :)

I told myself you didn't watch the show. The new one.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 2:39 PM
subject: RE: :)

Why?

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 2:46 PM
subject: (no subject)

I didn't want to think of you having to look at me.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 2:52 PM
subject: RE: (no subject)

Fuck, Zack.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 2:55 PM
subject: RE: (no subject)

You were miserable. Even if I didn't get what that meant and why you were seeing whatever it was you were seeing, I should have done something to make you less miserable.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 2:59 PM
subject: :p

seeing fire, mostly. and you were a kid. And you made me glitter glue cards.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 3:04 PM
subject: RE: :p

Right, and childhood means blissful innocence.

I should have stepped up.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 3:08 PM
subject: RE: :p

i love your show.
i love seeing you.
i love the stupid fucking plots, what are you guys even doing half the time.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 3:12 PM
subject: RE: :p

One of the writers is getting fired next season. Shhh.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 3:13 PM
subject: RE: :p

god, i miss on-set gossip like crack.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 3:16 PM
subject: RE: :p

How's Naomi and Seth?

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 3:18 PM
subject: RE: :p

currently hiking some west african trails.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 3:19 PM
subject: RE: :p

Sounds like them.

So they never pushed you into doing anything else?

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 3:21 PM
subject: haha

my shrink would have killed them.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 3:23 PM
subject: >:)

Probably shrinks should kill all showbiz parents.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 3:25 PM
subject: *\O/*

ha, i was just telling my best friend how i'm essentially majoring in that. Starting college in the fall.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 3:26 PM
subject: :D

NICE. Excited?

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 3:27 PM
subject: :DDDDD

Ridiculously.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 3:29 PM
subject: o/\o

So you really are out.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 3:30 PM
subject: RE: o/\o

Really really.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 3:33 PM
subject: :D

You don't ever miss it? Fucking happy for you, Genevieve.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 3:39 PM
subject: RE: :D

you know what i wish? And it's dumb as shit.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 3:42 PM
subject: >;)

Is it an autograph because I can make that happen.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, July 17 3:44 PM
subject: ○_○

dick.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Thursday, July 17 3:45 PM
subject: RE: ○_○

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