Authors: Charlaine Harris
We were both shaken by this little account.
“Of course, I couldn't say anything,” Victor said.
“I can see that it would be hard to get into that,” Tolliver said.
“Yeah, you know, one thing would lead to another, and then I'd have to tell them. About me.”
And the world revolved around Victor, of course. “So they don't know yet,” I said.
“Oh, God, no!” He and Barney rolled their eyes at each other. “Dad and Mom would freaking flip out.”
“My mom is cool about it, which is awesome,” Barney said. I was glad to confirm he had vocal abilities.
I'd meant that Victor's parents didn't yet know he'd seen the car, but of course Victor had interpreted my question his own way.
“You're sure it was your dad's car?” Tolliver asked. “Absolutely sure?”
“Yes, I'm sure,” Victor said, as if he had his back against the wall and an army against him. “Of course, dude. I know my own dad's car.”
I'd never heard anyone call Tolliver “dude” before, and even under the circumstances, I was kind of enjoying it. “What's he drive?” I asked Victor.
“He's got a Lexus hybrid,” Victor said. “A bamboo pearlâcolored Lexus with the ivory leather interior. We looked at the website for like a week before we ordered the car.”
Okay, that was distinctive. It couldn't be confused with many other cars, for sure. I was conscious of a bitter disappointment, as if a show dog I'd become fond of had turned and bit me.
“And you never asked him about that,” I said, and I couldn't keep the disbelief out of my voice. “You're saying your dad could have snatched your sister, and you've known that all along, and yet you've never said anything to anybody about it.”
Victor turned a deep red. Barney looked at me with outright hostility.
“Because,” I went on when they didn't speak, “you know you're telling us that your father lied about where he was, and you're saying he almost certainly grabbed your half sister, his daughter, and killed her.”
He raised his head, and almost spoke; his mouth moved; and he was so young, so disturbed, it almost hurt to badger him like this, but I had to.
“Leave him alone,” Barney said. His big hands, so smooth and unscarred, had fisted. “Vic's been through hell over this. He knows his dad couldn't do anything like that. But he saw the car, and he can't forget that. You don't know what it's like.”
Actually, I did, pretty much.
“So, Victor, you gifted us with this informationâwhy? So we could be disturbed, along with you?”
Victor's face couldn't have gotten any redder, and he obviously had to dredge for a reason he'd unburdened himself on us after more than a year of silence. “I thought,” he said
painfully, “I thought you'd know who killed her. I thought you'd be able to
see
it. I couldn't tell. I already said, then I'd have to say I was home when I said I wasn't, tooâ¦I was
scared.
”
“How have you been able to live in the house with him for all these months?” I asked, out of sheer curiosity.
“I didn't see him.” Victor struggled with what he wanted to say. “I saw the car. I didn't see his face, I didn't talk to him, I just saw the car. There are other Lexuses in the world, like my grandfather's. There are plenty in that neighborhood. We lived in pretty nice suburb.”
“But you seem convinced that it was your father.”
“Just because it was where it was. So close to our house. And at the time, I thought, âThere's Dad.' Because of course, Granddad was in Memphis, and we were in Nashville.”
Tolliver sat back in his chair and gave me a quizzical look. What were we supposed to do with this? Something, some small thing, at the time had convinced this wretched boy that he was seeing his father in his father's car. He hadn't doubted it. Now, he was saying he hadn't actually seen the driver. There were other pearl-colored LexusesâLexi?âaround, of course, as Victor had also pointed out. I almost hated the boy for giving us the burden of useless knowledge.
Victor, however, seemed to be feeling better now that he'd told us the story. I could see by the little gathering motions of his body that Victor was preparing to sweep out with his boyfriend in tow. I felt angry about that, but I struggled against it. After all, I didn't have any right to beat
the boy to a pulp because he'd finally revealed a secret he should have told right off.
A sharp knock at the door made me jump. The two boys looked pretty anxious, and I knew for sure that no one in his family knew where Victor was. I was beginning to think that our suite was the home away from home for anyone remotely connected to the disappearance of Tabitha Morgenstern.
Tolliver looked out the peephole, not a normal precaution of his.
“David,” he said briefly. Victor and Barney moved apart as if their inner attraction had suddenly been set on “repel.” Instead of being a couple, they were transformed into a couple of guilty teenage buddies, caught somewhere they had no reason to be, by an adult who would surely scold them. “Should I let him in?”
“Why not?” I said, throwing my hands out.
David stepped into the room, his eyes flashing around to all the corners suspiciously. Vindication was written large on his face when he saw his nephew. “Victor, what the hell are you doing here?” he asked, righteous indignation practically dripping from his voice.
“Hello, David, good to see you again,” I said, and David Morgenstern finally looked at me and turned red.
“You thieving bitch,” he said, and Tolliver hit him.
THE
blow was not premeditated in any way. Tolliver simply drew back his arm and hit David Morgenstern in the stomach as hard as he could. As David collapsed to the carpet, choking and clutching his stomach, Tolliver closed the door so no one in the hall could observe the recovery of our guest. Barney looked scared, and Victor looked about a thousand different thingsâastonished, envious, and angry being the most identifiable.
Tolliver was rubbing his hand and half-smiling. He stepped away to show me he didn't intend to keep beating on David.
“Did you want something in particular, Mr. Morgenstern, or did you just come by to call me names?” I asked as Victor finally crouched by his uncle and tried to help David get up.
“I saw you talking to Victor at the house yesterday,” David said, when he could speak. “And then, when Victor came up here⦔
“You followed me?” Victor asked incredulously. “I don't fucking believe it, Uncle David.”
“Language,” wheezed the man who'd just called me a bitch.
“So, you decided I had a sexual interest in Victor?” I said, with what I thought was remarkable dignity.
“I just wanted to be sure he was okay,” protested David. “Joel and Diane are so wrapped up in the situation about Tabitha, and Felicia went to work, and my parents are at homeâ¦my mother's having a bad dayâ¦so I thought someone should be watching out for what Victor was doing. He doesn't need to be around people like you.”
“And you thought calling me names fell into the category of watching out for Victor?” Tolliver had come to stand beside me, and I felt like kissing the hand that had hit David.
“I thought,” he began, and then he turned so red I thought his blood pressure had soared. He cleared his throat, leaned over so he could clutch the back of a chair for support, and began again. “I thought the boys had come up here for⦔
I wasn't going to help him out. Tolliver and I waited obviously and patiently for David to finish his sentence. Barney and Victor exchanged glances that fully expressed how lame this idea had been, and how stupid Uncle David had been to follow Victor. Grown-ups!
“I thought they were going to hang out with you two because they think you're cool,” David said weakly, which was a big fat lie.
“We are,” I said. “Aren't we, Tolliver?”
“Sure,” he said. He patted my hand with his bruised one.
David finally recovered enough to move around the back of the chair and sit down, though we hadn't asked him.
“Maybe you could tell us why you thought you could call me names, and that would be okay?” I asked, my voice sweet and gentle.
“I am sorry,” he said finally, just when my patience was running out. “Though I don't know why your brother had to hit me.”
“He's not my brother, but he is my best friend,” I said, to my own amazement. “And he doesn't like it when people call me names. Wouldn't you want to hit someone who called Diane a thieving bitch?”
“She got some phone calls after Tabitha vanished,” David said unexpectedly. “People called her all kinds of things. Especially after the story got out about her quarrel with Tabitha that morning. People can be so ugly, you wouldn't believe.”
“Actually, I think I would,” I said.
It took David a minute to get that, but when he did, the red crept over his face and shoulders like a tide rolling in. “Okay, I'm feeling pretty bad now,” he said. “I did a stupid thing. I can see Victor's okay, he's got his best bud with him, everything's cool. I know I acted like an idiot. Hey, Barney,” David said, with a pretty pathetic attempt at regaining his superiority. “How are you, guy?”
Barney looked embarrassed. “Fine, Mr. Morgenstern,” the boy said. “You?” Then he gasped and choked back a laugh at his automatic question.
“I've been better,” David said, a bit more steadily. “Victor, why don't you and Barney run along? I've got to talk to Miss Connelly and Mr. Lang.”
“Okay, Uncle David, if you're sure you're going to be okay,” Victor said, with false solicitousness.
David gave him such a sharp look I thought Victor would probably end up paying for his moment of fun, but Victor maintained his serious look quite well. “Come on Barney,” he said. “The grown-ups want to talk.” They put their letterman jackets back on and left the room, giving each other secret grins as soon as they were out of David's eyesight.
The door closed behind them with a thunk. We might as well leave it open, we were getting so much traffic.
Tolliver and I sat on the love seat and waited for David to flounder ahead.
“Diane says you're getting the reward for finding Tabitha's body,” David said.
We waited.
“Why don't you say something?” he asked, his temper flaring up again. Just when you thought the fire had been stomped out, it popped up again.
“What's to say?” I said.
“You're taking money from my brother and his wife,” David said. “Money they need.”
“I need it too,” I pointed out reasonably. “And I earned it. I'll bet not all the money came from Joel and Diane, either.”
He was taken aback. “Well, there were donations,” he said. “A lot from Fred, and a chunk from our parents, of course.”
I couldn't have had a better lead-in if I'd ordered it. “Was your father especially close to Tabitha?”
“Yeah, he was,” David said. His blue eyes were focused on another time, and he said, “My dad is a great guy. When he and Mom would go to Nashville to visit Diane and Joel, Dad would take Tabitha all the way out to the stables for her riding lessons. He went to her softball games.”
“And your mother went along?”
“No. I'm sure you noticed yesterday that she was too sick to do that much. The Parkinson's is eating her up. Sometimes she'd ride over to Nashville, but she'd just stay at the house with Diane. She's nuts about Diane. Of course, she liked Whitney, too.”
“And your dad has a Lexus like Joel's?”
“Why are you asking me all this?”
I couldn't believe he'd told me this much without asking why. Maybe David was lonely within his own family. As I looked at him, I wondered suddenly if David was the reason Felicia clung so closely to a family that had little connection to hers any more. My brother was looking at me strangely, with an expression I couldn't read.
“What do you do for a living, David?” Tolliver asked. You would never have thought that ten minutes before, he'd socked this guy in the stomach like he wanted his fist to come through the back.
“I work at the
Commercial Appeal
,” David said. “In the advertising department.”
I didn't know exactly what such a job would consist of, but I was pretty sure David wouldn't make as much money as his brother, Joel. Joel was a CPA with a large firm, and he was obviously doing well at his job if his consumer goods were a reliable yardstick. And Joel had had not one wife, but two; both pretty, if the picture I'd seen the day before at the house hadn't been ridiculously touched up. Joel had a son and he'd had a daughter. I wondered what David had. A huge pile of envy? A case of jealousy?
“You drive your dad's car often, David?” I asked.
“The Buick? Why would I?” he asked.
“Wait, you said he had a Lexus.”
“No I didn't. You asked me if he had a Lexus, and I asked you why you wanted to know.”
Then I remembered Tolliver had said he'd been talking to Fred about his car. I'd misunderstood. And Victor had said his grandfather had a Lexus, but he hadn't specified which grandfather. I'd made a series of assumptions, and had gotten the usual result. Assumptions were dangerous things.
I'd been staring at David while I thought, and he was getting antsy. “What's up with you?” he asked. “I made a mistake coming here, and I apologized. I'm leaving now.”
“Were you really following Victor?”
“No one is watching out for him,” David said. “I need to.”
I noticed that was yet another response that didn't really answer the question: a David Morgenstern specialty, apparently. “It seems to me that
everyone
says they're watching out
for Victor. Certainly Felicia is, and you are. Both of his grandfathers mentioned their concern about him.”
“Oh, Felicia talks about Victor a lot,” David said bitterly. “But if you ask me, she's using Victor as an excuse to keep hanging around Joelâ¦and Diane.” He tacked Diane's name on hastily, as if that would mask what he was implying.
That was an interesting thought, but I stuck to my course. “Is everyone so worried about Victor because there's reason to think he had something to do with what happened to his sister?” I had caught myself considering, as Victor sat across from me ostensibly spilling his innermost fears, that he could be performing the whole scene as a cover-up for his own guilt.
“We wonderedâ¦I talked to Joel about thisâ¦Victor's so secretive. He vanishes and then he won't say where he's beenâ¦he hangs out with that kid Barney so much, and Barney's parents aren'tâ¦they're Christian, and they go to one of those churches where people wear Birkenstocks to the service. He locks his door a lot. We'd been wondering if Victor and the boy are into drugs, but his grades are good. He's on the wrestling team, and he's a strong boy, but we worry⦔
“You sense there's something different and unknown about Victor,” I said.
David nodded. “Do you know what it is?” he asked me baldly. “After all, for some reason he came to talk to you. If he didn't come to you for sex⦔
“It's unthinkable he'd come to me for any other reason,” I said gravely. “Is that it?”
David looked ashamed all over again.
“I don't have sex with teenagers,” I said. “Not one of them, not two of them at once. I'm not interested in that.”
Since I kept my voice cool and level, David didn't have any fuel to feed his anger, and he lapsed into his backup emotion, befuddled concern. “Then why was Victor here?”
“You'll have to ask Victor that,” I said. Considering Victor had spent months thinking his father might have had something to do with Tabitha's disappearance, he was a model of mental health. He'd seemed so relieved to share the burden. He'd also seemed happy to tell someone about his sexual orientation. Victor needed a therapist. I couldn't believe he hadn't been visiting one. I said as much.
“Oh, he went for a while,” David said, anxious to assure me that they'd done their best by the boy. “But Fred, he's an old-school kind of guy. He thought Victor should suck it up and get on with his life. I guess maybe he talked Joel and Diane around to his point of view, because when Victor moved here from Nashville, they never got him another therapist. Truth be told, Victor did seem a lot better once he was in Memphis.”
“So Fred didn't want him talking to anyone,” I said.
David looked surprised. “Not to a therapist. He's just an old fashioned man, the kind who thinks you need to keep your problems to yourself and let time heal you.”
I was ready for David to be gone. In fact, I really didn't want to see any more of this extended family. In fact, I
wished I'd never heard of Tabitha Morgenstern. I wished I'd never stood on the grave in the corner, but I couldn't help having the idea that I'd been herded toward that grave, I'd been asked to Memphis to find the child, and I'd done exactly what somebody wanted me to. All along, I'd been manipulated.
“Goodbye, David,” Tolliver said, and David actually looked a bit startled that we were ready for him to leave.
“Once again,” he began as he stood up.
“I know. You're sorry,” I said. I felt so tired I thought my flesh might fall off my bones. It wasn't bedtime yet, and I didn't think I'd eaten since a long-ago light breakfast.
Finally David was out the door, and Tolliver said, “We're getting food right now.” He called room service and placed an order, and though we'd called at a strange time, our food arrived quickly.
As we ate silently, I thought. We have a lot of thinking time, since we're on the road so much. Somehow when we're in a town, when we're not moving, we do anything but think.
I went back over everything I knew.
Tabitha Morgenstern. Eleven. The much-loved child, as far as I could tell, of upper-class professional Jewish parents. Abducted in Nashville, to end up interred in an old Christian cemetery in Memphis. Neither of her parents, the papers had told me, had ever been arrested for anything. Her older half brother, either. But that half brother thought he'd seen his father's car close to the house the day Tabitha had disappeared.
Tabitha had grandparents who lived in Memphis, but
had visited in Nashville frequently. Her grandfather and grandmother Morgenstern seemed to adore her. In fact, Victor had told us her grandfather often took her places by himself. Did I have to suspect Ben Morgenstern of fooling with the child? I sighed. And Tabitha had a sort of step-grandfather, Fred Hart, who seemed to have remained close to his former son-in-law. Fred Hart, a Bingham alumnus, owned a pearl Lexus, like the one that Victor had seen in the neighborhood the morning of the abduction. Victor had assumed he was seeing his dad, because it would have been reasonable to see his dad in that location, but what if he'd seen his grandfather's Lexus instead?