Authors: Jane Higgins
Sarah Hendry had lines on her face that never used to be there, and her shoulders
were rounded as though she spent her days curled into herself. The candlelight made
shadows of her eyes. She looked at me, and I knew she was looking for Lou to be standing
in the doorway
instead. Fyffe jumped into the pause.
âNik, come in. Sit down.'
Once, months ago, I'd had this fanciful idea that one day I'd visit the Hendrys and
tell them how brave Fyffe had been in trying to rescue Sol. And they'd listen and
nod, and then I could say thank you for the way they'd been kind to me over the last
however-many years and things would be right again between us.
I said to Fyffe, âNo. I'll justâ¦I'll just tell you what there is to tell and thenâ¦and
then I'll go.'
âWhere?' said Fyffe. âYou'll break curfew.'
Fyffe's mother stopped staring at me, sat up straighter and brushed some imaginary
crumbs from the tablecloth. When she looked up again it was like she had pulled on
a mask and become, for the evening, unbreakable. Everybody looked at her and waited.
She said, âFyffe, take Nik to get cleaned up, and find him some clothes that are
presentable for the dinner table.' She looked at me and I couldn't tell if it was
her or the mask that said, âGo on. Dinner's getting cold.'
When I came back, showered and acutely aware that everything I was wearing had once
been Lou's, Sarah Hendry said, âNow, Nik, eat something and then tell us whatever
it is you have to say.'
I looked at the heaped dishes on the table and my brain said,
You haven't eaten in
twelve hours
, but my
stomach said,
No way.
I put some roast potatoes and slices of
meat onto my plate and hoped she wouldn't notice that I couldn't eat any of it.
The four guests from the Dry looked just like they had in the screen footage: an
older guy, lean, weathered and brown, with short grey hair and beard; a younger man
and woman, both with black curling hair and sharp, wary eyes; and a boy about my
age with copper-coloured hair and a thin, brown face. Fyffe introduced them, but
their names went right over my head, until she said, âAnd this is Nomu's brother,
Raffael.'
âOh!' I said and looked at Fyffe. âRaffael?' And my brain, playing stupid tricks
on me, thought, I have to tell Lanya, she'll laugh.
âYes,' said Fyffe. âWhy?'
âBecause,' I said, âThat's the first word I heard Nomu say. Almost the only word.'
The boy just about jumped over the table at me. âShe's alive? You've seen her?'
âYes,' I said. âShe's alive and I've seen her.'
But that explosion of relief was followed by a tight, careful conversation where
the things that weren't said were much more interesting than the things that were.
At first, I thought the delicate tiptoeing around Nomu was all about the problem
of being over-the-moon happy at finding someone who's been lost when you're with
people whose grief for their own loss is as real as the empty chairs
at the table.
But then something happened that made me think there was more going on than that.
I told them that as well as calling for Raffael, she had said something to me about
Pitkerrin Marsh. âI don't know what she meant,' I said, âbut I wonder if she's been
in the Marsh?'
They all nodded, totally unsurprised.
Raffael said, âYes, we have been working in a laboratory there.'
That earned him a sharp whisper in desert language that sounded like a telling off
and he scowled and shut up.
When it came to the question about what to do next the older guy was all action.
âWe will go across the river. We will find her and bring her back.' He even stood
up, gripping the back of the chair, and looked like he was about to head out the
door straight away.
âWait.' Thomas Hendry held up both hands. âPlease. You must tell the security services.
They'll help you. You can't go off into hostile terrâinto Southside without help.'
The guy rubbed his forehead like he had a headache and sat down again. âYes, I see,
yes. Forgive me. We are not courteous. We have been preparing ourselves for the worst
news. But nowâ' he opened his arms towards me and smiled, âânow we have hope. Of
course we should ask the Security.'
Glances were exchanged among the Dry-dwellers,
which, if you had a suspicious mind,
you could interpret as unhappy.
âButâ' Fyffe began.
âFyffe,' said her mother.
The man smiled at her. âThen, when Nomu is found and safe, we will go to the Dry,
all of us together.'
A wave of his hand encompassed the whole table. Mr Hendry poured more wine to cover
the awkward pause that followed.
It didn't worry me not to be included in their adventure south, but I did think
that the Dry-dwellers were not looking entirely thrilled at the prospect of taking
the city's elite home with them.
When the visitors left, Fyffe and I did the dishes. In the kitchen, away from scrutiny,
I put a big slab of roast beef between two even bigger slabs of bread and ate at
last. Fyffe clattered the dishes to cover our conversation.
âThat was news to me,' she said. âThat they've been working in the Marsh. I don't
know if that makes them friends or enemies.'
âWhat are they doing there?' I said. âWhat are they doing in the city at all?'
âPeople are allowed to visit.'
âThe Marsh? This isn't a business delegation or a fact-finding mission. They've come
here to work in the Marsh and to escort a lot ofâ'
I stopped in time, but Fyffe said, âGo on, say it. A lot of rich people.'
âA lot of rich people out of here just when the security services and the army are
planning some kind of surge to put down the uprising. They don't sound like friends
to me.'
âShh,' said Fyffe. âNot so loud.'
I peered out the door. Fyffe's mother was standing in the dining room staring down
into one of the open packing cases. I turned back to Fyffe and said quietly, âI have
an idea about what to do next.'
âAbout Lanya?' she whispered.
I nodded, but then her mother appeared in the doorway saying, âJust stack them on
the table out here when you're done. There's no point putting them back in cupboards.
Shall I help?'
She looked so forlorn standing there that I said, âSure,' and handed her the plate
I'd just dried. We finished the dishes over small talk about the sight-seeing opportunities
in the Dry.
Sarah Hendry sent her daughter to bed with a kiss on the forehead as though she was
six years old. Then she looked at the bruises on my face and asked me if I was able
to help her move some boxes downstairs. I said, âSure.' The bodyguard helped too,
and we worked for a hour or so; we hardly spoke, but that was okay. At midnight she
thanked the bodyguard and he went off to his own
quarters. I started to climb the
stairs, but she said, âNik. Stay a minute.'
Almost. I'd almost got away without this talk. I came back down and perched on the
edge of a box. She sat on another nearby and looked at me levelly. She said, âI want
you to tell me about what happened to Sol in Southside, and on the bridge.'
âOh,' I said. I hesitated, thinking, you really don't want to hear this. I know I
didn't want to tell it. But she was sitting there waiting, and she of all people
deserved to know.
I couldn't look at her. I stared down at my hands clasped in front of me and I told
her everything straight, with all the detail I could remember. I had to tell her
that we'd almost made it. That he'd been okayâa bit thin, a bit scaredâbut mostly
okay once one of Commander Vega's squads had rescued him from the traffickers.
âA Breken squad?' she said.
âThat's right. There are factions over there. One faction rescued him, the otherâ'
âShot him. On the bridge.'
I nodded. âHe was so happy to be going home. To be seeing you. He didn't know anything
when it happened. It killed him outright.'
I glanced at her; she was sitting tall with her hands in her lap and tears streaming
down her face.
âI'm so sorry,' I whispered. I stared at my hands and
couldn't say another thing.
Her own voice was low and unbearably sad. âThank you. That was a hard thing to tell.
I'm grateful.' She stood up and walked over to me, but I still couldn't look at her.
She put her hand lightly on the top of my head, said, âGood night, Nik,' and left.
Sometime later, I climbed the stairs. They'd given me my old room to sleep in, where
Sandor had been just the day beforeâthat felt like weeks ago. On the bedside table
Fyffe had left me her silver talisman of the Southside charter.
I lay awake a long time thinking about the idea I'd had that I hadn't had a chance
to tell Fyffe. I was going to find the one Southsider I knew who'd been at home in
the city long enough to have connections with Southside allies and who would trust
me enough to help me find them. I was going to find Mace.
George Macey was a Southsider and had been a security guard at my old school. Mace
was the reason I still spoke Brekenâin his godawful Gilgate accent. He'd spoken it
to me from the moment I'd arrived at school, though never in anyone else's hearing.
He knew who I was and who my parents were, but he never said so, and I didn't twig
that he knew any of that until the night the school was bombed when he'd told me
to get out before anyone official found me.
I had one or two clues about where Mace might
be foundâmore than I had about any
of the One City peopleâand he knew me, so I wasn't going to have to prove who I was
to get what I wanted.
What I wanted. Names. Hiding places. For Frieda. For Lanya. I couldn't even think
in sentences about what I wanted.
I dozed until around dawn then got up and dressed in the semi-dark, wanting to leave
before Fyffe or anyone else was up. I put the talisman round my neckâwhich felt like
signing up again to being Brekenâand sent a mental thank you to Fyffe. Then I went
out into the games room, boots in hand, hoping I wouldn't meet the bodyguard on my
way downstairs.
Thomas Hendry was sitting in one of the big leather chairs. I stopped, decided he
was asleep and tiptoed past him.
âNik.'
Damn. âSir? Sorry. Thought you were asleep.'
âYou're leaving?'
âYes.'
He saw me glance towards Fyffe's room and nodded. âI was going to ask youâ'
âTo leave Fyffe out of it?' I said. âYeah, I think so too.'
He nodded again then sat up straighter and rubbed his hands over his face. I thought
how old he looked now. Too old to be spending the night in an armchair but, I guess,
never too old to be trying to protect his daughter.
I said, âSir? I wanted to thank you, and Mrs Hendry, for the bed andâ¦everything.'
That sounded pathetic. âI meanâ'
He smiled. âI know what you mean. You're welcome, Nik. You were good for Lou, and
Sol.'
But I'm not good for Fy, I thought.
He pulled his wallet from a pocket. âHere.' He held out a wad of cash. âTake it.'
I hesitated, and he said, âI can't help you, except like this. I'm taking my family
away. I don't know what you're doing back in the city. You must have reasons and
they may be good reasons, but I don't want to know what they are. How you go now
is up to you, but money can't hurt.'
âThank you.' I took it. It was a lot of money. âI'll go. Goodbye.'
âGood luck, Nik.'
I closed the door gently and looked up and down Clouden Street. It was early-morning
empty. Out towards Port the sun was barely up and the sky was hazy overhead. Already
the air was warm and still; it was going to be another one of those hot, close days
when all you want to do is chase the breezeâmaybe climb on the heath and arrive up
there soaked with sweat feeling like you've earned the wind cooling your skin.
But that's not what I was going to do today.
Today I'd said the last of my goodbyes to the Hendrys: Fyffe and her mother, then
her father. Like a player in the game I'd imagined yesterday, I had tokens from them:
the talisman from Fyffe, the cash from Thomas Hendry, and from Sarah Hendry, I didn't
really know whatâit had felt like a blessing, so I decided that's what I'd take it
for. Also there were Fyffe's words: âWatch for people, watch for
chances'. Maybe
all of this would help. But it was Freida's game, and she had stacked the rules in
her favour. She had only to sit and wait. I had to run, and Lanya had to fight.
I wondered if Lanya was awake yet. She would be calm. She wouldn't be letting thoughts
run riot in her head in useless, panicky circles: she would be finding a still, quiet
place and staying there.
But the drugs would beat her down, hammering her defences and invading that space.
I sent determined thoughts in her direction.
Today I would find Mace, and make a plan. By tonight it would be in play. Soon she
would be out of there. Soon. The clock was ticking down. Thursday already. Far too
fast, it would be Friday midnight, and she would be lost.
I hurried down the steps and across the road into the alleyway with the
Break the
Breken Banks
posters. I was halfway down it when footsteps pounded behind me. I swung
round and came face to face with Raffael.
âI was waiting, on the street, for you,' he said. âHiding. Since last night. Many
hours.'
âAll night?'
He nodded.
âWhat for?'
âMy sister. You can help us find her.'