And the remaining tinder under the logs burst into bright little flames. I didn't think I'd ever seen anything more beautiful.
I sagged and almost fell over, even though I was already sitting on the floor. My body suddenly ached with hunger and weariness, like this one time when all us orphans had gotten to go to a water park. I wanted to eat a bucket of macaroni and cheese and then go to sleep.
A strong, long-fingered hand caught my shoulder and steadied me. I looked up to see Justin regarding me, his dark eyes flickering with warmth that wasn't wholly the reflection of the small but growing fire in the hearth.
“
Flickum bicus
?” he asked.
I nodded and felt myself blushing again. “You know. 'Cause . . . the mediocrity.”
He tilted his head back and let out a rolling laugh. He ruffled my hair with one hand and said, “Well-done, Harry. Well-done.”
My chest swelled up so much I thought I was going to bounce off the ceiling.
Justin held up a finger, went to his desk, and returned with a brown paper package. He offered it to me.
“What's this?” I asked.
“Yours,” he said. “You've done the work after all.”
I blinked and then tore the package open. Inside was a Wilson baseball mitt.
I stared for several seconds. No one had ever given me a present beforeânot one that was meant for me, and not just some random, charity-donated Christmas package with a label that said: FOR: BOY. And it was an excellent glove. George Brett had one just like it. I'd been to two Kansas City Royals baseball games on field trips when I was little, and they were awesome. So was Brett.
“Thank you,” I said quietly. Oh, come on.
Now
I was gonna cry? Sometimes I thought I was kinda goofy.
Justin produced a baseball, a brand-new one that was still all white, and held it up, smiling. “If you're up for it, we can go outside right now.”
I felt really tired and hungry, but I had a brand-new glove! I shoved my hand into it until I figured out where all my fingers were supposed to go. “Yes,” I said, pushing myself up. “Let's do it.”
Justin bounced the ball up and down in his hand a couple of times and grinned at me. “Good. When all is done, I think you'll find baseball a rewarding experience.”
I followed him outside. It didn't matter that I was tired. I was practically floating.
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I opened my eyes, standing on a random Chicago sidewalk, immaterial and unseen. I turned my right hand palm up and focused upon that sudden kindling of light and hope, crystallized by the memory of that moment of triumph and joy.
“Flickum bicus,”
I whispered.
The fire was every bit as beautiful as I remembered.
Chapter Twenty-one
I
t took me a couple of hours to work out how to make my trusty tracking spell function. I easily found several memories that I could use to power the spell; it was figuring out how to create the link to Molly that was hard. Usually, I would use one of the trusty traditional methods for directing thaumaturgyâa lock of hair, a fresh drop of blood, fingernail clippings, et cetera. That wasn't going to work, obviously. I couldn't touch them, even if I had them.
So instead of tracking Molly with physical links, I tried using
memories
of her in their place. It workedâsort of. The first tracking spell led me to the hotel that had once hosted a horror convention known as SplatterCon! It was closed now, and deserted. I guess maybe all the deaths at SplatterCon! had taken a toll on the hotel in the civil-court cases that followed the phobophage attacks. I took a quick spin through the place, hardly even flinching before I stomped through one wall after another. Except for a few transients who had broken into the building and were squatting there, I found nothing.
I went back over my work. The memory I'd used was one that had stuck in my head for some reason, of Molly here in this building. That must have thrown off the spell. It had homed in on this place because it had been part of the memory I used to create the link.
I tried again, this time omitting the background and picturing only Molly against an empty field of black. This second attempt took me to a police station from which I had once posted bail for Molly's boyfriend. I figured I'd bungled the spell somehow, but took a quick look around anyway, just in case. No Molly.
“Okay, smart guy,” I said to myself. “So what if the memory-image you're using is too old? You're tracking her memory-self to a memorylocation. Which means you have to think of her
as
she is now to find
where
she is now. Right?
“Theoretically,” I said to myself.
“Right. So test the theory.”
Well, obviously. Although discussing a problem with yourself is almost never a good way to secure a divergent viewpoint.
“In fact, talking to yourself is often considered a sign of impending insanity,” I noted aloud.
Which hardly seemed encouraging.
I shook off the unsettling thought and worked the tracking spell again. This time, instead of using one of my earlier memories of Molly, I used my most recent one. I pictured her in her cast-off clothing and rags, as she'd been at Murphy's place.
Forming a memory into an image that would support the energy required for a spell isn't as simple as closing your eyes and daydreaming. You have to produce it in exact, even fanatical, detail, until it is as real in your mind as any actual object. It takes a lot of practice and energy to do thatâand it is why people use props when they set out to do magic. A prop can be used as an anchor, saving the spellcaster the effort of creating not just one, but multiple, mental constructs, and supporting them all in a state of perfect focus and concentration.
I had learned how to do magic the hard way firstâall of it in my head. Only after I'd proved I could do it without the aid of props did Justin tell me that it was even possible to use them. Over the years, I'd practiced fairly complex thaumaturgic spells without props maybe once a season, keeping my concentration and imagination sharp. It was a damned good thing I had. Working magic as a ghost was all about doing it au naturel.
I reached into my memory to produce the construct I'd need to stand in for Molly in the tracking spell. At the time, I'd been handed a lot to process, and I hadn't really taken stock of exactly what kind of shape Molly was in. I'd seen that she was under strain, but upon closely reviewing the memory, I was somewhat shocked at how gaunt and weary she looked. Molly had always been the sort of young person who almost glowed with good health. After six months on her own, she looked like an escapee from a gulag: scrawny, tough, and beaten down, if not broken.
I added more than that to the image. I imagined her cheery goodwill, the self-loathing she still sometimes felt for the pain she'd caused her friends in the days before I agreed to teach her. I thought of her precise, orderly approach to her studies, so much different from my own, her diligence, and the occasional arrogance that pretty much every young wizard has until they've walked into enough walls to know better. I thought of the most powerful force in her life, a deep and abiding love for her family, and added in the desolation she must be feeling to be separated from them. Eager, beautiful, dangerous Molly.
I held that image of my apprentice in mind, drew together my will, and tapped into the recollection of one of my more memorable tracking spells, all at the same time. I established the pattern of the modified version of the spell I'd had to cobble together, walked, chewed bubble gum, and released the spell with a murmured word.
The power surged out through me, and a precise, powerful force spun me into a pirouette. I extended my left arm, index finger pointing, and felt a sharp tug against it each time it passed an easterly point of the compass. Within a couple of seconds I stopped spinning, rotated a little past the point, and then settled back slightly in the opposite direction. My index finger pointed straight at the heart of the city.
“Crombie,” I said, “eat your heart out.”
I followed the spell to Molly.
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I pulled my vanishing act and went zipping downtown a few hundred yards at a time. I paused to check the spell twice more and correct my course, though by the third check, I was starting to feel like a human weather vane. I had to stop more frequently as I got closer to make sure I was moving in the right direction, and the trail took me down into the great towers within the Loop, where the buildings rose high enough to form what felt like the walls of a deep ravine, a man-made canyon of glass, steel, and stone.
I wasn't terribly surprised when the spell led me to the lower streets. Some of the streets downtown have two or even three levels. One is up on the surface, with the others stacked below it. A lot of the buildings have upper and lower entrances and parking as well, doubling the amount of access to the buildings within those blocks.
There were also plenty of empty spaces, pseudo-alleyways, walkways, and crawl spaces. Here and there, abandoned chambers in the basements and subbasements of the buildings above sat in silent darkness, waiting to be remade into something new. The commuter tunnels could connect down there, and there were several entrances to the insane, deadly labyrinth beneath the city known as Undertown.
Chicago cops patrolled the lower streets on a regular basis. Things came slinking out of Undertown to prowl the darkness. Traffic would blaze through on the actual streets, which were occasionally only separated from the sidewalks by a stripe of faded paint.
All in all, it's not the sort of place a sane person will casually wander through.
I found Molly standing in one of the narrow alleyways. Snow had fallen through a grate twenty feet overhead and covered the ground. She was dressed in the same rags I'd seen the night before, with her arms clenched around her stomach, shivering in the cold. There was a fresh, purpling bruise on her cheek. She was breathing heavily.
“Again,” said a cool, calm woman's voice from farther down the alley, out of sight.
“I'm t-t-tired,” Molly said. “I haven't e-eaten in a day and a half.”
“Poor darling. I'm sure Death will understand and agree to return another time.”
There was a sharp hissing sound, and Molly threw up her left hand, fingers spread. She spat out a word or two, and flickering sparkles of defensive energy spread from her fingertips into a flat plane.
Molly simply didn't have a talent for defensive magicâbut this was the best shield I'd ever seen the grasshopper pull off.
A hurtling white sphere hit the shield. It should have bounced off, but instead it zipped through the shield, its course barely bent. The sphere struck Molly in the left shoulder and exploded into diamond-glitter shards of ice. She let out a short, harsh grunt of pain and staggered.
“Focus,” said the calm woman's voice. “Use the pain. Make the shield real with your will.
Know
that it will protect you. Again.”
Molly looked up with her teeth clenched. But instead of talking, she raised her left hand once more, and another ball of ice flew at her. This one hit the shield and went throughâbut its path was attenuated more significantly than the last. It flew past her, barely clipping one arm.
She gasped and sank to one knee, panting. Magic taxes the endurance of anyone who uses itâand if you use magic you aren't particularly skilled with, you get worn down even faster.
I shivered to see Molly like that. I knew how she felt. When Justin began teaching me how to create protective shields, he threw baseballs at me at top speed. When I failed, I was hit with a fastball moving at more than eighty miles an hour. Justin said pain was an excellent motivator, and that the activity was good training.
When I had been teaching Molly how to shield, I hadn't used anything more painful than fluffy snowballs and rotten fruit.
“That will do for now,” said the woman's voice. “Tomorrow we will move up to knives.”
Molly shuddered and looked down.
The speaker came walking calmly down the alley to stand over Molly.
It was my faerie godmother, the Leanansidhe.
Lea was beautiful beyond the loveliness of mere humanity, but it was a stark, hungry, dangerous beauty that always reminded me of a hunting cat. She was tall and pale, her hair the color of autumn leaves at sunset. Her ears were very slightly pointed, though I wasn't sure she hadn't done that to herself in order to conform to mortal expectations. She wore a long gown of green silk, wholly unsuitable to the task of protecting a mortal from the weather, but as she was one of the most powerful Sidhe of the Winter Court, I doubted she even noticed the cold.
She reached out a hand and touched Molly's hair with her fingertips.
“Why?” Molly asked, her voice barely more than a whisper. “Why are you doing this to me?”
“Obligation, child,” Lea replied. “Favors owed and loyalties given.”
“You owed it to Harry to do this to me?” Molly asked.
“Nay, child, not me. But my queen is committed to him through ancient law and custom. She dispatched me to continue your training in the Artâand pain is an excellent teaching tool.”
“Harry didn't believe that,” Molly said, her voice brittle. “He never hurt me.”
The Leanansidhe stooped and seized Molly's chin, jerking my apprentice's face up to meet her inhuman gaze. “Then he wronged you badly, child,” Lea replied, enunciating each word sharply. “He cheated you of the legacy he livedâand suffered to acquire. I am not teaching you how to tie knots in rope or to bake pastries. I am making you ready to face battle and emerge alive.”