Geography of Murder (32 page)
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Authors: P. A. Brown
Withdrawing until only the bulbous head was inside, then slipping most of the way in, only to pull out again. Only when I reached between my legs and cupped his swollen balls in my hand did he lose it. He moaned my name and pushed into me, burying himself up my ass. Again and again he thrust into me, his breath coming in shattered grunts, hot against my sweating skin, muttering guttural obscenities and whispered endearments in my ear, using words I'd never heard from him before.
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He rose above me, his face a mask of lust. Reaching between us, he wrapped his fist around my cock and began pumping me in rhythm to his thrusts. His touch was so sure, so knowing. But still he was gentle. Too gentle. I needed more. I needed my Alex back. I pushed him over and rolled with him, still impaled on his cock. He stared up at me, glazed eyes half lidded. I grabbed both his hands and planted them on my chest, pinching and pulling the rings that pierced my nipples, rocking against him. When he caught on, he squeezed my fat swollen nipples between his fingers and thrust up under me roughly.
"Yes," I muttered, leaning down to bite his throat. Only he could do this to me. Pain lanced straight from my nipples to my groin and I sucked in a groan. I threw my head back and shouted, "Harder. Harder!"
This time he obeyed me and we pounded toward release.
My balls crawled up as my orgasm slammed into me. I roared his name as hot streamers of cum poured out of me, splashing over his fist and stomach. Inside me, his cock throbbed and pulsed as he emptied himself into the condom.
With a shudder he pulled me down into his arms, his face pressed against my neck. I curled my hands around his head, feeling the sharp rasp of shaved hair under my fingers. In contrast, the skin below his ears was soft as silk.
We cuddled, something we had rarely done before or after sex prior to this. I traced the line of his cheek, jaw, throat, re-familiarizing myself with his personal geography. A pleasurable lassitude filled me. A coming home. His pulse beat under my fingertips. I felt the flutter of his eyelashes 310
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against my throat. Their dampness startled me. Was he crying? Not my Alex. I pulled back and stared down at him.
Diamond lights of moisture were scattered over his reddish lashes. He blinked them away, but I saw no shame there.
Only a guileless need.
"Oh, baby," he murmured. "Did you miss me?"
I started laughing then, my whole body shaking and trembling in silent mirth. Within seconds he had joined me.
Only when we were gasping for lack of air did we subside, lying side by side now, our sticky bellies pressed together, arms and legs entwined. He smoothed the damp hair off my forehead and stared into my eyes.
"You forgot something."
I struggled up onto one elbow. "What? At your place?"
"No." He leaned across me and pulled something out of his jean's pocket. "The hospital."
Before I could say anything else his fingers encircled my throat. When he sat up my hand went up and felt the supple leather collar he had put around my neck. My fingers traced the metal ring that rested above my Adam's apple. When his hand covered mine our eyes met. Before I knew what he was doing he clamped steel over my nipples, sending familiar shards of pain straight to my groin. Oh God, I wanted him again. Hard and rough, with no holding back this time. I wanted him to take me home to his sling and his leather hood and cuffs and show me how much he really needed me. Only he could give me that.
"Now," he whispered. "You belong to me. I love you, Jason Aaron Zachary," he said.
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I saw the truth of his words in his eyes. Once they had seemed so cold, like an ocean storm must look over the bow of a doomed ship, but now all I could see was the warmth of his love and adoration. I knew my eyes reflected the same thing.
I said the words anyway, because they were such a delight to say aloud.
"I love you, too."
Alex nuzzled my throat above the collar that symbolized everything I had ever hoped for. "Thank you," he said.
I played with the fine hair on his chest, leaned over and kissed his shoulder that smelled of warm sweat and cum and soap. He flipped me over and rose above me on stiff arms. He was aroused again.
"What for? For loving you?"
"For all the times I never said it when I should have. For everything."
I smiled up at him. He tightened his grip on my arm, and I surrendered to him completely.
"You're welcome."
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Pat was born in Canada, which she is sure explains her intense dislike of all things cold and her constant striving to escape to someplace warm. Her first move took her to Los Angeles, and her fate was sealed. To this day she has a love/hate relationship with L.A, a city that was endlessly fascinating.
L.A. Heat
and the even darker
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grew out of those dark, compelling days.
She wrote her first book at 17—an angst ridden tome about a teenage girl hooked up with a drug user and went off the deep end. All this from a kid who hadn't done anything stronger than weed. She read her first positive gay book then too, The Lord Won't Mind, by Gordon Merrick and had her eyes open to a whole other world (which didn't exist in ultra conservative vanilla plain London, Ontario).
Visit Pat on the internet at: www.pabrown.ca/
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